1 00:00:09,634 --> 00:00:10,844 It's so good. 2 00:00:11,970 --> 00:00:13,930 Oh, I fucking love it. 3 00:00:13,930 --> 00:00:16,766 I felt like I was fucking. 4 00:00:20,186 --> 00:00:21,563 Thanks. 5 00:00:21,563 --> 00:00:23,189 Thank you. That's-- 6 00:00:24,733 --> 00:00:25,608 Thanks. 7 00:00:25,734 --> 00:00:27,318 It's just so raw. 8 00:00:27,694 --> 00:00:30,488 {\an8}I mean, our readers are gonna be blown away. 9 00:00:30,488 --> 00:00:33,533 {\an8} I mean, obviously, with a few edits. 10 00:00:33,742 --> 00:00:35,493 I mean, I think we can probably change the title: 11 00:00:35,493 --> 00:00:36,870 The Love of My Life. 12 00:00:36,870 --> 00:00:39,164 I mean, it's not exactly a romance, right? So. 13 00:00:42,876 --> 00:00:45,253 It sort of is, right? 14 00:00:45,253 --> 00:00:48,423 Because of the love that I have for my mom, 15 00:00:48,423 --> 00:00:49,674 who died when I was-- 16 00:00:49,674 --> 00:00:51,134 Right. Totally. 17 00:00:51,134 --> 00:00:52,552 But... 18 00:00:52,552 --> 00:00:55,180 I mean, it's also about some pretty mind-blowing sex. 19 00:00:57,015 --> 00:00:59,976 But then, this volcanic sadness about your mom, 20 00:01:00,518 --> 00:01:03,438 and just so much crying. 21 00:01:03,438 --> 00:01:05,857 Okay. So I... 22 00:01:06,858 --> 00:01:08,401 It's all one thing, right? 23 00:01:08,735 --> 00:01:10,570 I'm-- I'm making a connection 24 00:01:10,570 --> 00:01:12,822 between two things that seem separate. 25 00:01:12,822 --> 00:01:15,617 - There's sex... and grief. 26 00:01:15,617 --> 00:01:17,202 Right. - And I'm-- 27 00:01:17,202 --> 00:01:19,788 Totally. Totally. Yes. Okay? 28 00:01:19,788 --> 00:01:22,916 And... it is a... 29 00:01:23,875 --> 00:01:25,502 - It's a brilliant essay. - Mm-hmm. 30 00:01:25,502 --> 00:01:28,463 But our readers, they want the fucking, right? 31 00:01:28,463 --> 00:01:30,215 They want that raw Denis Johnson shit. 32 00:01:30,507 --> 00:01:32,300 And if you fix this, 33 00:01:32,300 --> 00:01:35,220 you could be, like, a female Denis Johnson. 34 00:01:35,220 --> 00:01:36,638 You could be, like, Denise Johnson. 35 00:01:36,638 --> 00:01:38,389 Okay. Sorry. I don't wanna-- 36 00:01:41,559 --> 00:01:43,978 I don't think it needs to be fixed. 37 00:01:43,978 --> 00:01:47,148 Sorry, I just-- I believe in my work. 38 00:01:47,148 --> 00:01:48,566 Look. 39 00:01:48,566 --> 00:01:52,195 Unless you significantly revise it, 40 00:01:52,195 --> 00:01:54,072 I don't think that I can publish. 41 00:01:54,072 --> 00:01:56,199 Pablo, this is one of the strongest pieces I've ever written. 42 00:01:56,199 --> 00:01:57,700 Agreed. Agreed. 43 00:01:57,700 --> 00:01:59,702 And I really want it published. 44 00:01:59,702 --> 00:02:00,954 I need it published. 45 00:02:00,954 --> 00:02:02,080 I know. 46 00:02:02,622 --> 00:02:03,706 Okay? 47 00:02:03,706 --> 00:02:05,250 So lose the sad. 48 00:02:25,645 --> 00:02:27,105 - Ah, shit! 49 00:02:27,856 --> 00:02:29,357 {\an8}Frank-- Uh, Rae? 50 00:02:34,487 --> 00:02:35,530 {\an8}Rae! 51 00:02:38,283 --> 00:02:40,034 Booker, you seen Rae? 52 00:02:46,875 --> 00:02:48,293 Oh, thank God. 53 00:02:51,045 --> 00:02:52,088 Oh, Rae. 54 00:02:52,797 --> 00:02:54,424 Rae, hi. If you-- 55 00:02:54,424 --> 00:02:58,011 Yeah, I've been calling for you to help me with the groceries. 56 00:03:00,597 --> 00:03:02,348 How was the game? 57 00:03:02,807 --> 00:03:03,850 Stupid. 58 00:03:04,809 --> 00:03:05,852 Okay. 59 00:03:07,562 --> 00:03:08,605 So I know you-- 60 00:03:10,231 --> 00:03:11,691 I know you probably don't wanna talk about-- 61 00:03:11,816 --> 00:03:13,109 Correct. 62 00:03:14,611 --> 00:03:15,653 But... 63 00:03:16,946 --> 00:03:19,240 I know that you probably have had twosomes before... 64 00:03:19,240 --> 00:03:20,491 Mom. - ...but this-- 65 00:03:20,491 --> 00:03:23,036 I think a-- a threesome is a big leap. 66 00:03:23,036 --> 00:03:24,495 So I was wondering 67 00:03:24,495 --> 00:03:26,581 if maybe you were subconsciously 68 00:03:26,581 --> 00:03:28,124 worried about our little threesome. 69 00:03:28,124 --> 00:03:29,125 - About... - What? 70 00:03:29,125 --> 00:03:31,127 ...me and you and Dad. 71 00:03:31,127 --> 00:03:33,630 - Eww! Ew! Ew! Ew! - No, I don't mean it in that same way. 72 00:03:33,630 --> 00:03:36,341 I'm just-- I'm not saying it in a-- I'm-- 73 00:03:36,341 --> 00:03:38,718 Not everything is about you. 74 00:03:42,430 --> 00:03:44,057 Is this-- Is this about Carmen? 