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**

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(ALARM RINGING)

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(RINGING STOPS)

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(ALARM RINGING)

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(BRUSH THUDS)

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Today is not Saturday.

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Why did you
make me pancakes?

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They are
fresh start pancakes.

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Like the first day
of school every year

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when you get to wear
a brand-new outfit.

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(CHUCKLES)

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Well, not everyone
wore a new outfit.

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But the rule
in this house

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is that when you start
a new life event,

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you get pancakes.

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I don't want
a fresh start.

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I want
to stay in surgery.

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I know.

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And I am really proud
of you for handling
it all so...

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(KNOCK ON DOOR)

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Doctors, please give me
one more minute.

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We have an associate pastor
at the church,

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but Clarence
likes to write the sermons.

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Sorry.
DR. MELENDEZ: Please.

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Although this is
important too.

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The surgery consists
of two steps.

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First we fuse the spine
to stabilize it,

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and then we remove
the tumor.

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Because the cancer has spread
to your lymph nodes,

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you'll still have
to follow up with chemo.

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(GROANS)
Clarence, are you in pain?

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Quite a bit actually,
but I'm fine.

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DR. MELENDEZ: Well,
since what's causing
your pain

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is the tumor pushing
against your spine,

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the spinal fusion will ease
pressure on your nerves

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and should eliminate
your pain.

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Please, I, uh...
I need this pain.

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Can't you just do the second
part and remove the tumor?

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If we don't
fuse the spine,

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it'll make removing the tumor
a lot more difficult.

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More difficult,
but it can be done?

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It can.
But I recommend
against it.

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Especially since
there's no reason not to.

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(SIGHS)

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I did something

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unforgivable.

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This pain
is my punishment.

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**

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Can I ask what you did
that was so bad?

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I killed someone.

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(THEME MUSIC PLAYING)

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(BELL DINGS)

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(APPLAUSE)

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**

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JESS: My sister and I were

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coming home from climbing
Mt. Whitney.

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We're doing
the State 50 climbs.

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The numbness started
during the climb?

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First my hands,
and then my feet.

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(GRUNTS)

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You have a headache?
Yeah.

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DR. LIM: High altitude
causes headaches.

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Dehydration compounds it.

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From now on just
climb slower
and drink more.

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Tell them
about the other thing.

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Before leaving
for the mountain,

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I had this
weird sensation like...

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Dread.

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I couldn't shake it.

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Well, when people describe
a sense of impending doom,
it's usually anxiety.

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No, it was like
a premonition,

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that I was
going to die.

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I'm sure it was...
Dr. Park will run
a brain scan,

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and we'll do
some lab work.

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**

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Shaun.

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Hello, Dr. Lever.

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Carly is fine.

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Welcome to pathology.

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It is going to be great
working with you.

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What do you think?

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I know it's a lot
to take in.

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It's kind of like your first
time at Disneyland, right?

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I've never been
to Disneyland.

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Let me give you
a tour.

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Cytopathology,
forensics,

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genomics,
microbiology.

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We get to identify
organisms,

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interpret cell morphology,

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sequence genes.

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Is that a D300e

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pathogen antibacterial
bioprinter?

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It's new.

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You're working on
antibiotic resistance

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in emerging
microorganisms?

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It's "we" now, Shaun.

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Yes, we are.

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(SIGHS)

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Do you want to play
with it?

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Very much.
(LAUGHS)

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Go ahead.

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It's kind of
your job now.

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We are the detectives.

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Surgeons are just
the beat cops.

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(WHIRRING)

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Our best bet is to try
to separate the tumor

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from his cord,
and then resect it.

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Okay,
this is insane.

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You know how
he "killed" a person?

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He was counseling
a parishioner
who committed suicide.

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That must have been
traumatic.

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Traumatic, yes.
Murder, no.

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Hey, I know it's stupid,
but he has autonomy.

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I didn't stay stupid.
I said "insane."

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You want to
override his wishes
because he's religious?

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Something like 90%
of Americans
believe in God.

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I'm one of them.
Are we all mentally impaired?

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Should you ignore us all
if you don't like our choices?

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Only those getting divine
messages from their tumors.

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He's not crazy.
Okay, you're right.

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He is just stupid.
But don't we have
a duty to educate him?

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You're gonna talk him
out of his religion?
No.

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You told him the surgery
was more dangerous this way.

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I don't think he appreciated
how much more dangerous.

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Good idea.

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He thinks he'll go
to hell if he dies
before he's forgiven.

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Make sure he knows
it can happen on the table.

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**

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(WHIRRING)

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(WARBLING)

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DR. PARK:
An MRI for anxiety?

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It does fly
in the face of reducing

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unnecessary
medical tests.

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When I was a resident,
I had a patient
come through the ER.

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Female.
35 years old.

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Slight cough.
Slightly hypothyroid.

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Normal vitals.

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I labeled her a whiner
because she kept insisting,

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"I'm gonna die."

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I sent her home.

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And she died?

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No. She kept
coming back.

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(CHUCKLES)
Over and over again.

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We do this test,
we prove there's nothing
wrong with her,

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we send her home
reassured.

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(BEEP)

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**

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Damn.

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The MRI showed
a high grade meningioma.

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An advanced tumor that grows
in the tissue layers
that cover the brain.

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Its features are consistent
with it being malignant.

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(EXHALES SHARPLY)

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These tumors
tend to be aggressive

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and impossible
to fully resect.

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Um, so what...
What can you do?

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Palliative care,

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symptom control
with medications.

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(SNIFFLES)

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(BREATHES DEEPLY)

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**

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You're risking
spinal damage,

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paralysis, death.

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If that's what God chooses,
then that is his will.

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If you have cancer because
he wants you to have cancer,

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why are you here?
Getting treatment?

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I'm here because
I believe in science.

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I am who I am
because I believe in God.

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So do you think
all people who are sick
are being punished?

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I mean, we have an
eight-year-old down the hall
with bone cancer.

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You want to go tell her
God hates her?

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I'm sure that girl is not
suffering as a punishment.

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She's suffering so others
may have a chance

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to show her mercy,

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to show her compassion,
so she can inspire.

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I don't know His plan,
but I know it's not
as simple as you would...

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No.
No, it's not simple.

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Except for your pain.

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His name was Michael.

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**

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(EXHALES SHARPLY)

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His wife found his body.

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You had no idea.

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I knew he was depressed.

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But you thought
he was getting better.

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(SCOFFS)

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I didn't take his call.

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Because I was
having a drink.

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(EXHALES SHARPLY)

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It'd been a long day
dealing with the renovations,

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and I was having
a damn drink.

