1 00:00:00,959 --> 00:00:04,295 (Young Clare moaning) 2 00:00:04,546 --> 00:00:07,298 (grunting) 3 00:00:09,634 --> 00:00:10,844 PABLO: It's so good. 4 00:00:11,970 --> 00:00:13,930 Oh, I fucking love it. 5 00:00:13,930 --> 00:00:16,766 I felt like I was fucking. 6 00:00:16,766 --> 00:00:19,269 (Clare moaning) 7 00:00:20,186 --> 00:00:21,563 Thanks. 8 00:00:21,563 --> 00:00:23,189 Thank you. That's-- 9 00:00:24,733 --> 00:00:25,608 Thanks. 10 00:00:25,734 --> 00:00:27,318 PABLO: It's just so raw. 11 00:00:27,694 --> 00:00:30,488 {\an8}I mean, our readers are gonna be blown away. 12 00:00:30,488 --> 00:00:33,533 {\an8}(laughing) I mean, obviously, with a few edits. 13 00:00:33,742 --> 00:00:35,493 I mean, I think we can probably change the title: 14 00:00:35,493 --> 00:00:36,870 The Love of My Life. 15 00:00:36,870 --> 00:00:39,164 I mean, it's not exactly a romance, right? So. 16 00:00:39,330 --> 00:00:41,416 (Clare crying) 17 00:00:42,876 --> 00:00:45,253 It sort of is, right? 18 00:00:45,253 --> 00:00:48,423 Because of the love that I have for my mom, 19 00:00:48,423 --> 00:00:49,674 who died when I was-- 20 00:00:49,674 --> 00:00:51,134 Right. Totally. 21 00:00:51,134 --> 00:00:52,552 But... 22 00:00:52,552 --> 00:00:55,180 I mean, it's also about some pretty mind-blowing sex. 23 00:00:55,346 --> 00:00:56,848 (Clare crying) 24 00:00:57,015 --> 00:00:59,976 But then, this volcanic sadness about your mom, 25 00:01:00,518 --> 00:01:03,438 and just so much crying. 26 00:01:03,438 --> 00:01:05,857 Okay. So I... 27 00:01:06,858 --> 00:01:08,401 It's all one thing, right? 28 00:01:08,735 --> 00:01:10,570 I'm-- I'm making a connection 29 00:01:10,570 --> 00:01:12,822 between two things that seem separate. 30 00:01:12,822 --> 00:01:15,617 - There's sex... and grief. - (Young Clare moaning) 31 00:01:15,617 --> 00:01:17,202 - PABLO: Right. - And I'm-- 32 00:01:17,202 --> 00:01:19,788 Totally. Totally. Yes. Okay? 33 00:01:19,788 --> 00:01:22,916 And... it is a... 34 00:01:23,875 --> 00:01:25,502 - It's a brilliant essay. - Mm-hmm. 35 00:01:25,502 --> 00:01:28,463 PABLO: But our readers, they want the fucking, right? 36 00:01:28,463 --> 00:01:30,215 They want that raw Denis Johnson shit. 37 00:01:30,507 --> 00:01:32,300 And if you fix this, 38 00:01:32,300 --> 00:01:35,220 you could be, like, a female Denis Johnson. 39 00:01:35,220 --> 00:01:36,638 You could be, like, Denise Johnson. 40 00:01:36,638 --> 00:01:38,389 Okay. Sorry. I don't wanna-- 41 00:01:41,559 --> 00:01:43,978 I don't think it needs to be fixed. 42 00:01:43,978 --> 00:01:47,148 Sorry, I just-- I believe in my work. 43 00:01:47,148 --> 00:01:48,566 Look. 44 00:01:48,566 --> 00:01:52,195 Unless you significantly revise it, 45 00:01:52,195 --> 00:01:54,072 I don't think that I can publish. 46 00:01:54,072 --> 00:01:56,199 Pablo, this is one of the strongest pieces I've ever written. 47 00:01:56,199 --> 00:01:57,700 Agreed. Agreed. 48 00:01:57,700 --> 00:01:59,702 And I really want it published. 49 00:01:59,702 --> 00:02:00,954 I need it published. 50 00:02:00,954 --> 00:02:02,080 I know. 51 00:02:02,622 --> 00:02:03,706 Okay? 52 00:02:03,706 --> 00:02:05,250 So lose the sad. 53 00:02:11,005 --> 00:02:13,049 (crying) 54 00:02:17,303 --> 00:02:18,680 (exhales sharply) 55 00:02:18,680 --> 00:02:20,014 (panting) 56 00:02:25,645 --> 00:02:27,105 {\an8}- (door slams) - Ah, shit! 57 00:02:27,856 --> 00:02:29,357 {\an8}Frank-- Uh, Rae? 58 00:02:34,487 --> 00:02:35,530 {\an8}Rae! 59 00:02:38,283 --> 00:02:40,034 Booker, you seen Rae? 60 00:02:41,661 --> 00:02:42,704 {\an8}(sighs) 61 00:02:46,875 --> 00:02:48,293 Oh, thank God. 62 00:02:51,045 --> 00:02:52,088 Oh, Rae. 63 00:02:52,797 --> 00:02:54,424 Rae, hi. If you-- 64 00:02:54,424 --> 00:02:58,011 Yeah, I've been calling for you to help me with the groceries. 65 00:03:00,597 --> 00:03:02,348 (sighs) How was the game? 66 00:03:02,807 --> 00:03:03,850 Stupid. 67 00:03:04,809 --> 00:03:05,852 Okay. 68 00:03:07,562 --> 00:03:08,605 So I know you-- 69 00:03:10,231 --> 00:03:11,691 I know you probably don't wanna talk about-- 70 00:03:11,816 --> 00:03:13,109 Correct. 71 00:03:14,611 --> 00:03:15,653 But... 72 00:03:16,946 --> 00:03:19,240 I know that you probably have had twosomes before... 73 00:03:19,240 --> 00:03:20,491 - RAE: Mom. - ...but this-- 74 00:03:20,491 --> 00:03:23,036 I think a-- a threesome is a big leap. 75 00:03:23,036 --> 00:03:24,495 So I was wondering 76 00:03:24,495 --> 00:03:26,581 if maybe you were subconsciously 77 00:03:26,581 --> 00:03:28,124 worried about our little threesome. 78 00:03:28,124 --> 00:03:29,125 - About... - What? 79 00:03:29,125 --> 00:03:31,127 CLAR: ...me and you and Dad. 80 00:03:31,127 --> 00:03:33,630 - Eww! Ew! Ew! Ew! - No, I don't mean it in that same way. 81 00:03:33,630 --> 00:03:36,341 I'm just-- I'm not saying it in a-- I'm-- 82 00:03:36,341 --> 00:03:38,718 Not everything is about you. 83 00:03:41,512 --> 00:03:42,430 (Rae sighs) 84 00:03:42,430 --> 00:03:44,057 Is this-- Is this about Carmen? 