75 00:03:44,933 --> 00:03:47,060 Montana. Her name is Montana now. 76 00:03:47,060 --> 00:03:48,269 - I told you that. 77 00:03:49,229 --> 00:03:50,688 Of course, it is. 78 00:03:50,688 --> 00:03:53,024 Why not name yourself after a beloved red state? 79 00:03:53,024 --> 00:03:54,859 You know, she won't even return my texts anymore? 80 00:03:55,568 --> 00:03:57,153 So, yeah. Thank you! 81 00:03:57,153 --> 00:03:58,655 Sorry, I didn't mean to make fun of her. 82 00:03:58,655 --> 00:03:59,781 Mmm... 83 00:04:02,033 --> 00:04:03,743 Mel is gonna gloat. 84 00:04:03,743 --> 00:04:05,495 She-- She just always gets gloaty 85 00:04:05,495 --> 00:04:07,247 when we ask for an emergency session. 86 00:04:07,247 --> 00:04:09,415 Well, our 16-year-old having a fucking threesome 87 00:04:09,415 --> 00:04:10,875 kinda warrants one. 88 00:04:13,670 --> 00:04:15,880 I think it was Montana's idea. 89 00:04:15,880 --> 00:04:17,382 Yeah. That girl is a bad seed. 90 00:04:17,382 --> 00:04:18,967 It's why I never drive her home. 91 00:04:18,967 --> 00:04:20,802 Shit! I can't find my wallet. 92 00:04:22,553 --> 00:04:26,182 Do you know-- Do you know that her mother sells salt? 93 00:04:26,182 --> 00:04:30,311 Yeah. She imports hand-gathered sea salt. 94 00:04:30,311 --> 00:04:32,772 That is her actual job. 95 00:04:32,772 --> 00:04:35,191 I think they live in Spain. 96 00:04:35,191 --> 00:04:37,443 Or maybe they have a house there or something. 97 00:04:37,443 --> 00:04:39,112 - Mm-hmm. - I don't know. 98 00:04:39,112 --> 00:04:42,073 All I know is that they're rich and cosmopolitan, 99 00:04:42,073 --> 00:04:43,241 and we're poor and boring. 100 00:04:43,241 --> 00:04:44,659 I bet that they're the kind of family 101 00:04:44,659 --> 00:04:46,035 that does molly 102 00:04:46,035 --> 00:04:47,912 and then just, like, has dinner together. 103 00:04:49,372 --> 00:04:51,916 Okay, well, Rae is never eating dinner there again. 104 00:04:51,916 --> 00:04:53,459 Or-- Or any other meal. 105 00:04:53,459 --> 00:04:55,420 Lunch or snack or anything else, for that matter. 106 00:04:55,420 --> 00:04:59,507 Well, you know, the good news is nobody had sex at our house. 107 00:04:59,507 --> 00:05:01,342 Intent to commit is still a crime. 108 00:05:06,973 --> 00:05:09,851 I don't know. I-- I think that... 109 00:05:09,851 --> 00:05:12,312 almost doing something is different... 110 00:05:13,062 --> 00:05:14,814 from actually doing it. 111 00:05:17,442 --> 00:05:19,402 I don't know, she's just-- 112 00:05:19,402 --> 00:05:21,696 - She's gotta be smarter, you know? - Yeah. 113 00:05:22,905 --> 00:05:26,284 Last thing we need is a-- a surprise pregnancy. 114 00:05:35,126 --> 00:05:36,210 {\an8}Dear Sugar... 115 00:05:36,336 --> 00:05:37,670 For people out there who aren't 116 00:05:37,670 --> 00:05:40,423 lucky enough to just know, 117 00:05:40,423 --> 00:05:42,800 how do you decide whether or not to have kids? 118 00:05:43,760 --> 00:05:46,220 I'm 41, I love my life, 119 00:05:46,220 --> 00:05:48,222 and I don't really want to give it up. 120 00:05:49,432 --> 00:05:52,101 I'm a guy who is happy without kids. 121 00:05:52,101 --> 00:05:55,772 But I also could be really happy with kids. 122 00:05:55,772 --> 00:05:59,067 I've always pictured myself as a father... someday. 123 00:06:00,443 --> 00:06:01,778 But now, someday's here. 124 00:06:01,778 --> 00:06:04,655 And, uh, I don't feel ready. 125 00:06:05,531 --> 00:06:06,991 Can you help me, Sugar? 126 00:06:06,991 --> 00:06:09,285 Signed, Undecided. 127 00:06:16,793 --> 00:06:17,835 Oh, my God. 128 00:06:19,962 --> 00:06:21,214 Danny. 129 00:06:24,967 --> 00:06:26,302 Hi. 130 00:06:27,595 --> 00:06:28,638 Hi. 131 00:06:31,933 --> 00:06:33,267 So, how's the band? 132 00:06:33,267 --> 00:06:36,104 You guys... back out on the road again? 133 00:06:36,104 --> 00:06:37,480 As long as the van's still running. 134 00:06:38,773 --> 00:06:40,441 And I guess this label in Chicago 135 00:06:40,441 --> 00:06:42,193 might sign us on, so. 136 00:06:42,193 --> 00:06:44,362 What? Yeah. Really. 137 00:06:44,362 --> 00:06:46,364 - Wow. - Yeah. 138 00:06:46,364 --> 00:06:48,616 But how's the-- the writing? 139 00:06:48,616 --> 00:06:50,368 Oh, um... 140 00:06:50,368 --> 00:06:51,869 - Yeah, it's-- It's good. - Yeah? 141 00:06:51,869 --> 00:06:53,287 It's fine. It's, um... 142 00:06:56,457 --> 00:06:58,835 I wrote something about my mom that-- 143 00:06:58,835 --> 00:07:01,295 It might-- It might be published. 