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**

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(DOOR OPENS)

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DR. PARK: Hey, Shaun.

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Hey, Carly.

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I started Sadie Barnes
on anti-seizure medication,

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need you to run
a peak phenytoin level.

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The couriers must be happy
that the surgeons

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are doing their own
specimen deliveries.

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How you doing
down here?

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Carly says pathologists
are the detectives,

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surgeons are just
the beat cops.

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Shaun,
are you happy here?

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00:11:26,153 --> 00:11:28,421
When did you give the patient
her loading dose?

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One hour ago.
Hmm.

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Shaun, if you're happy,
that's great.

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00:11:33,927 --> 00:11:35,662
But if you're not,

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you have to tell Han
how you feel.

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You need to show him
you care

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and that you believe
in yourself.

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**

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Do you need
this done STAT?

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00:11:48,842 --> 00:11:50,944
No.
She's asymptomatic.

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00:11:50,978 --> 00:11:52,545
It's just for
seizure prevention.
Good.

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00:11:52,579 --> 00:11:54,147
Carly says
that in pathology

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00:11:54,181 --> 00:11:55,849
you can take a break
whenever you want.

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00:11:55,883 --> 00:11:58,051
I want to take a break now.
I'm going for a walk.

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00:12:04,391 --> 00:12:05,692
He shouldn't be
in pathology.

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He's a good
surgical resident.
You're right.

219
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Then you'll
move him back?
No.

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You're wrong about that part.
He should be in pathology.

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00:12:12,065 --> 00:12:13,934
But he was a good
surgical resident.
Then why...

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Because he'll never
be a good surgeon.

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How do you think
he'll do in three years

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when no one's looking
over his shoulder?

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When he's looking over
someone else's shoulder?

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00:12:22,943 --> 00:12:25,712
Supervising new residents,
leading grand rounds,

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advocating for
vulnerable patients.

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Do you see him
doing any of that
without a safety net?

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We can help him
get there.

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Just because
he wants to be
a surgeon,

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just because
you want him
to be a surgeon,

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doesn't mean he gets to have
that dream come true.

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Has it occurred to you
that maybe

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we know Shaun
better than you do?

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00:12:46,266 --> 00:12:48,001
Has it occurred
to you that

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that might be
your problem?

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That your view of him
might be distorted
because you like him?

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Has it occurred to you
that maybe he's better off
in pathology?

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That maybe
he'll even like it?

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Do you care?

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00:13:00,780 --> 00:13:01,882
I thought you might.

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00:13:02,782 --> 00:13:05,118
**

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00:13:07,454 --> 00:13:10,090
(WHIRRING)
DR. MELENDEZ: We need
better ventral exposure.

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00:13:10,123 --> 00:13:11,992
Drill off more
of the pedicle
and vertebral body.

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00:13:14,161 --> 00:13:15,562
Ligate the exiting
nerve root.

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We'll take it with the tumor
for a wider margin.

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00:13:22,769 --> 00:13:24,137
CLAIRE: I can't see it.

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The tumor's causing
the spinal cord
to be bowed up to us.

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We need more exposure
to get around
and in front of it.

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DR. REZNICK: The vertebrae is
too fragmented and displaced.

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00:13:35,348 --> 00:13:38,318
We can't get
a complete resection
without stabilization.

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00:13:38,351 --> 00:13:40,053
(RAPID BEEPING)
CLAIRE: He's tanking.

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Probably spinal shock
from tension on the cord.
We need to abort.

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00:13:42,455 --> 00:13:44,124
(BEEPING CONTINUES)

255
00:13:44,157 --> 00:13:46,526
**

256
00:13:47,995 --> 00:13:50,463
All right, on three.
One, two, three.

257
00:13:52,499 --> 00:13:53,766
CLARENCE: You fixed me!

258
00:13:54,834 --> 00:13:56,970
No, no.
What happened to my pain?

259
00:13:57,004 --> 00:14:00,807
Stop!
We didn't fix you.

260
00:14:00,840 --> 00:14:03,843
There was a complication.
We injected anesthetic.

261
00:14:05,178 --> 00:14:06,346
It'll wear off.

262
00:14:06,379 --> 00:14:07,847
We had to
stop the surgery

263
00:14:07,881 --> 00:14:09,482
before we could
remove the tumor.

264
00:14:09,516 --> 00:14:11,684
You went into shock.

265
00:14:11,718 --> 00:14:15,155
We lost your heart rate
and blood pressure.

266
00:14:15,188 --> 00:14:18,491
We warned it would be
a trickier surgery
without the fusion.

267
00:14:18,525 --> 00:14:21,161
Nothing has changed.
The anesthetic will wear off,

268
00:14:21,194 --> 00:14:23,696
the pain will come back,
but worse.

269
00:14:23,730 --> 00:14:25,332
When can you try again?

270
00:14:25,365 --> 00:14:28,135
Try again?
We failed.

271
00:14:28,168 --> 00:14:29,536
(SIGHS)

272
00:14:29,569 --> 00:14:31,771
There is no reason
to think we will succeed

273
00:14:31,804 --> 00:14:33,106
next time unless
we do the fusion...

274
00:14:33,140 --> 00:14:36,609
But you know what
the issues are, you learned...
Why haven't you?

275
00:14:36,643 --> 00:14:38,745
**

276
00:14:40,747 --> 00:14:42,916
Do think God
wants you to die?

277
00:14:50,323 --> 00:14:51,558
CLARENCE: Please.

278
00:14:52,993 --> 00:14:54,227
Try again.

279
00:14:56,729 --> 00:14:57,897
(SIGHS)

280
00:14:58,398 --> 00:15:00,367
Cyanide poisoning.

281
00:15:02,569 --> 00:15:04,604
The cause of death
on the Atlin case.

282
00:15:07,840 --> 00:15:09,376
You know
how I found it?

283
00:15:09,409 --> 00:15:12,512
I smelled it.
Almonds.

284
00:15:18,885 --> 00:15:21,354
Dr. Park's patient.

285
00:15:21,388 --> 00:15:23,890
I flagged
her eosinophil count.

286
00:15:23,923 --> 00:15:25,692
It doesn't match up
with the diagnosis

287
00:15:25,725 --> 00:15:28,261
of advanced meningioma
listed on the requisition.

288
00:15:28,295 --> 00:15:30,897
Great. Nice work.

289
00:15:31,798 --> 00:15:34,201
I'm going to talk
to Dr. Lim about it.

290
00:15:34,234 --> 00:15:35,468
Whoa there, Shaun.
Hold up.

