1 00:00:01,001 --> 00:00:02,919 (dog barking) 2 00:00:02,919 --> 00:00:06,006 - (footsteps thudding) - (people grunting, panting) 3 00:00:07,257 --> 00:00:08,258 GIRL: Careful. 4 00:00:09,259 --> 00:00:10,260 BOY: You're drunk. 5 00:00:10,969 --> 00:00:12,303 GIRL: Okay. 6 00:00:12,721 --> 00:00:13,930 - BOY: Come on. - GIRL: No. 7 00:00:16,558 --> 00:00:18,226 {\an8}BOY: Okay, here's good. 8 00:00:18,226 --> 00:00:19,978 - (thuds) - (girl giggling) 9 00:00:19,978 --> 00:00:21,980 - BOY: Let's get out of here. - GIRL: Okay. Go, go. Come on. 10 00:00:21,980 --> 00:00:23,189 (both giggling) 11 00:00:25,275 --> 00:00:27,027 (retches, groans) 12 00:00:28,445 --> 00:00:29,446 (Rae groaning) 13 00:00:39,622 --> 00:00:41,124 {\an8}Is that the Little Dipper? 14 00:00:42,167 --> 00:00:43,960 {\an8}That's the Big Dipper, doofus. 15 00:00:43,960 --> 00:00:46,755 {\an8}Actually, you're both wrong. 16 00:00:46,963 --> 00:00:49,049 {\an8}- LITTLE CLARE: Can I go back now? - FRANKIE: Nope. 17 00:00:49,674 --> 00:00:51,634 {\an8}Be patient, sweet peas. 18 00:00:51,634 --> 00:00:54,054 YOUNG CLARE: I'm tired. It's too hot. 19 00:00:54,054 --> 00:00:55,722 {\an8}You said you wanted air. 20 00:00:55,722 --> 00:00:58,641 {\an8}Conditioning. I want air-conditioning. 21 00:00:58,808 --> 00:01:00,852 Well, we would need electricity for that. 22 00:01:01,561 --> 00:01:03,229 And a bathroom inside. 23 00:01:03,646 --> 00:01:05,940 Everyone I know gets to poop inside. 24 00:01:05,940 --> 00:01:07,317 (giggles) 25 00:01:07,317 --> 00:01:09,611 And you will have all those things someday. 26 00:01:10,320 --> 00:01:13,698 But this... This is better than any of those things. 27 00:01:14,824 --> 00:01:15,742 I promise. 28 00:01:15,742 --> 00:01:17,452 (gate squeaking) 29 00:01:18,453 --> 00:01:20,371 (whispering) Okay. It's time. 30 00:01:21,081 --> 00:01:22,540 Close your eyes. 31 00:01:23,458 --> 00:01:25,251 And be really quiet. 32 00:01:25,877 --> 00:01:27,545 And I'll say when you can open them. 33 00:01:27,545 --> 00:01:29,297 - (horse nickers) - What's that noise? 34 00:01:34,552 --> 00:01:36,554 (horses nickering) 35 00:01:40,433 --> 00:01:42,268 (whispering) Okay. Now. 36 00:01:44,395 --> 00:01:46,272 - (horse whinnying) - (Little Clare gasps) 37 00:01:46,773 --> 00:01:49,776 ♪ 38 00:01:56,491 --> 00:01:57,617 (Little Lucas giggles) 39 00:02:03,123 --> 00:02:06,126 - ♪ - (horses nickering) 40 00:02:23,309 --> 00:02:25,186 LITTLE LUCAS: Do they belong to us, Mommy? 41 00:02:25,186 --> 00:02:26,938 I wish they did. 42 00:02:28,022 --> 00:02:29,149 Hi, Lady. 43 00:02:29,941 --> 00:02:31,776 You sweet, sweet girl. 44 00:02:35,405 --> 00:02:36,698 (horses nickering) 45 00:02:44,414 --> 00:02:46,374 (Rae chewing) 46 00:02:50,879 --> 00:02:52,630 What the fuck? 47 00:02:53,339 --> 00:02:54,340 (phone chimes) 48 00:02:57,635 --> 00:02:59,554 "Due to your pending investigation, 49 00:02:59,554 --> 00:03:02,891 you are required to complete an online ethics and boundaries course." 50 00:03:02,891 --> 00:03:04,350 Oh, fuck you, boundaries. 51 00:03:06,269 --> 00:03:07,478 (phone chimes) 52 00:03:11,774 --> 00:03:12,901 Mm. 53 00:03:12,901 --> 00:03:13,902 (door opens) 54 00:03:13,902 --> 00:03:16,196 DANNY: Clare! Clare, come here! 55 00:03:18,573 --> 00:03:20,366 (exhales sharply) Why is she on a surfboard? 56 00:03:20,491 --> 00:03:22,118 I don't know. I just came outside and she was-- 57 00:03:22,118 --> 00:03:23,119 CLARE: Rae, are you okay? 58 00:03:23,119 --> 00:03:25,955 Are you hurt? What-- Uh-- What-- Uh, who left you here? 59 00:03:25,955 --> 00:03:29,000 No one. I'm f-- I'm fine. 60 00:03:31,920 --> 00:03:33,421 Frankie Rae, are you drunk? 61 00:03:33,421 --> 00:03:35,381 Have you guys ever had a White Russian? 62 00:03:35,381 --> 00:03:37,342 - Since when do you drink, Rae? - CLARE: Oh, my God. 63 00:03:37,342 --> 00:03:38,927 - RAE: I know. - Rae, I need you to get up 64 00:03:39,052 --> 00:03:40,261 right now and come inside the house. 65 00:03:40,261 --> 00:03:41,930 (mumbling) I don't really wanna go inside. 66 00:03:42,055 --> 00:03:43,806 Frankie Rae, I want you to look at me 67 00:03:43,806 --> 00:03:44,974 and talk to me right now. 68 00:03:45,475 --> 00:03:47,352 Who left you here like this? 69 00:03:47,352 --> 00:03:50,104 Was it those awful threesome people? Is that who did this? 70 00:03:50,104 --> 00:03:52,357 Are they the same ones who made you eat that cucumber? 71 00:03:52,357 --> 00:03:53,691 - What? - CLARE: I saw that. 72 00:03:53,691 --> 00:03:55,360 Did they make you eat that cucumber? 73 00:03:55,360 --> 00:03:56,653 Who made you eat that cucumber? 