144 00:07:01,295 --> 00:07:02,797 - What? Yeah. 145 00:07:02,797 --> 00:07:03,923 But, uh, I-- 146 00:07:05,049 --> 00:07:06,926 It's just co-- It's complicated. Um... 147 00:07:06,926 --> 00:07:09,345 - That's... amazing. - Yeah. 148 00:07:09,345 --> 00:07:11,013 Can I... read it? 149 00:07:12,056 --> 00:07:13,516 I'll let you know. 150 00:07:13,516 --> 00:07:15,143 Of course. Of course. 151 00:07:17,145 --> 00:07:20,189 How's Lucas? He's still living at your mom's place? 152 00:07:20,189 --> 00:07:21,315 Um, yeah. 153 00:07:21,315 --> 00:07:23,317 Well... 154 00:07:23,317 --> 00:07:24,777 He's supposed to be, but most of the time, 155 00:07:24,777 --> 00:07:25,778 he just crashes at mine. 156 00:07:25,778 --> 00:07:27,697 - Mmm. Yeah. 157 00:07:27,697 --> 00:07:28,823 He's lonely. 158 00:07:30,741 --> 00:07:31,784 Yeah. 159 00:07:32,326 --> 00:07:33,327 Yeah. 160 00:07:33,327 --> 00:07:34,287 Hm. 161 00:07:36,664 --> 00:07:37,748 Hm. 162 00:07:48,426 --> 00:07:50,428 ♪ So one, two, three Take my hand and come with me ♪ 163 00:07:50,428 --> 00:07:53,431 ♪ Because you look so fine that I really wanna make you mine ♪ 164 00:07:55,016 --> 00:07:58,144 ♪ I say you look so fine that I really wanna make you mine ♪ 165 00:07:59,854 --> 00:08:02,190 Thank you for meeting with us last minute, so. 166 00:08:02,315 --> 00:08:03,191 Yeah. 167 00:08:03,316 --> 00:08:05,485 - I'm glad I was able to fit you in. Yeah. 168 00:08:08,237 --> 00:08:11,240 So, uh, um, I came, uh, 169 00:08:11,240 --> 00:08:13,201 I came home early from work the other day-- 170 00:08:13,201 --> 00:08:14,535 Yeah. Before she was put on leave. 171 00:08:16,996 --> 00:08:18,956 Okay. Um... 172 00:08:18,956 --> 00:08:22,502 And, uh, there I heard some noises coming from down the hall. 173 00:08:22,502 --> 00:08:23,794 And what kind of noises? 174 00:08:27,590 --> 00:08:30,301 Uh, sex-ish noises. 175 00:08:33,387 --> 00:08:37,183 At first... I thought it was Danny. 176 00:08:37,725 --> 00:08:38,851 What? 177 00:08:38,851 --> 00:08:41,312 They were coming from our bedroom. 178 00:08:41,312 --> 00:08:43,981 Who would-- Who the fuck would I be having sex with? 179 00:08:43,981 --> 00:08:47,360 I don't know. You kicked me out of the house, 180 00:08:47,360 --> 00:08:50,029 - so I don't know what you're doing. - Okay, Clare. Jesus. 181 00:08:51,322 --> 00:08:53,282 That's where we are! Sorry. 182 00:08:55,910 --> 00:08:57,745 Then I-- I open the door... 183 00:08:59,872 --> 00:09:02,667 Then I open the door, and it was... Rae. 184 00:09:02,667 --> 00:09:04,460 And she was with two of her friends. 185 00:09:04,460 --> 00:09:05,670 - They were half-naked, Oh. 186 00:09:05,670 --> 00:09:07,255 and they were just kind of, 187 00:09:07,255 --> 00:09:08,756 uh, tangled up on the bed. 188 00:09:09,590 --> 00:09:11,217 - So. - Were they having sex? 189 00:09:11,217 --> 00:09:13,719 No. No, they weren't. Luckily. 190 00:09:13,719 --> 00:09:15,012 Well, you weren't there. 191 00:09:15,012 --> 00:09:17,974 Um, it's-- it's debatable, I guess. 192 00:09:17,974 --> 00:09:21,978 I don't think I've ever seen you so... 193 00:09:21,978 --> 00:09:24,272 Are you uncomfortable talking about sex? 194 00:09:24,272 --> 00:09:25,523 Uh, yeah, when it-- 195 00:09:25,523 --> 00:09:27,525 when it refers to my 16-year-old daughter. 196 00:09:27,525 --> 00:09:28,985 Absolutely. Hell, yeah. I'm-- I'm-- 197 00:09:28,985 --> 00:09:31,654 I'm-- I'm uncomfortable. What? 198 00:09:31,654 --> 00:09:34,740 And with you and Clare? 199 00:09:34,740 --> 00:09:36,784 - What? - Yeah. What about us? 200 00:09:36,784 --> 00:09:38,244 I mean, 201 00:09:38,244 --> 00:09:39,870 are you both 202 00:09:39,870 --> 00:09:41,330 having it? 203 00:09:41,330 --> 00:09:42,456 Together? 204 00:09:51,799 --> 00:09:52,925 I wrote a song about you. 205 00:09:55,386 --> 00:09:56,429 Really? 206 00:09:57,722 --> 00:10:01,017 It's not done yet, but... yeah. 207 00:10:03,519 --> 00:10:04,478 I wanna hear it. 208 00:10:04,478 --> 00:10:05,896 Of course, you do. 209 00:10:08,190 --> 00:10:10,234 - Maybe, I don't. - Mmm. 210 00:10:11,152 --> 00:10:12,194 Nah, you do. 211 00:10:13,237 --> 00:10:15,281 And it's good. 212 00:10:15,281 --> 00:10:16,991 Will you send it to me when it's finished? 