291
00:15:35,502 --> 00:15:37,704
You don't
need to do that.

292
00:15:37,737 --> 00:15:40,607
The attendings are on
the lookout for the flags.
They'll run with it.

293
00:15:40,640 --> 00:15:42,942
I want to run with it.

294
00:15:42,976 --> 00:15:45,245
You've been on the receiving
end. You know how it works.

295
00:15:45,278 --> 00:15:48,715
How it works
is I see something abnormal

296
00:15:48,748 --> 00:15:50,717
and then I discuss it
with the team,

297
00:15:50,750 --> 00:15:52,752
and we plan
how we'll fix it.

298
00:15:52,785 --> 00:15:54,054
We run with it.

299
00:15:55,555 --> 00:15:59,659
Shaun, once a test is done,
we move on to the next one.

300
00:16:03,096 --> 00:16:06,566
I'd like to
take a walk.

301
00:16:09,302 --> 00:16:11,304
Are you going
to walk to Dr. Lim

302
00:16:11,338 --> 00:16:12,772
and discuss this case,
Shaun?

303
00:16:16,576 --> 00:16:18,311
(SIGHS)

304
00:16:18,345 --> 00:16:20,580
That's not
what we do here.

305
00:16:20,613 --> 00:16:25,485
We investigate, report,
and then we move on.

306
00:16:25,518 --> 00:16:27,487
**

307
00:16:27,520 --> 00:16:29,289
Are you gonna be able
to do that,

308
00:16:29,322 --> 00:16:30,590
move on?

309
00:16:31,958 --> 00:16:33,426
I don't know.

310
00:16:34,327 --> 00:16:37,464
But I will
try very hard.

311
00:16:41,634 --> 00:16:42,802
Next time.

312
00:16:49,809 --> 00:16:52,779
(KNOCKING)

313
00:16:52,812 --> 00:16:53,880
Dr. Browne.

314
00:16:54,547 --> 00:16:55,815
Is this
about a patient?

315
00:16:56,783 --> 00:16:57,884
No.

316
00:16:59,486 --> 00:17:00,620
Come in.

317
00:17:03,456 --> 00:17:05,725
I've heard
a lot about you.

318
00:17:05,758 --> 00:17:07,460
I'm aware you stood up
to a supervisor.

319
00:17:07,494 --> 00:17:08,861
Is that
what's happening now?

320
00:17:11,631 --> 00:17:16,002
Um, I put together
a list of cases

321
00:17:16,035 --> 00:17:19,005
which Dr. Murphy
contributed to.

322
00:17:19,038 --> 00:17:21,007
Uniquely.

323
00:17:21,040 --> 00:17:22,775
You're a loyal friend.

324
00:17:22,809 --> 00:17:25,145
I've specified
the ideas he had,

325
00:17:25,178 --> 00:17:28,148
ideas that no one else
around here could have...

326
00:17:28,181 --> 00:17:29,582
Do you think
I hate him?

327
00:17:31,551 --> 00:17:32,652
No.

328
00:17:37,023 --> 00:17:39,559
But I think

329
00:17:39,592 --> 00:17:42,729
you might be biased
against him
because of his condition.

330
00:17:42,762 --> 00:17:45,232
So he doesn't have
communication issues?
I'm wrong about that?

331
00:17:45,265 --> 00:17:48,168
No. But he...
If he had the flu,

332
00:17:48,201 --> 00:17:51,238
I would tell him
to stay home
until he got better.

333
00:17:51,271 --> 00:17:53,173
He has autism...

334
00:17:53,206 --> 00:17:55,508
I could tell him to stay home
until he gets better.

335
00:17:55,542 --> 00:17:58,711
Instead I found a place
for him to help us,

336
00:17:58,745 --> 00:18:00,180
to save lives.

337
00:18:02,081 --> 00:18:05,051
And you should know
I have rather mixed
feelings about loyalty.

338
00:18:10,257 --> 00:18:12,759
**

339
00:18:25,438 --> 00:18:27,840
(INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS)

340
00:18:32,044 --> 00:18:34,080
All righty.
There you go.

341
00:18:36,216 --> 00:18:37,217
Hello.

342
00:18:38,718 --> 00:18:39,952
Aaron.

343
00:18:41,087 --> 00:18:42,255
It's good to see you.

344
00:18:42,289 --> 00:18:43,756
Yeah.
The feeling is mutual.

345
00:18:45,057 --> 00:18:46,259
Can I have one of those?

346
00:18:48,094 --> 00:18:49,662
The chocolate chip muffin?
Yes, please.

347
00:18:50,297 --> 00:18:51,731
Special occasion?

348
00:18:51,764 --> 00:18:53,366
Yes.
Yeah?

349
00:18:53,400 --> 00:18:57,136
As of today, I am no longer
injecting toxins into my body.

350
00:18:57,170 --> 00:18:59,606
Except, of course,
with chocolate chips.

351
00:18:59,639 --> 00:19:03,075
Oh, you're done
with chemo? Wow.
That's amazing.

352
00:19:03,109 --> 00:19:04,611
Congratulations.
Thank you.

353
00:19:05,812 --> 00:19:08,581
I was thinking of going out
tonight and celebrating

354
00:19:08,615 --> 00:19:10,983
what may be
very good news.

355
00:19:11,017 --> 00:19:12,919
If you're free,
my treat.

356
00:19:12,952 --> 00:19:14,621
I...
I'm sorry, Aaron.

357
00:19:14,654 --> 00:19:16,088
I have, uh, another
commitment.

358
00:19:16,122 --> 00:19:17,924
Oh. Um, tomorrow then?

359
00:19:17,957 --> 00:19:19,426
This week
is really crazy.

360
00:19:19,459 --> 00:19:22,995
You know what?
I am not doing chemo
every night next week,

361
00:19:23,029 --> 00:19:26,132
so I am free
every single night,
so...

362
00:19:26,165 --> 00:19:28,935
Aaron,
I'm seeing someone.

363
00:19:31,103 --> 00:19:32,505
I'm sorry.

364
00:19:32,539 --> 00:19:35,107
**

365
00:19:35,141 --> 00:19:36,743
(CHUCKLES)

366
00:19:36,776 --> 00:19:38,478
Nothing to be
sorry about.

367
00:19:42,315 --> 00:19:43,683
It was good to see you.

368
00:19:53,293 --> 00:19:56,128
DR. MELENDEZ:
Keep an extra close eye on
blood pressure and heart rate.

369
00:19:56,162 --> 00:19:58,765
(MONITOR BEEPING)

370
00:19:58,798 --> 00:20:00,400
DR. REZNICK:
I have extra fluid,
vasopressors,

371
00:20:00,433 --> 00:20:01,501
and inotropes ready.