85 00:03:44,933 --> 00:03:47,060 Montana. Her name is Montana now. 86 00:03:47,060 --> 00:03:48,269 - I told you that. - (Clare sighs) 87 00:03:49,229 --> 00:03:50,688 Of course, it is. 88 00:03:50,688 --> 00:03:53,024 Why not name yourself after a beloved red state? 89 00:03:53,024 --> 00:03:54,859 You know, she won't even return my texts anymore? 90 00:03:55,568 --> 00:03:57,153 So, yeah. Thank you! 91 00:03:57,153 --> 00:03:58,655 Sorry, I didn't mean to make fun of her. 92 00:03:58,655 --> 00:03:59,781 Mmm... 93 00:04:02,033 --> 00:04:03,743 (softly) Mel is gonna gloat. 94 00:04:03,743 --> 00:04:05,495 She-- She just always gets gloaty 95 00:04:05,495 --> 00:04:07,247 when we ask for an emergency session. 96 00:04:07,247 --> 00:04:09,415 Well, our 16-year-old having a fucking threesome 97 00:04:09,415 --> 00:04:10,875 kinda warrants one. 98 00:04:13,670 --> 00:04:15,880 CLARE: I think it was Montana's idea. 99 00:04:15,880 --> 00:04:17,382 Yeah. That girl is a bad seed. 100 00:04:17,382 --> 00:04:18,967 It's why I never drive her home. 101 00:04:18,967 --> 00:04:20,802 Shit! I can't find my wallet. 102 00:04:22,553 --> 00:04:26,182 Do you know-- Do you know that her mother sells salt? 103 00:04:26,182 --> 00:04:30,311 Yeah. She imports hand-gathered sea salt. 104 00:04:30,311 --> 00:04:32,772 That is her actual job. 105 00:04:32,772 --> 00:04:35,191 I think they live in Spain. 106 00:04:35,191 --> 00:04:37,443 Or maybe they have a house there or something. 107 00:04:37,443 --> 00:04:39,112 - Mm-hmm. - I don't know. 108 00:04:39,112 --> 00:04:42,073 All I know is that they're rich and cosmopolitan, 109 00:04:42,073 --> 00:04:43,241 and we're poor and boring. 110 00:04:43,241 --> 00:04:44,659 I bet that they're the kind of family 111 00:04:44,659 --> 00:04:46,035 that does molly 112 00:04:46,035 --> 00:04:47,912 and then just, like, has dinner together. 113 00:04:49,372 --> 00:04:51,916 Okay, well, Rae is never eating dinner there again. 114 00:04:51,916 --> 00:04:53,459 Or-- Or any other meal. 115 00:04:53,459 --> 00:04:55,420 Lunch or snack or anything else, for that matter. 116 00:04:55,420 --> 00:04:59,507 Well, you know, the good news is nobody had sex at our house. 117 00:04:59,507 --> 00:05:01,342 Intent to commit is still a crime. 118 00:05:06,973 --> 00:05:09,851 I don't know. I-- I think that... 119 00:05:09,851 --> 00:05:12,312 almost doing something is different... 120 00:05:13,062 --> 00:05:14,814 from actually doing it. 121 00:05:14,814 --> 00:05:16,524 - (car engine starts) - (Danny sighs) 122 00:05:17,442 --> 00:05:19,402 I don't know, she's just-- 123 00:05:19,402 --> 00:05:21,696 - She's gotta be smarter, you know? - Yeah. 124 00:05:22,905 --> 00:05:26,284 Last thing we need is a-- a surprise pregnancy. 125 00:05:28,619 --> 00:05:29,662 (phone chimes) 126 00:05:35,126 --> 00:05:36,210 {\an8}MAN: Dear Sugar... 127 00:05:36,336 --> 00:05:37,670 For people out there who aren't 128 00:05:37,670 --> 00:05:40,423 lucky enough to just know, 129 00:05:40,423 --> 00:05:42,800 how do you decide whether or not to have kids? 130 00:05:43,760 --> 00:05:46,220 I'm 41, I love my life, 131 00:05:46,220 --> 00:05:48,222 and I don't really want to give it up. 132 00:05:49,432 --> 00:05:52,101 I'm a guy who is happy without kids. 133 00:05:52,101 --> 00:05:55,772 But I also could be really happy with kids. 134 00:05:55,772 --> 00:05:59,067 I've always pictured myself as a father... someday. 135 00:06:00,443 --> 00:06:01,778 But now, someday's here. 136 00:06:01,778 --> 00:06:04,655 And, uh, I don't feel ready. 137 00:06:05,531 --> 00:06:06,991 Can you help me, Sugar? 138 00:06:06,991 --> 00:06:09,285 Signed, Undecided. 139 00:06:16,793 --> 00:06:17,835 Oh, my God. 140 00:06:19,962 --> 00:06:21,214 Danny. 141 00:06:24,967 --> 00:06:26,302 Hi. 142 00:06:27,595 --> 00:06:28,638 Hi. 143 00:06:29,555 --> 00:06:31,933 (both laughing) 144 00:06:31,933 --> 00:06:33,267 YOUNG CLARE: So, how's the band? 145 00:06:33,267 --> 00:06:36,104 You guys... back out on the road again? 146 00:06:36,104 --> 00:06:37,480 As long as the van's still running. 147 00:06:37,480 --> 00:06:38,773 (laughing) 148 00:06:38,773 --> 00:06:40,441 YOUNG DANNY: And I guess this label in Chicago 149 00:06:40,441 --> 00:06:42,193 might sign us on, so. 150 00:06:42,193 --> 00:06:44,362 - YOUNG CLARE: What? - DANNY: Yeah. Really. 151 00:06:44,362 --> 00:06:46,364 - Wow. - Yeah. 152 00:06:46,364 --> 00:06:48,616 But how's the-- the writing? 