213 00:10:16,991 --> 00:10:18,200 I'll think about it. 214 00:10:20,453 --> 00:10:22,330 Only if you send me what you wrote about your mom. 215 00:10:22,330 --> 00:10:23,831 Mm. - Then we have a deal. 216 00:10:23,831 --> 00:10:25,541 - No, that's different. - How? 217 00:10:25,541 --> 00:10:27,209 - That's different than a song. - No, it's not. 218 00:10:28,544 --> 00:10:30,004 It's your creation. 219 00:10:30,796 --> 00:10:31,881 We make things. 220 00:10:34,425 --> 00:10:35,468 And we share them. 221 00:10:37,219 --> 00:10:40,348 At least... we used to. 222 00:10:40,348 --> 00:10:42,933 I mean, it's been-- I mean, it's-- 223 00:10:45,436 --> 00:10:46,937 It's-- It's been-- 224 00:10:46,937 --> 00:10:48,564 I think we're really here to talk about Rae. 225 00:10:48,564 --> 00:10:49,565 Yeah. 226 00:10:49,565 --> 00:10:50,566 And what's going on. 227 00:10:50,566 --> 00:10:52,151 And-- And-- And how-- 228 00:10:52,151 --> 00:10:53,611 how she's being influenced. 229 00:10:53,611 --> 00:10:54,862 Well, I mean, 230 00:10:54,862 --> 00:10:56,906 the most embedded messages 231 00:10:56,906 --> 00:10:59,659 usually come from in the home, so. 232 00:11:00,242 --> 00:11:01,535 So... what? 233 00:11:03,621 --> 00:11:05,247 I've read your work. 234 00:11:05,247 --> 00:11:07,249 I looked you up right after we first started. 235 00:11:07,249 --> 00:11:09,960 You are a very powerful writer. 236 00:11:10,419 --> 00:11:11,504 But-- 237 00:11:11,504 --> 00:11:13,756 Okay, there's a "but." 238 00:11:13,756 --> 00:11:16,592 Do you think there's a chance she read your Whore essay? 239 00:11:17,843 --> 00:11:18,886 Slut. 240 00:11:19,595 --> 00:11:20,638 The-- 241 00:11:22,890 --> 00:11:24,225 The essay was called Slut. 242 00:11:24,225 --> 00:11:25,768 And there's no threesomes in it. 243 00:11:29,730 --> 00:11:32,525 I mean, if you listen to any of his lyrics-- 244 00:11:32,525 --> 00:11:34,860 'Cause his lyrics are pretty sexually explicit. 245 00:11:34,860 --> 00:11:36,570 - What the hell? I'm just saying. 246 00:11:36,570 --> 00:11:39,031 "Your thighs bring me closer to God"? 247 00:11:40,199 --> 00:11:41,242 Maybe she heard that. 248 00:11:43,202 --> 00:11:44,495 That's Nine Inch Nails. 249 00:11:45,788 --> 00:11:47,623 Except the thighs part. 250 00:11:47,623 --> 00:11:49,667 Do you not remember my songs anymore? 251 00:11:50,626 --> 00:11:51,669 Of course, I do! 252 00:11:54,004 --> 00:11:55,214 Most of them were about you. 253 00:12:02,263 --> 00:12:03,305 Danny. 254 00:12:04,432 --> 00:12:06,559 Of course, I remember your songs. 255 00:12:06,559 --> 00:12:09,186 Can-- Can we just go back to hating Montana? 256 00:12:10,229 --> 00:12:12,732 See, Mel always just makes things worse. 257 00:12:12,732 --> 00:12:15,192 Always. 258 00:12:15,192 --> 00:12:17,945 You know, I think that we just have to do something. 259 00:12:17,945 --> 00:12:18,946 I do. 260 00:12:18,946 --> 00:12:20,156 I-- I think that we need 261 00:12:20,156 --> 00:12:21,741 to go talk to Montana's mother. 262 00:12:21,741 --> 00:12:22,950 Why? 263 00:12:22,950 --> 00:12:24,410 Try to buy some salt from her? 264 00:12:24,410 --> 00:12:27,079 No, because I think that her daughter 265 00:12:27,079 --> 00:12:29,790 just forced our daughter to do something, 266 00:12:29,790 --> 00:12:32,001 - and that she needs to know that. - Nah. Again, no. 267 00:12:32,001 --> 00:12:34,003 - Because she obviously has no clue. No. 268 00:12:34,003 --> 00:12:35,463 And I think that she actually 269 00:12:35,463 --> 00:12:37,381 used our house for that bullshit! 270 00:12:37,381 --> 00:12:39,133 Yeah. No. No. 271 00:12:39,133 --> 00:12:40,718 Danny! Danny? 272 00:12:40,718 --> 00:12:43,262 No, Clare. Drop it. 273 00:12:46,223 --> 00:12:48,976 Ah, fuck! Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. 274 00:12:48,976 --> 00:12:50,019 Dude, are you okay? 275 00:12:50,019 --> 00:12:51,854 Why-- Why are you saying, "Fuck"? 276 00:12:53,272 --> 00:12:54,356 Fuck! 277 00:12:57,735 --> 00:13:00,029 ♪ Coming out of my cage And I've been doing just fine ♪ 278 00:13:00,029 --> 00:13:02,156 Fuck-me boots? Really? 279 00:13:02,156 --> 00:13:03,574 You sure that's a good plan? 280 00:13:03,574 --> 00:13:05,326 Are you gonna fuck the baby out? 281 00:13:05,326 --> 00:13:08,204 Amy! You're terrible. 282 00:13:08,204 --> 00:13:10,498 You're the one who hasn't told Danny. 283 00:13:12,249 --> 00:13:14,168 I'm gonna have an abortion. 284 00:13:14,168 --> 00:13:16,128 They say good things happen in threes. 