74 00:03:58,613 --> 00:04:00,740 MAN: (on video) I love what you did with the Peterson case. 75 00:04:00,740 --> 00:04:03,743 You know, a massage can make a stressful day seem better. 76 00:04:03,743 --> 00:04:05,036 WOMAN: (on video) That sounds great, 77 00:04:05,036 --> 00:04:06,913 but I actually have to get home. 78 00:04:08,414 --> 00:04:10,166 So we see here that Bob is not only 79 00:04:10,166 --> 00:04:11,960 being suggestive to Rhonda, 80 00:04:11,960 --> 00:04:13,836 he's violating her personal space. 81 00:04:13,836 --> 00:04:16,297 And that's the thing about personal space. 82 00:04:16,297 --> 00:04:17,590 It's personal. 83 00:04:21,219 --> 00:04:22,136 (quick knocks on door) 84 00:04:22,262 --> 00:04:23,680 All right, come on. Let's wake up. 85 00:04:26,307 --> 00:04:27,225 Now! 86 00:04:27,225 --> 00:04:28,309 We're gonna be-- 87 00:04:29,769 --> 00:04:31,896 Now! Let's get up. Let's go! 88 00:04:37,068 --> 00:04:38,152 RAE: I hate those stars. 89 00:04:38,152 --> 00:04:39,529 CLARE: What? You named your first 90 00:04:39,529 --> 00:04:41,114 hamster Cassiopeia. 91 00:04:41,114 --> 00:04:43,032 Yeah, well, I'm taking them down. 92 00:04:43,032 --> 00:04:44,575 Your dad is playing today. 93 00:04:44,575 --> 00:04:45,743 You need to be there early. 94 00:04:45,743 --> 00:04:46,995 And having a hangover 95 00:04:46,995 --> 00:04:49,539 does not qualify as a reason to skip church. 96 00:04:49,539 --> 00:04:51,791 RAE: Why do you even care? You don't even believe in God. 97 00:04:51,791 --> 00:04:55,461 It's Easter, and it is time to resurrect. 98 00:04:57,088 --> 00:04:58,464 - (Rae groans) - Let's go. 99 00:05:00,258 --> 00:05:01,259 (Rae sighs) 100 00:05:03,469 --> 00:05:04,846 You skip every Sunday. 101 00:05:04,846 --> 00:05:06,347 Su-- Sundays are my time to write. 102 00:05:06,347 --> 00:05:07,807 RAE: Yeah, except you never do. 103 00:05:09,726 --> 00:05:11,936 Do you realize that you could've been assaulted last night? 104 00:05:12,603 --> 00:05:13,604 Or worse. 105 00:05:14,731 --> 00:05:17,066 And your so-called friends 106 00:05:17,066 --> 00:05:18,526 just left you on our lawn 107 00:05:18,526 --> 00:05:20,445 to choke on your own barf. 108 00:05:20,445 --> 00:05:22,989 - So who was that? Was that Montana? - It wasn't Montana. 109 00:05:22,989 --> 00:05:25,408 Wh-- Wh-- Why can't you make some just nice new friends? 110 00:05:25,408 --> 00:05:26,659 Like, what happened to Bethany 111 00:05:26,659 --> 00:05:28,036 - from dance? - Can you just stop? 112 00:05:28,036 --> 00:05:29,871 Do you know if something happened to you, 113 00:05:29,871 --> 00:05:31,622 I would not be able to survive? 114 00:05:31,622 --> 00:05:33,624 Do you realize that? I would die! 115 00:05:33,624 --> 00:05:35,001 My life would be over! 116 00:05:35,001 --> 00:05:36,544 I would not be able to go on. 117 00:05:36,544 --> 00:05:38,171 Then I guess you shouldn't have had me! 118 00:05:40,757 --> 00:05:41,758 (door closes) 119 00:05:43,551 --> 00:05:45,762 Why are you mad at me? 120 00:05:46,554 --> 00:05:47,555 Frankie? 121 00:05:48,222 --> 00:05:49,057 Frankie? 122 00:05:49,057 --> 00:05:50,433 Stop calling me that! 123 00:05:50,433 --> 00:05:52,643 When is this bullshit gonna end? 124 00:05:52,643 --> 00:05:54,771 The White Russians, and the surfboards, 125 00:05:54,771 --> 00:05:56,939 and the giving a shit about a person that is 126 00:05:56,939 --> 00:05:59,233 so clearly beneath you? 127 00:05:59,233 --> 00:06:01,569 And rejecting your own grandmother's name? 128 00:06:01,569 --> 00:06:03,738 She was never my grandmother! 129 00:06:03,738 --> 00:06:04,822 (door slams shut) 130 00:06:05,823 --> 00:06:06,824 (exhales) 131 00:06:07,992 --> 00:06:08,993 (groans) 132 00:06:11,996 --> 00:06:14,040 Well, can you talk to her? Because she fucking hates me. 133 00:06:14,040 --> 00:06:16,334 Yeah, yeah. I'm gonna do a lot more than talk to her. 134 00:06:16,918 --> 00:06:18,169 I'm gonna ground her ass. 135 00:06:19,003 --> 00:06:20,463 Really? An Easter basket? 136 00:06:20,797 --> 00:06:22,340 - Oh, it's tradition. - (Danny scoffs) 137 00:06:23,466 --> 00:06:24,759 Tradition as well? 138 00:06:27,011 --> 00:06:27,929 Oh, my God. 139 00:06:27,929 --> 00:06:29,764 Was that pickle flavored? 140 00:06:38,272 --> 00:06:39,440 Happy Easter. 141 00:06:40,358 --> 00:06:41,692 Let's go. 142 00:06:53,329 --> 00:06:55,123 So I'll just meet you at brunch then? 143 00:06:55,123 --> 00:06:56,749 Oh, so you're coming to brunch? 144 00:06:56,749 --> 00:06:58,292 Unless it's going to feel weird. 145 00:06:58,835 --> 00:06:59,836 I mean, why wouldn't I-- 146 00:06:59,836 --> 00:07:01,295 No, no. I mean, it won't be weird 147 00:07:01,295 --> 00:07:02,797 if we don't make it weird. 