372
00:20:04,371 --> 00:20:05,572
Why no God?

373
00:20:08,007 --> 00:20:09,709
You follow in the tradition
that you're handed.

374
00:20:09,742 --> 00:20:12,178
My family wasn't religious.
We never went to church.

375
00:20:12,211 --> 00:20:13,646
I was there
every Sunday.

376
00:20:13,680 --> 00:20:15,548
8:00 a.m.
for Catholic mass.

377
00:20:15,582 --> 00:20:18,618
My parents eventually got
tired of all the rules
and turned Lutheran.

378
00:20:18,651 --> 00:20:20,387
They found that dull
and went back to Catholic.

379
00:20:20,420 --> 00:20:22,221
(CHUCKLES)
That's my tradition.

380
00:20:25,992 --> 00:20:29,128
DR. REZNICK: What do you think
it'll be like when you die?

381
00:20:29,161 --> 00:20:32,198
Probably like it was
before I was born.
A whole lot of nothing.

382
00:20:34,267 --> 00:20:35,268
We're there.

383
00:20:36,869 --> 00:20:39,472
Where we were when everything
went wrong last time.

384
00:20:39,506 --> 00:20:41,874
We need to remove the tumor
without putting any pressure

385
00:20:41,908 --> 00:20:44,277
on his cord at all,
or he'll be back
in spinal shock.

386
00:20:46,513 --> 00:20:48,415
And we need more tumor release
from the vertebral body.

387
00:20:48,448 --> 00:20:50,750
Extend your osteotomies
proximal and distal.

388
00:20:51,718 --> 00:20:53,886
(WHIRRING)

389
00:20:53,920 --> 00:20:55,054
Good.

390
00:20:57,290 --> 00:20:59,692
I think I got
a free plane...

391
00:20:59,726 --> 00:21:01,361
Retract it from the cord
a little more.

392
00:21:02,729 --> 00:21:04,897
**

393
00:21:06,366 --> 00:21:07,534
I got it.

394
00:21:07,567 --> 00:21:10,036
Now, when you remove it
careful not
to morselize it.

395
00:21:13,806 --> 00:21:14,907
Can you
hold that up?

396
00:21:17,644 --> 00:21:18,878
Dr. Reznick,
give me a measurement.

397
00:21:21,881 --> 00:21:23,383
Max length is 4.5.

398
00:21:24,250 --> 00:21:25,452
Get a pre-op scan up.

399
00:21:25,818 --> 00:21:27,620
(BEEP)

400
00:21:27,654 --> 00:21:29,489
That says the tumor's
eight centimeters.

401
00:21:30,890 --> 00:21:33,360
How does a tumor shrink
from eight centimeters

402
00:21:33,393 --> 00:21:35,595
to 4.5 without radiation
in two weeks?

403
00:21:37,296 --> 00:21:38,431
It doesn't.

404
00:21:43,836 --> 00:21:46,305
Why the page, Shaun?
And why are you in radiology?

405
00:21:46,339 --> 00:21:47,940
We rely on flags.

406
00:21:47,974 --> 00:21:50,042
You have to count on
the ordering physician

407
00:21:50,076 --> 00:21:52,579
seeing it while you move on
to something else.

408
00:21:52,612 --> 00:21:53,713
Okay. And?

409
00:21:53,746 --> 00:21:56,383
I don't agree with
Sadie Barnes' diagnosis,

410
00:21:56,416 --> 00:21:59,819
and I think her tumor
should be biopsied.

411
00:21:59,852 --> 00:22:02,589
Shaun, I...
Dr. Han wanted me
away from patients.

412
00:22:02,622 --> 00:22:04,391
Patients are not allowed
in the viewing room.

413
00:22:04,424 --> 00:22:06,025
So I'm not doing
anything wrong.

414
00:22:07,960 --> 00:22:10,497
(BEEP)
Two radiologists said

415
00:22:10,530 --> 00:22:12,399
it was
a malignant meningioma

416
00:22:12,432 --> 00:22:14,934
in the insular region
and encasing the MCA vessels.

417
00:22:14,967 --> 00:22:16,335
That's exactly
where it is.

418
00:22:16,369 --> 00:22:18,104
And her clinical picture
matches perfectly.

419
00:22:18,137 --> 00:22:20,407
Arm and leg numbness.

420
00:22:20,440 --> 00:22:24,411
The tumor attachment
to the dura
is slightly anomalous.

421
00:22:24,444 --> 00:22:26,979
And the insular region
is slightly atypical, too.

422
00:22:28,147 --> 00:22:29,181
(MOUSE CLICKS)

423
00:22:29,215 --> 00:22:30,550
(BEEP)

424
00:22:31,518 --> 00:22:33,520
What differential diagnoses
are you proposing?

425
00:22:35,488 --> 00:22:37,356
I need to speak
to the patient.

426
00:22:37,390 --> 00:22:39,659
(SIGHS)
Should I ask Dr. Han
for permission?

427
00:22:39,692 --> 00:22:41,327
Shaun, I...
(SCOFFS)

428
00:22:41,360 --> 00:22:44,497
...will bring your concern
about the scan
to the head of radiology.

429
00:22:44,531 --> 00:22:47,734
But approaching Dr. Han?
Don't do that.

430
00:22:49,769 --> 00:22:51,738
Now, I already talked to him
about your reassignment.

431
00:22:51,771 --> 00:22:53,673
I don't know if it'll make
any difference...

432
00:22:53,706 --> 00:22:57,810
If I were Claire, would you
let me approach Dr. Han

433
00:22:57,844 --> 00:22:59,378
about something
that concerned me?

434
00:23:00,480 --> 00:23:02,415
**

435
00:23:03,583 --> 00:23:05,652
Yes.
I probably would.

436
00:23:07,119 --> 00:23:09,822
Hmm.

437
00:23:09,856 --> 00:23:14,360
Is that because Claire
doesn't make mistakes
when she's communicating?

438
00:23:15,695 --> 00:23:17,163
Yes.

439
00:23:19,165 --> 00:23:23,269
Then do you think Dr. Han
made the right decision
by sending me to pathology?

440
00:23:26,172 --> 00:23:27,674
No.

441
00:23:38,751 --> 00:23:39,786
(BEEP)

442
00:23:39,819 --> 00:23:41,554
The lymph nodes
have shrunk, too.

443
00:23:41,588 --> 00:23:43,690
This is a PET scan
from two weeks ago.

444
00:23:43,723 --> 00:23:45,492
Enlarged and cancerous.

