1
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**

2
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Someone had
a good night.

3
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Do you think
all of these people
have had sex?

4
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And if so,
shouldn't they
be more happy?

5
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Maybe their experiences

6
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weren't as recent
as yours.

7
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I think about sex
with everyone.

8
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But mostly with Carly.

9
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She and I
are very compatible.

10
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That's great, Shaun,
but H.R. might not approve.

11
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About me
thinking of sex?

12
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No, about saying you're
thinking about sex.

13
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(CHUCKLES)
And stop it.

14
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Smiling while talking
to a dying man is not cool.

15
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Dr. Blaize recommended
we speak to you

16
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about a permanent port.

17
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It would simplify
your chemo sessions.

18
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No more hunting
for a vein every time.

19
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Anything to help
with the nausea?

20
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It's a normal
side effect.

21
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Anything you can do
for the exhaustion?

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Anything...

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So that my muscles
don't ache?

24
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But you can keep me
from being stuck
by a needle.

25
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They're just trying
to help.

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I know.

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All the doctors
are trying to help.

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**

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I'm sorry.

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Thank you.

31
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But I-I don't need the port.

32
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And I don't need
any more chemo.

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Of course you do.

34
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It's going to give you
more time.

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Honey, I'm miserable.

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**

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Cerebral cavernous
malformations.

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Leads to bleeding, clots,
seizures, muscle weakness,

39
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even paralysis.

40
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You have clusters of them.

41
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And they're getting worse.

42
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The woman at Hopkins
gave me a year.

43
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Mass General, two years.

44
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So, what, you figured
I'd give you three?

45
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Some new treatment?

46
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You know the treatment,
Caroline... A lobectomy.

47
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I love the way surgeons
blithely suggest

48
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cutting through
my cerebral cortex

49
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to remove part of my brain.
Hmm.

50
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Why not just
take an egg slicer
to my ability to paint?

51
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Yes, it will likely lead
to a curtailment

52
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of your ability
to be creative,

53
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but all of
your other faculties
will remain intact.

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(SIGHS)

55
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I had a severe prognosis
of my own recently.

56
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Surgery, chemo,
radiation, the works.

57
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My greatest fear
wasn't at the edges
of the spectrum.

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It wasn't life or death.

59
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My greatest fear

60
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was survival
as something lesser.

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Then you know.

62
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And then I had
a revelation of sorts.

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Who I am,
how I think of myself

64
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isn't defined by
my skill as a surgeon.

65
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Uh, I'm seeing
you as a courtesy.

66
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I don't do this anymore.

67
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And guess what?
I'm fine.

68
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I'm happier.

69
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You could have 20,
30 more years
with your family.

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A balanced life isn't
necessarily a lesser life.

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I disagree.

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**

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(DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)

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Twenty bucks says
Shaun mentions sex

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in front of a patient
in the next 24 hours.

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He's excited.

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I'm sure you were when
a new world opened up.

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But he knows better.

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Twenty bucks.
No.

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Morgan. (GASPS)

81
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Oh, I was hoping
I'd see you.

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Hello.

83
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Perfect.

84
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I was just wondering where
to get lunch around here.

85
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Any genre,
as long as it's
locally sourced.

86
00:04:06,213 --> 00:04:07,214
Is this a friend?

87
00:04:08,048 --> 00:04:09,216
I'm Caroline Reznick.

88
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Oh, hi.
(CHUCKLES)

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My mother.

90
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What are you doing here?

91
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What beautiful eyes.

92
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I hope...

93
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S-someone...

94
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P-paint...

95
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Mom!

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Mom? Mom.

97
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Mom, can you hear me?

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Code blue.
We need a crash cart.

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**

100
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(THEME MUSIC PLAYING)

101
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I've come to take you
to lunch.

102
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It's only 11:15.

103
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M-Morgan told me

104
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that it might
be considered
unprofessional

105
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to discuss sex on the job.

106
00:05:01,835 --> 00:05:03,236
So, when you say "lunch"...

107
00:05:03,270 --> 00:05:04,271
It's sex.

108
00:05:05,272 --> 00:05:07,240
I am expected
to be here working.

109
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People in the Pathology Lab

110
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take two 15-minute breaks
on their shift.

111
00:05:13,013 --> 00:05:14,281
If they were combined
into one

112
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and we used the
bus that stops
out front at 11:25,

113
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with one returning
at 12:15,

114
00:05:18,251 --> 00:05:19,787
and we borrowed some
of your lunch hour...

115
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You only require 22 minutes
to eat a sandwich...

116
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There would be
just enough time

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to get to your apartment
and back.

118
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Have you noticed the time
you've allotted for "lunch"

119
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is fairly short?

120
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Long enough.

121
00:05:41,809 --> 00:05:43,811
Long enough for you,
not for me.

122
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You've only had sex
once in your life.

123
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No one expects you
to win awards,

124
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and it was lovely
sharing the moment.

125
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Are you implying the sex
could be improved on?

126
00:06:04,197 --> 00:06:05,232
Yes.

127
00:06:06,567 --> 00:06:08,836
**

128
00:06:10,170 --> 00:06:11,472
Does that bother you?

129
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No.

130
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I have no objection
to improving sex.

131
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Although, I thought it was
already excellent.

132
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I'll work on it.

133
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(DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)

134
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(MONITOR BEEPING)

135
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DR. LIM: Found the source
of the bleed.

136
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Suctioning
and evacuating
the clot cavity.

137
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The Cav Mals
are everywhere.

138
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She could have
a massive bleed
at any time.

139
00:06:38,031 --> 00:06:40,400
I thought
Morgan's parents
were doctors.

140
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I heard that, too.
Why would Morgan
let us think...

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DR. REZNICK: (LOUDLY)
Maybe you should
save the speculation

142
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until your hands aren't
in my mother's skull.

143
00:06:45,706 --> 00:06:47,307
Use your inside voice,
Morgan.

144
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Turn down the volume.

145
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Irrigate and remove
the cottonoid.

146
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**

147
00:07:05,959 --> 00:07:07,961
DR. PARK: Why didn't
she tell us she was
one of those Reznicks?

148
00:07:08,929 --> 00:07:10,664
Caroline Reznick,
painter.

149
00:07:10,698 --> 00:07:12,733
Her son's a sculptor.
Daughter's a composer.

150
00:07:12,766 --> 00:07:14,902
Didn't know she had
another kid.

151
00:07:14,935 --> 00:07:16,837
They're famous, if you're
into the arts at all.

152
00:07:16,870 --> 00:07:18,271
Mia got you going
to galleries?

153
00:07:18,305 --> 00:07:19,372
Yeah,
I'm kind of loving it.

154
00:07:19,406 --> 00:07:21,642
I've failed Carly twice.

155
00:07:22,643 --> 00:07:25,479
Did you forget her birthday
or stand her up?

156
00:07:27,180 --> 00:07:29,783
Are you talking
about sex?

157
00:07:29,817 --> 00:07:33,654
Uh, Morgan says H.R. would
prefer I avoid that word.

158
00:07:35,723 --> 00:07:39,359
Just to be clear,
are you saying she...

159
00:07:42,630 --> 00:07:44,064
Are you saying
she didn't...

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00:07:44,097 --> 00:07:45,232
There was no parade.

161
00:07:45,265 --> 00:07:47,568
**

162
00:07:49,937 --> 00:07:50,938
Oh.

163
00:07:51,839 --> 00:07:56,409
There was a parade for me,

164
00:07:56,443 --> 00:07:58,579
but there was no parade
for Carly.

165
00:07:58,612 --> 00:08:00,681
I want to give her
a parade.

166
00:08:05,452 --> 00:08:07,120
I'll continue reading.

167
00:08:09,356 --> 00:08:10,924
Wait, Shaun,
reading's a great start,

168
00:08:10,958 --> 00:08:12,425
but Carly's a person.

169
00:08:12,459 --> 00:08:15,162
You need to communicate with
her, ask her what she likes.