153 00:06:48,616 --> 00:06:50,368 Oh, um... 154 00:06:50,368 --> 00:06:51,869 - Yeah, it's-- It's good. - Yeah? 155 00:06:51,869 --> 00:06:53,287 It's fine. It's, um... 156 00:06:56,457 --> 00:06:58,835 I wrote something about my mom that-- 157 00:06:58,835 --> 00:07:01,295 It might-- It might be published. 158 00:07:01,295 --> 00:07:02,797 - What? - YOUNG CLARE: Yeah. 159 00:07:02,797 --> 00:07:03,923 But, uh, I-- 160 00:07:05,049 --> 00:07:06,926 It's just co-- It's complicated. Um... 161 00:07:06,926 --> 00:07:09,345 - That's... amazing. - Yeah. 162 00:07:09,345 --> 00:07:11,013 Can I... read it? 163 00:07:12,056 --> 00:07:13,516 I'll let you know. 164 00:07:13,516 --> 00:07:15,143 Of course. Of course. 165 00:07:17,145 --> 00:07:20,189 How's Lucas? He's still living at your mom's place? 166 00:07:20,189 --> 00:07:21,315 Um, yeah. 167 00:07:21,315 --> 00:07:23,317 Well... 168 00:07:23,317 --> 00:07:24,777 He's supposed to be, but most of the time, 169 00:07:24,777 --> 00:07:25,778 he just crashes at mine. 170 00:07:25,778 --> 00:07:27,697 - Mmm. - CLARE: Yeah. 171 00:07:27,697 --> 00:07:28,823 He's lonely. 172 00:07:30,741 --> 00:07:31,784 Yeah. 173 00:07:32,326 --> 00:07:33,327 Yeah. 174 00:07:33,327 --> 00:07:34,287 Hm. 175 00:07:36,664 --> 00:07:37,748 Hm. 176 00:07:39,584 --> 00:07:43,588 ("Are you Gonna Be My Girl" by Jet playing) 177 00:07:48,426 --> 00:07:50,428 ♪ So one, two, three Take my hand and come with me ♪ 178 00:07:50,428 --> 00:07:53,431 ♪ Because you look so fine that I really wanna make you mine ♪ 179 00:07:55,016 --> 00:07:58,144 ♪ I say you look so fine that I really wanna make you mine ♪ 180 00:07:59,854 --> 00:08:02,190 Thank you for meeting with us last minute, so. 181 00:08:02,315 --> 00:08:03,191 Yeah. 182 00:08:03,316 --> 00:08:05,485 - I'm glad I was able to fit you in. - DANNY: Yeah. 183 00:08:08,237 --> 00:08:11,240 So, uh, um, I came, uh, 184 00:08:11,240 --> 00:08:13,201 I came home early from work the other day-- 185 00:08:13,201 --> 00:08:14,535 Yeah. Before she was put on leave. 186 00:08:16,996 --> 00:08:18,956 Okay. Um... 187 00:08:18,956 --> 00:08:22,502 And, uh, there I heard some noises coming from down the hall. 188 00:08:22,502 --> 00:08:23,794 And what kind of noises? 189 00:08:23,794 --> 00:08:27,590 (both moaning) 190 00:08:27,590 --> 00:08:30,301 Uh, sex-ish noises. 191 00:08:32,386 --> 00:08:33,387 (moaning) 192 00:08:33,387 --> 00:08:37,183 At first... I thought it was Danny. 193 00:08:37,725 --> 00:08:38,851 What? 194 00:08:38,851 --> 00:08:41,312 They were coming from our bedroom. (scoffs) 195 00:08:41,312 --> 00:08:43,981 Who would-- Who the fuck would I be having sex with? 196 00:08:43,981 --> 00:08:47,360 I don't know. You kicked me out of the house, 197 00:08:47,360 --> 00:08:50,029 - so I don't know what you're doing. - Okay, Clare. Jesus. 198 00:08:51,322 --> 00:08:53,282 - CLARE: That's where we are! Sorry. - (Danny sighs) 199 00:08:54,408 --> 00:08:55,910 (scoffs) 200 00:08:55,910 --> 00:08:57,745 Then I-- I open the door... 201 00:08:59,872 --> 00:09:02,667 Then I open the door, and it was... Rae. 202 00:09:02,667 --> 00:09:04,460 And she was with two of her friends. 203 00:09:04,460 --> 00:09:05,670 - They were half-naked, - DANNY: Oh. 204 00:09:05,670 --> 00:09:07,255 and they were just kind of, 205 00:09:07,255 --> 00:09:08,756 uh, tangled up on the bed. 206 00:09:09,590 --> 00:09:11,217 - So. - Were they having sex? 207 00:09:11,217 --> 00:09:13,719 No. No, they weren't. Luckily. 208 00:09:13,719 --> 00:09:15,012 Well, you weren't there. 209 00:09:15,012 --> 00:09:17,974 Um, it's-- it's debatable, I guess. 210 00:09:17,974 --> 00:09:21,978 (chuckles lightly) I don't think I've ever seen you so... 211 00:09:21,978 --> 00:09:24,272 Are you uncomfortable talking about sex? 212 00:09:24,272 --> 00:09:25,523 Uh, yeah, when it-- 213 00:09:25,523 --> 00:09:27,525 when it refers to my 16-year-old daughter. 214 00:09:27,525 --> 00:09:28,985 Absolutely. Hell, yeah. I'm-- I'm-- 215 00:09:28,985 --> 00:09:31,654 I'm-- I'm uncomfortable. What? 216 00:09:31,654 --> 00:09:34,740 And with you and Clare? 217 00:09:34,740 --> 00:09:36,784 - What? - Yeah. What about us? 218 00:09:36,784 --> 00:09:38,244 I mean, 219 00:09:38,244 --> 00:09:39,870 are you both 220 00:09:39,870 --> 00:09:41,330 having it? 221 00:09:41,330 --> 00:09:42,456 Together? 222 00:09:48,004 --> 00:09:48,879 (chuckles lightly) 223 00:09:51,799 --> 00:09:52,925 I wrote a song about you. 224 00:09:55,386 --> 00:09:56,429 Really? 225 00:09:57,722 --> 00:10:01,017 It's not done yet, but... yeah. 226 00:10:03,519 --> 00:10:04,478 I wanna hear it. 227 00:10:04,478 --> 00:10:05,896 (chuckles) Of course, you do. 228 00:10:08,190 --> 00:10:10,234 - Maybe, I don't. - Mmm. (chuckles) 229 00:10:11,152 --> 00:10:12,194 Nah, you do. 230 00:10:13,237 --> 00:10:15,281 And it's good. 231 00:10:15,281 --> 00:10:16,991 Will you send it to me when it's finished? 