285 00:13:18,547 --> 00:13:20,132 I never should've one on that hike. 286 00:13:20,758 --> 00:13:22,551 I should've just-- 287 00:13:22,551 --> 00:13:25,137 I should've just gone to Don Guac's 288 00:13:25,137 --> 00:13:28,891 and gotten a burrito like a normal hungover person. 289 00:13:28,891 --> 00:13:31,310 You probably would've run into Danny there too. 290 00:13:31,310 --> 00:13:33,646 Isn't that, like, your place? 291 00:13:33,646 --> 00:13:36,732 - Oohh, can I borrow this? - Take it. 292 00:13:36,732 --> 00:13:38,901 Goth maternity wear isn't really a... 293 00:13:40,277 --> 00:13:41,695 thing. 294 00:13:41,695 --> 00:13:43,781 So now you're not getting an abortion? 295 00:13:43,781 --> 00:13:47,159 I don't know. I don't know what I'm doing! 296 00:13:47,159 --> 00:13:50,079 I-- I don't know. What would you do? 297 00:13:50,079 --> 00:13:52,915 I'm never having kids, so I wouldn't have it. 298 00:13:52,915 --> 00:13:54,041 Wait, what? 299 00:13:55,000 --> 00:13:56,168 How did I not know this? 300 00:13:56,168 --> 00:13:57,753 People freak out if you don't wanna be a mom. 301 00:13:57,753 --> 00:13:59,088 It's like a mortal sin. 302 00:13:59,088 --> 00:14:01,799 Oh, well, people are stupid. 303 00:14:01,799 --> 00:14:03,300 I might feel different about the whole deal 304 00:14:03,300 --> 00:14:04,802 if I had had a mom like yours. 305 00:14:10,307 --> 00:14:11,350 Mm. 306 00:14:14,186 --> 00:14:16,355 What if this is the last time I wear these boots? 307 00:14:18,399 --> 00:14:20,901 - You're not dying. - I feel like I am. 308 00:14:20,901 --> 00:14:22,528 You're not. 309 00:14:22,528 --> 00:14:24,822 You're just maybe gonna have a baby. 310 00:14:25,906 --> 00:14:27,825 Or maybe not. 311 00:14:27,825 --> 00:14:30,327 Either way, you need to tell Danny. 312 00:14:30,327 --> 00:14:31,871 I thought you were on the pill! 313 00:14:31,871 --> 00:14:34,164 Well, I stopped taking it after we fucking broke up 314 00:14:34,164 --> 00:14:37,543 to give my-- give my body a break from the hormones! 315 00:14:37,543 --> 00:14:39,753 Fuck! I don't think you understand. 316 00:14:39,753 --> 00:14:42,590 Like, I-- I seriously can't deal with this right now. I have-- 317 00:14:42,590 --> 00:14:44,091 Okay. Okay, Danny, I'm sorry 318 00:14:44,091 --> 00:14:45,759 - it's so stressful for you! Stop! Stop! 319 00:14:45,885 --> 00:14:47,428 - That's not what I meant! - Why are you yelling? 320 00:14:47,553 --> 00:14:49,805 Because I'm fucking frustrated! 321 00:14:49,930 --> 00:14:51,307 And we're both yelling. 322 00:14:51,307 --> 00:14:52,516 You yelled first. 323 00:14:54,310 --> 00:14:56,186 Clare, I can barely pay rent. 324 00:14:57,104 --> 00:14:59,523 And the band-- 325 00:14:59,523 --> 00:15:03,193 I can't be in South America when you're having a baby, Clare. 326 00:15:03,193 --> 00:15:04,278 I can't. 327 00:15:04,278 --> 00:15:06,113 - South America? Yeah. 328 00:15:07,281 --> 00:15:08,616 Brazil and Argentina. 329 00:15:08,616 --> 00:15:09,992 Shit. 330 00:15:11,285 --> 00:15:12,328 What? 331 00:15:13,329 --> 00:15:14,538 Shit! 332 00:15:14,538 --> 00:15:16,081 - We're just... - Danny, shit! 333 00:15:16,081 --> 00:15:17,625 ...the openers. 334 00:15:17,625 --> 00:15:20,419 It's not-- Well, first of two openers. It's nothing. 335 00:15:20,419 --> 00:15:21,962 What-- What am I talking about? 336 00:15:21,962 --> 00:15:24,381 I feel like a fucking asshole talking about my band right now! 337 00:15:24,381 --> 00:15:25,841 Who cares about my band? 338 00:15:25,841 --> 00:15:27,885 I care about your band. You care about your band. 339 00:15:28,844 --> 00:15:29,887 And you should. 340 00:15:32,139 --> 00:15:34,558 I love... I love your band. 341 00:15:37,061 --> 00:15:38,103 I love you. 342 00:15:40,773 --> 00:15:44,818 And I don't wanna be some cliché of an absentee father either. 343 00:15:44,818 --> 00:15:46,320 My family will fucking disown me. 344 00:15:49,198 --> 00:15:50,157 Fuck! 345 00:15:53,744 --> 00:15:55,537 Yeah, that's-- 346 00:15:55,537 --> 00:15:56,830 That's not the same as loving me. 347 00:15:56,830 --> 00:15:58,499 I do love you. 348 00:15:58,499 --> 00:15:59,708 You fucking know that, Clare. 349 00:16:06,131 --> 00:16:07,675 Okay. Um... 350 00:16:12,846 --> 00:16:15,224 - The timing's terrible. Obviously. - Yeah. 351 00:16:15,224 --> 00:16:16,684 Yeah, we're not even together. 