170
00:08:15,195 --> 00:08:18,331
Yes. I'll make an extensive
list of questions.

171
00:08:18,365 --> 00:08:20,801
It's not just about
questions and answers.

172
00:08:20,834 --> 00:08:23,571
Nonverbal communication
is pretty key in this area.

173
00:08:23,604 --> 00:08:25,372
I'm not good with
nonverbal communication.

174
00:08:25,405 --> 00:08:26,674
Watch her reactions.

175
00:08:26,707 --> 00:08:28,375
See what Carly
responds to.

176
00:08:28,408 --> 00:08:29,977
You'll figure this out.

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00:08:34,948 --> 00:08:36,349
Mrs. Reznick,
I'm Dr. Park.

178
00:08:36,383 --> 00:08:37,484
This is Dr. Murphy,
Dr. Browne.

179
00:08:37,517 --> 00:08:38,686
How are you feeling?

180
00:08:38,719 --> 00:08:39,820
Excellent.

181
00:08:39,853 --> 00:08:41,822
And flattered
that three surgeons

182
00:08:41,855 --> 00:08:43,190
are here to check on me.

183
00:08:43,223 --> 00:08:44,224
They're curious.

184
00:08:45,659 --> 00:08:47,494
About what monster
created me.

185
00:08:47,527 --> 00:08:50,130
(CHUCKLES)
I'm sure that's not true.

186
00:08:50,163 --> 00:08:53,901
Morgan, you're smart and nice
and perfectly normal.

187
00:08:56,704 --> 00:08:59,506
I don't think she's
all of those things.

188
00:08:59,539 --> 00:09:00,774
You guys here
to take her vitals,

189
00:09:00,808 --> 00:09:02,042
check her
for any deficits,

190
00:09:02,075 --> 00:09:03,343
and maybe let her know

191
00:09:03,376 --> 00:09:05,045
that she's just gonna keep
getting worse and die?

192
00:09:06,680 --> 00:09:08,048
Your daughter is right,
Mrs. Reznick.

193
00:09:08,081 --> 00:09:10,050
If you don't...
Dr. Browne, the day lilies

194
00:09:10,083 --> 00:09:11,819
go so well
with your eyes.

195
00:09:11,852 --> 00:09:12,886
Please take them.

196
00:09:12,920 --> 00:09:15,288
This variety
is from the Himalayas.

197
00:09:17,991 --> 00:09:18,992
Please.

198
00:09:20,861 --> 00:09:23,530
I really am grateful
to you all.

199
00:09:23,563 --> 00:09:26,466
**

200
00:09:31,605 --> 00:09:34,441
I'm asking other people
to take over my cases.

201
00:09:34,474 --> 00:09:36,610
Check your in-box, and you'll
see the three I've given you.

202
00:09:38,045 --> 00:09:39,847
In your language,
the word "ask"

203
00:09:39,880 --> 00:09:40,881
must mean
something different.

204
00:09:41,749 --> 00:09:44,017
You're a caring,
empathetic person,

205
00:09:44,051 --> 00:09:45,185
and my mother is sick.

206
00:09:50,290 --> 00:09:51,759
As long as we're having
a moment of honesty,

207
00:09:54,594 --> 00:09:55,729
why do you hate
your family?

208
00:09:57,097 --> 00:09:59,566
You told me your mother
was a cardiologist.

209
00:09:59,599 --> 00:10:02,703
No, you told me my mother
was a cardiologist.

210
00:10:02,736 --> 00:10:04,471
I can't correct
all your mistakes.

211
00:10:06,273 --> 00:10:08,709
Was that the mother
you wanted to have?

212
00:10:08,742 --> 00:10:10,210
(P.A. SYSTEM BEEPS)

213
00:10:10,243 --> 00:10:12,045
WOMAN ON P.A.:
Cardiac perfusionist,
call the cath lab.

214
00:10:12,079 --> 00:10:13,881
I used to daydream
my mother was a lawyer.

215
00:10:16,684 --> 00:10:17,785
That's just weird.

216
00:10:18,786 --> 00:10:20,921
**

217
00:10:23,090 --> 00:10:24,591
I'm Oliver.

218
00:10:24,624 --> 00:10:27,294
I have a malignant peripheral
nerve sheath tumor,

219
00:10:27,327 --> 00:10:29,096
so I've only got
six months to live.

220
00:10:29,830 --> 00:10:31,231
I'm Dr. Melendez.

221
00:10:31,264 --> 00:10:32,332
What happened
to your foot?

222
00:10:32,365 --> 00:10:33,667
Skydiving.

223
00:10:33,701 --> 00:10:35,969
(CHUCKLES)
First time.

224
00:10:36,003 --> 00:10:38,638
They coached me how to roll,
but it didn't quite work out.

225
00:10:38,672 --> 00:10:40,207
He rented a plane.

226
00:10:40,240 --> 00:10:42,409
A small one.

227
00:10:42,442 --> 00:10:44,244
All the classes were full.
I did not want to wait.

228
00:10:44,912 --> 00:10:46,246
You should've come with me.

229
00:10:46,279 --> 00:10:47,480
I'm afraid of heights.

230
00:10:47,514 --> 00:10:49,116
So was I.

231
00:10:49,149 --> 00:10:50,417
Not anymore.

232
00:10:50,450 --> 00:10:51,819
(CHUCKLES)
Hmm.

233
00:10:51,852 --> 00:10:54,221
Nothing's broken.
Ice it tonight.

234
00:10:54,254 --> 00:10:55,689
Try to stay off it
for a few days.

235
00:10:56,456 --> 00:10:57,725
I'll give you
12 hours.

236
00:10:59,459 --> 00:11:02,029
Lots to do, so I might
be okay with limping.

237
00:11:02,863 --> 00:11:04,164
As long as I'm here,

238
00:11:04,197 --> 00:11:06,466
can I get vaccinated
for tropical diseases?

239
00:11:06,499 --> 00:11:07,801
Thinking about
moving somewhere

240
00:11:07,835 --> 00:11:10,370
the weather will be perfect
for the next six months.

241
00:11:10,403 --> 00:11:14,107
The dry season in Costa Rica
is just beginning.

242
00:11:14,141 --> 00:11:15,776
Excellent.

243
00:11:15,809 --> 00:11:17,210
I've always wanted
to see Costa Rica.

244
00:11:19,112 --> 00:11:21,548
They have
mantled howler monkeys

245
00:11:21,581 --> 00:11:25,018
that make this haunting call
at dawn and dusk.

246
00:11:25,052 --> 00:11:26,219
Wouldn't that be great
to wake up to?

247
00:11:27,287 --> 00:11:29,256
Oliver...

248
00:11:29,289 --> 00:11:31,491
Skydiving
doesn't bring happiness.

249
00:11:33,160 --> 00:11:36,964
Neither do monkey howls.

250
00:11:36,997 --> 00:11:40,033
You gonna tell a dying guy
he can't do what
he wants to do?

251
00:11:42,369 --> 00:11:43,570
No.

252
00:11:46,606 --> 00:11:47,607
Get me the shots.

253
00:11:48,341 --> 00:11:50,677
**

254
00:11:56,216 --> 00:11:58,118
What happened to the patient
who was in here?

255
00:11:58,151 --> 00:11:59,419
She checked herself out.

256
00:12:02,155 --> 00:12:03,623
(SIGHS)

257
00:12:09,629 --> 00:12:11,664
I knew I had to be
in early,

258
00:12:11,698 --> 00:12:13,500
so I tried
not to wake you.

259
00:12:13,533 --> 00:12:14,567
Appreciate it.

260
00:12:14,601 --> 00:12:15,735
I've brought you

261
00:12:15,769 --> 00:12:17,971
a jelly doughnut
and coffee...
Thank you.

262
00:12:18,005 --> 00:12:19,840
...to celebrate
last night's breakthrough.

263
00:12:19,873 --> 00:12:21,274
What breakthrough
was that?

264
00:12:23,210 --> 00:12:24,211
Last night.