232 00:10:16,991 --> 00:10:18,200 I'll think about it. 233 00:10:20,453 --> 00:10:22,330 Only if you send me what you wrote about your mom. 234 00:10:22,330 --> 00:10:23,831 - CLARE: Mm. - Then we have a deal. 235 00:10:23,831 --> 00:10:25,541 - No, that's different. - How? 236 00:10:25,541 --> 00:10:27,209 - That's different than a song. - No, it's not. 237 00:10:28,544 --> 00:10:30,004 It's your creation. 238 00:10:30,796 --> 00:10:31,881 We make things. 239 00:10:34,425 --> 00:10:35,468 And we share them. 240 00:10:37,219 --> 00:10:40,348 At least... we used to. 241 00:10:40,348 --> 00:10:42,933 I mean, it's been-- I mean, it's-- 242 00:10:45,436 --> 00:10:46,937 (exhales) It's-- It's been-- 243 00:10:46,937 --> 00:10:48,564 I think we're really here to talk about Rae. 244 00:10:48,564 --> 00:10:49,565 (scoffs) Yeah. 245 00:10:49,565 --> 00:10:50,566 DANNY: And what's going on. 246 00:10:50,566 --> 00:10:52,151 And-- And-- And how-- 247 00:10:52,151 --> 00:10:53,611 how she's being influenced. 248 00:10:53,611 --> 00:10:54,862 Well, I mean, 249 00:10:54,862 --> 00:10:56,906 the most embedded messages 250 00:10:56,906 --> 00:10:59,659 usually come from in the home, so. 251 00:11:00,242 --> 00:11:01,535 So... what? 252 00:11:03,621 --> 00:11:05,247 I've read your work. 253 00:11:05,247 --> 00:11:07,249 I looked you up right after we first started. 254 00:11:07,249 --> 00:11:09,960 You are a very powerful writer. 255 00:11:10,419 --> 00:11:11,504 But-- 256 00:11:11,504 --> 00:11:13,756 (exhales) Okay, there's a "but." 257 00:11:13,756 --> 00:11:16,592 Do you think there's a chance she read your Whore essay? 258 00:11:17,843 --> 00:11:18,886 Slut. 259 00:11:19,595 --> 00:11:20,638 The-- 260 00:11:22,890 --> 00:11:24,225 The essay was called Slut. 261 00:11:24,225 --> 00:11:25,768 And there's no threesomes in it. 262 00:11:29,730 --> 00:11:32,525 I mean, if you listen to any of his lyrics-- 263 00:11:32,525 --> 00:11:34,860 'Cause his lyrics are pretty sexually explicit. 264 00:11:34,860 --> 00:11:36,570 - What the hell? - CLARE: I'm just saying. 265 00:11:36,570 --> 00:11:39,031 "Your thighs bring me closer to God"? 266 00:11:40,199 --> 00:11:41,242 Maybe she heard that. 267 00:11:43,202 --> 00:11:44,495 That's Nine Inch Nails. 268 00:11:45,788 --> 00:11:47,623 Except the thighs part. 269 00:11:47,623 --> 00:11:49,667 Do you not remember my songs anymore? 270 00:11:50,626 --> 00:11:51,669 Of course, I do! 271 00:11:54,004 --> 00:11:55,214 Most of them were about you. 272 00:11:58,968 --> 00:12:01,303 (Mel continues writing) 273 00:12:02,263 --> 00:12:03,305 Danny. 274 00:12:04,432 --> 00:12:06,559 Of course, I remember your songs. 275 00:12:06,559 --> 00:12:09,186 Can-- Can we just go back to hating Montana? 276 00:12:10,229 --> 00:12:12,732 See, Mel always just makes things worse. 277 00:12:12,732 --> 00:12:15,192 (scoffs) Always. 278 00:12:15,192 --> 00:12:17,945 You know, I think that we just have to do something. 279 00:12:17,945 --> 00:12:18,946 I do. 280 00:12:18,946 --> 00:12:20,156 I-- I think that we need 281 00:12:20,156 --> 00:12:21,741 to go talk to Montana's mother. 282 00:12:21,741 --> 00:12:22,950 Why? 283 00:12:22,950 --> 00:12:24,410 Try to buy some salt from her? 284 00:12:24,410 --> 00:12:27,079 No, because I think that her daughter 285 00:12:27,079 --> 00:12:29,790 just forced our daughter to do something, 286 00:12:29,790 --> 00:12:32,001 - and that she needs to know that. - Nah. Again, no. 287 00:12:32,001 --> 00:12:34,003 - Because she obviously has no clue. - DANNY: No. 288 00:12:34,003 --> 00:12:35,463 And I think that she actually 289 00:12:35,463 --> 00:12:37,381 used our house for that bullshit! 290 00:12:37,381 --> 00:12:39,133 Yeah. No. No. 291 00:12:39,133 --> 00:12:40,718 Danny! Danny? 292 00:12:40,718 --> 00:12:43,262 No, Clare. Drop it. 293 00:12:46,223 --> 00:12:48,976 YOUNG CLARE: Ah, fuck! Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. 294 00:12:48,976 --> 00:12:50,019 Dude, are you okay? 295 00:12:50,019 --> 00:12:51,854 Why-- Why are you saying, "Fuck"? 296 00:12:53,272 --> 00:12:54,356 Fuck! 297 00:12:54,356 --> 00:12:56,192 ("Mr. Brightside" by The Killers playing) 298 00:12:56,192 --> 00:12:57,735 (door closes) 299 00:12:57,735 --> 00:13:00,029 ♪ Coming out of my cage And I've been doing just fine ♪ 300 00:13:00,029 --> 00:13:02,156 YOUNG AMY: Fuck-me boots? Really? 301 00:13:02,156 --> 00:13:03,574 You sure that's a good plan? 302 00:13:03,574 --> 00:13:05,326 Are you gonna fuck the baby out? 303 00:13:05,326 --> 00:13:08,204 (scoffs) Amy! You're terrible. 304 00:13:08,204 --> 00:13:10,498 You're the one who hasn't told Danny. 305 00:13:12,249 --> 00:13:14,168 I'm gonna have an abortion. 306 00:13:14,168 --> 00:13:16,128 They say good things happen in threes. 