352 00:16:19,228 --> 00:16:21,855 - This isn't that hard to figure out. - You know, I mean-- 353 00:16:21,855 --> 00:16:23,440 I mean, if this is how we got back together, 354 00:16:23,440 --> 00:16:25,526 - we always knew this would be the reason. - Exactly. 355 00:16:29,405 --> 00:16:31,740 I'd have to give up music. 356 00:16:31,740 --> 00:16:34,868 I'd have to-- I'd-- I'd have to get a-- a desk job 357 00:16:34,868 --> 00:16:36,578 or whatever gives benefits. 358 00:16:36,578 --> 00:16:37,621 Like, what are my skills? 359 00:16:37,621 --> 00:16:38,622 What-- What can I even do? 360 00:16:38,622 --> 00:16:40,082 I'ma have to go back to school, 361 00:16:40,082 --> 00:16:41,583 get a fucking degree. 362 00:16:41,583 --> 00:16:44,461 Danny, stop! Just stop for a second. 363 00:16:57,141 --> 00:16:58,183 It's okay. 364 00:17:00,436 --> 00:17:02,187 - No, it's not-- - It's okay. 365 00:17:03,230 --> 00:17:04,356 We broke up for a reason. 366 00:17:06,108 --> 00:17:09,194 We need to go out, and we need to live our lives. 367 00:17:09,194 --> 00:17:12,239 You go on tour. Fucking kill Argentina. 368 00:17:12,239 --> 00:17:13,866 Fucking kill Brazil! 369 00:17:13,866 --> 00:17:14,992 I'm gonna-- 370 00:17:16,243 --> 00:17:18,537 I'm gonna go to Iceland and climb a... 371 00:17:18,537 --> 00:17:20,414 glacier or something. 372 00:17:21,999 --> 00:17:23,542 I'm gonna live my life. 373 00:17:25,961 --> 00:17:27,629 And I think you should live yours. 374 00:17:37,681 --> 00:17:39,600 Ugh, what the fuck? 375 00:17:43,020 --> 00:17:44,313 Mrs. Pierce? 376 00:17:45,439 --> 00:17:48,817 Oh, hi, uh, Montana. 377 00:17:50,819 --> 00:17:52,571 It's a lot of stairs. 378 00:17:53,322 --> 00:17:54,656 Grocery day must be a... 379 00:17:56,658 --> 00:17:57,785 ...a workout! 380 00:17:57,785 --> 00:17:59,745 Oh, our groceries are delivered. 381 00:17:59,745 --> 00:18:03,749 But I get it. It takes my grandma, like, a half hour. 382 00:18:03,749 --> 00:18:06,752 Can I get you a beverage? Or perhaps a towel? 383 00:18:06,752 --> 00:18:09,088 Uh, that's okay. I just, um... 384 00:18:09,963 --> 00:18:11,590 Uh... 385 00:18:11,590 --> 00:18:14,343 Actually, water would be great. Thank you so much. 386 00:18:14,343 --> 00:18:16,887 Uh, still, sparkling, or pH-enhanced? 387 00:18:17,721 --> 00:18:19,181 Never mind, that's okay. 388 00:18:19,181 --> 00:18:21,683 Uh, is your, uh... 389 00:18:23,185 --> 00:18:24,520 Excuse me. 390 00:18:24,520 --> 00:18:26,105 Is your mom home? I was, uh, 391 00:18:26,105 --> 00:18:27,856 hoping to speak with your mom. 392 00:18:27,856 --> 00:18:29,608 She's in Barcelona. 393 00:18:31,151 --> 00:18:32,319 Of course, she is. 394 00:18:32,861 --> 00:18:34,696 Is there anything else I can help you with? 395 00:18:36,448 --> 00:18:37,491 Actually... 396 00:18:38,534 --> 00:18:39,743 I was wondering... 397 00:18:43,455 --> 00:18:45,666 what made you think it was a good idea 398 00:18:45,666 --> 00:18:50,546 to orchestrate an orgy in me and my husband's bedroom? 399 00:18:51,755 --> 00:18:53,006 That was Rae's idea. 400 00:18:53,966 --> 00:18:54,925 That's bullshit. 401 00:18:54,925 --> 00:18:56,677 Maybe you weren't aware that she's 402 00:18:56,677 --> 00:18:58,470 completely obsessed with me. 403 00:18:58,470 --> 00:18:59,763 I mean, why do you think 404 00:18:59,763 --> 00:19:02,099 she decided to start going by her middle name? 405 00:19:02,099 --> 00:19:03,308 What? 406 00:19:03,308 --> 00:19:06,103 I said "Rae" was cooler. 407 00:19:06,103 --> 00:19:08,147 I can't help that she's in love with me. 408 00:19:08,897 --> 00:19:09,940 Look, 409 00:19:11,150 --> 00:19:12,484 you little entitled, 410 00:19:13,360 --> 00:19:15,320 fucking, pretentious, 411 00:19:15,320 --> 00:19:17,489 little, fucking dipshit. 412 00:19:18,073 --> 00:19:21,493 First of all, her name is not for you to change. 413 00:19:22,035 --> 00:19:25,414 Second, if someone is in love with you, 414 00:19:25,414 --> 00:19:27,624 you treat them with respect. 415 00:19:27,833 --> 00:19:29,543 Are you sure you don't want a towel? 416 00:19:29,960 --> 00:19:33,755 You treat their heart 417 00:19:33,755 --> 00:19:37,134 like you are holding a fucking day-old duckling 418 00:19:37,134 --> 00:19:41,722 whose neck could break at any fucking second, okay? 419 00:19:41,722 --> 00:19:44,516 Oh, my God, duckling? Are you, like, 50? 420 00:19:44,516 --> 00:19:46,768 No, I'm fucking 49 years old! 421 00:19:46,768 --> 00:19:49,021 And I know how to have a fucking threesome. 