265
00:12:26,246 --> 00:12:28,615
You had a parade.

266
00:12:31,084 --> 00:12:32,886
During lunch.

267
00:12:33,954 --> 00:12:35,755
You made a lot of noise.

268
00:12:35,789 --> 00:12:37,825
One fairly loud noise...
A moan.

269
00:12:38,525 --> 00:12:39,759
Oh.

270
00:12:40,660 --> 00:12:42,062
Right, right.

271
00:12:44,397 --> 00:12:46,099
You had your elbow
on my hair.

272
00:12:50,770 --> 00:12:53,373
I had a great time
last night,

273
00:12:53,406 --> 00:12:55,042
and I really appreciate

274
00:12:55,075 --> 00:12:57,477
how much effort you put
into my happiness.

275
00:12:59,312 --> 00:13:00,981
But no parade.

276
00:13:01,014 --> 00:13:02,782
Parades
aren't always required.

277
00:13:02,816 --> 00:13:04,084
I'll keep working on it.

278
00:13:04,117 --> 00:13:06,586
**

279
00:13:10,958 --> 00:13:12,960
Cassie,
stay in Hong Kong.

280
00:13:12,993 --> 00:13:14,261
(SCOFFS)

281
00:13:14,294 --> 00:13:17,097
It would be ridiculous
to miss the premiere
of your symphony

282
00:13:17,130 --> 00:13:18,398
because of
a medical glitch.

283
00:13:18,431 --> 00:13:20,400
I have to go.
Your sister's here. Bye.

284
00:13:20,433 --> 00:13:22,936
You're in time
for brunch.

285
00:13:22,970 --> 00:13:24,804
I didn't know where
you were staying,

286
00:13:24,838 --> 00:13:27,374
if you'd left town,
if you'd gone home.

287
00:13:27,407 --> 00:13:29,642
I finally got your
new housekeeper
on the phone

288
00:13:29,676 --> 00:13:31,111
and convinced her
I was your daughter.

289
00:13:31,144 --> 00:13:32,479
She said you
never mentioned me.

290
00:13:32,512 --> 00:13:34,747
Oh, Blanca's
very forgetful.
Pull up a chair.

291
00:13:34,781 --> 00:13:36,216
Your brother's
out getting salmon.

292
00:13:36,249 --> 00:13:38,018
Ariel's here?
He got great news.

293
00:13:38,051 --> 00:13:41,488
Million-dollar commission...
A bronze piece on the mall.

294
00:13:41,521 --> 00:13:42,622
I'm thrilled.

295
00:13:42,655 --> 00:13:44,257
Can we talk about the fact
that you're dying?

296
00:13:44,291 --> 00:13:45,825
No.

297
00:13:45,859 --> 00:13:47,627
I'm having
a good arthritis day.

298
00:13:47,660 --> 00:13:49,396
Why shouldn't
I feel happy?

299
00:13:49,429 --> 00:13:51,664
You're so lucky you didn't
inherit anything from me.

300
00:13:53,800 --> 00:13:54,801
Morgan.

301
00:13:57,204 --> 00:13:59,472
I thought Mom ditched
the medical police.

302
00:13:59,506 --> 00:14:02,709
Right, the bad guys trying
to keep her alive.

303
00:14:02,742 --> 00:14:04,277
We've all tried to get her
to change her mind,

304
00:14:04,311 --> 00:14:05,478
but you know
what she's like.

305
00:14:05,512 --> 00:14:06,579
I'm using
a little sriracha

306
00:14:06,613 --> 00:14:07,981
just to throttle
your taste buds.

307
00:14:08,015 --> 00:14:09,883
(GASPS) Thank you.

308
00:14:09,917 --> 00:14:12,419
I've been strategizing
with Cassie via e-mail,

309
00:14:12,452 --> 00:14:14,621
trying to figure out a way
to convince Mom...

310
00:14:14,654 --> 00:14:16,823
Did it occur to either of you
to mention any of this

311
00:14:16,856 --> 00:14:18,858
to the only doctor
in the family?

312
00:14:18,892 --> 00:14:20,460
Plenty of doctors
already involved.

313
00:14:21,661 --> 00:14:23,796
And you barely
consider yourself
part of this family.

314
00:14:23,830 --> 00:14:25,732
You exclude me,
and it's my fault?

315
00:14:25,765 --> 00:14:28,535
Morgan, in high school,
kids kept asking

316
00:14:28,568 --> 00:14:29,869
about my parents,
the spies.

317
00:14:29,903 --> 00:14:32,139
And my friend Joel
at Georgetown

318
00:14:32,172 --> 00:14:34,241
said you told people
your parents were
in the Peace Corps.

319
00:14:35,042 --> 00:14:36,276
And that you
were an only child.

320
00:14:36,309 --> 00:14:37,844
(CHUCKLES)
I got tired

321
00:14:37,877 --> 00:14:39,646
of fielding questions
about my famous mother.

322
00:14:39,679 --> 00:14:42,149
It doesn't mean...
Only child.

323
00:14:42,182 --> 00:14:45,685
You're offended that you
weren't in the family
I completely made up?

324
00:14:45,718 --> 00:14:47,854
(SIGHS)

325
00:14:50,223 --> 00:14:53,493
I got tired of hearing
"Your mother is so talented.

326
00:14:53,526 --> 00:14:55,028
"How wonderful
your brother's an artist.

327
00:14:55,062 --> 00:14:57,464
"How amazing
Cassie writes music.

328
00:14:57,497 --> 00:14:59,066
"What do you do?"

329
00:14:59,099 --> 00:15:00,500
(ELECTRIC KNIFE WHIRRING)

330
00:15:02,102 --> 00:15:03,170
Mom!

331
00:15:03,203 --> 00:15:04,671
Grab a towel.

332
00:15:04,704 --> 00:15:06,773
(WHIRRING STOPS,
KNIFE CLATTERS)

333
00:15:06,806 --> 00:15:09,576
It's not just about
what you do physically.

334
00:15:09,609 --> 00:15:13,213
It's about setting a scene,
offering inspiration.

335
00:15:15,148 --> 00:15:17,017
I mean, do you know
what movies she likes

336
00:15:17,050 --> 00:15:19,286
or what actors
she thinks are sexy?

337
00:15:21,221 --> 00:15:24,057
She likes
the Alien movies.

338
00:15:25,292 --> 00:15:26,526
Something else?

339
00:15:28,461 --> 00:15:29,596
She loves Outlander.

340
00:15:30,397 --> 00:15:32,199
That is a good idea.

341
00:15:32,232 --> 00:15:34,101
Where the hell is everybody?

342
00:15:34,134 --> 00:15:35,435
Complex partial seizure.

343
00:15:35,468 --> 00:15:36,869
Cut her finger off
with an electric knife.

344
00:15:36,903 --> 00:15:38,938
Knuckle's still there,
but we need to get
her to an O.R.

345
00:15:41,608 --> 00:15:43,443
Whoa, whoa!
No one touches that
but the surgeon.

346
00:15:45,445 --> 00:15:47,280
Bloody towels
get thrown out
all the time.

347
00:15:47,314 --> 00:15:49,782
I'm not dumpster diving
while cells die.

348
00:15:49,816 --> 00:15:52,986
(MONITOR BEEPING)

349
00:15:53,020 --> 00:15:56,389
**

350
00:15:56,423 --> 00:16:00,260
DR. MELENDEZ: The last of
the circumferential sutures.

351
00:16:00,293 --> 00:16:02,662
DR. PARK:
Good capillary refill
in the fingertip.

352
00:16:04,931 --> 00:16:09,336
What if this wasn't caused
by the Cav Mals?

353
00:16:11,371 --> 00:16:13,006
First the bleeding,
then the seizure...

354
00:16:13,040 --> 00:16:14,241
Pretty typical progression.

355
00:16:14,274 --> 00:16:18,278
It's also possible
the bleeding
caused the seizure.