307 00:13:18,547 --> 00:13:20,132 I never should've one on that hike. 308 00:13:20,758 --> 00:13:22,551 I should've just-- 309 00:13:22,551 --> 00:13:25,137 I should've just gone to Don Guac's 310 00:13:25,137 --> 00:13:28,891 and gotten a burrito like a normal hungover person. 311 00:13:28,891 --> 00:13:31,310 You probably would've run into Danny there too. 312 00:13:31,310 --> 00:13:33,646 Isn't that, like, your place? 313 00:13:33,646 --> 00:13:36,732 - Oohh, can I borrow this? - Take it. 314 00:13:36,732 --> 00:13:38,901 Goth maternity wear isn't really a... 315 00:13:40,277 --> 00:13:41,695 thing. 316 00:13:41,695 --> 00:13:43,781 So now you're not getting an abortion? 317 00:13:43,781 --> 00:13:47,159 I don't know. I don't know what I'm doing! 318 00:13:47,159 --> 00:13:50,079 I-- I don't know. What would you do? 319 00:13:50,079 --> 00:13:52,915 I'm never having kids, so I wouldn't have it. 320 00:13:52,915 --> 00:13:54,041 Wait, what? 321 00:13:55,000 --> 00:13:56,168 How did I not know this? 322 00:13:56,168 --> 00:13:57,753 People freak out if you don't wanna be a mom. 323 00:13:57,753 --> 00:13:59,088 It's like a mortal sin. 324 00:13:59,088 --> 00:14:01,799 Oh, well, people are stupid. 325 00:14:01,799 --> 00:14:03,300 I might feel different about the whole deal 326 00:14:03,300 --> 00:14:04,802 if I had had a mom like yours. 327 00:14:10,307 --> 00:14:11,350 Mm. 328 00:14:14,186 --> 00:14:16,355 What if this is the last time I wear these boots? 329 00:14:18,399 --> 00:14:20,901 - You're not dying. - I feel like I am. 330 00:14:20,901 --> 00:14:22,528 You're not. 331 00:14:22,528 --> 00:14:24,822 You're just maybe gonna have a baby. 332 00:14:24,822 --> 00:14:25,906 (Clare chuckles derisively) 333 00:14:25,906 --> 00:14:27,825 Or maybe not. 334 00:14:27,825 --> 00:14:30,327 Either way, you need to tell Danny. 335 00:14:30,327 --> 00:14:31,871 YOUNG DANNY: I thought you were on the pill! 336 00:14:31,871 --> 00:14:34,164 Well, I stopped taking it after we fucking broke up 337 00:14:34,164 --> 00:14:37,543 to give my-- give my body a break from the hormones! 338 00:14:37,543 --> 00:14:39,753 Fuck! I don't think you understand. 339 00:14:39,753 --> 00:14:42,590 Like, I-- I seriously can't deal with this right now. I have-- 340 00:14:42,590 --> 00:14:44,091 Okay. Okay, Danny, I'm sorry 341 00:14:44,091 --> 00:14:45,759 - it's so stressful for you! - DANNY: Stop! Stop! 342 00:14:45,885 --> 00:14:47,428 - That's not what I meant! - Why are you yelling? 343 00:14:47,553 --> 00:14:49,805 Because I'm fucking frustrated! 344 00:14:49,930 --> 00:14:51,307 And we're both yelling. 345 00:14:51,307 --> 00:14:52,516 (softly) You yelled first. 346 00:14:54,310 --> 00:14:56,186 Clare, I can barely pay rent. 347 00:14:57,104 --> 00:14:59,523 (scoffs) And the band-- 348 00:14:59,523 --> 00:15:03,193 I can't be in South America when you're having a baby, Clare. 349 00:15:03,193 --> 00:15:04,278 I can't. 350 00:15:04,278 --> 00:15:06,113 - South America? - YOUNG DANNY: Yeah. 351 00:15:07,281 --> 00:15:08,616 Brazil and Argentina. 352 00:15:08,616 --> 00:15:09,992 Shit. 353 00:15:11,285 --> 00:15:12,328 What? 354 00:15:13,329 --> 00:15:14,538 Shit! 355 00:15:14,538 --> 00:15:16,081 - We're just... - Danny, shit! 356 00:15:16,081 --> 00:15:17,625 ...the openers. 357 00:15:17,625 --> 00:15:20,419 It's not-- Well, first of two openers. It's nothing. 358 00:15:20,419 --> 00:15:21,962 What-- What am I talking about? 359 00:15:21,962 --> 00:15:24,381 I feel like a fucking asshole talking about my band right now! 360 00:15:24,381 --> 00:15:25,841 Who cares about my band? 361 00:15:25,841 --> 00:15:27,885 I care about your band. You care about your band. 362 00:15:28,844 --> 00:15:29,887 And you should. 363 00:15:32,139 --> 00:15:34,558 I love... I love your band. 364 00:15:37,061 --> 00:15:38,103 I love you. 365 00:15:40,773 --> 00:15:44,818 And I don't wanna be some cliché of an absentee father either. 366 00:15:44,818 --> 00:15:46,320 My family will fucking disown me. 367 00:15:46,320 --> 00:15:48,322 (Danny sighs) 368 00:15:49,198 --> 00:15:50,157 (softly) Fuck! 369 00:15:53,744 --> 00:15:55,537 Yeah, that's-- 370 00:15:55,537 --> 00:15:56,830 That's not the same as loving me. 371 00:15:56,830 --> 00:15:58,499 I do love you. 372 00:15:58,499 --> 00:15:59,708 You fucking know that, Clare. 373 00:16:06,131 --> 00:16:07,675 Okay. Um... 374 00:16:12,846 --> 00:16:15,224 - The timing's terrible. Obviously. - Yeah. 375 00:16:15,224 --> 00:16:16,684 Yeah, we're not even together. 376 00:16:19,228 --> 00:16:21,855 - This isn't that hard to figure out. - You know, I mean-- 377 00:16:21,855 --> 00:16:23,440 I mean, if this is how we got back together, 378 00:16:23,440 --> 00:16:25,526 - we always knew this would be the reason. - Exactly. 