148 00:07:02,797 --> 00:07:04,924 I just don't want anyone to think anything is wrong. 149 00:07:08,177 --> 00:07:09,387 Okay, um... 150 00:07:09,387 --> 00:07:10,847 If you don't want to go, then don't go. 151 00:07:10,847 --> 00:07:12,890 I'll just make an excuse then, you know? 152 00:07:12,890 --> 00:07:15,768 Uh, you can stay here. I'll tell them that you're-- 153 00:07:15,768 --> 00:07:16,936 that you're writing. 154 00:07:16,936 --> 00:07:19,147 That wouldn't be an excuse. I do write. 155 00:07:19,147 --> 00:07:21,399 I'll take this just in case she changes her mind. 156 00:07:21,399 --> 00:07:23,359 Danny, I haven't even said that I'm not gonna-- 157 00:07:23,359 --> 00:07:25,778 - I-- I'm coming. I can bring the basket. - DANNY: No, look, I think-- 158 00:07:25,778 --> 00:07:27,447 Look, I, uh, I think you're right. 159 00:07:27,447 --> 00:07:29,157 You know, we don't want 'em to know that 160 00:07:29,157 --> 00:07:30,491 things aren't normal. 161 00:07:30,491 --> 00:07:31,742 Happy writing. 162 00:07:35,746 --> 00:07:36,747 (door closes) 163 00:07:40,168 --> 00:07:43,171 ♪ 164 00:07:58,436 --> 00:08:00,688 (telephone ringing) 165 00:08:00,688 --> 00:08:02,565 (stereo music playing) 166 00:08:05,735 --> 00:08:07,361 - Hello? - FRANKIE (over phone): Hi, honey. 167 00:08:07,361 --> 00:08:09,906 Hi. Hey, Mom. Um, sorry, can I call you back? 168 00:08:09,906 --> 00:08:13,117 I'm working on that essay competition for Pleiades. 169 00:08:13,117 --> 00:08:14,285 I need you to come home. 170 00:08:14,785 --> 00:08:17,038 - Why? What's wrong? - Today. 171 00:08:17,038 --> 00:08:18,331 CLARE: Today? No, I can't, Mom. 172 00:08:18,331 --> 00:08:19,999 I have work, then class tonight. 173 00:08:19,999 --> 00:08:21,292 You need to come home right now. 174 00:08:24,587 --> 00:08:25,588 Okay. 175 00:08:27,757 --> 00:08:28,758 Okay. Yeah. 176 00:08:30,092 --> 00:08:31,093 Sure. 177 00:08:33,971 --> 00:08:34,972 TERRIFIED MOTHER: Dear Sugar, 178 00:08:35,598 --> 00:08:36,933 I'm writing this from 179 00:08:36,933 --> 00:08:40,561 {\an8}my little bed in the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit. 180 00:08:41,103 --> 00:08:42,939 My husband and I just found out 181 00:08:42,939 --> 00:08:47,235 that our six-month-old daughter has a brain tumor 182 00:08:47,235 --> 00:08:50,613 and she's having brain surgery tomorrow. 183 00:08:53,115 --> 00:08:55,660 People have poured all their thoughts and prayers 184 00:08:55,660 --> 00:08:56,953 into us right now. 185 00:09:04,210 --> 00:09:06,462 I want to believe the prayers are working, 186 00:09:06,462 --> 00:09:08,506 but... I don't know. 187 00:09:11,217 --> 00:09:13,302 I've never been super religious 188 00:09:14,971 --> 00:09:18,182 but... now I find myself 189 00:09:18,182 --> 00:09:19,976 doubting God's existence 190 00:09:20,768 --> 00:09:21,769 more than ever. 191 00:09:25,189 --> 00:09:29,986 I'm so scared that I'll lose my sweet baby girl. 192 00:09:31,112 --> 00:09:32,488 If there was a God, 193 00:09:33,990 --> 00:09:35,992 why would He let this happen to us? 194 00:09:41,038 --> 00:09:43,583 (phone vibrating) 195 00:09:49,338 --> 00:09:51,549 - AMY: Well, at least she made it home. - Mm. Mm. 196 00:09:51,549 --> 00:09:55,886 How many shit bunkers did we happen to wake up in? 197 00:09:56,846 --> 00:09:58,347 - Remember Burger? - CLARE: Oh, God. 198 00:09:58,347 --> 00:09:59,390 With the van? 199 00:09:59,974 --> 00:10:02,268 And the trash bag that was just full of mushrooms? 200 00:10:02,268 --> 00:10:04,979 - What? What? - (Clare laughing) 201 00:10:04,979 --> 00:10:08,441 Do you remember that he would just play Free Bird on repeat? 202 00:10:09,400 --> 00:10:11,444 And also, P.S. vans. 203 00:10:11,444 --> 00:10:12,987 - Vans. - CLARE: Terrifying! 204 00:10:12,987 --> 00:10:15,114 Vans. Ugh. 205 00:10:15,114 --> 00:10:17,408 It's kind of a miracle that we're alive, really. 206 00:10:17,408 --> 00:10:18,576 - When you think about it. - Yeah. 207 00:10:19,243 --> 00:10:21,203 Hi. Can you just keep these coming? 208 00:10:21,203 --> 00:10:22,288 - WAITER: Sure. - AMY: Thank you. 209 00:10:23,873 --> 00:10:26,959 Wow. Come on, Frankie, well, she's a good girl. 210 00:10:26,959 --> 00:10:28,169 Rae! 211 00:10:28,169 --> 00:10:30,046 AMY: Whatever she would like to be called. 212 00:10:30,046 --> 00:10:32,048 She's-- She's way smarter than we ever were. 213 00:10:33,257 --> 00:10:34,258 Okay? 214 00:10:34,884 --> 00:10:37,720 Oh, she has to be careful. She does. 215 00:10:38,137 --> 00:10:39,138 I got something. 216 00:10:39,555 --> 00:10:42,350 You'll think I'm brilliant. Here, take these. 