445
00:23:45,525 --> 00:23:46,926
Today...
(BEEP)

446
00:23:48,227 --> 00:23:49,295
...they've all regressed.

447
00:23:55,835 --> 00:23:58,270
Spontaneous regression
has been reported

448
00:23:58,304 --> 00:24:00,907
in melanomas,
renal cell carcinomas,

449
00:24:00,940 --> 00:24:03,576
neuroblastomas, and some
types of blood cancers.

450
00:24:03,610 --> 00:24:05,912
In a sarcoma
that's metastasized?

451
00:24:05,945 --> 00:24:09,081
No. But if it happened
in those others, why not?

452
00:24:09,115 --> 00:24:11,250
Because none of them
make sense.

453
00:24:11,283 --> 00:24:12,685
When I read about
disappearing cancer,

454
00:24:12,719 --> 00:24:15,788
I always think some
doctor missed something,
forgot something,

455
00:24:15,822 --> 00:24:19,025
screwed up something.
(SIGHS)

456
00:24:19,058 --> 00:24:21,961
The theory is that
the body somehow triggers

457
00:24:21,994 --> 00:24:23,896
an immune response
against the cancer.

458
00:24:23,930 --> 00:24:26,198
Something somehow
lights a fuse.

459
00:24:26,232 --> 00:24:28,300
The theory says the fuse
is lit by an infection.

460
00:24:28,334 --> 00:24:30,402
His lab work proves
he hasn't had one.

461
00:24:30,436 --> 00:24:33,540
At this point, the most
credible explanation is...

462
00:24:33,573 --> 00:24:34,774
Are you gonna use
the "M" word?

463
00:24:36,208 --> 00:24:37,810
You seriously
can't say it?

464
00:24:37,844 --> 00:24:41,981
Only when referencing
the 1980 U.S. hockey team.

465
00:24:42,014 --> 00:24:44,083
Keep testing.
Anything you can think of.

466
00:24:44,116 --> 00:24:46,452
Molecular markers,
T-cells, PD-L1.

467
00:24:46,485 --> 00:24:48,988
We'll need permission
from the patient.

468
00:24:49,021 --> 00:24:50,289
Which raises
another issue,

469
00:24:50,322 --> 00:24:52,191
what are we gonna
do next, medically?

470
00:24:52,224 --> 00:24:53,926
He was supposed to
start chemo next week.

471
00:24:53,960 --> 00:24:55,394
No, it'll wipe out
his immune system,

472
00:24:55,427 --> 00:24:57,564
which may be what's
actually killing his cancer.

473
00:24:57,597 --> 00:24:59,498
If we don't know
what's making him better,

474
00:24:59,532 --> 00:25:01,467
we don't know what
to stop, what to start.

475
00:25:04,470 --> 00:25:05,938
So we do nothing?

476
00:25:06,873 --> 00:25:09,041
Just trust God
to fix him?

477
00:25:09,075 --> 00:25:12,278
We trust whatever is currently
fixing him to keep fixing him.

478
00:25:12,311 --> 00:25:14,013
If he took a Tylenol
yesterday at 8:00,

479
00:25:14,046 --> 00:25:15,615
he takes a Tylenol
today at 8:00.

480
00:25:15,648 --> 00:25:18,350
Monitor him. Closely.
Scans constantly.

481
00:25:19,151 --> 00:25:21,487
**

482
00:25:30,797 --> 00:25:33,032
**

483
00:25:35,234 --> 00:25:36,235
Hmm.

484
00:25:41,507 --> 00:25:42,541
(KNOCK ON DOOR)

485
00:25:42,575 --> 00:25:44,611
Hello, Dr. Glassman.

486
00:25:44,644 --> 00:25:46,478
Hi.
Thank you for coming.

487
00:25:47,747 --> 00:25:51,050
He has been doing this
for two hours.

488
00:25:53,385 --> 00:25:54,386
Shaun.

489
00:25:55,788 --> 00:25:56,889
What are you up to?

490
00:25:57,890 --> 00:25:59,826
Alphabetizing
our canned goods

491
00:25:59,859 --> 00:26:02,461
and checking
all the expiration dates.

492
00:26:02,494 --> 00:26:03,830
Well, somebody's
got to do it.

493
00:26:05,431 --> 00:26:06,899
Is something wrong?
No.

494
00:26:07,499 --> 00:26:09,268
(EXHALES SHAKILY)

495
00:26:12,872 --> 00:26:15,474
Okay.
Okay. I think

496
00:26:15,507 --> 00:26:19,045
Dr. Lim's patient's
diagnosis is wrong,

497
00:26:19,078 --> 00:26:21,013
but I can't prove it
without information,

498
00:26:21,047 --> 00:26:24,083
and I'm not allowed
to talk to patients.

499
00:26:24,116 --> 00:26:25,618
Shaun.
(SIGHS)

500
00:26:29,521 --> 00:26:31,223
I want to run
with things.

501
00:26:32,258 --> 00:26:35,194
I want to fix people.

502
00:26:37,730 --> 00:26:40,466
Can you help me become
a surgical resident again?

503
00:26:41,968 --> 00:26:44,403
No. I can't, Shaun.

504
00:26:44,436 --> 00:26:45,872
I'm not president...
Yes.

505
00:26:47,406 --> 00:26:50,910
I'm not the president
of the hospital
anymore, Shaun.

506
00:26:50,943 --> 00:26:54,046
And even...
Even if I was,
it's irrelevant.

507
00:26:54,881 --> 00:26:57,083
You have to stand up
for yourself.

508
00:26:57,984 --> 00:26:59,118
And you know what?
If you can't,

509
00:26:59,151 --> 00:27:01,921
then the new Head of Surgery,
the Chief, he's right.

510
00:27:03,389 --> 00:27:05,557
Now, I can go
tell him he's wrong.

511
00:27:05,591 --> 00:27:07,359
It won't do any good.

512
00:27:07,393 --> 00:27:08,961
Or you can go show him.

513
00:27:13,800 --> 00:27:16,435
**

514
00:27:16,468 --> 00:27:19,271
I'm doing research
concerning Sadie Barnes.

515
00:27:21,073 --> 00:27:22,441
She's asleep.

516
00:27:23,943 --> 00:27:26,913
Perfect. I'm not allowed
to speak with her.

517
00:27:29,982 --> 00:27:32,351
I'm looking
for her sister Jess.

518
00:27:33,853 --> 00:27:35,755
I haven't seen her.
Sorry.

519
00:28:08,520 --> 00:28:09,989
DR. HAN: What are you doing?

