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[door opens]
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Good morning.
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Admissions percentages
at top colleges
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have dropped
to record lows.
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You thinking about
going back to school?
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No. No.
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I'm thinking about
our son's future.
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As in starting a college fund
for the Peanut?
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No, I have put the Peanut
on a waitlist
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for pre-kindergarten
at McLelland Hall.
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Isn't McLelland Hall
that snobby private school
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in Menlo Park?
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It is one of the top
three feeder schools
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for Stanford University.
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So, you've not only decided
he's going to college,
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you've also picked out
which one.
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Given our son's
genetic makeup,
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he will probably be
very intelligent
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and will require a challenging
academic curriculum.
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Or he may not even
enjoy academics.
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Whatever he ends up doing
will be his call, not ours.
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Whatever pre-kindergarten
he ends up attending
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will be our call,
not his.
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Hmm.
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Oh. No coffee.
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Glassy still in his room?
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No, I heard him leave
at 6:14.
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He's been so sad
about losing his house.
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How can you tell
he's sad?
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Have you noticed
how quiet he's been?
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Yes. It's been nice.
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Guess he's just
throwing himself
into his work.
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Hmm.
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[car alarm chirps]
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Dr. Murphy,
little help here?
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Hmm.
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Give tetanus booster,
clean the wound
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- with Betadine, administer--
- No, we got that. It's--
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We wanted a second opinion.
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Uh, Victor did.
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Before these young pups
take a saw to our son's foot,
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I'd like to talk
to a supervisor.
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The nail's bent.
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I am their supervisor,
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and we need the saw
to cut the nail, not his foot.
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Are you good, Ricky?
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[saw whirring]
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You all know my angel
for the past 11 years,
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- Dr. Lim.
- Oh.
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Hey, Roses.
And this is my resident,
Dr. Jordan Allen.
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Hi! Roses?
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My website's called
"More than 65 Roses."
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It's what I called it
when I was diagnosed at five.
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Sixty-five roses,
cystic fibrosis.
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Okay.
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And welcome
to vlog number 458,
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going out all around the world.
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And what does DLT stand for?
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- [cell phone dings]
- Oh, that would be
"double lung transplant."
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[imitates air horn]
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[both] Whoo! Whoo!
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[chuckles] Your new lungs
just arrived.
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Oh.
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[theme music playing]
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I never should've agreed
to let him go.
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You didn't.
You just stopped
fighting with me about it.
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He's running
a mild fever, 100.4.
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Go where?
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Church camping trip,
less than an hour away.
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Camping can be
very dangerous.
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Thank you, Dr. Murphy.
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You know, I had my first
fire-roasted s'more
last summer,
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so camping
can also be very fun.
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Thank you, Dr. Wolke.
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Be careful, please.
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Victor, he's a doctor.
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Just try to trust--
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Trust that things
will work out, yep.
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- I know.
- [sighs]
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You're a Warriors fan, huh?
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You like Steph Curry?
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I like Draymond.
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A rebel. I like it.
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Huh. Look at this beast.
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Nice job, Ricky.
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[thermometer beeps]
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His temperature
just jumped two degrees.
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Let's get a CBC,
blood cultures,
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and a CT of his foot
to check for damage
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to the bones and muscles.
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[knocking on door]
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Dr. Park, how kind of you
to join me.
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You paged me.
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Have a seat. And, yes,
they're Herman Miller.
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Cappuccino, mochaccino,
espresso, latte?
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None of those are for you.
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Okay, I was wrong.
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This is the perfect job
for you.
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Your first study has,
what, 800 patients?
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But since you've had
four whole days to hire
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all the clinical trial nurses
you'll need,
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should be easy.
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I may be a little behind
and may already have
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thirteen patients waiting,
but I will handle it.
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With a lot of cappuccinos.
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Thanks for your support.
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Do you want me
to give you a hand?
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I have 90 minutes
before my next surgery.
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In exchange
for unlimited use
of your espresso machine.
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We'll see.
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[CT scan whirs]
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Poor Ricky.
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He probably just has
a minor infection.
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I meant the parents.
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They went to two very different
schools of thought
on child rearing.
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It's hard on the marriage
but harder on the kid.
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Everyone has
different opinions, Dr. Wolke.
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Yeah, which they really
need to sort out
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before having kids.
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My college roommate,
who was Jewish,
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married
a wonderful Catholic woman.
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They had three children
in quick succession,
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started fighting about
how to parent them non-stop.
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[Daniel] See, my parents never
fought about us
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because my dad
didn't care,
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as long as my mom got
me and my brother dressed
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and out in time
for chores.
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Well...
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No hematoma or abscess.
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No explanation for the fever.
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[Ricky gasps]
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My neck, it really hurts.
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Okay.
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[vomits]
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Hey. I got you.
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[vomiting continues]
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He has tick bites
on his back.
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Pink, plump, and spongy.
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What's that?
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Pneumonia?
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In both lungs.
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[people chattering
indistinctly]
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She's lucky if she has
another week.
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Ex vivo lung perfusion.
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Maybe we can make
the lungs heal themselves.
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That's usually used in cases
involving pulmonary edema.
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Get the lungs. Meet me
in the Procedure Room.
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Tick bites?
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His fever, vomiting,
and sore neck--
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- which could be
neurological--
- It's in his brain?
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Possibly, but the blood tests
were inconclusive,
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so we'd like to do
a lumbar puncture
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to check Ricky's
cerebrospinal fluid.
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This camp just keeps
getting better and better.
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Can we not do this
right now?
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I just want to make sure
this never happens again.
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And I don't?
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I care about our son
every bit as much as you do.
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And yet, you keep prioritizing
fun over safety.
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Yes, I care about fun,
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and socialization,
self-esteem, self-expression--
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Yeah, none of which are
as important as his safety.
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[scoffs]
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I can't do this anymore.
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[sighs] Wh--
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[sighs]
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Got through six so far.
Only one with a minor reaction.
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- You?
- Me, too.
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So, we are 12 down,
one to go.