422 00:19:49,021 --> 00:19:51,565 Not that pathetic little pussy-ass shit! 423 00:19:51,565 --> 00:19:54,151 That's offensive and self-hating. 424 00:19:54,151 --> 00:19:55,652 Do you have any idea 425 00:19:55,652 --> 00:19:59,072 how fucking lucky you are to be loved by her? 426 00:19:59,072 --> 00:20:00,532 I would fucking kill 427 00:20:00,532 --> 00:20:02,201 to have a fucking ounce of that love, 428 00:20:02,201 --> 00:20:04,036 and she wastes it on you? 429 00:20:04,036 --> 00:20:06,663 What kinda fucking name is "Montana"? 430 00:20:06,663 --> 00:20:08,457 Who are you? Fucking Brad Pitt 431 00:20:08,457 --> 00:20:10,042 in fucking A River Runs Through It, 432 00:20:10,042 --> 00:20:11,627 thinking everyone wants to fuck you 433 00:20:11,627 --> 00:20:13,462 because you have fucking great hair? 434 00:20:20,469 --> 00:20:23,013 Okay, your-- That child was filming this, 435 00:20:23,013 --> 00:20:25,098 so you could ask him to fucking kindly delete it 436 00:20:25,098 --> 00:20:26,308 from the apps. 437 00:20:26,308 --> 00:20:27,434 All the apps. 438 00:20:36,777 --> 00:20:37,819 Hey, guys. 439 00:20:39,446 --> 00:20:40,656 What's wrong? 440 00:20:40,656 --> 00:20:42,282 You! 441 00:20:43,492 --> 00:20:44,743 - Well, I-- I-- Please don't. 442 00:20:48,247 --> 00:20:49,748 There's a TikTok. 443 00:20:51,917 --> 00:20:53,085 Of course, there is. 444 00:20:55,837 --> 00:20:57,881 Honey. Can I-- 445 00:21:02,052 --> 00:21:05,681 Okay. If you wanna talk about anything, 446 00:21:05,681 --> 00:21:06,974 I-- I'm right-- I'm right here-- 447 00:21:06,974 --> 00:21:08,183 I won't! 448 00:21:08,183 --> 00:21:09,518 Ever! 449 00:21:18,402 --> 00:21:19,486 What do you think of black? 450 00:21:21,613 --> 00:21:22,656 For a cradle? 451 00:21:25,200 --> 00:21:26,368 Yeah. Badass. 452 00:21:35,961 --> 00:21:37,004 What do you think? 453 00:21:37,546 --> 00:21:38,463 It's great. 454 00:21:38,463 --> 00:21:39,756 Yeah? - Mm-hm. 455 00:21:39,756 --> 00:21:41,174 For a tablecloth. 456 00:21:43,010 --> 00:21:44,136 Mom would love it. 457 00:21:44,928 --> 00:21:45,971 Yeah. 458 00:21:52,477 --> 00:21:55,105 Listen, I'm-- I'm gonna get a legit job and-- 459 00:21:55,105 --> 00:21:57,190 and help with the bills. 460 00:21:57,190 --> 00:22:00,319 Maybe we could move back to Mom's together. 461 00:22:02,487 --> 00:22:03,530 Yeah, maybe. 462 00:22:05,782 --> 00:22:07,659 You know, you're better off without that asshole. 463 00:22:10,078 --> 00:22:11,246 He's not an asshole. 464 00:22:18,920 --> 00:22:21,048 Dear Undecided. 465 00:22:21,048 --> 00:22:24,092 Every life has a sister-ship. 466 00:22:24,092 --> 00:22:28,180 A ship that follows the path we could have taken but didn't. 467 00:22:29,848 --> 00:22:32,476 On that ship is the person we would've been 468 00:22:32,476 --> 00:22:34,519 if we had taken that phantom path. 469 00:22:37,314 --> 00:22:40,484 And that person lives a different phantom life 470 00:22:40,484 --> 00:22:41,985 than the one you're living now. 471 00:22:47,532 --> 00:22:51,787 So the question is: who do you intend to be? 472 00:22:57,459 --> 00:23:00,879 You believe you could be happy in any scenario, 473 00:23:03,256 --> 00:23:07,386 becoming a parent or remaining childless. 474 00:23:07,386 --> 00:23:10,514 And you wrote because you want clarity, 475 00:23:11,264 --> 00:23:12,474 but there won't be any. 476 00:23:14,142 --> 00:23:15,185 At least not yet. 477 00:23:16,603 --> 00:23:19,189 There will only be the choice you make 478 00:23:19,189 --> 00:23:22,859 and the sure knowledge that that choice, any choice, 479 00:23:22,859 --> 00:23:24,653 will contain some loss. 480 00:23:37,833 --> 00:23:42,754 So get out a pen and paper, and make a list. 481 00:23:42,754 --> 00:23:45,549 Write down everything you know about your real life 482 00:23:45,549 --> 00:23:47,676 and everything that you imagine 483 00:23:47,676 --> 00:23:49,302 - about your future life. 484 00:23:49,302 --> 00:23:51,346 And then look at them both. 485 00:23:51,346 --> 00:23:52,764 Okay, let's take that. 486 00:23:52,973 --> 00:23:55,600 We gotta go. We gotta go now! 487 00:23:59,479 --> 00:24:01,314 I gotta get to the door. - Okay. Okay. 488 00:24:01,314 --> 00:24:02,774 - Oh! - Sorry. Sorry. 489 00:24:02,774 --> 00:24:05,444 - Oh, my fucking God! - I'm sorry. 