520
00:28:14,727 --> 00:28:16,195
(LIGHT CLICKS)

521
00:28:18,898 --> 00:28:22,835
Can you explain why,
instead of remaining
in pathology as directed,

522
00:28:22,869 --> 00:28:26,305
you were in a patient's room,
going through her purse?

523
00:28:26,338 --> 00:28:29,041
I didn't speak to her.
She was asleep.

524
00:28:29,708 --> 00:28:31,978
(EXHALES SHARPLY)

525
00:28:32,011 --> 00:28:34,680
Dr. Murphy,
any reticence I had

526
00:28:34,713 --> 00:28:36,849
about removing you
from surgery
just vanished.

527
00:28:38,050 --> 00:28:40,686
You shouldn't
be in contact
with patients.

528
00:28:40,719 --> 00:28:42,855
Or their families.
Or anything they own.

529
00:28:42,889 --> 00:28:45,491
Do you understand, or am I
gonna be forced to fire you?

530
00:28:50,329 --> 00:28:52,865
Sadie's social media
says that

531
00:28:52,899 --> 00:28:54,500
she finances
her climbing travel

532
00:28:54,533 --> 00:28:56,702
by working as
a freelance food critic.

533
00:28:57,837 --> 00:29:00,406
She reviewed a Japanese
restaurant that used to have

534
00:29:00,439 --> 00:29:03,509
a Restaurant Grading System
Score of "A,"
but then it dropped to a "C,"

535
00:29:03,542 --> 00:29:06,745
which corresponds
to very bad
food safety practices.

536
00:29:06,779 --> 00:29:09,281
Bad sushi can lead to worms,
but it usually doesn't

537
00:29:09,315 --> 00:29:12,084
because stomach acid almost
always kills fish parasites.

538
00:29:12,118 --> 00:29:14,153
But not if someone
is taking an acid blocker,

539
00:29:14,186 --> 00:29:16,088
which 60 million
Americans are.

540
00:29:16,122 --> 00:29:18,224
I saw a bottle
in her purse.

541
00:29:22,428 --> 00:29:25,331
Sadie could have
sparganosis

542
00:29:25,364 --> 00:29:28,634
with an encapsulated worm
that is mimicking
a meningioma.

543
00:29:32,338 --> 00:29:33,639
That's a good idea.

544
00:29:34,706 --> 00:29:36,943
Excellent.
I'll tell the patient.

545
00:29:36,976 --> 00:29:38,945
I will tell the patient.

546
00:29:39,979 --> 00:29:41,247
I'll tell her
we're doing a biopsy

547
00:29:41,280 --> 00:29:42,915
to confirm
the initial diagnosis.

548
00:29:42,949 --> 00:29:44,616
But we're...
It will tell us

549
00:29:44,650 --> 00:29:46,718
if the initial diagnosis
is correct.

550
00:29:47,686 --> 00:29:49,521
Your theory
is a real long shot.

551
00:29:49,555 --> 00:29:52,124
It would be irresponsible
to get her hopes up.

552
00:29:54,927 --> 00:29:56,195
SHAUN: Hmm.

553
00:29:56,228 --> 00:29:57,463
The surgery went well.

554
00:29:57,496 --> 00:30:00,466
We were able to extract
the entire tumor
without complication.

555
00:30:00,499 --> 00:30:02,301
(EXHALES SHARPLY)
(SIGHS)

556
00:30:02,334 --> 00:30:03,335
Thank you.

557
00:30:04,904 --> 00:30:05,938
When can we start chemo?

558
00:30:07,139 --> 00:30:10,742
There are
a few follow-up tests
we want to run first.

559
00:30:10,776 --> 00:30:12,411
And we want to retake
your history.

560
00:30:12,444 --> 00:30:13,812
Make sure
we have a proper list

561
00:30:13,846 --> 00:30:15,414
of all medications
you've been taking.

562
00:30:16,815 --> 00:30:19,685
You want to take his history
after the surgery?

563
00:30:19,718 --> 00:30:22,121
What's going on?
What are you not telling us?

564
00:30:22,154 --> 00:30:23,923
What went wrong?
Nothing.

565
00:30:23,956 --> 00:30:27,293
The fact is,
the surgery went

566
00:30:27,326 --> 00:30:28,760
better than we'd hoped.

567
00:30:29,461 --> 00:30:30,863
Your cancer seems to be

568
00:30:32,464 --> 00:30:34,233
going away on its own.

569
00:30:34,266 --> 00:30:36,735
(EXHALES SHARPLY)

570
00:30:36,768 --> 00:30:38,470
We'll run our tests.

571
00:30:38,504 --> 00:30:42,141
We're confident that there
is a medical explanation.

572
00:30:42,174 --> 00:30:44,510
Oh, Clarence.
(INHALES SHARPLY)

573
00:30:47,546 --> 00:30:49,215
(DOORBELL RINGS)

574
00:30:59,791 --> 00:31:02,294
Hi.
Hi, Aaron.

575
00:31:02,328 --> 00:31:05,831
(INHALES DEEPLY)
Um, what I...

576
00:31:05,864 --> 00:31:09,301
What I told you earlier,
that I'm seeing someone...

577
00:31:09,335 --> 00:31:10,502
I'm not.

578
00:31:10,536 --> 00:31:12,939
I mean,
I-I-I had one date,

579
00:31:12,972 --> 00:31:14,706
but it wasn't,
you know...
Okay.

580
00:31:18,810 --> 00:31:22,014
We're... We're just...
We're not a good match.

581
00:31:22,048 --> 00:31:23,815
That's what
I wanted to tell you.

582
00:31:30,056 --> 00:31:32,491
That's not true,
you know.

583
00:31:32,524 --> 00:31:33,960
You know,
that's not true.

584
00:31:33,993 --> 00:31:35,327
You like me. A lot.

585
00:31:35,361 --> 00:31:37,863
And I like you
even more than that.

586
00:31:37,896 --> 00:31:39,398
So what is this?

587
00:31:39,431 --> 00:31:41,467
You know, I'd really
rather not get into it.

588
00:31:41,500 --> 00:31:44,003
You came to my house...
To tell you what I told you,

589
00:31:44,036 --> 00:31:46,005
which I just told you.
Okay, you came here
to be honest,

590
00:31:46,038 --> 00:31:47,673
and you're only
gonna be honest halfway?

591
00:31:47,706 --> 00:31:49,008
You're not timid.
No.

592
00:31:49,041 --> 00:31:50,576
Okay. Then what?

593
00:31:53,946 --> 00:31:55,847
The last time
I was here,

594
00:31:55,881 --> 00:31:57,283
we were headed
upstairs...