379 00:16:29,405 --> 00:16:31,740 I'd have to give up music. 380 00:16:31,740 --> 00:16:34,868 I'd have to-- I'd-- I'd have to get a-- a desk job 381 00:16:34,868 --> 00:16:36,578 or whatever gives benefits. 382 00:16:36,578 --> 00:16:37,621 Like, what are my skills? 383 00:16:37,621 --> 00:16:38,622 What-- What can I even do? 384 00:16:38,622 --> 00:16:40,082 I'ma have to go back to school, 385 00:16:40,082 --> 00:16:41,583 get a fucking degree. 386 00:16:41,583 --> 00:16:44,461 Danny, stop! Just stop for a second. 387 00:16:51,927 --> 00:16:53,971 ♪ 388 00:16:57,141 --> 00:16:58,183 It's okay. 389 00:17:00,436 --> 00:17:02,187 - No, it's not-- - It's okay. 390 00:17:03,230 --> 00:17:04,356 We broke up for a reason. 391 00:17:06,108 --> 00:17:09,194 We need to go out, and we need to live our lives. 392 00:17:09,194 --> 00:17:12,239 You go on tour. Fucking kill Argentina. 393 00:17:12,239 --> 00:17:13,866 Fucking kill Brazil! 394 00:17:13,866 --> 00:17:14,992 I'm gonna-- 395 00:17:16,243 --> 00:17:18,537 I'm gonna go to Iceland and climb a... 396 00:17:18,537 --> 00:17:20,414 glacier or something. 397 00:17:21,999 --> 00:17:23,542 I'm gonna live my life. 398 00:17:25,961 --> 00:17:27,629 And I think you should live yours. 399 00:17:28,589 --> 00:17:31,633 (somber music playing) 400 00:17:35,721 --> 00:17:37,681 (distant dog barking) 401 00:17:37,681 --> 00:17:39,600 Ugh, what the fuck? 402 00:17:40,225 --> 00:17:43,020 (panting) 403 00:17:43,020 --> 00:17:44,313 MONTANA: Mrs. Pierce? 404 00:17:45,439 --> 00:17:48,817 Oh, hi, uh, Montana. 405 00:17:49,359 --> 00:17:50,819 (panting) 406 00:17:50,819 --> 00:17:52,571 It's a lot of stairs. 407 00:17:53,322 --> 00:17:54,656 Grocery day must be a... 408 00:17:54,656 --> 00:17:56,658 (panting) 409 00:17:56,658 --> 00:17:57,785 ...a workout! 410 00:17:57,785 --> 00:17:59,745 Oh, our groceries are delivered. 411 00:17:59,745 --> 00:18:03,749 But I get it. It takes my grandma, like, a half hour. 412 00:18:03,749 --> 00:18:06,752 Can I get you a beverage? Or perhaps a towel? 413 00:18:06,752 --> 00:18:09,088 Uh, that's okay. I just, um... 414 00:18:09,963 --> 00:18:11,590 Uh... 415 00:18:11,590 --> 00:18:14,343 (exhales) Actually, water would be great. Thank you so much. 416 00:18:14,343 --> 00:18:16,887 Uh, still, sparkling, or pH-enhanced? 417 00:18:17,721 --> 00:18:19,181 Never mind, that's okay. 418 00:18:19,181 --> 00:18:21,683 Uh, is your, uh... (exhales) 419 00:18:23,185 --> 00:18:24,520 (exhales) Excuse me. 420 00:18:24,520 --> 00:18:26,105 Is your mom home? I was, uh, 421 00:18:26,105 --> 00:18:27,856 hoping to speak with your mom. 422 00:18:27,856 --> 00:18:29,608 She's in Barcelona. 423 00:18:31,151 --> 00:18:32,319 Of course, she is. 424 00:18:32,861 --> 00:18:34,696 Is there anything else I can help you with? 425 00:18:36,448 --> 00:18:37,491 Actually... 426 00:18:38,534 --> 00:18:39,743 I was wondering... 427 00:18:43,455 --> 00:18:45,666 what made you think it was a good idea 428 00:18:45,666 --> 00:18:50,546 to orchestrate an orgy in me and my husband's bedroom? 429 00:18:51,755 --> 00:18:53,006 That was Rae's idea. 430 00:18:53,966 --> 00:18:54,925 That's bullshit. 431 00:18:54,925 --> 00:18:56,677 Maybe you weren't aware that she's 432 00:18:56,677 --> 00:18:58,470 completely obsessed with me. 433 00:18:58,470 --> 00:18:59,763 I mean, why do you think 434 00:18:59,763 --> 00:19:02,099 she decided to start going by her middle name? 435 00:19:02,099 --> 00:19:03,308 What? 436 00:19:03,308 --> 00:19:06,103 I said "Rae" was cooler. 437 00:19:06,103 --> 00:19:08,147 I can't help that she's in love with me. 438 00:19:08,897 --> 00:19:09,940 Look, 439 00:19:11,150 --> 00:19:12,484 you little entitled, 440 00:19:13,360 --> 00:19:15,320 fucking, pretentious, 441 00:19:15,320 --> 00:19:17,489 little, fucking dipshit. 442 00:19:18,073 --> 00:19:21,493 First of all, her name is not for you to change. 443 00:19:22,035 --> 00:19:25,414 Second, if someone is in love with you, 444 00:19:25,414 --> 00:19:27,624 you treat them with respect. 445 00:19:27,833 --> 00:19:29,543 Are you sure you don't want a towel? 446 00:19:29,960 --> 00:19:33,755 (exhales) You treat their heart 447 00:19:33,755 --> 00:19:37,134 like you are holding a fucking day-old duckling 448 00:19:37,134 --> 00:19:41,722 whose neck could break at any fucking second, okay? 449 00:19:41,722 --> 00:19:44,516 Oh, my God, duckling? Are you, like, 50? 450 00:19:44,516 --> 00:19:46,768 No, I'm fucking 49 years old! 451 00:19:46,768 --> 00:19:49,021 And I know how to have a fucking threesome. 452 00:19:49,021 --> 00:19:51,565 Not that pathetic little pussy-ass shit! 453 00:19:51,565 --> 00:19:54,151 That's offensive and self-hating. 