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[knocking on door]
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Mr. Riggs?
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[exhales] Sorry.
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I just drifted off.
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[chuckles] My fault for
keeping you waiting so long.
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So, how are you feeling?
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Aside from tired.
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Uh, just a bit achy.
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Especially my knees
and elbows, hips.
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And some mild jaundice.
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Other than that,
I feel pretty good.
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[chattering indistinctly]
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- Hello.
- Oh.
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We should sort out
our differences
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about child raising.
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If this is about
McLelland Hall, Shaun,
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- it's not a big deal.
- Oh, no, I have made a list
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of 37 other
potential differences.
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And I'd love to discuss
them all,
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but Andrews just approved
new EMR software
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and wants me to run a beta test
on it in the next 24 hours.
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- Have you talked to Glassy?
- No.
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He didn't come to work today,
but I got a text.
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He says that he is okay.
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So where is he?
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[Dr. Lim] It is not over yet.
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Lungs are remarkably
resilient organs
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when they are
in a body.
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Which is why we have to
convince them they still are.
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We give them a blood supply
by hooking them up
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to a perfusion machine,
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an air supply by hooking
them up to a ventilator,
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IV drips
to feed them antibiotics,
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and we might just be able
to con them back
into viability.
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The next six hours
are crucial.
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How will you know
if they're viable?
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Our main indicator
is a calculation
called the P/F ratio.
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When that reaches at least
400 millimeters of mercury,
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those lungs
are good to go.
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Mom, relax, it's Dr. L.
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[beeping]
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Palpate to find
the L3-4 interspace.
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Maybe Lea and I
will not be able
to sort out our differences
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about child raising and become
angry like Victor and Shelley.
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You and Lea are nothing like
Victor and Shelley.
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They come from completely
different worlds,
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have vastly
different outlooks...
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Lea and I are
very different, too.
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Insert the spinal needle.
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[Asher] And who knows
how much they love each other.
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You and Lea, on the other hand,
I know you do. A lot.
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And that's
all that matters.
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At least, according to
the Hallmark Channel.
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I'm in.
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Whoa, whoa.
Whoa, whoa, whoa.
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The infection has elevated
his intracranial pressure.
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Intubate and load him with
levetiracetam and dexamethasone
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before his brain herniates.
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CSF confirmed
a very rare infection
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called Naegleria fowleri.
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It's a brain-eating amoeba
that's caused serious
cerebral swelling.
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We need to put Ricky
in a barbiturate-induced coma
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and surgically place a port
into the center of his brain.
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Then we will flood it
with antibiotics,
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which will hopefully
reduce the edema.
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And he contracted this
from a tick?
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Oh, no, it's contracted
via contaminated water
through the nose.
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So... So he got it from
the swimming hole at camp?
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That's a good guess.
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But Ricky's way too anxious
around water
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to ever put his head under,
let alone get water
up his nose.
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Naegleria Fowleri
has also been found
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in untreated
swimming pools,
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- nasal rinses,
water heaters--
- Nasal rinses?
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If unboiled tap water
is used.
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I gave him a nasal rinse
the morning he left for camp.
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He had a runny nose.
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That is a better guess.
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Excuse me.
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Riggs has fatigue,
joint pain,
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impaired mental acuity,
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tachycardia,
and mild liver failure.
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- Thanks.
- Maybe he has
a pre-existing condition.
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In which case he should've
been eliminated
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by any remotely competent
screening process.
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00:13:18,694 --> 00:13:21,593
Those protocols were in place
before you came on board.
256
00:13:21,593 --> 00:13:24,907
I'll remind the CRO of that
when I tell them,
on my first day--
257
00:13:24,907 --> 00:13:27,289
that their $4 million trial
needs to be trashed.
258
00:13:27,289 --> 00:13:28,842
How about you save
the doomsday predictions
259
00:13:28,842 --> 00:13:30,533
until after
the blood panel results?
260
00:13:32,328 --> 00:13:33,674
Lab is on the way
to the OR.
261
00:13:37,713 --> 00:13:38,714
[door opens]
262
00:13:39,819 --> 00:13:41,096
It hasn't been six hours yet,
has it?
263
00:13:42,131 --> 00:13:43,132
Six and a quarter.
264
00:13:52,555 --> 00:13:54,316
[beeping]
265
00:13:59,045 --> 00:14:00,563
[monitor chirps]
266
00:14:10,850 --> 00:14:11,989
You want company?
267
00:14:14,923 --> 00:14:15,889
Thanks.
268
00:14:34,908 --> 00:14:37,669
Hello.
Where is Victor?
269
00:14:37,669 --> 00:14:38,774
Beating himself up somewhere.
270
00:14:42,295 --> 00:14:44,884
I just wish
that made a difference.
271
00:14:46,920 --> 00:14:48,197
Do you love each other?
272
00:14:51,856 --> 00:14:54,997
Yeah. Of course.
273
00:14:55,895 --> 00:14:58,449
We've always been
oil and water.
274
00:14:58,449 --> 00:15:00,589
That's how
my dad describes us.
275
00:15:00,589 --> 00:15:03,937
Victor grew up in Belgrade,
I grew up in Berkeley.
276
00:15:03,937 --> 00:15:06,215
Different religions, politics,
277
00:15:06,215 --> 00:15:07,596
socio-economic status.
278
00:15:09,218 --> 00:15:10,564
But when I got pregnant,
279
00:15:10,564 --> 00:15:14,223
we knew we had
a lot of issues to work out.
280
00:15:14,223 --> 00:15:16,743
And we did.
281
00:15:16,743 --> 00:15:19,711
And then Ricky
was born, and...
282
00:15:20,609 --> 00:15:23,750
we suddenly started
arguing over...
283
00:15:23,750 --> 00:15:25,717
when can he safely
eat tree nuts?
284
00:15:27,064 --> 00:15:28,962
How high should he climb
on the jungle gym?
285
00:15:28,962 --> 00:15:31,102
When can he stay
with a babysitter?