217 00:10:42,350 --> 00:10:43,559 Is that a-- What is that? 218 00:10:43,559 --> 00:10:44,935 Those are fentanyl strips. 219 00:10:44,935 --> 00:10:47,938 And they're like the free condoms now. 220 00:10:47,938 --> 00:10:50,149 I keep 'em at the bar. Uh, just give 'em to her. 221 00:10:50,149 --> 00:10:52,068 She can test everything that she's taking. 222 00:10:52,068 --> 00:10:54,195 I know. You wouldn't really think it, 223 00:10:54,195 --> 00:10:56,489 but that shit is just everywhere. 224 00:10:56,489 --> 00:10:58,157 - Are you kidding me? - AMY: No. 225 00:10:58,157 --> 00:10:59,492 Now I have to worry about fentanyl 226 00:10:59,492 --> 00:11:00,576 on top of everything else? 227 00:11:00,576 --> 00:11:01,661 AMY: Yeah, you do. 228 00:11:02,203 --> 00:11:04,830 - TERRIFED MOTHER: Good Bloody Mary? - (baby crying) 229 00:11:07,833 --> 00:11:09,085 Thanks for the help, Sugar. 230 00:11:11,962 --> 00:11:13,172 AMY (from distance): Are you okay? 231 00:11:14,674 --> 00:11:15,675 Are you okay? 232 00:11:16,133 --> 00:11:17,051 Yo! 233 00:11:17,051 --> 00:11:19,929 Oh, God. Spin-city. 234 00:11:21,639 --> 00:11:22,932 I mean, it's basically like... 235 00:11:22,932 --> 00:11:24,016 Um... 236 00:11:25,768 --> 00:11:26,686 Are you okay? 237 00:11:26,686 --> 00:11:27,770 CLARE: I-- I-- 238 00:11:28,229 --> 00:11:30,523 - I'm sorry. I have to go. - AMY: You gotta go? 239 00:11:30,523 --> 00:11:31,816 - We haven't gotten... - I know. 240 00:11:31,816 --> 00:11:33,818 ...to the bottom of our bottomless, please. 241 00:11:33,818 --> 00:11:37,863 Listen, I'm gonna Venmo you for all of this. It's on me. 242 00:11:37,863 --> 00:11:39,156 AMY: What are you doing? 243 00:11:40,783 --> 00:11:42,785 - Love you. - If it's the fentanyl strips, 244 00:11:42,910 --> 00:11:44,453 - I'm sorry. - No, it's not the fentanyl strips. 245 00:11:44,453 --> 00:11:46,288 - I love you. - I'm sorry-- No, 'cause you're spinning. 246 00:11:46,288 --> 00:11:47,998 - I'm not spinning. I love you. - AMY: All right. 247 00:11:50,126 --> 00:11:51,127 YOUNG CLARE: Hi, Mom. 248 00:11:51,669 --> 00:11:53,421 Thanks for coming, sweet pea. 249 00:11:55,548 --> 00:11:56,882 Yeah, what's going on? 250 00:11:58,718 --> 00:11:59,760 Why are you all dressed up? 251 00:11:59,760 --> 00:12:03,139 I made spinach lasagna. 252 00:12:03,139 --> 00:12:04,140 For lunch? 253 00:12:04,932 --> 00:12:06,016 What is happening? 254 00:12:06,016 --> 00:12:07,560 FRANKIE: And there's an apple crisp 255 00:12:07,560 --> 00:12:09,270 and ice cream for dessert. 256 00:12:09,270 --> 00:12:11,313 Was this just some ploy to get me to come home? 257 00:12:11,313 --> 00:12:12,606 Don't ask me. 258 00:12:12,606 --> 00:12:13,691 No, it wasn't a ploy. 259 00:12:13,691 --> 00:12:15,818 Okay, well, I had to call in sick. 260 00:12:15,818 --> 00:12:18,696 And I still didn't finish that essay that's due Monday. 261 00:12:18,696 --> 00:12:21,532 I can't just come home just because you miss me. 262 00:12:21,532 --> 00:12:22,533 No one misses you. 263 00:12:22,533 --> 00:12:23,743 Yeah? That's why you keep 264 00:12:23,743 --> 00:12:24,869 begging me to come visit? 265 00:12:24,869 --> 00:12:26,787 (sighs) Sit down, everything's ready. 266 00:12:26,787 --> 00:12:27,997 CLARE: No, I'm not gonna sit down 267 00:12:27,997 --> 00:12:29,457 until you tell me what was so important 268 00:12:29,457 --> 00:12:31,375 that I drop everything and come home. 269 00:12:36,297 --> 00:12:38,340 Well, it turns out that... 270 00:12:40,551 --> 00:12:44,305 this cold that I seem to have had for months 271 00:12:44,805 --> 00:12:46,307 is, um... 272 00:12:47,933 --> 00:12:49,185 It isn't a cold. 273 00:12:49,685 --> 00:12:51,395 Okay. Well, what is it? 274 00:12:55,065 --> 00:12:57,067 (gloomy music playing) 275 00:12:59,737 --> 00:13:00,738 YOUNG CLARE: Mom? 276 00:13:09,413 --> 00:13:11,832 Honey, what are you doing? 277 00:13:11,832 --> 00:13:13,375 We're gonna need everything we have. 278 00:13:13,542 --> 00:13:14,585 Lucas, help me. 279 00:13:14,585 --> 00:13:16,545 - I don't think-- - Lucas, just help me! 280 00:13:18,422 --> 00:13:20,341 FRANKIE: Well, will you at least have something to eat? 281 00:13:21,091 --> 00:13:22,259 You still need to eat. 282 00:13:22,259 --> 00:13:23,177 Piles of four. 283 00:13:24,261 --> 00:13:25,471 We're gonna see every doctor we can. 284 00:13:26,305 --> 00:13:28,724 There's a cancer center in San Francisco, 285 00:13:28,724 --> 00:13:30,976 and we're going to get a second opinion 286 00:13:30,976 --> 00:13:33,270 and a third and fourth opinion. 