356
00:16:20,347 --> 00:16:24,351
Microbleeds can cause gliosis,
and that can cause a seizure.

357
00:16:24,384 --> 00:16:26,319
And if the seizure
was caused by gliosis,

358
00:16:26,353 --> 00:16:28,655
we could simply
remove that one bit
of damaged tissue.

359
00:16:30,190 --> 00:16:31,724
She'd still be terminal,
but...

360
00:16:31,758 --> 00:16:33,660
(LOUDLY) Shaun is right,
but he's wrong.

361
00:16:33,693 --> 00:16:34,794
ALL: Volume!

362
00:16:35,762 --> 00:16:36,763
(CLICK)

363
00:16:38,298 --> 00:16:40,033
(NORMAL) Shaun's idea
could stop the seizures

364
00:16:40,067 --> 00:16:42,135
and let her keep painting
for the time she has left.

365
00:16:42,169 --> 00:16:44,137
That's something
she'll agree to.

366
00:16:44,171 --> 00:16:45,805
Which is why he's wrong.

367
00:16:47,174 --> 00:16:49,442
If she stops having
the seizures,

368
00:16:49,476 --> 00:16:51,678
there's no way she'll have
the lobectomy

369
00:16:51,711 --> 00:16:53,012
that will save her life.

370
00:16:53,046 --> 00:16:56,149
We don't choose procedures in
order to manipulate patients.

371
00:16:56,183 --> 00:16:57,450
No, we choose procedures

372
00:16:57,484 --> 00:16:59,052
based on what will have
the greatest benefit.

373
00:17:01,188 --> 00:17:03,756
Dr. Melendez, I'd like
to excuse myself

374
00:17:03,790 --> 00:17:05,225
to speak with
the patient's daughter.

375
00:17:05,258 --> 00:17:06,259
Please.

376
00:17:07,527 --> 00:17:10,197
**

377
00:17:10,230 --> 00:17:11,864
(SIGHS)

378
00:17:11,898 --> 00:17:13,466
I know not disclosing
a treatment

379
00:17:13,500 --> 00:17:14,934
is borderline unethical,

380
00:17:14,967 --> 00:17:17,170
but when there is a cure that
the patient is ignoring...

381
00:17:17,204 --> 00:17:18,471
You don't want her
to die.

382
00:17:18,505 --> 00:17:20,039
Thanks
for the summation.

383
00:17:20,073 --> 00:17:22,242
But have you considered
it might be more than that?

384
00:17:24,043 --> 00:17:26,346
This cure, it doesn't come
without a cost.

385
00:17:26,379 --> 00:17:27,947
To your mother.

386
00:17:27,980 --> 00:17:28,981
But to you...

387
00:17:31,050 --> 00:17:34,087
...if your mother loses
her artistic ability,

388
00:17:34,121 --> 00:17:36,055
your relationship changes.

389
00:17:38,291 --> 00:17:41,128
If she loses the thing
she lords over you,
she...

390
00:17:42,529 --> 00:17:43,730
Maybe she'd be nicer.

391
00:17:47,834 --> 00:17:49,602
You hate the way
she looks at you.

392
00:17:51,371 --> 00:17:53,440
But that is who she is.

393
00:17:53,473 --> 00:17:56,143
**

394
00:18:00,580 --> 00:18:02,081
Let's try it Shaun's way.

395
00:18:07,187 --> 00:18:10,723
**

396
00:18:20,767 --> 00:18:22,169
DR. PARK: Sorry about
this all-nighter,

397
00:18:22,202 --> 00:18:23,903
but sleeplessness

398
00:18:23,936 --> 00:18:25,938
will increase the odds
of a seizure event.

399
00:18:25,972 --> 00:18:27,874
Which isn't pleasant,
but we need.

400
00:18:27,907 --> 00:18:29,209
All this equipment
will tell us

401
00:18:29,242 --> 00:18:32,479
if it was caused
by the Cav Mals
or by a remote microbleed.

402
00:18:35,282 --> 00:18:36,716
You want me
to put on the TV?

403
00:18:36,749 --> 00:18:38,585
I can find something
suitably irritating.

404
00:18:38,618 --> 00:18:40,587
Don't bother.
I'll be staying.

405
00:18:49,229 --> 00:18:51,731
"Cavernous malformations
may leak blood,

406
00:18:51,764 --> 00:18:54,501
"leading to
brain hemorrhage,
seizures,

407
00:18:54,534 --> 00:18:57,304
"loss of sensation,
risk of paralysis..."

408
00:18:57,337 --> 00:18:58,605
If you have to do this,

409
00:18:58,638 --> 00:19:01,241
can't you find some
Harry Potter or something?

410
00:19:01,274 --> 00:19:03,075
We can look forward.

411
00:19:03,109 --> 00:19:05,077
Or we can look back.

412
00:19:05,111 --> 00:19:06,946
Do you want to discuss what
a lousy mother you were?

413
00:19:08,315 --> 00:19:11,651
Baby, I know
that stress and anger

414
00:19:11,684 --> 00:19:13,453
can increase the chance
of a seizure,

415
00:19:13,486 --> 00:19:15,054
and you're
so sweet to try...

416
00:19:15,087 --> 00:19:16,623
Shall we go
chronologically?

417
00:19:16,656 --> 00:19:19,526
First day of preschool,
when you promised
to pick me up,

418
00:19:19,559 --> 00:19:21,694
but you forgot because
you were showing Ariel

419
00:19:21,728 --> 00:19:23,263
how to underpaint
with raw umber.

420
00:19:24,163 --> 00:19:25,865
(SIGHS)

421
00:19:26,866 --> 00:19:29,936
You wore a kilt?
How'd it go?

422
00:19:29,969 --> 00:19:33,640
We binge-watched
six episodes of Outlander,

423
00:19:33,673 --> 00:19:35,675
she fell asleep
on the sofa,

424
00:19:35,708 --> 00:19:37,710
so I came back
to work.

425
00:19:37,744 --> 00:19:40,112
Hi. I'm Oliver.

426
00:19:40,146 --> 00:19:41,848
I have six months to live.

427
00:19:41,881 --> 00:19:43,616
Hello, Dr. Murphy.

428
00:19:43,650 --> 00:19:44,684
I'm Dr. Park.

429
00:19:45,985 --> 00:19:48,321
I went out.
In a new Ferrari.

430
00:19:49,556 --> 00:19:54,561
But when I got home,
I started to feel...dizzy,

431
00:19:54,594 --> 00:19:56,128
sick to my stomach.

432
00:19:56,696 --> 00:19:58,498
Fainted and hit my head.

433
00:19:58,531 --> 00:20:01,501
I think I might have been
poisoned by the fugu fish.

434
00:20:02,335 --> 00:20:04,571
You ate a fish
you knew might kill you.

435
00:20:04,604 --> 00:20:06,406
You're emptying
the bank accounts.

436
00:20:06,439 --> 00:20:09,842
Only my retirement savings,
which I'm not gonna need.

437
00:20:11,411 --> 00:20:12,712
You don't have
fugu poisoning.

438
00:20:13,980 --> 00:20:16,082
I know because you're not
already paralyzed or dead.

439
00:20:17,384 --> 00:20:18,385
Ow.

440
00:20:22,422 --> 00:20:25,057
We'll keep you
for observation
and run some tests.

441
00:20:25,892 --> 00:20:26,926
Uh, how long?

442
00:20:28,227 --> 00:20:30,062
We have a room booked
in Costa Rica.

443
00:20:30,096 --> 00:20:31,097
Enough.

444
00:20:33,800 --> 00:20:36,569
I can't quit my job
and move to the jungle.

445
00:20:36,603 --> 00:20:37,870
Actually, you can.

446
00:20:39,272 --> 00:20:40,473
I won't stay here.

447
00:20:42,409 --> 00:20:43,410
You're gonna leave me?

448
00:20:45,712 --> 00:20:48,014
I've invited you
to come with me.

449
00:20:48,047 --> 00:20:50,483
I want us to see
Costa Rica together.