286
00:15:31,102 --> 00:15:33,794
Those little things
were the ones
287
00:15:33,794 --> 00:15:35,279
we could never
work out.
288
00:15:37,660 --> 00:15:39,628
But, yes, we still love
each other.
289
00:15:39,628 --> 00:15:41,871
It's just that...
290
00:15:41,871 --> 00:15:43,839
I'm not sure
love is enough anymore.
291
00:15:47,981 --> 00:15:51,260
[Brecka] Still waiting,
still hoping.
292
00:15:52,503 --> 00:15:55,851
That's kinda what we do,
isn't it, Roses?
293
00:15:57,853 --> 00:16:00,235
And the wait is over.
294
00:16:12,281 --> 00:16:13,593
I'm sorry.
295
00:16:19,564 --> 00:16:20,841
We've put you back
on the list.
296
00:16:23,292 --> 00:16:24,880
You're at the very top.
297
00:16:29,816 --> 00:16:31,093
I deserved this.
298
00:16:33,647 --> 00:16:34,959
I wanted those lungs.
299
00:16:37,582 --> 00:16:39,205
[sighs] I wanted
someone to die.
300
00:16:39,860 --> 00:16:41,000
Brecka.
301
00:16:55,773 --> 00:16:57,326
Honey, should we...
Should we finish?
302
00:16:59,984 --> 00:17:01,020
No.
303
00:17:14,378 --> 00:17:15,931
[rake clanks]
304
00:17:17,450 --> 00:17:19,590
- [Shaun] Hello, Dr. Glassman.
- Geez! Man!
305
00:17:22,179 --> 00:17:26,148
Shaun, you might try knocking
next time,
306
00:17:26,148 --> 00:17:28,702
although, you know,
that might be a little tough.
307
00:17:33,569 --> 00:17:36,020
What are you
looking for?
308
00:17:36,020 --> 00:17:38,022
Oh, you know...
309
00:17:38,022 --> 00:17:40,852
my life.
310
00:17:40,852 --> 00:17:42,544
Just my life.
311
00:17:42,544 --> 00:17:44,097
[object thuds]
312
00:17:59,216 --> 00:18:01,114
Not yet.
313
00:18:01,114 --> 00:18:03,220
I think I'm gonna keep at it
for a bit.
314
00:18:07,983 --> 00:18:09,088
Okay.
315
00:18:09,088 --> 00:18:11,814
No. This is on me.
You can head home.
316
00:18:13,471 --> 00:18:14,472
Thanks.
317
00:18:23,136 --> 00:18:27,244
I will miss
your big-screen LED TV.
318
00:18:27,244 --> 00:18:28,590
It was old.
319
00:18:28,590 --> 00:18:31,455
It had a pixel line
down the right side.
320
00:18:31,455 --> 00:18:33,422
Did you love Ilana?
321
00:18:34,320 --> 00:18:37,046
What? Did I love Ilana?
322
00:18:37,046 --> 00:18:38,427
Yeah, of course.
323
00:18:38,427 --> 00:18:40,843
Did you love Debbie?
324
00:18:42,638 --> 00:18:45,193
Yeah, I loved Debbie.
Where is this going,
Shaun?
325
00:18:45,193 --> 00:18:48,403
That wasn't enough for you
to get over your differences.
326
00:18:48,403 --> 00:18:51,406
How do I know if
love will be enough
327
00:18:51,406 --> 00:18:54,236
for me and Lea to get over
our differences?
328
00:18:54,236 --> 00:18:55,858
Well, you won't know.
329
00:18:55,858 --> 00:18:58,137
I mean, how can you know?
You can't know.
330
00:18:59,138 --> 00:19:01,968
I do not like worrying
about this.
331
00:19:01,968 --> 00:19:03,625
[Dr. Glassman]
Well, look, I mean,
332
00:19:03,625 --> 00:19:05,834
Lea had some doubts
a little while ago, right?
333
00:19:05,834 --> 00:19:07,318
And you both
got over that.
334
00:19:07,318 --> 00:19:09,631
Yes, because I was
very supportive.
335
00:19:09,631 --> 00:19:11,115
Okay, well,
there you go.
336
00:19:11,115 --> 00:19:14,014
But differences about
child raising seem to be bigger
337
00:19:14,014 --> 00:19:16,085
- than normal differences.
- Well, yeah.
338
00:19:16,085 --> 00:19:18,018
I mean, having a child,
I mean, that's big.
339
00:19:18,018 --> 00:19:19,158
That's huge.
That's a shift.
340
00:19:19,158 --> 00:19:21,539
It shifts everything,
marriage, everything.
341
00:19:21,539 --> 00:19:24,818
I do not want a shift
in our marriage.
342
00:19:24,818 --> 00:19:26,510
Well, maybe it'll shift
for the better.
343
00:19:34,345 --> 00:19:35,450
Aardy's eye.
344
00:19:36,313 --> 00:19:37,693
The first thing
I ever bought Maddie
345
00:19:37,693 --> 00:19:39,868
was a stuffed aardvark.
346
00:19:46,219 --> 00:19:49,498
Back in the day,
I performed a 21-hour surgery.
347
00:19:49,498 --> 00:19:51,155
I removed an astrocytoma
348
00:19:51,155 --> 00:19:52,915
from the medulla
of the brainstem.
349
00:19:52,915 --> 00:19:55,055
It was heroic.
It put me on the map.
350
00:19:55,055 --> 00:19:56,988
My elective surgeries
were booked out for a year.
351
00:19:56,988 --> 00:20:01,027
I was in a zone,
like playing scratch golf.
352
00:20:01,027 --> 00:20:03,892
And then
Ilana got pregnant.
353
00:20:03,892 --> 00:20:05,859
[chuckles]
354
00:20:05,859 --> 00:20:07,240
She didn't want
to stop working.
355
00:20:07,240 --> 00:20:08,690
She had
a real-estate thing.
356
00:20:08,690 --> 00:20:10,519
She was doing very well.
I didn't want to stop working.