287 00:13:33,270 --> 00:13:35,022 And I'm gonna call Jess. 288 00:13:35,648 --> 00:13:36,649 Jess' parents can help. 289 00:13:36,649 --> 00:13:37,942 I'm gonna call him tonight so that-- 290 00:13:38,067 --> 00:13:39,652 - so that he can call them. - FRANKIE: Honey, 291 00:13:39,652 --> 00:13:41,362 there are no more opinions to get. 292 00:13:42,029 --> 00:13:42,863 (softly) That's $5... 293 00:13:42,863 --> 00:13:44,490 The whole team of doctors 294 00:13:44,490 --> 00:13:46,075 looked at the scan. 295 00:13:46,575 --> 00:13:48,911 I have stage IV terminal 296 00:13:48,911 --> 00:13:50,412 - lung cancer. - Please stop. 297 00:13:50,412 --> 00:13:51,622 FRANKIE: It's not treatable. 298 00:13:53,374 --> 00:13:54,834 We aren't going to treat it. 299 00:13:54,834 --> 00:13:56,252 Stop saying that! 300 00:13:56,252 --> 00:13:58,087 Jesus, Clare. You think that's helping? 301 00:14:01,590 --> 00:14:02,758 I was thinking... 302 00:14:04,176 --> 00:14:05,678 if you want to reach out to your dad... 303 00:14:05,678 --> 00:14:07,304 Why are you bringing him up? 304 00:14:07,429 --> 00:14:08,597 FRANKIE: Because he's your father. 305 00:14:09,181 --> 00:14:10,808 And people can change. 306 00:14:11,559 --> 00:14:13,978 And it's okay to love him even when I'm gone. 307 00:14:16,689 --> 00:14:18,065 CLARE: Well, you're not gonna be gone. 308 00:14:21,443 --> 00:14:23,195 You two may have given up, but I haven't. 309 00:14:26,866 --> 00:14:28,075 (exhales) Okay. 310 00:14:37,418 --> 00:14:38,711 JAMES: Wait, I don't get it. 311 00:14:38,711 --> 00:14:40,713 SONDRA: That's what the kids are into, James. 312 00:14:40,713 --> 00:14:43,007 You're watching someone on the Internet, eating? 313 00:14:43,007 --> 00:14:45,259 Oh, but have you seen the girl that does her hair 314 00:14:45,259 --> 00:14:48,888 and tells you about women who just snap and kill people? 315 00:14:48,888 --> 00:14:50,723 Oh, that's quality right there. 316 00:14:50,723 --> 00:14:52,141 Rae, grab your basket and come out here 317 00:14:52,141 --> 00:14:53,684 help your cousin find eggs. 318 00:14:53,684 --> 00:14:56,854 Some of those eggs, they got 20s in 'em. 319 00:14:56,854 --> 00:14:58,939 - You know what I used to do for $20? - (Rae chuckles) 320 00:14:58,939 --> 00:15:00,232 - Oh, Lord. - Yes. 321 00:15:00,232 --> 00:15:02,318 (all chuckling) 322 00:15:03,652 --> 00:15:06,488 ♪ 323 00:15:06,488 --> 00:15:07,990 Mommy! 324 00:15:11,118 --> 00:15:12,536 What're you doing here? 325 00:15:15,664 --> 00:15:16,665 CLARE: Uh... 326 00:15:18,000 --> 00:15:20,544 I've-- I've brought pastries. 327 00:15:24,548 --> 00:15:26,467 Clare, can I get you something to eat? 328 00:15:26,467 --> 00:15:28,552 - Oh. - I'm gonna fix you something to eat. 329 00:15:28,552 --> 00:15:31,847 Danny said you weren't coming or I would've left lunch out. 330 00:15:31,847 --> 00:15:33,057 Oh, I never said I wasn't-- 331 00:15:33,057 --> 00:15:36,185 Hey, Clare. No chicken salad today? 332 00:15:36,185 --> 00:15:37,686 Uh, I didn't have time to make the ch-- 333 00:15:37,811 --> 00:15:39,855 I just can't with those raisins. 334 00:15:40,064 --> 00:15:40,940 They're currants. 335 00:15:41,065 --> 00:15:42,858 - I put currants in the chicken. - AUNT FELICIA: Even better. 336 00:15:43,025 --> 00:15:44,026 Ignore her. 337 00:15:44,860 --> 00:15:46,612 Wouldn't be Easter without you, 338 00:15:46,612 --> 00:15:48,030 - all right? - Aw, thank you. 339 00:15:48,030 --> 00:15:50,324 And hey, don't worry about Rae. 340 00:15:50,324 --> 00:15:52,618 Danny ever come home on a surfboard? 341 00:15:53,369 --> 00:15:56,246 - I was talking about college. - Hmm. 342 00:15:56,246 --> 00:15:58,624 If you all need help, we got you. 343 00:16:00,042 --> 00:16:01,710 AUNT FELICIA: Let me tell you, if I gave away 344 00:16:01,710 --> 00:16:03,379 my kid's college fund, 345 00:16:03,379 --> 00:16:06,090 I'd be somewhere way worse than in the basement, okay? 346 00:16:08,008 --> 00:16:09,677 SONDRA: Here, Clare. Have something to eat. 347 00:16:10,260 --> 00:16:11,261 You want some ham? 348 00:16:12,179 --> 00:16:13,180 Okay. 349 00:16:13,639 --> 00:16:15,182 (softly) Are you fucking kidding me? 350 00:16:15,182 --> 00:16:16,558 (softly) Okay. It-- It-- It came up. 351 00:16:16,558 --> 00:16:18,143 What the fuck do you mean, "It came up"? 352 00:16:18,143 --> 00:16:19,728 - Clare-- - 'Cause clearly you told them! 353 00:16:19,728 --> 00:16:23,315 Clare, you gave your brother $15,000 of our money. 