450
00:20:50,517 --> 00:20:52,585
You're choosing
the howler monkeys
over me?

451
00:20:52,619 --> 00:20:54,086
That's where I rank,
behind the monkeys?

452
00:20:54,120 --> 00:20:56,923
Bella, I love you.

453
00:20:58,825 --> 00:21:00,527
I've loved our 20 years
together.

454
00:21:01,628 --> 00:21:03,195
I want to see Costa Rica.

455
00:21:04,297 --> 00:21:05,798
I want you
to come with me.

456
00:21:07,967 --> 00:21:09,902
But I'm going either way.

457
00:21:09,936 --> 00:21:12,639
**

458
00:21:17,744 --> 00:21:18,911
Go.

459
00:21:20,747 --> 00:21:23,750
I don't want to spend whatever
time is left with...

460
00:21:25,084 --> 00:21:26,686
Whoever you are now.

461
00:21:30,156 --> 00:21:31,624
I'm happy.

462
00:21:34,761 --> 00:21:38,030
I thought I made you happy.

463
00:21:38,565 --> 00:21:41,668
**

464
00:21:50,777 --> 00:21:53,245
Jumping ahead. The day I won
the regional science fair,

465
00:21:53,279 --> 00:21:54,614
beating five
other schools,

466
00:21:54,647 --> 00:21:56,483
including those nerds
from Alston Prep,

467
00:21:56,516 --> 00:21:58,184
do you know what
you said to me?

468
00:21:59,786 --> 00:22:03,055
That you were so glad
I had something
to fall back on.

469
00:22:04,357 --> 00:22:07,827
I'm aware of your feelings
about me as a mother.

470
00:22:07,860 --> 00:22:10,497
I'm aware that our values
are different.

471
00:22:11,631 --> 00:22:14,233
It doesn't mean
I don't love you.

472
00:22:14,266 --> 00:22:15,334
I always have.

473
00:22:18,605 --> 00:22:21,774
It didn't matter
that you weren't creative.

474
00:22:21,808 --> 00:22:23,443
(SIGHS)

475
00:22:26,546 --> 00:22:31,283
You seriously don't think
there's creativity
in what I do?

476
00:22:31,317 --> 00:22:33,653
I think that's something
technical people
tell themselves.

477
00:22:34,654 --> 00:22:39,358
But (SIGHS) it's not
a moral judgment.

478
00:22:39,392 --> 00:22:41,428
It's the luck
of the draw.

479
00:22:41,461 --> 00:22:42,962
I'm an artist.

480
00:22:42,995 --> 00:22:44,964
You're a...

481
00:22:44,997 --> 00:22:46,899
Hard worker.

482
00:22:46,933 --> 00:22:48,568
(SCOFFS)

483
00:22:49,536 --> 00:22:53,906
August 12, 2014...
Times art section.

484
00:22:53,940 --> 00:22:55,274
I don't want to hear it.

485
00:22:55,307 --> 00:22:57,143
"Caroline Reznick's showing
at the Armory

486
00:22:57,176 --> 00:23:00,379
"is a lesson in what happens
when a once-interesting artist

487
00:23:00,413 --> 00:23:01,914
"sits too long
on her laurels."

488
00:23:01,948 --> 00:23:03,616
That woman hated me
for years.

489
00:23:03,650 --> 00:23:05,752
She was waiting
for an opportunity.

490
00:23:05,785 --> 00:23:07,286
"Bad judgment
doesn't begin to explain

491
00:23:07,319 --> 00:23:09,288
"what went wrong
with every stroke

492
00:23:09,321 --> 00:23:10,823
"of this ill-conceived..."

493
00:23:10,857 --> 00:23:14,393
I mean, really,
how many negative words
can you pile together?

494
00:23:14,427 --> 00:23:16,095
And she hasn't even gotten
to that part

495
00:23:16,128 --> 00:23:17,697
about that
Modern Madonna piece

496
00:23:17,730 --> 00:23:19,499
that you
were so proud of.

497
00:23:19,532 --> 00:23:21,200
What... Remember what she...
What she called it?

498
00:23:21,233 --> 00:23:23,470
What was that?
Put that thing down!

499
00:23:23,503 --> 00:23:25,472
(GASPS)
(MONITOR BEEPING)

500
00:23:25,505 --> 00:23:28,608
**

501
00:23:30,577 --> 00:23:32,579
(BEEPING CONTINUES)

502
00:23:51,898 --> 00:23:53,733
I'm sorry.
It's not gliosis.

503
00:23:55,735 --> 00:23:57,269
I went through that
for nothing?

504
00:23:58,437 --> 00:24:00,740
Mom, we eliminated
a possibility.

505
00:24:00,773 --> 00:24:02,074
That's not nothing.

506
00:24:02,108 --> 00:24:04,276
It's a day I spent
in this hospital

507
00:24:04,310 --> 00:24:05,812
when I could've been
home working.

508
00:24:06,813 --> 00:24:08,981
**

509
00:24:10,016 --> 00:24:11,551
How soon
can I be discharged?

510
00:24:12,885 --> 00:24:14,453
You need to rest
for a day.

511
00:24:16,923 --> 00:24:18,558
And then we
can say goodbye.

512
00:24:20,259 --> 00:24:22,261
**

513
00:24:23,996 --> 00:24:25,632
(SIGHS)

514
00:24:30,903 --> 00:24:32,805
(LIQUID POURING)

515
00:24:32,839 --> 00:24:35,241
If I only had
six months to live,

516
00:24:35,274 --> 00:24:37,510
I would not stop
being a surgeon.

517
00:24:42,782 --> 00:24:43,783
I would.

518
00:24:44,383 --> 00:24:46,185
I'd move from spa to spa,

519
00:24:46,218 --> 00:24:48,721
having massages and drinks
with little umbrellas.

520
00:24:48,755 --> 00:24:51,323
Then I'd throw a party
in the penthouse
of the Four Seasons.

521
00:24:53,159 --> 00:24:54,661
And after everybody left,

522
00:24:54,694 --> 00:24:56,195
I'd go into
the marble bathroom

523
00:24:56,228 --> 00:24:57,764
and painlessly
self-euthanize.

524
00:24:57,797 --> 00:24:59,331
(SCOFFS)

525
00:25:00,399 --> 00:25:02,735
I'd obviously leave
a big tip for housekeeping.

526
00:25:02,769 --> 00:25:04,370
You're very like
your mother.

527
00:25:06,172 --> 00:25:08,440
That's not something
I hear a lot.

528
00:25:08,474 --> 00:25:09,642
Well, he's right.

529
00:25:10,843 --> 00:25:12,945
You would reign like a queen
over your own death,

530
00:25:12,979 --> 00:25:14,847
insisting
on absolute control.

531
00:25:17,183 --> 00:25:19,185
I just meant you each
have a funny way

532
00:25:19,218 --> 00:25:21,654
of picking things up
with both hands sometimes.

533
00:25:24,991 --> 00:25:28,194
I don't think this is
anatomically correct.

534
00:25:28,227 --> 00:25:29,829
Hmm.

535
00:25:30,429 --> 00:25:33,032
**

536
00:25:39,972 --> 00:25:42,341
(DOOR OPENS)

537
00:25:42,374 --> 00:25:44,243
(DOOR CLOSES)

538
00:25:44,276 --> 00:25:45,277
Hmm.

539
00:25:47,513 --> 00:25:50,650
Stereotactic laser ablation.

540
00:25:50,683 --> 00:25:52,952
You worked with
one of the people
who developed the technique.

541
00:25:52,985 --> 00:25:54,654
We never used to
call it that.

542
00:25:54,687 --> 00:25:56,488
I never liked that name.

543
00:25:56,522 --> 00:26:00,026
Also, it's never been used
in Cerebral Cavernous
Malformations.

544
00:26:00,059 --> 00:26:01,227
Not yet.