357
00:20:10,519 --> 00:20:12,211
I wanted to stay
on the map.
358
00:20:13,591 --> 00:20:15,006
And then
we brought Maddie home.
359
00:20:15,006 --> 00:20:16,560
That first night...
360
00:20:18,907 --> 00:20:20,080
everything changed.
361
00:20:23,946 --> 00:20:26,397
Hmm.
362
00:20:26,397 --> 00:20:28,503
Go talk to Lea.
363
00:20:28,503 --> 00:20:30,953
I tried.
364
00:20:30,953 --> 00:20:34,923
She had to run a beta test
on new EMR software.
365
00:20:34,923 --> 00:20:37,097
Well, then, you'll have to wait
until she's done.
366
00:20:46,935 --> 00:20:48,074
[monitor beeps]
367
00:20:53,321 --> 00:20:54,529
[beeping]
368
00:21:02,122 --> 00:21:03,883
[door opens]
369
00:21:03,883 --> 00:21:07,300
All I had on my DVR
was a marathon of Shark Tank.
370
00:21:07,300 --> 00:21:08,922
Can't say I was in the mood
to be staring
371
00:21:08,922 --> 00:21:10,545
at Mr. Wonderful's
bald head,
372
00:21:10,545 --> 00:21:12,719
so why not
entertain myself
373
00:21:12,719 --> 00:21:15,722
by watching some
hot lung perfusion action?
374
00:21:15,722 --> 00:21:17,621
I'm not one
to kink shame.
375
00:21:17,621 --> 00:21:20,589
Coffee and cronuts
from Chaz's Bakery.
376
00:21:20,589 --> 00:21:22,419
I'm happy
for the company.
377
00:21:22,419 --> 00:21:25,249
Noomie's not much
of a conversationalist.
378
00:21:25,249 --> 00:21:27,182
N-Noomie?-My pet name for them.
379
00:21:27,182 --> 00:21:29,149
From the Greek word
for lungs, pneumonas.
380
00:21:29,149 --> 00:21:31,635
I thought it was better
than Lung-ie.
381
00:21:31,635 --> 00:21:33,257
Yeah,
I may be losing it.
382
00:21:33,257 --> 00:21:35,328
- Cronut.
- [chuckles]
383
00:21:37,951 --> 00:21:39,988
- Mmm.
- Any progress?
384
00:21:39,988 --> 00:21:41,990
Negligible.
385
00:21:41,990 --> 00:21:43,647
I keep doing the same thing
over and over,
386
00:21:43,647 --> 00:21:46,270
hoping for
a different outcome.
387
00:21:46,270 --> 00:21:48,928
Yeah, I'm definitely
losing it.
388
00:21:48,928 --> 00:21:50,101
Then do
something different.
389
00:21:58,627 --> 00:22:00,111
Okay.
390
00:22:06,980 --> 00:22:10,294
Doubling up on antibiotics,
and we can add steroids.
391
00:22:10,294 --> 00:22:13,470
This will either
hammer out the infection...
392
00:22:14,022 --> 00:22:15,195
or the lungs.
393
00:22:18,647 --> 00:22:20,994
[keyboard clacking]
394
00:22:24,722 --> 00:22:25,930
How's Glassy?
395
00:22:25,930 --> 00:22:28,830
Very sore
and very sooty.
396
00:22:28,830 --> 00:22:30,383
- Mmm.
- [door closes]
397
00:22:34,836 --> 00:22:37,390
We need to talk.
398
00:22:37,390 --> 00:22:39,150
About our 37 differences?
399
00:22:39,150 --> 00:22:40,704
I thought of two more.
400
00:22:42,740 --> 00:22:45,364
Shaun, as you know,
I'm kinda busy right now,
401
00:22:45,364 --> 00:22:47,158
so you'll have to settle
for me agreeing that,
402
00:22:47,158 --> 00:22:49,195
yes, we'll have many,
many differences,
403
00:22:49,195 --> 00:22:51,991
but in time, we'll be able
to work them out and--
404
00:22:51,991 --> 00:22:53,648
That's what Victor
and Shelley thought,
405
00:22:53,648 --> 00:22:55,926
and now they are talking
about separating.
406
00:22:57,030 --> 00:23:00,171
I don't know who
Victor and Shelley are.
407
00:23:00,171 --> 00:23:03,347
But in any event,
I have at least two more hours
of work to do tonight.
408
00:23:04,210 --> 00:23:05,245
[keyboard clacking]
409
00:23:05,245 --> 00:23:06,833
Okay.
410
00:23:15,566 --> 00:23:17,982
- You're waiting,
aren't you?
- Yes.
411
00:23:17,982 --> 00:23:20,053
I am very patient.
412
00:23:20,053 --> 00:23:21,917
You are very patient
413
00:23:21,917 --> 00:23:23,263
and very understanding.
414
00:23:23,263 --> 00:23:25,196
And you were so good with me
on our babymoon.
415
00:23:25,196 --> 00:23:27,233
If you could just channel
some of that--
416
00:23:27,233 --> 00:23:30,270
On our babymoon,
I thought love was enough.
417
00:23:34,067 --> 00:23:37,519
That's... kind of
a big thing
418
00:23:37,519 --> 00:23:40,280
to drop on me
this late at night.
419
00:23:40,280 --> 00:23:42,351
You were too busy to discuss it
in the morning,
420
00:23:42,351 --> 00:23:44,250
so I talked
to Dr. Glassman about it,
421
00:23:44,250 --> 00:23:47,322
and he said having a child
will shift our dynamics.
422
00:23:47,322 --> 00:23:49,773
And if it does,
we can talk about it then.
423
00:23:49,773 --> 00:23:52,120
So if we can't talk
about our dynamics now,
424
00:23:52,120 --> 00:23:53,535
how about
our differences?
425
00:23:53,535 --> 00:23:54,985
Apparently
we have 39 of them,
426
00:23:54,985 --> 00:23:56,365
so we're gonna need
a serious chunk of time,
427
00:23:56,365 --> 00:23:57,884
and I'm pretty sure
they'll keep,
428
00:23:57,884 --> 00:23:59,886
because we're kinda committed
to having a kid together,
429
00:23:59,886 --> 00:24:02,164
whether love
is enough or not.