595
00:31:58,550 --> 00:31:59,585
Yes, we were.

596
00:32:00,419 --> 00:32:01,420
You fell.

597
00:32:02,421 --> 00:32:03,489
Yes, I did.

598
00:32:03,522 --> 00:32:06,092
I tried to help you,
and you pushed me away.

599
00:32:07,293 --> 00:32:08,527
I was embarrassed.

600
00:32:08,560 --> 00:32:09,928
You were sick.

601
00:32:09,962 --> 00:32:12,431
You needed help.
And I'm not sick anymore.

602
00:32:12,464 --> 00:32:15,667
Maybe.
And I want to go
and celebrate.

603
00:32:15,701 --> 00:32:18,237
With you.
Specifically with you.

604
00:32:18,270 --> 00:32:19,838
'Cause we have fun.

605
00:32:19,871 --> 00:32:22,941
You... You make...
You make me laugh.

606
00:32:22,975 --> 00:32:25,544
You make me feel good.

607
00:32:25,577 --> 00:32:26,845
I like being with you.

608
00:32:26,878 --> 00:32:28,414
Sounds horrible.

609
00:32:28,447 --> 00:32:30,849
But bad things
are gonna happen.

610
00:32:30,882 --> 00:32:34,120
Aaron, i-it can't just be
about having fun together.

611
00:32:34,153 --> 00:32:35,621
One of us
is gonna get sick,

612
00:32:35,654 --> 00:32:37,623
one of us is gonna need
to be taken care of...

613
00:32:37,656 --> 00:32:39,625
Wait, wait, wait.
I just want to go out

614
00:32:39,658 --> 00:32:42,061
and have a nice dinner
with you.

615
00:32:42,094 --> 00:32:44,997
Not to run away to Reno,
find a priest
in an Elvis suit.

616
00:32:48,300 --> 00:32:49,935
What are we gonna do,
Aaron?

617
00:32:49,968 --> 00:32:53,572
Just drive to a hill
with a view
and neck till prom?

618
00:32:53,605 --> 00:32:56,108
And then I'm gonna come home
and hope you call?

619
00:33:02,781 --> 00:33:06,285
Yeah, uh, you know,
I just came to apologize.

620
00:33:07,919 --> 00:33:09,155
I'm sorry.

621
00:33:10,089 --> 00:33:11,623
And I'm really glad...

622
00:33:13,425 --> 00:33:15,827
I'm... I'm glad
you're finished with chemo.

623
00:33:15,861 --> 00:33:17,696
And...

624
00:33:19,598 --> 00:33:21,467
You're gonna...
You're gonna beat this thing.

625
00:33:22,601 --> 00:33:25,171
**

626
00:33:45,091 --> 00:33:46,992
Your immunoglobulins
are normal.

627
00:33:47,025 --> 00:33:48,827
Everything is normal.

628
00:33:48,860 --> 00:33:50,996
We can't find
a scientific explanation.

629
00:33:54,333 --> 00:33:56,902
Our prayers...
It's a miracle.

630
00:33:59,305 --> 00:34:00,806
Miracle or not,

631
00:34:00,839 --> 00:34:03,041
it seems we're
on the same page now.

632
00:34:04,710 --> 00:34:08,180
There is no reason
not to do the spinal fusion
to eliminate your pain.

633
00:34:12,251 --> 00:34:13,319
Do more tests.

634
00:34:14,186 --> 00:34:16,455
Clarence.
There are no more tests.

635
00:34:16,488 --> 00:34:18,990
T-T-There must be.
There must be an explanation.

636
00:34:19,024 --> 00:34:21,360
Redo your tests.
Find new tests.

637
00:34:25,897 --> 00:34:28,300
"Let all bitterness
and wrath

638
00:34:28,334 --> 00:34:31,870
"and anger and clamor
and slander
be put away from you."

639
00:34:32,938 --> 00:34:34,573
**

640
00:34:36,508 --> 00:34:38,043
Ephesians 4:31.

641
00:34:40,379 --> 00:34:41,747
I didn't take you
for a believer.

642
00:34:41,780 --> 00:34:43,215
I'm not, anymore.

643
00:34:44,883 --> 00:34:46,385
I'm not sure
you are either.

644
00:34:49,421 --> 00:34:53,259
God speaks directly
to Noah,

645
00:34:53,292 --> 00:34:56,395
Moses, Job,
and Solomon.

646
00:34:56,428 --> 00:34:58,597
And now apparently
he has singled out

647
00:34:58,630 --> 00:35:00,432
Pastor Clarence
of San Jose

648
00:35:00,466 --> 00:35:02,301
to join the ranks
of the prophets.

649
00:35:03,802 --> 00:35:07,038
I'm sorry, but unless
there is a burning bush,

650
00:35:07,072 --> 00:35:09,275
it is narcissistic
to think that God

651
00:35:09,308 --> 00:35:11,810
has made you
his personal project.

652
00:35:11,843 --> 00:35:14,480
God speaks
to every one of us.

653
00:35:16,114 --> 00:35:18,684
You just have to listen.
You are not listening.

654
00:35:19,651 --> 00:35:22,421
People get cancer
all the time.

655
00:35:22,454 --> 00:35:23,955
Often that results
in pain.

656
00:35:23,989 --> 00:35:25,524
Those things
are not unique.

657
00:35:25,557 --> 00:35:27,359
What is unique

658
00:35:27,393 --> 00:35:29,928
is having an aggressive
metastatic cancer

659
00:35:29,961 --> 00:35:33,899
start to disappear without
any rational explanation.

660
00:35:35,367 --> 00:35:37,035
The issue isn't God.

661
00:35:38,437 --> 00:35:40,339
You have to
forgive yourself.

662
00:35:45,110 --> 00:35:46,378
What I did...

663
00:35:46,412 --> 00:35:47,746
Cannot be undone.

664
00:35:48,314 --> 00:35:49,915
But your pain can.

665
00:35:51,116 --> 00:35:53,185
**

666
00:35:57,656 --> 00:35:59,157
Clarence.

667
00:36:04,296 --> 00:36:05,597
Your pain...

668
00:36:08,033 --> 00:36:10,202
Your pain
does no one any good.

669
00:36:15,040 --> 00:36:17,175
(BREATHES DEEPLY)

670
00:36:18,277 --> 00:36:19,311
Okay.

671
00:36:26,818 --> 00:36:28,420
DR. MELENDEZ:
Osteotome and mallet.

672
00:36:29,655 --> 00:36:31,657
(MONITOR BEEPING)

673
00:36:33,024 --> 00:36:36,428
You lied when you said
you never went to church.
What happened?