354 00:16:23,315 --> 00:16:25,776 It's a big fucking deal! I told my dad. So what? 355 00:16:25,776 --> 00:16:27,736 You know how much of our money 356 00:16:27,736 --> 00:16:30,531 we give to your family every fucking year? 357 00:16:30,531 --> 00:16:32,241 - What are you talking about? - This whole city is 358 00:16:32,241 --> 00:16:34,201 - crawling with your relatives. - Okay? 359 00:16:34,201 --> 00:16:36,245 There's graduation. There's weddings. 360 00:16:36,245 --> 00:16:38,455 - There's baby showers. There's holidays. - Yeah. (laughs) 361 00:16:38,455 --> 00:16:40,040 All I'm doing is making chicken salad 362 00:16:40,040 --> 00:16:41,166 that just goes wasted! 363 00:16:41,166 --> 00:16:42,418 Yeah, because no one likes raisins! 364 00:16:42,418 --> 00:16:43,836 They're currants! 365 00:16:43,836 --> 00:16:45,087 And they're fucking expensive, 366 00:16:45,087 --> 00:16:46,296 so just add that to the tab! 367 00:16:46,296 --> 00:16:47,756 Tab? So-- So we're keeping tally on who-- 368 00:16:47,756 --> 00:16:49,049 No, I'm just making a point! 369 00:16:49,049 --> 00:16:50,551 You give me so much shit 370 00:16:50,551 --> 00:16:51,885 - about Lucas... - Yeah. 371 00:16:51,885 --> 00:16:53,721 ...when all I do is shit for your family! 372 00:16:53,721 --> 00:16:55,264 Our family, Clare. 373 00:16:55,848 --> 00:16:57,057 Okay, the same family 374 00:16:57,057 --> 00:16:59,852 that love us and care for us and took you in. 375 00:16:59,852 --> 00:17:00,936 And-- And-- 376 00:17:00,936 --> 00:17:02,438 You know what? At the end of the day, 377 00:17:02,438 --> 00:17:04,106 it's not even just about the money. 378 00:17:06,108 --> 00:17:08,277 You gave that away without even talking to me about it. 379 00:17:09,028 --> 00:17:11,780 - I'm your husband. - So just take my side. 380 00:17:12,948 --> 00:17:14,116 Just be on my side. 381 00:17:16,326 --> 00:17:18,954 And stop giving your aunt a fucking excuse 382 00:17:18,954 --> 00:17:22,458 to make that fucking face at me every time she fucking sees me! 383 00:17:22,458 --> 00:17:23,625 (yelling) Enough! 384 00:17:24,126 --> 00:17:26,128 (family chattering) 385 00:17:27,546 --> 00:17:30,257 Oh. A-- A different aunt. 386 00:17:32,760 --> 00:17:34,887 Oh, my God, what is wrong with you? 387 00:17:34,887 --> 00:17:36,597 You can't keep trapping people 388 00:17:36,597 --> 00:17:38,182 in tiny spaces just to yell at them! 389 00:17:38,182 --> 00:17:39,349 CLARE: None of this is okay. 390 00:17:39,767 --> 00:17:40,768 Sneaking out. 391 00:17:41,393 --> 00:17:42,394 Getting drunk. 392 00:17:43,937 --> 00:17:45,606 Being so mean to me! 393 00:17:45,606 --> 00:17:47,941 Why are you so mean to me? Huh? 394 00:17:48,776 --> 00:17:51,236 - (scoffs) No-- - Just stop! 395 00:17:51,236 --> 00:17:52,988 Do you know what's going on out there? 396 00:17:52,988 --> 00:17:54,615 It is a war zone! 397 00:17:54,615 --> 00:17:57,076 There are condoms laced with fentanyl. 398 00:17:57,076 --> 00:17:58,660 You don't even know what you're talking about. 399 00:17:58,786 --> 00:17:59,620 That's not a thing. 400 00:17:59,745 --> 00:18:02,581 All I'm saying is that you need to be careful. 401 00:18:02,581 --> 00:18:04,208 You need to be smart. 402 00:18:04,208 --> 00:18:06,585 You need to find friends that have your back. 403 00:18:06,585 --> 00:18:07,878 I have friends. 404 00:18:09,046 --> 00:18:10,255 What-- What about Bethany? 405 00:18:10,255 --> 00:18:12,216 - Bethany? Bethany? - Yes. She was so sweet. 406 00:18:12,216 --> 00:18:14,843 You know Bethany had anal sex on a Greyhound going to Reno? 407 00:18:14,843 --> 00:18:16,595 - What? - Yeah. 408 00:18:16,595 --> 00:18:19,139 Why would she want to take a bus to Reno? 409 00:18:19,139 --> 00:18:20,432 I don't know, maybe she was hoping 410 00:18:20,432 --> 00:18:21,975 it would crash just to annoy her mother. 411 00:18:21,975 --> 00:18:23,060 (Clare scoffs) 412 00:18:25,229 --> 00:18:26,438 Okay. 413 00:18:26,438 --> 00:18:27,898 I'ma pray for that Bethany. 414 00:18:27,898 --> 00:18:28,982 Thank you. 415 00:18:32,945 --> 00:18:34,029 (horse nickering) 416 00:18:34,446 --> 00:18:35,447 Our Father 417 00:18:36,323 --> 00:18:38,450 who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy-- 418 00:18:39,743 --> 00:18:40,744 Hallowed be thy-- 419 00:18:52,589 --> 00:18:53,799 Fuck Fathers! 420 00:18:55,134 --> 00:18:57,511 Fuck you! Fuck you! 421 00:18:57,511 --> 00:18:59,429 NED: Didn't you ever hear you catch more flies 422 00:18:59,429 --> 00:19:00,681 with honey than vinegar? 423 00:19:01,765 --> 00:19:03,809 That's what your mama always says to me. 424 00:19:06,145 --> 00:19:07,146 She's gonna die. 425 00:19:11,233 --> 00:19:12,985 It's lung cancer. (sniffles) 426 00:19:13,569 --> 00:19:14,653 She just found out. 427 00:19:18,323 --> 00:19:19,324 Uh-- I'm s-- 428 00:19:20,951 --> 00:19:21,952 I'm so sorry. 