454 00:19:54,151 --> 00:19:55,652 Do you have any idea 455 00:19:55,652 --> 00:19:59,072 how fucking lucky you are to be loved by her? 456 00:19:59,072 --> 00:20:00,532 I would fucking kill 457 00:20:00,532 --> 00:20:02,201 to have a fucking ounce of that love, 458 00:20:02,201 --> 00:20:04,036 and she wastes it on you? 459 00:20:04,036 --> 00:20:06,663 What kinda fucking name is "Montana"? 460 00:20:06,663 --> 00:20:08,457 Who are you? Fucking Brad Pitt 461 00:20:08,457 --> 00:20:10,042 in fucking A River Runs Through It, 462 00:20:10,042 --> 00:20:11,627 thinking everyone wants to fuck you 463 00:20:11,627 --> 00:20:13,462 because you have fucking great hair? 464 00:20:14,213 --> 00:20:15,589 (kid chuckles) 465 00:20:20,469 --> 00:20:23,013 Okay, your-- That child was filming this, 466 00:20:23,013 --> 00:20:25,098 so you could ask him to fucking kindly delete it 467 00:20:25,098 --> 00:20:26,308 from the apps. 468 00:20:26,308 --> 00:20:27,434 All the apps. 469 00:20:30,854 --> 00:20:32,814 (Rae sniffling) 470 00:20:36,777 --> 00:20:37,819 CLARE: Hey, guys. 471 00:20:39,446 --> 00:20:40,656 What's wrong? 472 00:20:40,656 --> 00:20:42,282 (sobbing) You! 473 00:20:43,492 --> 00:20:44,743 - Well, I-- I-- - RAE: Please don't. 474 00:20:48,247 --> 00:20:49,748 There's a TikTok. 475 00:20:49,748 --> 00:20:51,917 (Rae crying) 476 00:20:51,917 --> 00:20:53,085 Of course, there is. 477 00:20:55,837 --> 00:20:57,881 Honey. Can I-- 478 00:20:58,632 --> 00:20:59,675 (door rattles) 479 00:21:02,052 --> 00:21:05,681 Okay. If you wanna talk about anything, 480 00:21:05,681 --> 00:21:06,974 I-- I'm right-- I'm right here-- 481 00:21:06,974 --> 00:21:08,183 RAE: I won't! 482 00:21:08,183 --> 00:21:09,518 Ever! 483 00:21:12,938 --> 00:21:13,981 (Danny sighs) 484 00:21:18,402 --> 00:21:19,486 What do you think of black? 485 00:21:21,613 --> 00:21:22,656 For a cradle? 486 00:21:25,200 --> 00:21:26,368 Yeah. Badass. 487 00:21:35,961 --> 00:21:37,004 What do you think? 488 00:21:37,546 --> 00:21:38,463 It's great. 489 00:21:38,463 --> 00:21:39,756 - CLARE: Yeah? - Mm-hm. 490 00:21:39,756 --> 00:21:41,174 For a tablecloth. 491 00:21:41,883 --> 00:21:43,010 (Clare laughs) 492 00:21:43,010 --> 00:21:44,136 Mom would love it. 493 00:21:44,928 --> 00:21:45,971 Yeah. 494 00:21:52,477 --> 00:21:55,105 Listen, I'm-- I'm gonna get a legit job and-- 495 00:21:55,105 --> 00:21:57,190 and help with the bills. 496 00:21:57,190 --> 00:22:00,319 Maybe we could move back to Mom's together. 497 00:22:02,487 --> 00:22:03,530 Yeah, maybe. 498 00:22:05,782 --> 00:22:07,659 You know, you're better off without that asshole. 499 00:22:10,078 --> 00:22:11,246 He's not an asshole. 500 00:22:18,920 --> 00:22:21,048 CLARE: Dear Undecided. 501 00:22:21,048 --> 00:22:24,092 Every life has a sister-ship. 502 00:22:24,092 --> 00:22:28,180 A ship that follows the path we could have taken but didn't. 503 00:22:29,848 --> 00:22:32,476 On that ship is the person we would've been 504 00:22:32,476 --> 00:22:34,519 if we had taken that phantom path. 505 00:22:37,314 --> 00:22:40,484 And that person lives a different phantom life 506 00:22:40,484 --> 00:22:41,985 than the one you're living now. 507 00:22:47,532 --> 00:22:51,787 So the question is: who do you intend to be? 508 00:22:57,459 --> 00:23:00,879 You believe you could be happy in any scenario, 509 00:23:03,256 --> 00:23:07,386 becoming a parent or remaining childless. 510 00:23:07,386 --> 00:23:10,514 And you wrote because you want clarity, 511 00:23:11,264 --> 00:23:12,474 but there won't be any. 512 00:23:14,142 --> 00:23:15,185 At least not yet. 513 00:23:16,603 --> 00:23:19,189 There will only be the choice you make 514 00:23:19,189 --> 00:23:22,859 and the sure knowledge that that choice, any choice, 515 00:23:22,859 --> 00:23:24,653 will contain some loss. 516 00:23:37,833 --> 00:23:42,754 So get out a pen and paper, and make a list. 517 00:23:42,754 --> 00:23:45,549 Write down everything you know about your real life 518 00:23:45,549 --> 00:23:47,676 and everything that you imagine 519 00:23:47,676 --> 00:23:49,302 - about your future life. - (Clare scoffs) 520 00:23:49,302 --> 00:23:51,346 And then look at them both. 521 00:23:51,346 --> 00:23:52,764 YOUNG LUCAS: Okay, let's take that. 522 00:23:52,973 --> 00:23:55,600 We gotta go. We gotta go now! 523 00:23:56,476 --> 00:23:59,479 (Clare groaning) 524 00:23:59,479 --> 00:24:01,314 - YOUNG LUCAS: I gotta get to the door. - Okay. Okay. 525 00:24:01,314 --> 00:24:02,774 - Oh! - Sorry. Sorry. 526 00:24:02,774 --> 00:24:05,444 - Oh, my fucking God! - I'm sorry. 527 00:24:05,444 --> 00:24:07,821 CLARE: One is the life you'll have 528 00:24:07,821 --> 00:24:10,824 and the other is the sister-life you won't. 529 00:24:10,824 --> 00:24:12,993 And you get to decide what to do. 530 00:24:12,993 --> 00:24:13,952 YOUNG LUCAS: Shit. 531 00:24:16,580 --> 00:24:19,166 CLARE: (on TikTok) And what the fuck kind of name is "Montana"? 