430
00:24:03,407 --> 00:24:06,410
Shaun, I'm just...
I'm way too tired to have
431
00:24:06,410 --> 00:24:10,103
a productive conversation
about this right now, okay?
432
00:24:10,621 --> 00:24:11,864
Okay.
433
00:24:11,864 --> 00:24:13,279
[door opens]
434
00:24:15,281 --> 00:24:16,662
[door closes]
435
00:24:23,772 --> 00:24:26,568
[beeping]
436
00:24:29,260 --> 00:24:30,917
[monitor chirps]
437
00:24:30,917 --> 00:24:32,091
[sighs]
438
00:24:41,376 --> 00:24:42,791
It's time to call it.
439
00:24:45,967 --> 00:24:47,313
I had a half an hour
left on my call
440
00:24:47,313 --> 00:24:49,833
when she first came
to the ER,
441
00:24:49,833 --> 00:24:52,042
coughing blood,
vitals on the floor.
442
00:24:53,975 --> 00:24:55,597
When we opened her up,
her lungs looked like
443
00:24:55,597 --> 00:24:57,288
they belonged
to a 70-year-old.
444
00:24:57,288 --> 00:24:59,532
Didn't think she'd make it
through the night.
445
00:24:59,532 --> 00:25:00,844
She was eight.
446
00:25:03,571 --> 00:25:05,607
[sighs] I couldn't go home.
447
00:25:05,607 --> 00:25:07,506
I stayed with her
that night.
448
00:25:09,024 --> 00:25:12,165
And then, the next morning,
she just...
449
00:25:12,165 --> 00:25:13,891
opened her eyes,
looked at me,
450
00:25:13,891 --> 00:25:15,824
and told me she liked
my French braid.
451
00:25:19,932 --> 00:25:21,243
Once I call it...
452
00:25:23,452 --> 00:25:25,834
I have to go up there
and tell her I failed her.
453
00:25:31,909 --> 00:25:33,566
[sighs]
454
00:25:35,119 --> 00:25:36,914
Got Riggs'
latest test results.
455
00:25:36,914 --> 00:25:39,814
Turns out he did have
a pre-existing condition--
456
00:25:39,814 --> 00:25:41,885
hemochromatosis.
457
00:25:41,885 --> 00:25:43,576
So the jerk lied about it
to get into the study.
458
00:25:45,026 --> 00:25:46,752
That's your assumption?
459
00:25:46,752 --> 00:25:48,650
He got $3,500
to participate.
460
00:25:48,650 --> 00:25:50,583
I think it's a pretty
sound assumption.
461
00:25:50,583 --> 00:25:52,033
But whether
he lied or not,
462
00:25:52,033 --> 00:25:54,207
it means the screeners
are incompetent.
463
00:25:54,207 --> 00:25:55,588
That's gotta take a toll.
464
00:25:56,865 --> 00:25:58,557
Expecting the worst
of everybody.
465
00:25:58,557 --> 00:26:01,180
I'd rather be
pleasantly surprised
than bitterly disappointed.
466
00:26:03,665 --> 00:26:06,116
And that's the worldview
you want to impart
to your future child,
467
00:26:07,566 --> 00:26:09,188
"Assume the worst
of everyone"?
468
00:26:17,921 --> 00:26:19,267
- [alarm beeping]
- Help!
469
00:26:19,267 --> 00:26:21,269
We need help in here!
470
00:26:22,270 --> 00:26:23,892
What's happening?
471
00:26:23,892 --> 00:26:26,757
Add a milligram of lorazepam.
He's seizing.
472
00:26:26,757 --> 00:26:28,345
[Asher] Because his ICPs
are in the 40s.
473
00:26:28,345 --> 00:26:29,967
Cerebral edema's
gotten worse.
474
00:26:29,967 --> 00:26:32,038
If we don't open up
Ricky's skull immediately,
475
00:26:32,038 --> 00:26:33,557
he will die.
476
00:26:40,737 --> 00:26:43,981
Removing large hemicrani
skull flap.
477
00:26:43,981 --> 00:26:46,328
Performing
wide dural opening.
478
00:26:52,162 --> 00:26:53,715
[Daniel] Look at the monitor.
479
00:26:53,715 --> 00:26:55,959
EEG's all over the place.
He's still seizing.
480
00:26:55,959 --> 00:26:59,756
[Shaun] Place an additional EVD
and increase propofol
to burst suppress.
481
00:26:59,756 --> 00:27:01,309
[Asher] Eh, but he's maxed out.
482
00:27:01,309 --> 00:27:03,414
If we give him any more
propofol, we could kill him.
483
00:27:03,414 --> 00:27:05,831
If we don't, the seizures
will definitely kill him.
484
00:27:09,179 --> 00:27:10,352
[monitor warbling]
485
00:27:13,701 --> 00:27:15,599
[Shaun] Oh. We can remove
the damaged cortex
486
00:27:15,599 --> 00:27:17,532
in the left anterior
temporal lobe
487
00:27:17,532 --> 00:27:20,500
using ECoG and pre-op imaging
to guide us.
488
00:27:20,500 --> 00:27:22,779
[Daniel] Cut out
part of his brain?
That's a little extreme.
489
00:27:22,779 --> 00:27:25,505
[Asher] It is the area
that's causing the seizures.
490
00:27:25,505 --> 00:27:27,369
[Asher] It'll just be
a tough sell
to his parents.
491
00:27:27,369 --> 00:27:28,854
[Shaun] Which is why
you will help.
492
00:27:28,854 --> 00:27:32,651
Okay, please keep him
stabilized with iced LR
to the cortical surface.
493
00:27:33,272 --> 00:27:34,687
[Asher] Uh...