429 00:19:23,370 --> 00:19:24,371 That, uh... 430 00:19:28,000 --> 00:19:29,710 Oh, hon. 431 00:19:32,796 --> 00:19:33,797 (Clare crying) 432 00:19:34,715 --> 00:19:37,009 - Anything I can do, - (Clare sniffles) 433 00:19:37,009 --> 00:19:39,094 Liv and me, we're just up the road. 434 00:19:49,354 --> 00:19:50,355 Lady. 435 00:19:52,274 --> 00:19:53,192 Sell me Lady. 436 00:19:53,192 --> 00:19:54,401 Oh, darlin', she's-- 437 00:19:54,401 --> 00:19:55,444 I've-- I've got, um... 438 00:19:56,403 --> 00:19:58,363 I've got $386 right now. 439 00:19:58,864 --> 00:19:59,865 And after that, I can-- 440 00:20:00,991 --> 00:20:02,451 I can give you monthly payments. 441 00:20:02,451 --> 00:20:05,078 And, and however much you need, I'll pay it. I just, uh-- 442 00:20:08,081 --> 00:20:09,499 A horse would save her life. 443 00:20:12,461 --> 00:20:15,255 And I-- I just-- I really-- I need to save her life. 444 00:20:15,255 --> 00:20:16,548 Clare. 445 00:20:18,467 --> 00:20:19,468 Go home. 446 00:20:20,510 --> 00:20:21,511 Be with your mom. 447 00:20:23,555 --> 00:20:24,848 I'll be praying for y'all. 448 00:20:26,391 --> 00:20:27,392 (chuckling scoff) 449 00:20:36,318 --> 00:20:37,986 Oh, my God. 450 00:20:41,365 --> 00:20:42,366 (distant crying) 451 00:20:47,829 --> 00:20:49,831 (indistinct chatter) 452 00:20:52,918 --> 00:20:53,919 (crying continues) 453 00:21:03,178 --> 00:21:04,179 (crying continues) 454 00:21:05,597 --> 00:21:07,599 - (terrified mother crying) - (baby wailing) 455 00:21:17,234 --> 00:21:20,612 - (baby continues wailing) - Shhh. 456 00:21:20,612 --> 00:21:21,697 I'm sorry. 457 00:21:22,823 --> 00:21:24,157 I didn't know what to write. 458 00:21:24,157 --> 00:21:25,742 I didn't have the words. 459 00:21:25,742 --> 00:21:27,119 SONDRA: Clare? 460 00:21:28,078 --> 00:21:30,664 I'm glad you're here. I was afraid you went home. 461 00:21:36,670 --> 00:21:38,714 - I-- - This isn't about the currants, is it? 462 00:21:39,214 --> 00:21:40,590 Oh, psh. 463 00:21:40,590 --> 00:21:42,718 I-- I'm just failing at everything right now. 464 00:21:42,718 --> 00:21:43,802 I just feel like-- 465 00:21:44,845 --> 00:21:45,846 Sorry. 466 00:21:46,346 --> 00:21:48,307 Danny and I are-- are fighting, 467 00:21:48,307 --> 00:21:49,933 but I know you know that. 468 00:21:52,602 --> 00:21:56,106 And, uh, (sniffles) Frankie can't stand me. 469 00:21:56,523 --> 00:21:57,441 Rae. 470 00:21:57,441 --> 00:21:58,650 (exhales) 471 00:21:58,650 --> 00:22:00,986 I have such a hard time calling her that. 472 00:22:03,196 --> 00:22:05,115 I just feel like there's a wall between us. 473 00:22:05,699 --> 00:22:07,159 (crying) And I'm so afraid that something 474 00:22:07,159 --> 00:22:08,785 bad is gonna happen. 475 00:22:09,745 --> 00:22:11,788 You're not gonna lose her. 476 00:22:11,788 --> 00:22:13,165 There was a reason... 477 00:22:14,583 --> 00:22:18,712 that I-- that I named her after my mom. 478 00:22:22,132 --> 00:22:25,510 Must be hard sometimes coming here. 479 00:22:25,510 --> 00:22:29,723 Oh, no! I'm just so grateful to you. 480 00:22:29,723 --> 00:22:31,975 For all of you. So grateful. 481 00:22:31,975 --> 00:22:33,477 It can be both. 482 00:22:37,022 --> 00:22:38,023 All that... 483 00:22:39,232 --> 00:22:41,109 strength and courage 484 00:22:41,109 --> 00:22:43,278 and love you had to find inside yourself 485 00:22:43,278 --> 00:22:44,821 after your mom died, 486 00:22:44,821 --> 00:22:46,573 you poured right into Rae. 487 00:22:46,573 --> 00:22:48,617 You became the amazing mom you are 488 00:22:48,617 --> 00:22:50,202 because you were forced 489 00:22:50,202 --> 00:22:52,996 to learn to mother yourself. 490 00:22:52,996 --> 00:22:54,414 I am not amazing. 491 00:22:55,082 --> 00:22:57,793 Here. I'm gonna do something. 492 00:22:57,793 --> 00:22:59,878 Oh, no, no. I'm-- I don't-- This is not my-- 493 00:22:59,878 --> 00:23:01,755 Dear Heavenly Father. 494 00:23:01,755 --> 00:23:02,756 (Clare sighs) 495 00:23:02,756 --> 00:23:05,092 We come before you humbly, 496 00:23:05,801 --> 00:23:11,598 requesting that you look out for our dear, sweet baby girl, 497 00:23:11,598 --> 00:23:12,933 Frankie Rae. 498 00:23:15,352 --> 00:23:16,812 And that we all accept 499 00:23:16,812 --> 00:23:19,523 who she is telling us she wants to be. 500 00:23:20,315 --> 00:23:23,610 We ask that you wrap your loving arms around... 501 00:23:24,653 --> 00:23:26,071 our precious Rae 502 00:23:27,697 --> 00:23:28,990 and Clare. 503 00:23:30,534 --> 00:23:32,661 Protect them from harm, Lord. 504 00:23:33,745 --> 00:23:35,080 And we pray... 505 00:23:35,914 --> 00:23:39,835 that Clare feels us, her family... 