545
00:26:01,260 --> 00:26:03,696
It would allow us
to target the malformations

546
00:26:03,730 --> 00:26:06,198
without needing to slice
all those cerebral fibers

547
00:26:06,232 --> 00:26:08,167
or remove a chunk
of my mother's brain.

548
00:26:08,200 --> 00:26:10,803
It would have to be applied
to each malformation

549
00:26:10,837 --> 00:26:12,204
with exact precision.

550
00:26:12,238 --> 00:26:15,007
Okay, so do that.
You can't.

551
00:26:15,041 --> 00:26:17,009
You're gonna make a mistake
on one or two of them.

552
00:26:17,043 --> 00:26:19,411
And then you got
more bleeding, seizures,

553
00:26:19,445 --> 00:26:23,115
you got inflamed malformations
growing out of control.

554
00:26:23,149 --> 00:26:24,283
You can.

555
00:26:25,417 --> 00:26:26,585
(SIGHS)

556
00:26:26,619 --> 00:26:29,055
Even if I was still
a neurosurgeon,

557
00:26:29,088 --> 00:26:31,157
which I'm not,
I wouldn't.

558
00:26:31,190 --> 00:26:33,292
You don't get to quit
who you are.

559
00:26:34,661 --> 00:26:37,396
How long has it been
since you had your hands

560
00:26:37,429 --> 00:26:41,901
inside the source
of what makes us human?

561
00:26:41,934 --> 00:26:45,171
That flow, in surgery,
knowing every move

562
00:26:45,204 --> 00:26:47,807
and just feeling
how right it is...

563
00:26:48,474 --> 00:26:49,876
That's peak existence.

564
00:26:53,913 --> 00:26:55,948
(SIGHS)

565
00:26:55,982 --> 00:26:57,884
I'm sorry.
I'm not gonna do the surgery.

566
00:27:05,658 --> 00:27:07,660
Are you s...

567
00:27:07,694 --> 00:27:09,762
Are you scared
to pick up a scalpel?

568
00:27:11,297 --> 00:27:14,734
You had months of chemo
and radiation.

569
00:27:14,767 --> 00:27:16,268
Maybe it took its toll.

570
00:27:16,302 --> 00:27:20,106
E-Even a 10% drop
in performance
would be unbearable.

571
00:27:20,139 --> 00:27:21,507
Why risk finding it out?

572
00:27:24,143 --> 00:27:25,978
Get out.

573
00:27:26,012 --> 00:27:28,614
**

574
00:27:33,986 --> 00:27:35,387
(DOOR CLOSES)

575
00:27:41,127 --> 00:27:42,528
Skydiving?

576
00:27:42,561 --> 00:27:43,696
Fugu?

577
00:27:43,730 --> 00:27:45,597
And apparently
a yellow suit.
(CHUCKLES)

578
00:27:45,631 --> 00:27:47,466
Do you think a deadline
like he has

579
00:27:47,499 --> 00:27:49,936
burns you down
to who you really are?

580
00:27:49,969 --> 00:27:53,572
Or does it just make you
nuts and desperate?

581
00:27:54,640 --> 00:27:55,641
Why can't it be both?

582
00:27:56,108 --> 00:27:57,643
Hmm.

583
00:27:58,644 --> 00:27:59,879
Okay, um...

584
00:28:01,113 --> 00:28:03,049
A little house
in the middle of nowhere.

585
00:28:03,850 --> 00:28:05,251
Two chickens.
One dog.

586
00:28:05,284 --> 00:28:07,653
Nobody who expects
anything from me.

587
00:28:07,686 --> 00:28:09,789
Nobody who is even verbal.

588
00:28:09,822 --> 00:28:10,923
(CHUCKLES)

589
00:28:10,957 --> 00:28:13,025
I'm tired of trying
to fix myself.

590
00:28:13,059 --> 00:28:14,861
And I'm tired of being known
as a soft touch.

591
00:28:14,894 --> 00:28:17,329
(LAUGHS)
Not buying it.

592
00:28:20,066 --> 00:28:21,567
There's no way
you would get a dog

593
00:28:21,600 --> 00:28:22,935
if you only had
six months to live.

594
00:28:22,969 --> 00:28:24,303
Wouldn't be fair.

595
00:28:25,838 --> 00:28:30,042
Okay, then I would foster
a series of rescue dogs.

596
00:28:30,076 --> 00:28:32,144
You said you're tired
of being a soft touch,

597
00:28:32,178 --> 00:28:34,180
and yet your fantasy
involves helping.

598
00:28:35,447 --> 00:28:37,549
We are who we are.

599
00:28:38,717 --> 00:28:41,053
**

600
00:28:43,455 --> 00:28:44,523
(CAR ALARM CHIRPS)

601
00:28:44,556 --> 00:28:47,359
**

602
00:29:04,911 --> 00:29:05,978
(SIGHS)

603
00:29:06,012 --> 00:29:10,082
It's called stereotactic
laser ablation.

604
00:29:10,116 --> 00:29:11,350
Never liked the name.

605
00:29:12,384 --> 00:29:15,087
**

606
00:29:24,263 --> 00:29:27,166
He said
it's minimally invasive,
and if it works,

607
00:29:27,199 --> 00:29:28,600
it would save my life

608
00:29:28,634 --> 00:29:30,903
and allow me
to continue painting.

609
00:29:33,572 --> 00:29:34,807
If I win,
I win everything.

610
00:29:36,542 --> 00:29:38,444
And if I lose, it's over.

611
00:29:38,477 --> 00:29:40,746
When you first came
to see Dr. Glassman,
he didn't offer this option.

612
00:29:40,779 --> 00:29:41,780
Why not?

613
00:29:43,749 --> 00:29:46,185
Stereotactic laser ablation
is a new technique,

614
00:29:46,218 --> 00:29:48,787
and it's never been used
on a Cav Mal patient.

615
00:29:48,821 --> 00:29:50,722
So, he just
didn't think of it?

616
00:29:50,756 --> 00:29:52,258
But then it came to him?

617
00:29:55,327 --> 00:29:56,495
It was my idea.

618
00:30:00,566 --> 00:30:02,835
Dr. Glassman
didn't sugarcoat the risks.

619
00:30:02,869 --> 00:30:06,672
This is the last chance
you've got
to keep your art.

620
00:30:08,640 --> 00:30:10,910
I'm not going to complete
my work if I'm dead.

621
00:30:10,943 --> 00:30:14,246
**

622
00:30:14,280 --> 00:30:15,481
No.

623
00:30:16,648 --> 00:30:18,317
But thank you so much
for trying.

624
00:30:19,485 --> 00:30:22,889
**

625
00:30:28,961 --> 00:30:31,263
Why didn't you
back me up?

626
00:30:31,297 --> 00:30:33,132
I didn't know you were gonna
throw this crapshoot at us.

627
00:30:34,466 --> 00:30:36,168
Do you even listen
to what she's been saying?

628
00:30:36,202 --> 00:30:37,603
She wants
to finish her work.

629
00:30:37,636 --> 00:30:39,838
She could live
another 40 years,

630
00:30:39,872 --> 00:30:41,607
and her art
would grow with her.

631
00:30:41,640 --> 00:30:43,409
Don't pretend those words
mean anything to you.

632
00:30:43,442 --> 00:30:45,244
You don't give a damn
about art.

633
00:30:45,277 --> 00:30:47,013
Her family
could grow with her...

634
00:30:47,046 --> 00:30:50,116
Her children,
her grandchildren.

635
00:30:50,149 --> 00:30:52,718
You and her don't give
a damn about anything
except for art.

636
00:30:54,853 --> 00:30:56,855
You need to listen to me
and do what I tell you.

637
00:30:59,025 --> 00:31:01,160
This is why
we didn't call you.

638
00:31:04,363 --> 00:31:05,664
(SIGHS)

639
00:31:12,338 --> 00:31:13,372
The competition
in that family

640
00:31:13,405 --> 00:31:14,473
must have been
like a buzz saw.