674
00:36:36,462 --> 00:36:39,498
I didn't want to have
this conversation
is what happened.

675
00:36:39,531 --> 00:36:40,599
DR. REZNICK: I'm not judging.

676
00:36:40,632 --> 00:36:42,301
My brother took
a year off school to travel

677
00:36:42,334 --> 00:36:43,335
and came back
a non-believer.

678
00:36:43,935 --> 00:36:45,103
So ask him.

679
00:36:52,578 --> 00:36:56,014
Was it freeing,
or did you feel empty?

680
00:36:56,047 --> 00:36:58,216
DR. MELENDEZ: Hand me
the first polyaxial
pedicle screw.

681
00:37:04,656 --> 00:37:06,425
It was like
losing a loved one.

682
00:37:18,704 --> 00:37:21,340
(CLICKING)

683
00:37:24,410 --> 00:37:25,944
The moment of truth.

684
00:37:36,755 --> 00:37:38,023
Follow me.

685
00:37:39,558 --> 00:37:42,294
**

686
00:37:58,043 --> 00:38:00,412
Our initial diagnosis
was wrong.

687
00:38:00,446 --> 00:38:02,180
You don't
have a meningioma.

688
00:38:02,213 --> 00:38:03,415
You have a worm
in your brain.

689
00:38:06,284 --> 00:38:09,120
And while that sounds
fairly gross,

690
00:38:09,154 --> 00:38:10,956
it is completely
curable.

691
00:38:10,989 --> 00:38:12,624
(EXHALES SHARPLY)

692
00:38:12,658 --> 00:38:14,560
(LAUGHS)

693
00:38:17,295 --> 00:38:21,800
So, the sense of doom,
it was... It was wrong?

694
00:38:21,833 --> 00:38:24,870
It saved your life.
As did Dr. Murphy.

695
00:38:24,903 --> 00:38:26,872
This is the pathologist
who noticed

696
00:38:26,905 --> 00:38:28,474
an abnormality
in one of your tests.

697
00:38:31,910 --> 00:38:33,912
That led us
to this discovery.

698
00:38:34,913 --> 00:38:36,682
Can I give you a hug,
too, Dr. Murphy?

699
00:38:37,683 --> 00:38:38,684
No.

700
00:38:42,053 --> 00:38:44,423
You and your sister
will be free to conquer

701
00:38:44,456 --> 00:38:47,058
whichever of the remaining
50 peaks you choose

702
00:38:47,092 --> 00:38:49,327
as soon as my team
surgically removes the worm.

703
00:38:52,831 --> 00:38:54,433
(JESS LAUGHS)

704
00:38:56,768 --> 00:38:58,437
Thank you.
Oh! Of course.

705
00:39:00,772 --> 00:39:03,141
There are not a lot of doctors
who would have made the leap

706
00:39:03,174 --> 00:39:04,810
that you made today,
Shaun.

707
00:39:06,344 --> 00:39:07,379
Good work.

708
00:39:08,847 --> 00:39:12,384
Yes, it was
excellent work.

709
00:39:13,552 --> 00:39:15,020
(CHUCKLES) Most people
would say "thank you,"

710
00:39:15,053 --> 00:39:17,823
but technically that's not
an incorrect response.

711
00:39:18,490 --> 00:39:19,991
Hmm.

712
00:39:20,025 --> 00:39:22,193
Have a good evening.
You've earned it.

713
00:39:26,765 --> 00:39:28,900
I don't want to
go on walks.

714
00:39:34,473 --> 00:39:37,175
I don't want to move on
from cases

715
00:39:37,208 --> 00:39:39,344
after the tests
are done.

716
00:39:41,246 --> 00:39:45,484
I do not want to be
a pathologist.

717
00:39:45,517 --> 00:39:47,152
**

718
00:39:48,487 --> 00:39:53,525
Dr. Han, you need to make me
a surgical resident again.

719
00:40:00,065 --> 00:40:01,767
I appreciate
you telling me that.

720
00:40:03,401 --> 00:40:05,937
I was wondering
whether you had it in you
to advocate for yourself.

721
00:40:09,941 --> 00:40:11,577
But the truth is, Shaun,

722
00:40:11,610 --> 00:40:14,345
what you did today,

723
00:40:14,379 --> 00:40:15,781
it proved I'm right.

724
00:40:17,248 --> 00:40:19,384
Your skills
are tremendous.

725
00:40:19,417 --> 00:40:22,521
Your weaknesses,
equally significant.

726
00:40:24,723 --> 00:40:27,392
You could be
a great pathologist.

727
00:40:27,425 --> 00:40:29,828
Just think of
all the Sadies
out there,

728
00:40:29,861 --> 00:40:31,597
waiting for you
to save them.

729
00:40:32,631 --> 00:40:34,766
**

730
00:41:01,760 --> 00:41:03,929
Dr. Browne,
Dr. Reznick.

731
00:41:03,962 --> 00:41:06,331
The surgery went well.
Your spine is stable.

732
00:41:10,335 --> 00:41:11,670
I'm scared.

733
00:41:13,171 --> 00:41:15,974
There may still be
some residual pain
as you heal, but...

734
00:41:16,007 --> 00:41:17,442
No, I...

735
00:41:18,677 --> 00:41:22,514
I keep wondering,
what if I disobeyed God?

736
00:41:29,621 --> 00:41:30,689
You have to have faith.

737
00:41:32,624 --> 00:41:33,959
But you lost yours.

738
00:41:37,162 --> 00:41:39,865
I didn't have a miracle
to help me through
the dark times.

739
00:41:44,202 --> 00:41:46,004
(LP'S MUDDY WATERS PLAYS)

740
00:41:46,037 --> 00:41:47,639
* Hmm

741
00:41:47,673 --> 00:41:51,610
* Hmm, hmm

742
00:41:51,643 --> 00:41:55,413
* Oh, oh-oh-oh-oh

743
00:41:55,446 --> 00:41:59,417
* In the muddy water
we're falling

744
00:41:59,450 --> 00:42:03,288
* Oh, oh-oh-oh-oh

745
00:42:03,321 --> 00:42:07,092
* In the muddy water
we're crawling

746
00:42:07,125 --> 00:42:10,829
* Hold me down

747
00:42:10,862 --> 00:42:14,700
* Hold me now

748
00:42:14,733 --> 00:42:18,503
* Sold me out

749
00:42:18,536 --> 00:42:23,041
* In the muddy water
we're falling *

750
00:42:25,243 --> 00:42:27,846
**