494
00:27:35,308 --> 00:27:36,965
[doors sliding]
495
00:27:39,416 --> 00:27:42,212
[Jenn] "The country flew past
as if they were seeing it
496
00:27:42,212 --> 00:27:44,939
from the windows
of an express train.
497
00:27:44,939 --> 00:27:47,148
Faster and faster
they raced,
498
00:27:48,252 --> 00:27:49,875
but no one got tired
or out of breath."
499
00:27:53,050 --> 00:27:55,501
We can save the last chapter
for later.
500
00:27:57,986 --> 00:27:59,298
There is no later.
501
00:28:08,721 --> 00:28:10,205
Where's Dr. L?
502
00:28:12,552 --> 00:28:15,072
She wasn't ready to give up
on your lungs.
503
00:28:16,108 --> 00:28:17,523
There's still a chance?
504
00:28:20,906 --> 00:28:23,011
Dr. Lim thinks so.
505
00:28:24,012 --> 00:28:28,120
♪ Your glass is on your side ♪
506
00:28:28,120 --> 00:28:30,363
Let's finish.
507
00:28:30,363 --> 00:28:35,230
♪ And tell someone you love
How much you need them ♪
508
00:28:35,230 --> 00:28:39,200
♪ To be strong ♪
509
00:28:39,200 --> 00:28:42,824
♪ Hold on ♪
510
00:28:42,824 --> 00:28:44,723
"Chapter 16.
511
00:28:46,690 --> 00:28:50,625
Farewell
to the Shadowlands."
512
00:28:50,625 --> 00:28:53,041
[Asher] We would cut out
a small piece of his cortex.
513
00:28:53,041 --> 00:28:54,353
It's already been damaged
by the infection.
514
00:28:54,353 --> 00:28:58,426
Removing it may be the only way
to keep him alive.
515
00:28:59,289 --> 00:29:01,878
But how would that
affect him?
516
00:29:01,878 --> 00:29:03,603
There are areas
of the brain
517
00:29:03,603 --> 00:29:06,296
that are significantly
less essential than others.
518
00:29:06,296 --> 00:29:09,264
This part only impacts
his speech and memory,
519
00:29:09,264 --> 00:29:11,577
probably not long-term.
520
00:29:11,577 --> 00:29:16,064
So he might not be able
to talk or know who we are?
521
00:29:16,064 --> 00:29:18,308
We wouldn't be able
to fully assess him
until he wakes up.
522
00:29:28,490 --> 00:29:30,769
Ricky's skull is open.
523
00:29:36,326 --> 00:29:37,603
We should do it.
524
00:29:40,295 --> 00:29:42,608
Uh, th-this is
a very good hospital,
525
00:29:42,608 --> 00:29:44,299
these are
very smart doctors.
526
00:29:45,611 --> 00:29:50,064
And someone very wise
once told me that, uh,
527
00:29:50,064 --> 00:29:52,342
"Sometimes you just
have to trust that
things will work out."
528
00:29:58,969 --> 00:30:00,005
Okay.
529
00:30:24,029 --> 00:30:25,513
Hmm.
530
00:30:26,652 --> 00:30:28,343
[Riggs] Hemochromatosis?
531
00:30:28,343 --> 00:30:30,380
You never noticed
the symptoms until now?
532
00:30:30,380 --> 00:30:32,658
Joint pain, fatigue,
mental fuzziness?
533
00:30:32,658 --> 00:30:34,384
Well, I turn 58 next week.
534
00:30:34,384 --> 00:30:36,524
I mean, I haven't felt
a day over 30 until now.
535
00:30:39,872 --> 00:30:42,702
It is very unlikely
your hemochromatosis
536
00:30:42,702 --> 00:30:44,152
went from 0 to 60
in a week.
537
00:30:47,535 --> 00:30:50,400
Is it possible
you gave the screeners
someone else's blood?
538
00:30:52,229 --> 00:30:54,231
You think I cheated?
For the money?
539
00:30:54,231 --> 00:30:56,406
No, Mr. Riggs,
I'm just trying to--
540
00:30:59,996 --> 00:31:02,791
You're a blood donor
in the 20-gallon club?
541
00:31:02,791 --> 00:31:05,070
Yeah, regular donor,
last 30 years.
542
00:31:05,070 --> 00:31:06,830
When was the last time
you donated?
543
00:31:06,830 --> 00:31:09,937
Two months ago, just before
I started this trial.
544
00:31:09,937 --> 00:31:12,422
And you're not allowed
to donate while you're
in the trial.
545
00:31:12,422 --> 00:31:14,182
Well, see,
that's the downside.
546
00:31:14,182 --> 00:31:15,528
I actually enjoy
those cookies.
547
00:31:15,528 --> 00:31:17,565
[chuckles]
548
00:31:17,565 --> 00:31:20,257
I'll make sure you get all
the cookies you want,
Mr. Riggs.
549
00:31:26,091 --> 00:31:28,714
[dog barking in distance]
550
00:31:31,372 --> 00:31:33,063
Don't you think
it's time to come home?
551
00:31:34,271 --> 00:31:35,583
No.
552
00:31:35,583 --> 00:31:37,826
[chuckles]
553
00:31:37,826 --> 00:31:39,828
Well, in that case...
554
00:31:39,828 --> 00:31:41,589
I wanted to make you
something delicious
555
00:31:41,589 --> 00:31:42,935
like you've made us,
556
00:31:42,935 --> 00:31:46,042
but I'm not a very good cook,
and everything's closed.
557
00:31:46,042 --> 00:31:48,941
So, I hope you like
558
00:31:48,941 --> 00:31:51,185
hot-dog-flavored
potato chips
559
00:31:51,185 --> 00:31:53,601
and Nutty Buddies.
560
00:31:54,429 --> 00:31:55,465
Mmm.
561
00:31:56,259 --> 00:31:57,432
Yeah.
562
00:32:00,263 --> 00:32:01,367
Nail polish?
563
00:32:02,299 --> 00:32:04,301
Father-daughter time.
564
00:32:04,301 --> 00:32:07,201
Maddie insisted that
she paint my fingernails
565
00:32:07,201 --> 00:32:08,616
a sparkly rainbow color.
