- Mum. Hi, darling.
Do you know where Dad is tonight?
Are you okay?
Jay, darling?
What's wrong?
Jay?
Jay.
Jay!
Oh no. Jay!
I'm going to get someone.
- And that's your son's fiancée?
- Please, Mum.
No. Come on, stop. Stop.
Stop!
- Please, Mum. Stop! Stop!
Stop! Oh my God!
Dad.
Is it true?
What have you done to us?
- What the fuck have you done? Sally, stop.
Stop.
Leave us.
Ingrid.
He called me.
He called me, just before.
He must have known what he was about to find.
I am so sorry.
No, you're fucking not.
What did you think it was?
Some kind of love?
It's our son!
Look what you took from him.
And from me!
You have taken him from me!
- Ingrid! No, no, no, no! Stop!
Please, stop. Stop.
You have taken my son!
When you knew you were lost to her...
you should have killed yourself.
I could have buried you and lived.
Your son spent his life trying to... to emulate you, when...
when his greatest quality was being absolutely nothing like you at all.
But you will sit with us today.
Thank you, everyone. A few words.
Death is nothing at all
It does not count
I have only slipped away Into the next room
Nothing has happened
Everything remains exactly as it was
I am I, and you are you
And the old life that we lived So fondly together is untouched, unchanged
Whatever we were to each other That we are still
I'm so very sorry.
I've been where you are right now.
When Aston took his life.
No.
It was an accident.
My son didn't kill himself.
Oh.
Well, that's something, I suppose.
To know that your child wanted to die,
that's what's hardest.
I've never gotten over it.
You were with him, weren't you?
You saw him?
Where's Anna?
I don't know.
Surely
she left a note or
something?
Course she didn't.
This is what she does, I'm afraid.
What?
Run away.
You're waiting for her, aren't you?
I can see how completely irrelevant I've become to you.
And I shall take considerable strength from that.
This is the last time we'll ever see each other.
I understand.
Just go, will you!
Anna.
Just let me know that you're okay. That's all I'm asking.
I need you.
Where have you gone?
Anna!
I've got an appointment with Peggy Graham.
She's on five. - Thanks.
I need to call-- I'll find it.
Peggy. Where is she? - You can't just walk in.
- Where's Anna? - What are you doing here? Have you lost--
Just tell me!
Please.
Are you sure you should be going in to work so soon?
They'd understand if you wanted a bit more time.
More time won't change a thing.
I need to go in.
Anna.
Are you okay?
Yeah.
You know you can stay here as long as you like.
I like having you around.
Thank you.
Just promise me that was the last time.
What do you mean?
You could have had such a beautiful life with Jay.
What do you mean by "the last time?"
These poor boys that
fall for you so intensely.
He didn't stand a chance, did he?
Neither did your brother.
Aston loved you so much.
You knew?
Of course I did.
You were inseparable.
You knew, and... and you didn't do a thing.
What could I do?
You seemed happy to me.
And he was enthralled by you.
I was a child.
I don't think anyone would have known how to handle it.
You...
you should have stopped him.
All those nights he came to my room, you... you should have stopped him!
Well, I... I wish we could have stopped him, but...
but he was so scared and... and... and confused--
So was I!
No!
Where are you going?
- Oh no. Don't leave me.
- I need you.
Don't go.
I'm Anna.
David.
Nice to meet you.
So, uh...
are you having a good holiday?
There you are. - Oh. Hi, darling.
Um...
- This is Anna. We met at the pool. - Lynnette.
What's your room like?
We're overlooking the car park.
I'm considering complaining.
It's lovely.
It's the honeymoon suite.
Where is the lucky bugger, then?
He's not here.
Ooh!
Leaving you alone on your honeymoon?
What's wrong with him?
He's dead.
What happened?
I had an affair with his father. My fiancé discovered us and he fell.
He fell because of me.
Ow.
Wait.
Just...
Slow down.
Stop. Stop! Stop!
What?
Sorry. - Where the fuck are you going?
Just back off! Hey, I'm talking to you.
You don't make it easy, do you?
I had to come.
I know.
"Make up your mind and do it."
That's what my father always used to say to me.
"You wanna be a surgeon?"
"Good."
"Stick with it."
"You wanna marry Ingrid?"
"Great."
"She's a fine choice."
And then you met me.
Yeah.
I let uncertainty in.
And look what happened.
I don't think...
we can ever separate who we are from what we've done.
But
we can't let it all be for nothing either.
- Jay died because of us.
Still, I wouldn't change it.
You don't regret it?
How can I?
We caused so much pain.
But it's done now.
I am so sorry
for what happened.
But I wish we'd never met.
Don't try and find me again.
Congratulations on the wedding.
Uh, are you back in London?
Okay.
Um...
I need you.
Can you meet me at the flat?
Thank you.
William, right?
Yeah.
That staircase is gorgeous, isn't it?
It really is a rare opportunity to buy one of these flats.
This one has only just come on the market. It's a one-bed, one-bath,
but with such a big living area, it feels bigger, doesn't it?
I can't do this anymore.
I can't go back to Mum's.
You don't have to.
You've got to stop punishing yourself.
Come on.
I'll take you to the bedroom.
I am writing this
as you make your way through the night towards me.
I will wait patiently,
thinking of the years to come.
- You all right? Very soon, I will be married.
And a new order will shape the rest of our lives.
Everything will be different.
Everything will be the same.
For so long,
I have attracted certain forces that shaped my life.
And I let them do their work.
Sometimes they tear through me like a hurricane.
And sometimes they simply shift the ground underneath me,
so that I stand on different earth,
and something, or someone, has been swallowed up.
And yet I always survive.
So whatever happens between us, I know that you, too, will survive.
For that is what we have learned to do.
And you will have me.
Endlessly.
Everything, always.
It's been a really tough year.
Actually, it's been longer than that.
Should I just start at the beginning?
That's as good a place as any.
Right.
I've never done this, so I don't really know the rules.
Would it help to have some rules?
Sorry?
Is that something you feel you need?
How strange.
♪ How can anybody have you? ♪
♪ How can anybody have you and lose you? ♪
♪ And not lose their minds too? ♪
♪ How can anybody have you? ♪
♪ How can anybody have you and lose you? ♪
♪ And not lose their minds too? ♪
♪ The last days of the sunset superstars ♪
♪ Girls in cages playing their guitars ♪
♪ But how can I leave? ♪
♪ I just follow the hood of my car ♪
♪ In Los Ageless, the waves... ♪