490 00:24:05,444 --> 00:24:07,821 One is the life you'll have 491 00:24:07,821 --> 00:24:10,824 and the other is the sister-life you won't. 492 00:24:10,824 --> 00:24:12,993 And you get to decide what to do. 493 00:24:12,993 --> 00:24:13,952 Shit. 494 00:24:16,580 --> 00:24:19,166 And what the fuck kind of name is "Montana"? 495 00:24:19,166 --> 00:24:20,667 Who the fuck do you think you are? 496 00:24:20,667 --> 00:24:23,795 Fucking Brad Pitt in fucking A River Runs Through It? 497 00:24:23,795 --> 00:24:25,964 Fucking-- "Oh, everybody wants to fuck me--" 498 00:24:25,964 --> 00:24:28,842 - I can't. I can't! - Clare, yes, you can. 499 00:24:30,093 --> 00:24:31,761 - Yes, you can. 500 00:24:31,761 --> 00:24:33,555 There are certain things I wouldn't know 501 00:24:33,555 --> 00:24:35,390 until I became a mom. 502 00:24:35,390 --> 00:24:39,436 And certain things I will never know because I became one. 503 00:24:44,608 --> 00:24:48,069 Who would I have been without my child the last 16 years? 504 00:24:50,530 --> 00:24:52,115 Who would I have met if I had traveled 505 00:24:52,115 --> 00:24:53,283 to the corners of the Earth? 506 00:24:53,283 --> 00:24:55,327 And where would that have taken me? 507 00:25:06,171 --> 00:25:08,548 I just know the clarity that I'd longed for 508 00:25:08,548 --> 00:25:09,633 happened when I held 509 00:25:09,633 --> 00:25:11,426 my daughter's body against mine. 510 00:25:11,426 --> 00:25:12,844 What should we name her? 511 00:25:12,844 --> 00:25:14,804 And in that moment, one life ended... 512 00:25:16,515 --> 00:25:17,682 and another began. 513 00:25:18,308 --> 00:25:19,351 Frankie. 514 00:25:24,272 --> 00:25:25,899 Hi, little Frankie. 515 00:25:27,859 --> 00:25:29,444 - Hi. 516 00:25:39,996 --> 00:25:41,122 You told me to live my life. 517 00:25:44,543 --> 00:25:45,585 This is it. 518 00:25:52,759 --> 00:25:54,052 Do you wanna hold her? 519 00:25:54,052 --> 00:25:55,053 Uh, yeah. 520 00:25:55,053 --> 00:25:56,179 Here. 521 00:26:00,684 --> 00:26:01,726 Hey. Hey. 522 00:26:02,811 --> 00:26:05,397 Hey, it's, uh... It's midnight. 523 00:26:10,694 --> 00:26:11,861 You think she's okay? 524 00:26:14,197 --> 00:26:15,949 I think she just needs space, you know? 525 00:26:18,493 --> 00:26:19,786 You should get some sleep. 526 00:26:20,912 --> 00:26:23,206 Why? What do I need to do tomorrow? 527 00:26:25,250 --> 00:26:27,002 Maybe you wanna go for a hike or something? 528 00:26:38,513 --> 00:26:39,556 Yeah. 529 00:26:40,390 --> 00:26:41,433 Maybe. 530 00:26:56,948 --> 00:26:58,950 I'll never know the life I didn't choose. 531 00:26:59,701 --> 00:27:01,911 And neither will you. 532 00:27:01,911 --> 00:27:05,248 We'll only know that whatever that sister-life was, 533 00:27:05,248 --> 00:27:07,792 it was important and beautiful. 534 00:27:08,585 --> 00:27:09,961 And not ours. 535 00:27:13,256 --> 00:27:14,549 Hey, pretty girl. 536 00:27:15,508 --> 00:27:16,551 Hey. 537 00:27:17,302 --> 00:27:18,303 Hey, man. 538 00:27:20,221 --> 00:27:22,349 Thank you. For everything. 539 00:27:26,436 --> 00:27:28,563 It was the ghost ship that didn't carry us. 540 00:27:34,861 --> 00:27:38,657 There is nothing to do but salute her from the shore. 541 00:27:49,209 --> 00:27:50,251 Yours, 542 00:27:51,252 --> 00:27:52,295 Sugar. 543 00:27:58,009 --> 00:28:02,347 ♪ I went out looking for the answers ♪ 544 00:28:02,347 --> 00:28:05,517 ♪ And never left my town ♪ 545 00:28:05,517 --> 00:28:08,853 ♪ I'm no good at understanding ♪ 546 00:28:08,853 --> 00:28:12,065 ♪ But I'm good at standing ground ♪ 547 00:28:13,483 --> 00:28:17,237 ♪ And when I asked a corner preacher ♪ 548 00:28:17,237 --> 00:28:20,990 ♪ I couldn't hear him for my youth ♪ 549 00:28:20,990 --> 00:28:24,411 ♪ Some people get religion ♪ 550 00:28:24,411 --> 00:28:27,997 ♪ Some people get the truth ♪ 551 00:28:27,997 --> 00:28:30,917 ♪ I never get the truth ♪ 552 00:28:34,003 --> 00:28:38,174 ♪ I know the darkness pulls on you ♪ 553 00:28:38,174 --> 00:28:41,386 ♪ But it's just a point of view ♪ 554 00:28:41,386 --> 00:28:44,681 ♪ When you're outside looking in ♪ 555 00:28:44,681 --> 00:28:48,143 ♪ You belong to someone ♪ 556 00:28:48,143 --> 00:28:51,896 ♪ And when you feel like giving in ♪ 557 00:28:51,896 --> 00:28:55,191 ♪ Or the coming of the end ♪ 558 00:28:55,191 --> 00:28:59,195 ♪ Like your heart could break in two ♪ 559 00:28:59,195 --> 00:29:01,698 Best day ever! 560 00:29:02,574 --> 00:29:05,326 Captioned by Point.360