566
00:32:09,444 --> 00:32:11,412
[chuckles]
567
00:32:11,412 --> 00:32:16,072
The next day, my first patient
was very uncomfortable.
568
00:32:16,072 --> 00:32:18,557
That's when I realized
I forgot to remove
the nail polish.
569
00:32:20,317 --> 00:32:22,147
That's a nice memory.
570
00:32:23,355 --> 00:32:25,150
Oh, sit.
No, sit, sit, sit.
571
00:32:31,501 --> 00:32:34,055
[sighs]
So many memories.
572
00:32:36,092 --> 00:32:38,508
The Halloween
Maddie wanted to go as a ham
573
00:32:38,508 --> 00:32:42,132
because we'd just seen
To Kill a Mockingbird.
574
00:32:42,132 --> 00:32:46,619
But she wanted the ham
to be made
out of an actual ham.
575
00:32:48,138 --> 00:32:50,313
And then, one night,
the wind was blowing so hard,
576
00:32:50,313 --> 00:32:53,143
it blew
her bedroom door shut.
577
00:32:53,143 --> 00:32:55,111
She was convinced that
her grandmother's ghost
578
00:32:55,111 --> 00:32:56,767
had come back
to visit her.
579
00:32:58,286 --> 00:33:00,875
Wanted to sleep in our bed
for the next two weeks.
580
00:33:04,913 --> 00:33:08,193
You didn't come here
just to feed me
junk food, did you?
581
00:33:09,918 --> 00:33:12,231
I thought you might need
someone to talk to.
582
00:33:12,231 --> 00:33:13,474
I'm fine.
583
00:33:14,889 --> 00:33:16,373
Hmm.
584
00:33:16,373 --> 00:33:17,892
I know someone
you should talk to.
585
00:33:23,311 --> 00:33:24,485
I know.
586
00:33:25,693 --> 00:33:27,453
But this was easier.
587
00:33:35,151 --> 00:33:36,324
Mmm.
588
00:33:38,326 --> 00:33:39,983
Hot dogs
should not be a flavor.
589
00:33:43,745 --> 00:33:45,195
"All their life
in this world
590
00:33:45,195 --> 00:33:47,025
and all their adventures
in Narnia
591
00:33:47,025 --> 00:33:49,820
had only been the cover
and the title page.
592
00:33:49,820 --> 00:33:52,789
Now, at last, they were
beginning chapter one
593
00:33:52,789 --> 00:33:54,584
of the great story
594
00:33:54,584 --> 00:33:57,725
which no one on earth
has read,
595
00:33:57,725 --> 00:34:01,004
which goes on forever,
596
00:34:01,004 --> 00:34:06,492
in which
every chapter is better
than the one before."
597
00:34:06,492 --> 00:34:11,635
♪ Coming home
With your song
In my heart ♪
598
00:34:11,635 --> 00:34:13,499
Checking in.
599
00:34:13,499 --> 00:34:14,742
Need me to
up your morphine?
600
00:34:14,742 --> 00:34:16,537
Couldn't hurt.
601
00:34:16,537 --> 00:34:18,228
♪ ...in my heart ♪
602
00:34:18,228 --> 00:34:19,781
♪ Ooh, ooh ♪
603
00:34:19,781 --> 00:34:27,168
♪ Coming home with your song
In my heart ♪
604
00:34:27,168 --> 00:34:30,758
Hey, I changed my mind.
605
00:34:30,758 --> 00:34:33,105
About the vlog.
606
00:34:34,072 --> 00:34:35,797
Wonderful.
607
00:34:39,077 --> 00:34:42,390
♪ Cry out in the cold ♪
608
00:34:42,390 --> 00:34:45,393
♪ Chasing hours
And your hand... ♪
609
00:34:45,393 --> 00:34:46,705
Go for it.
610
00:34:50,605 --> 00:34:53,608
Hey, Roses.
611
00:34:53,608 --> 00:34:56,922
I'm back.
612
00:34:56,922 --> 00:34:59,511
The DLT didn't
really work out,
613
00:34:59,511 --> 00:35:02,203
so...
614
00:35:02,203 --> 00:35:05,551
this is gonna be
my last update.
615
00:35:07,898 --> 00:35:09,969
I wasn't even
gonna do this.
616
00:35:09,969 --> 00:35:11,902
I was gonna flip off
Dylan Thomas
617
00:35:11,902 --> 00:35:14,422
and go gently
into that good night.
618
00:35:16,424 --> 00:35:17,736
But...
619
00:35:18,978 --> 00:35:21,119
I couldn't leave
without saying goodbye.
620
00:35:23,293 --> 00:35:25,226
And that...
621
00:35:25,226 --> 00:35:28,298
it's okay to be hurt...
622
00:35:28,298 --> 00:35:29,748
I am...
623
00:35:31,301 --> 00:35:34,649
that my life's
been cut short.
624
00:35:34,649 --> 00:35:38,757
But the upside
to all of this
625
00:35:38,757 --> 00:35:42,519
is that I feel something
I never thought I would.
626
00:35:42,519 --> 00:35:43,831
It's gratitude.
627
00:35:46,799 --> 00:35:49,837
I'm grateful
to my sweet mother
628
00:35:51,977 --> 00:35:55,325
and [wheezing]
629
00:35:55,325 --> 00:35:58,121
to the people
who keep hope alive.
630
00:35:58,121 --> 00:36:00,951
♪ ...song in my heart ♪
631
00:36:00,951 --> 00:36:03,506
Like Dr. L and...
632
00:36:03,506 --> 00:36:06,440
[wheezing]
633
00:36:06,440 --> 00:36:08,752
♪ ...with your song
In my heart ♪
634
00:36:08,752 --> 00:36:10,306
[alarm blaring]
635
00:36:10,306 --> 00:36:11,686
Crash cart!
636
00:36:12,860 --> 00:36:14,793
She's in full
respiratory failure.