532 00:24:19,166 --> 00:24:20,667 Who the fuck do you think you are? 533 00:24:20,667 --> 00:24:23,795 Fucking Brad Pitt in fucking A River Runs Through It? 534 00:24:23,795 --> 00:24:25,964 Fucking-- "Oh, everybody wants to fuck me--" 535 00:24:25,964 --> 00:24:28,842 - I can't. I can't! - Clare, yes, you can. 536 00:24:30,093 --> 00:24:31,761 - Yes, you can. - (groaning) 537 00:24:31,761 --> 00:24:33,555 CLARE: There are certain things I wouldn't know 538 00:24:33,555 --> 00:24:35,390 until I became a mom. 539 00:24:35,390 --> 00:24:39,436 And certain things I will never know because I became one. 540 00:24:44,608 --> 00:24:48,069 Who would I have been without my child the last 16 years? 541 00:24:49,404 --> 00:24:50,530 (exhales) 542 00:24:50,530 --> 00:24:52,115 Who would I have met if I had traveled 543 00:24:52,115 --> 00:24:53,283 to the corners of the Earth? 544 00:24:53,283 --> 00:24:55,327 And where would that have taken me? 545 00:24:55,785 --> 00:24:58,830 ♪ 546 00:25:06,171 --> 00:25:08,548 I just know the clarity that I'd longed for 547 00:25:08,548 --> 00:25:09,633 happened when I held 548 00:25:09,633 --> 00:25:11,426 my daughter's body against mine. 549 00:25:11,426 --> 00:25:12,844 What should we name her? 550 00:25:12,844 --> 00:25:14,804 CLARE: And in that moment, one life ended... 551 00:25:16,515 --> 00:25:17,682 and another began. 552 00:25:18,308 --> 00:25:19,351 Frankie. 553 00:25:22,354 --> 00:25:24,272 (baby fussing) 554 00:25:24,272 --> 00:25:25,899 Hi, little Frankie. 555 00:25:27,859 --> 00:25:29,444 - (laughing) Hi. - (Clare laughs) 556 00:25:33,782 --> 00:25:34,824 (door opens) 557 00:25:39,996 --> 00:25:41,122 You told me to live my life. 558 00:25:44,543 --> 00:25:45,585 This is it. 559 00:25:46,461 --> 00:25:48,505 ♪ 560 00:25:52,759 --> 00:25:54,052 CLARE: Do you wanna hold her? 561 00:25:54,052 --> 00:25:55,053 DANNY: Uh, yeah. 562 00:25:55,053 --> 00:25:56,179 CLARE: Here. 563 00:26:00,684 --> 00:26:01,726 DANNY: Hey. Hey. 564 00:26:02,811 --> 00:26:05,397 Hey, it's, uh... It's midnight. 565 00:26:10,694 --> 00:26:11,861 You think she's okay? 566 00:26:14,197 --> 00:26:15,949 I think she just needs space, you know? 567 00:26:16,658 --> 00:26:18,493 (Clare groans) 568 00:26:18,493 --> 00:26:19,786 DANNY: You should get some sleep. 569 00:26:20,912 --> 00:26:23,206 Why? What do I need to do tomorrow? 570 00:26:23,206 --> 00:26:25,250 (Danny chuckles) 571 00:26:25,250 --> 00:26:27,002 Maybe you wanna go for a hike or something? 572 00:26:27,502 --> 00:26:30,547 ♪ 573 00:26:32,882 --> 00:26:33,925 (chuckles lightly) 574 00:26:38,513 --> 00:26:39,556 Yeah. 575 00:26:40,390 --> 00:26:41,433 Maybe. 576 00:26:42,976 --> 00:26:46,021 ♪ 577 00:26:56,948 --> 00:26:58,950 I'll never know the life I didn't choose. 578 00:26:59,701 --> 00:27:01,911 And neither will you. 579 00:27:01,911 --> 00:27:05,248 We'll only know that whatever that sister-life was, 580 00:27:05,248 --> 00:27:07,792 it was important and beautiful. 581 00:27:08,585 --> 00:27:09,961 And not ours. 582 00:27:13,256 --> 00:27:14,549 Hey, pretty girl. 583 00:27:15,508 --> 00:27:16,551 Hey. 584 00:27:17,302 --> 00:27:18,303 Hey, man. 585 00:27:20,221 --> 00:27:22,349 Thank you. For everything. 586 00:27:26,436 --> 00:27:28,563 CLARE: It was the ghost ship that didn't carry us. 587 00:27:34,861 --> 00:27:38,657 There is nothing to do but salute her from the shore. 588 00:27:49,209 --> 00:27:50,251 Yours, 589 00:27:51,252 --> 00:27:52,295 Sugar. 590 00:27:54,089 --> 00:27:56,132 ("Looking Out" by Brandi Carlile playing) 591 00:27:58,009 --> 00:28:02,347 ♪ I went out looking for the answers ♪ 592 00:28:02,347 --> 00:28:05,517 ♪ And never left my town ♪ 593 00:28:05,517 --> 00:28:08,853 ♪ I'm no good at understanding ♪ 594 00:28:08,853 --> 00:28:12,065 ♪ But I'm good at standing ground ♪ 595 00:28:13,483 --> 00:28:17,237 ♪ And when I asked a corner preacher ♪ 596 00:28:17,237 --> 00:28:20,990 ♪ I couldn't hear him for my youth ♪ 597 00:28:20,990 --> 00:28:24,411 ♪ Some people get religion ♪ 598 00:28:24,411 --> 00:28:27,997 ♪ Some people get the truth ♪ 599 00:28:27,997 --> 00:28:30,917 ♪ I never get the truth ♪ 600 00:28:34,003 --> 00:28:38,174 ♪ I know the darkness pulls on you ♪ 601 00:28:38,174 --> 00:28:41,386 ♪ But it's just a point of view ♪ 602 00:28:41,386 --> 00:28:44,681 ♪ When you're outside looking in ♪ 603 00:28:44,681 --> 00:28:48,143 ♪ You belong to someone ♪ 604 00:28:48,143 --> 00:28:51,896 ♪ And when you feel like giving in ♪ 605 00:28:51,896 --> 00:28:55,191 ♪ Or the coming of the end ♪ 606 00:28:55,191 --> 00:28:59,195 ♪ Like your heart could break in two ♪ 607 00:28:59,195 --> 00:29:01,698 CHILD: Best day ever! 608 00:29:02,574 --> 00:29:05,326 Captioned by Point.360