641
00:31:14,506 --> 00:31:16,075
Okay.
Please.

642
00:31:19,578 --> 00:31:20,913
(SIGHS)

643
00:31:26,418 --> 00:31:29,321
It's perfectly reasonable
to get out of a game
you can't win.

644
00:31:30,022 --> 00:31:31,623
You did everything right...

645
00:31:31,657 --> 00:31:34,360
Moved 3,000 miles,
found your own calling,

646
00:31:34,393 --> 00:31:36,628
a career people respect
and value.

647
00:31:36,662 --> 00:31:39,999
Actually, there's
a good comparative measure
for how people value things.

648
00:31:40,032 --> 00:31:41,467
We call it money.

649
00:31:41,500 --> 00:31:43,335
And my brother's already
a million dollars ahead.

650
00:31:43,369 --> 00:31:45,938
See how you went straight
to your brother?

651
00:31:45,972 --> 00:31:48,507
Did you ever think
he might be tired
of being your competitor?

652
00:31:49,141 --> 00:31:50,709
He won a long time ago.

653
00:31:50,742 --> 00:31:52,778
That's why I left that
dysfunctional world behind.

654
00:31:52,811 --> 00:31:54,246
Really?

655
00:31:54,280 --> 00:31:57,216
Because it seems to me
you re-created the competition
you grew up with

656
00:31:57,249 --> 00:31:58,584
the very first day
you got here.

657
00:31:59,518 --> 00:32:01,787
**

658
00:32:03,922 --> 00:32:06,525
Shingles?
Like, from chicken pox?

659
00:32:07,226 --> 00:32:08,260
The virus was dormant,

660
00:32:08,294 --> 00:32:10,396
then your chemo suppressed
your immune system,

661
00:32:10,429 --> 00:32:11,630
and the virus woke up.

662
00:32:12,264 --> 00:32:13,699
SHAUN: It can be painful,

663
00:32:13,732 --> 00:32:15,167
but the treatment
is very simple.

664
00:32:17,536 --> 00:32:18,937
Do you want us
to call your wife?

665
00:32:21,107 --> 00:32:23,542
No, thank you.

666
00:32:23,575 --> 00:32:27,246
Just fix me up
and release me
into the wild.

667
00:32:28,247 --> 00:32:29,648
Back to the bucket list.

668
00:32:31,483 --> 00:32:32,484
She was right.

669
00:32:34,286 --> 00:32:36,055
I'm not the same person.

670
00:32:36,088 --> 00:32:38,590
I'm doing what we all
should be doing.

671
00:32:38,624 --> 00:32:40,726
We all want to cut loose,

672
00:32:40,759 --> 00:32:42,328
but we're
just too practical.

673
00:32:42,361 --> 00:32:44,163
If this had not happened,

674
00:32:44,196 --> 00:32:48,034
I might've lived to be 90,
never looking up.

675
00:32:50,602 --> 00:32:52,271
Dr. Murphy,
what do you want to do

676
00:32:52,304 --> 00:32:54,406
that you
just haven't done yet?
What makes you happy?

677
00:32:54,440 --> 00:32:56,475
I want to give Carly...
Shaun.

678
00:32:58,510 --> 00:32:59,511
Oh.

679
00:33:02,814 --> 00:33:04,483
I like a crisp apple.

680
00:33:05,651 --> 00:33:08,820
The way the sunlight
hits my bedsheets

681
00:33:08,854 --> 00:33:11,590
in the morning
in a perfect square.

682
00:33:11,623 --> 00:33:13,792
I like the movement
of wind in leaves.

683
00:33:15,061 --> 00:33:17,896
And the way
the circumference
of a circle

684
00:33:17,929 --> 00:33:20,999
is always equal to pi
times the diameter,

685
00:33:21,033 --> 00:33:22,601
no matter what numbers
you put in.

686
00:33:24,002 --> 00:33:26,372
You like the happiness
of small things.

687
00:33:27,339 --> 00:33:29,441
Yes.

688
00:33:29,475 --> 00:33:31,310
Your happiness
is too loud.

689
00:33:31,343 --> 00:33:33,612
**

690
00:33:33,645 --> 00:33:35,347
(LAUGHS)

691
00:33:37,015 --> 00:33:38,350
Shake your head again.

692
00:33:42,254 --> 00:33:43,522
Didn't he have
a muscle issue?

693
00:33:43,555 --> 00:33:45,757
His range of motion
seems good.

694
00:33:45,791 --> 00:33:49,195
All the better for zip-lining
in Costa Rica, right?

695
00:33:51,063 --> 00:33:52,398
Not right.

696
00:33:54,333 --> 00:33:55,701
We need more tests.

697
00:33:56,568 --> 00:33:59,105
**

698
00:34:03,675 --> 00:34:04,910
(SIGHS)

699
00:34:06,445 --> 00:34:07,679
I'm sorry.

700
00:34:09,115 --> 00:34:11,117
I know we want
the same things.

701
00:34:15,354 --> 00:34:16,688
I'd like
to show you something.

702
00:34:17,523 --> 00:34:19,925
**

703
00:34:22,428 --> 00:34:25,063
DR. REZNICK: Neurons
that fire together
wire together.

704
00:34:26,598 --> 00:34:29,568
One neuron goes off,
exciting the next,

705
00:34:29,601 --> 00:34:31,637
creating a pathway
in the brain

706
00:34:31,670 --> 00:34:32,971
that wasn't
there before.

707
00:34:33,004 --> 00:34:35,073
Every time Mom
takes a brushstroke,

708
00:34:35,107 --> 00:34:37,109
every time
you use a chisel.

709
00:34:37,143 --> 00:34:40,879
It's like
we're creating ourselves
in the choices we make.

710
00:34:40,912 --> 00:34:42,781
We are creating this.

711
00:34:45,016 --> 00:34:47,286
It's beautiful.

712
00:34:47,319 --> 00:34:49,555
**

713
00:34:51,022 --> 00:34:53,192
We target
each malformation

714
00:34:53,225 --> 00:34:54,826
with a thermal laser probe.

715
00:34:54,860 --> 00:34:56,428
Just the malformation.

716
00:34:58,063 --> 00:35:00,299
The trajectory
has to be perfect.

717
00:35:01,567 --> 00:35:02,901
You can't
paint over it.

718
00:35:03,769 --> 00:35:06,305
**

719
00:35:06,338 --> 00:35:07,939
You could show this
to Mom.

720
00:35:10,142 --> 00:35:11,610
But from you,
she'll accept it.

721
00:35:15,781 --> 00:35:18,617
**

722
00:35:24,122 --> 00:35:27,593
(MONITOR BEEPING)

723
00:35:27,626 --> 00:35:30,729
DR. GLASSMAN:
Inserting the laser probe
into the cooling catheter.

724
00:35:30,762 --> 00:35:32,964
**

725
00:35:33,799 --> 00:35:35,467
Locked and loaded.
Ready to fire.

726
00:35:37,236 --> 00:35:38,270
DR. PARK:
Dr. Glassman,

727
00:35:38,304 --> 00:35:40,339
are you sure
of this location?

728
00:35:40,372 --> 00:35:41,873
It seems significantly far

729
00:35:41,907 --> 00:35:43,709
from what we saw
on her pre-surgical MRIs.

730
00:35:45,444 --> 00:35:49,315
You know what the brain
and breakfast cereal
have in common?

731
00:35:49,348 --> 00:35:51,783
Contents tend to shift
during transport.

732
00:35:53,719 --> 00:35:55,153
Yes, I'm quite sure.

733
00:35:57,456 --> 00:35:59,525
(LASER BUZZING)

734
00:35:59,558 --> 00:36:01,793
**

735
00:36:05,297 --> 00:36:06,332
(CLICK)

736
00:36:06,365 --> 00:36:07,966
First ablation complete.

737
00:36:07,999 --> 00:36:10,469
**

738
00:36:16,041 --> 00:36:17,509
(SIGHS)

739
00:36:18,877 --> 00:36:22,013
Now we just have to do it
perfectly nine more times.