637
00:36:15,863 --> 00:36:17,830
- We need to intubate her.
- No.
638
00:36:20,488 --> 00:36:22,283
We need to let her go.
639
00:36:22,801 --> 00:36:24,561
[Brecka wheezing]
640
00:36:53,935 --> 00:36:56,248
[beeping]
641
00:37:02,668 --> 00:37:04,705
[beeping rapidly]
642
00:37:12,126 --> 00:37:14,197
Noomie hit 402.
Get Brecka to the OR.
643
00:37:16,717 --> 00:37:17,718
The lungs are good.
644
00:37:19,271 --> 00:37:20,376
We should intubate.
645
00:37:21,135 --> 00:37:22,274
Yes.
646
00:37:35,977 --> 00:37:39,912
[monitor warbling]
647
00:37:40,637 --> 00:37:42,605
- Ricky?
- Dr. Murphy!
648
00:37:44,814 --> 00:37:47,610
Ricky, can you hear us?
649
00:37:49,508 --> 00:37:50,751
Hello.
650
00:37:56,101 --> 00:37:59,104
Do you know
where you are?
651
00:38:03,971 --> 00:38:06,387
Do you know
your name?
652
00:38:22,541 --> 00:38:24,336
I'm Ricky Pavlovic.
653
00:38:25,958 --> 00:38:28,271
I'm in the hospital
654
00:38:28,271 --> 00:38:31,999
because I stepped
on a rusty nail at church camp.
655
00:38:35,865 --> 00:38:38,764
But I would still like to go
back there next year.
656
00:38:39,662 --> 00:38:41,284
[chuckles]
657
00:39:10,348 --> 00:39:12,211
Welcome home, Noomie.
658
00:39:19,909 --> 00:39:22,014
So Riggs is a lifelong
blood donor.
659
00:39:23,533 --> 00:39:25,535
Which totally eliminated
his symptoms.
660
00:39:25,535 --> 00:39:27,261
Until he started
this trial.
661
00:39:27,261 --> 00:39:29,815
He's not allowed to donate
till it's over,
662
00:39:29,815 --> 00:39:31,817
so there was nothing wrong
with the protocols,
663
00:39:31,817 --> 00:39:33,336
nobody was incompetent,
664
00:39:33,336 --> 00:39:35,856
and Riggs isn't
a big fat liar.
665
00:39:35,856 --> 00:39:38,410
In fact,
he's a legit hero.
666
00:39:40,792 --> 00:39:43,381
Maybe my worldview does need
a little adjustment.
667
00:39:45,383 --> 00:39:46,832
I prefer Italian roast.
668
00:39:47,454 --> 00:39:48,420
Noted.
669
00:39:54,081 --> 00:39:55,772
Ready to take Noomie
for a test run?
670
00:39:57,912 --> 00:40:00,052
That's what she named
your lungs.
671
00:40:00,777 --> 00:40:01,951
It was a weird night.
672
00:40:06,714 --> 00:40:07,957
Start small.
673
00:40:09,061 --> 00:40:13,376
♪ I see all the light
That lifts us ♪
674
00:40:15,827 --> 00:40:19,693
- ♪ Hitting on the edges
Of our wings ♪
- [inhales]
675
00:40:22,005 --> 00:40:26,458
♪ Choirs of stars
Gathered before us ♪
676
00:40:26,458 --> 00:40:29,116
[breathing deeply]
677
00:40:29,116 --> 00:40:32,947
♪ To light the path
Beneath our feet ♪
678
00:40:36,295 --> 00:40:41,231
♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh ♪
679
00:40:41,784 --> 00:40:46,305
♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh ♪
680
00:40:46,305 --> 00:40:52,173
♪ Hey, courage
Be my compass ♪
681
00:40:52,173 --> 00:40:56,350
♪ Start a fire deep within ♪
682
00:40:59,457 --> 00:41:03,253
♪ 'Cause I run
With everything
And nothing ♪
683
00:41:03,253 --> 00:41:05,083
Thanks for coming.
684
00:41:05,911 --> 00:41:07,775
We should talk.
685
00:41:07,775 --> 00:41:10,916
♪ ...where to begin ♪
686
00:41:14,195 --> 00:41:16,232
♪ We fall ♪
687
00:41:16,232 --> 00:41:19,753
♪ We fly ♪
688
00:41:19,753 --> 00:41:22,997
♪ We'll all be, we'll all be
We'll all be alright ♪
689
00:41:22,997 --> 00:41:26,484
Number 39,
690
00:41:26,484 --> 00:41:29,590
dietary restrictions.
691
00:41:29,590 --> 00:41:31,661
- Other than breast milk--
- [gasps]
692
00:41:33,629 --> 00:41:35,354
Oh, I felt a kick.
693
00:41:37,564 --> 00:41:39,324
♪ We'll all be
We'll all be ♪
694
00:41:39,324 --> 00:41:42,292
- ♪ We'll all be alright ♪
- Oh!
695
00:41:43,570 --> 00:41:44,985
This is very exciting.
696
00:41:44,985 --> 00:41:47,643
[all laugh]
697
00:41:47,643 --> 00:41:48,989
Come here.
698
00:41:55,271 --> 00:42:00,138
Think of all the new memories
waiting to be made.
699
00:42:00,138 --> 00:42:01,864
♪ We fall ♪
700
00:42:01,864 --> 00:42:03,831
♪ We fly ♪
701
00:42:03,831 --> 00:42:06,006
Hey, let's go home.
702
00:42:06,006 --> 00:42:10,286
♪ We'll all be, we'll all be
We'll all be alright ♪
703
00:42:10,286 --> 00:42:13,669
Number 39,
other than breast milk,
704
00:42:13,669 --> 00:42:15,360
I don't think that Peanut
705
00:42:15,360 --> 00:42:18,190
should have any dairy products
before six months.
706
00:42:18,190 --> 00:42:20,538
Easy peasy.
Number 38?
707
00:42:23,368 --> 00:42:26,405
♪ We'll all be
We'll all be
We'll all be alright ♪