506 00:23:42,254 --> 00:23:46,716 holding her in your divine love... 507 00:23:50,470 --> 00:23:52,472 just like you held her before. 508 00:23:54,266 --> 00:23:57,686 (Frankie sobbing) 509 00:24:00,981 --> 00:24:02,315 ♪ 510 00:24:02,315 --> 00:24:04,818 (Frankie sobbing) 511 00:24:14,077 --> 00:24:15,120 (sharp exhale) 512 00:24:15,120 --> 00:24:16,204 YOUNG CLARE: Mom. 513 00:24:20,459 --> 00:24:21,835 CLARE: Dear Terrified, 514 00:24:24,963 --> 00:24:26,673 I can't tell you how sorry I am 515 00:24:26,673 --> 00:24:28,842 for what you and your family are going through. 516 00:24:30,135 --> 00:24:31,136 I'm sorry. 517 00:24:32,095 --> 00:24:33,847 CLARE: When I learned my mom was gonna die of cancer, 518 00:24:33,847 --> 00:24:35,682 she was only 45. 519 00:24:36,933 --> 00:24:38,602 - And I was terrified too. - (distant girls giggling) 520 00:24:39,311 --> 00:24:40,562 I was also angry. 521 00:24:41,521 --> 00:24:43,607 If God wasn't gonna save my mom, 522 00:24:43,607 --> 00:24:46,401 then I thought God was either a ruthless bitch 523 00:24:47,360 --> 00:24:49,905 or more likely, just didn't exist. 524 00:24:51,072 --> 00:24:52,073 But if He does, 525 00:24:52,073 --> 00:24:54,701 I know He's not some spirit man 526 00:24:54,701 --> 00:24:56,411 who may or may not hear our prayers 527 00:24:56,411 --> 00:24:59,956 and swoop in to save us when the going gets rough. 528 00:25:00,665 --> 00:25:03,502 - I mean, she could have texted. - Yeah. 529 00:25:04,294 --> 00:25:08,381 CLARE: So what if we thought about God differently? 530 00:25:08,381 --> 00:25:11,426 - FRANKIE: Just call me, okay? - Okay. 531 00:25:11,426 --> 00:25:12,761 CLARE: And realize that God 532 00:25:12,761 --> 00:25:15,013 isn't in the answers to our prayers, 533 00:25:15,847 --> 00:25:18,600 but in the people praying for us. 534 00:25:18,600 --> 00:25:20,143 (horse whinnying) 535 00:25:21,978 --> 00:25:26,191 What if, together, those people form a raft? 536 00:25:26,900 --> 00:25:28,109 Oh, my God. 537 00:25:29,027 --> 00:25:32,030 CLARE: That will hold your weight and keep you afloat 538 00:25:32,030 --> 00:25:35,742 by the human love given to you when you needed it the most. 539 00:25:39,788 --> 00:25:42,207 She's yours as long as you'd like to keep her. 540 00:25:45,335 --> 00:25:47,671 ♪ 541 00:25:47,671 --> 00:25:49,756 (horse nickering) 542 00:25:54,010 --> 00:25:54,970 (Young Clare chuckles) 543 00:25:55,387 --> 00:25:57,055 CLARE: If I believed in God, 544 00:25:57,055 --> 00:25:59,516 I'd see evidence of his existence in that. 545 00:26:06,982 --> 00:26:09,150 ♪ 546 00:26:09,150 --> 00:26:11,319 (horse nickering) 547 00:26:20,662 --> 00:26:21,913 So, Terrified, 548 00:26:24,583 --> 00:26:26,334 what if you didn't worry about everyone's God... 549 00:26:26,334 --> 00:26:28,420 (Rae heaving) 550 00:26:28,420 --> 00:26:30,755 Okay, I got it. I got it. 551 00:26:31,798 --> 00:26:32,841 (Danny sighs) 552 00:26:32,841 --> 00:26:34,467 ...and allowed your God to exist 553 00:26:34,467 --> 00:26:37,762 in the simple words of compassion others offer you? 554 00:26:41,016 --> 00:26:42,934 She was the reason I got up in the morning. 555 00:26:44,060 --> 00:26:45,061 Montana. 556 00:26:45,061 --> 00:26:46,229 CLARE: What if faith 557 00:26:46,229 --> 00:26:48,106 is the way it feels to lay your hand 558 00:26:48,106 --> 00:26:50,025 - on your daughter's sacred body, - (Rae sobbing) 559 00:26:50,775 --> 00:26:53,778 under the same big sky where your mother held you? 560 00:26:55,196 --> 00:26:56,781 What if in your darkest hour, 561 00:26:57,449 --> 00:27:00,619 amidst your greatest fears and your deepest losses, 562 00:27:03,079 --> 00:27:04,873 you saw the miracle in that? 563 00:27:05,957 --> 00:27:07,167 (horse nickering) 564 00:27:08,752 --> 00:27:11,254 (horse neighs) 565 00:27:13,256 --> 00:27:14,257 Yours, 566 00:27:16,343 --> 00:27:17,344 Sugar. 567 00:27:21,973 --> 00:27:25,977 ♪ I may not always love you ♪ 568 00:27:27,270 --> 00:27:31,441 ♪ But long as there are stars above you ♪ 569 00:27:32,692 --> 00:27:36,655 ♪ You'll never need to doubt it ♪ 570 00:27:37,697 --> 00:27:42,077 ♪ I'll make you so sure about it ♪ 571 00:27:43,411 --> 00:27:48,583 ♪ God only knows what I'd be without you ♪ 572 00:27:52,796 --> 00:27:55,799 ♪ 573 00:28:03,223 --> 00:28:06,434 ♪ Oh, God only knows ♪ 574 00:28:06,434 --> 00:28:10,188 ♪ What I'd be without you ♪ 575 00:28:12,732 --> 00:28:15,652 ♪ God only knows ♪ 576 00:28:15,652 --> 00:28:18,655 ♪ What I'd be ♪ 577 00:28:18,655 --> 00:28:24,494 ♪ Without you ♪ 578 00:28:25,829 --> 00:28:28,123 CHILD: Best day ever. 579 00:28:34,838 --> 00:28:37,549 Captioned by Point.360