740
00:36:23,349 --> 00:36:25,651
**

741
00:36:31,990 --> 00:36:33,091
It's gone?

742
00:36:33,124 --> 00:36:34,993
DR. PARK: Well, not quite.
But close.

743
00:36:35,026 --> 00:36:36,628
The recent infections
got into the tumor.

744
00:36:36,662 --> 00:36:39,965
Which allowed
your immune system
to find it.

745
00:36:39,998 --> 00:36:43,635
But they said it was
an aggressive cancer.

746
00:36:43,669 --> 00:36:45,036
What makes
a cancer aggressive

747
00:36:45,070 --> 00:36:47,873
is its ability to evade
the immune system.

748
00:36:47,906 --> 00:36:49,541
That's no longer true
about yours.

749
00:36:49,575 --> 00:36:51,310
(SCOFFS)

750
00:36:51,343 --> 00:36:53,779
**

751
00:37:00,185 --> 00:37:04,990
The tumor
has become small enough
to remove surgically.

752
00:37:05,023 --> 00:37:07,859
We can make an appointment
to do that in a few days,

753
00:37:07,893 --> 00:37:09,828
once the infection has
fully cleared your system.

754
00:37:09,861 --> 00:37:12,998
Meanwhile,
you can go home.

755
00:37:13,031 --> 00:37:14,833
Congratulations.

756
00:37:14,866 --> 00:37:17,469
**

757
00:37:19,204 --> 00:37:21,039
Home?

758
00:37:26,712 --> 00:37:27,779
How do you feel?

759
00:37:28,414 --> 00:37:29,448
Tired.

760
00:37:29,481 --> 00:37:30,816
Of being in this place.

761
00:37:31,550 --> 00:37:33,218
Reasonable answer.

762
00:37:33,251 --> 00:37:34,986
Do you feel
your creativity's impaired?

763
00:37:36,755 --> 00:37:37,889
(SIGHS)

764
00:37:42,294 --> 00:37:44,630
(CHUCKLES)
Isn't that the graphic you
use to sign your paintings?

765
00:37:44,663 --> 00:37:47,333
Thank you
for knowing that.

766
00:37:47,366 --> 00:37:49,267
Ariel was afraid
you'd feel vandalized.

767
00:37:50,936 --> 00:37:53,204
Ah, don't be silly.
We'll auction off the door.

768
00:37:59,411 --> 00:38:00,512
(SIGHS)

769
00:38:00,546 --> 00:38:01,813
Mom, you've thanked
your doctors,

770
00:38:01,847 --> 00:38:03,415
but you haven't said
anything to Morgan.

771
00:38:05,283 --> 00:38:07,519
You know, getting out
of this mess intact,

772
00:38:07,553 --> 00:38:08,787
that's down to her.

773
00:38:08,820 --> 00:38:10,889
Oh, yes, I know.

774
00:38:10,922 --> 00:38:14,059
**

775
00:38:14,092 --> 00:38:16,161
I owe you everything.

776
00:38:22,701 --> 00:38:24,803
Thank you...

777
00:38:24,836 --> 00:38:26,405
For saving my life.

778
00:38:29,408 --> 00:38:31,242
You're welcome.

779
00:38:31,276 --> 00:38:34,780
**

780
00:38:38,249 --> 00:38:40,051
(SIGHS)

781
00:38:41,286 --> 00:38:43,422
Our little plodder
came through.

782
00:38:52,197 --> 00:38:55,033
Not everybody
gets a parade.

783
00:38:55,066 --> 00:38:56,267
Maybe Carly
doesn't have them.

784
00:38:57,335 --> 00:39:00,138
Maybe I haven't
practiced enough.

785
00:39:00,171 --> 00:39:02,273
I've worked on
my surgical technique

786
00:39:02,307 --> 00:39:03,942
for hundreds of hours.

787
00:39:03,975 --> 00:39:06,311
You can't just take the pizza
out of the freezer and dig in.

788
00:39:08,279 --> 00:39:10,081
You have to put it
in the microwave first.

789
00:39:12,851 --> 00:39:14,352
Actually, Dr. Lim,

790
00:39:14,386 --> 00:39:17,022
a toaster oven
is better for the crust.

791
00:39:18,356 --> 00:39:20,692
She's not talking
about pizza, Shaun.

792
00:39:22,293 --> 00:39:23,662
Mm.

793
00:39:23,695 --> 00:39:25,631
Men your age
run out of patience.

794
00:39:25,664 --> 00:39:29,468
They turn off the microwave
before that pizza's ready.

795
00:39:34,740 --> 00:39:36,074
You want to give
a parade, Shaun?

796
00:39:37,042 --> 00:39:38,343
Yes.

797
00:39:38,376 --> 00:39:40,011
You want to give
a great parade?

798
00:39:40,045 --> 00:39:42,047
Are there differences
in parades?

799
00:39:44,182 --> 00:39:47,519
Some have balloons
and marching bands.

800
00:39:47,553 --> 00:39:50,889
Other parades
are sparsely attended.

801
00:39:50,922 --> 00:39:55,026
I want Carly to have
the best parade possible.

802
00:39:55,060 --> 00:39:57,195
I know you do.

803
00:39:57,228 --> 00:39:59,230
Just as you want to be
the best surgeon possible.

804
00:40:00,499 --> 00:40:03,401
When you're in the O.R.,
you commit totally.

805
00:40:03,435 --> 00:40:06,204
You persevere.
Everything else falls away.

806
00:40:06,237 --> 00:40:08,774
You focus entirely
on what you're doing.

807
00:40:09,575 --> 00:40:10,809
That's your superpower.

808
00:40:15,080 --> 00:40:17,282
Now I want you
to take Carly home

809
00:40:17,315 --> 00:40:19,050
and work that parade route

810
00:40:19,084 --> 00:40:21,720
and don't stop
until the band
begins playing.

811
00:40:25,156 --> 00:40:26,958
And then go 3% longer.

812
00:40:32,430 --> 00:40:33,799
I will.

813
00:40:36,334 --> 00:40:40,105
(KEVIN MORBY'S PARADE PLAYS)

814
00:40:40,138 --> 00:40:44,042
**

815
00:40:44,075 --> 00:40:45,877
See you tomorrow.

816
00:40:50,749 --> 00:40:52,984
All that focus.

817
00:40:53,018 --> 00:40:54,986
Strangely intriguing.

818
00:41:01,660 --> 00:41:04,295
**

819
00:41:08,166 --> 00:41:11,469
If I only had
six months to live,

820
00:41:11,503 --> 00:41:14,405
I wouldn't want to be
anywhere but where I am.

821
00:41:14,439 --> 00:41:17,175
**

822
00:41:17,208 --> 00:41:20,679
* If you come to find out
who you are

823
00:41:22,814 --> 00:41:24,783
* And may you find out

824
00:41:24,816 --> 00:41:28,353
* May find you find out
who you are

825
00:41:28,386 --> 00:41:30,121
Are you getting on?

826
00:41:30,155 --> 00:41:34,325
* If you come to search
for what is lost

827
00:41:34,359 --> 00:41:35,827
No.

828
00:41:35,861 --> 00:41:37,495
* Then may you find it

829
00:41:37,529 --> 00:41:40,365
* May you find it at any cost

830
00:41:42,534 --> 00:41:48,373
* If you come over from far

831
00:41:48,406 --> 00:41:53,144
* May it not touch you
or ever do you harm

832
00:41:53,178 --> 00:41:55,480
**

833
00:41:58,550 --> 00:42:04,756
* Passing slowly
through the town

834
00:42:04,790 --> 00:42:10,495
* My feet,
they cannot touch the ground

835
00:42:10,528 --> 00:42:13,198
* Of the parade *

836
00:42:13,231 --> 00:42:17,836
**

837
00:42:21,640 --> 00:42:23,408
(SIGHS)

838
00:42:27,813 --> 00:42:31,082
**