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In my life, I've only painted
the honest expression of myself.
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To say what I couldn't in any other way.
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I paint because I need to.
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Who would've thought
that stains of color can come to life
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and help one live?
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Mexico was my entire universe.
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I was happy.
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I ran through every corner of my yard
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and I'd shout and laugh from under a tree.
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My mom was obsessively religious.
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She invited priests to hold Mass at my house
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and her friends would come to pray the rosary.
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While everyone was praying
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I tried not to laugh.
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I remember asking about the
Mysteries of the Bible.
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They'd always say,
"To dedicate oneself more to God."
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But I kept bothering the priest
with questions.
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How was Christ born?
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Was the Virgin Mary really a virgin?
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They threw me out
for spoiling it for the other kids.
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My father was a photographer.
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I was fascinated with his studio.
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Papa was an atheist
and the only one in the house who read
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books about science, geography, and history.
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I went everywhere with my father.
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He would paint small landscapes by the river
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with watercolors and oil paints.
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Papa kept his box of paints
tucked away in his studio.
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And I really wanted that box.
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Green
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good warm light
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Magenta
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Aztec
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Mexican red
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old blood of the prickly pear
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Brown
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color of molé
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earth
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Yellow
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sun and happiness
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I was a girl who walked
through a world full of colors
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of tangible forms.
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Everything was mysterious
and held secrets.
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Deciphering the world was like a game.
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I wanted to be a doctor
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so I attended the National Preparatory School.
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I didn't like it at first because
I had to go upstairs with the other girls.
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All the girls would say
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"Frida is a little strange."
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I ended up befriending a group called
the Cachuchas.
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We wore caps
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and I was the only girl.
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When Frida arrived at the school
she was rebellious
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and defied tradition.
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She was drawn to rebellious young men
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and she joined our group.
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I followed the Cachuchas everywhere
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and took part in all of their mischief.
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We strapped firecrackers on a dog
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and we sent it into the school.
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We wreaked havoc
and got all the classes suspended.
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Frida was standing in a hallway
dying of laughter.
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I would go to the boys' classes
instead of going to mine.
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I barely passed my classes
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or I would cheat to get good grades.
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Alejandro was a leader at school.
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He took part in all of the student protests.
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I'm attracted to intelligent people.
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I choose those I feel are superior to me.
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My Alex
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My beloved Alex
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My Alex
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I wanted Alejandro to fuck me
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but he preferred to tell me nice things.
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He'd recite poetry
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and give me kisses and hugs.
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I think that everything
that gives pleasure is good.
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breath
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scent
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armpit
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love
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abyss
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That day I took a bus with Alejandro.
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I sat next to the handrail
and Alejandro sat next to me.
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Shortly after getting on the bus
the crash started.
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A trolley approached our bus slowly
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hitting us straight in the middle.
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The bus had a strange elasticity.
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It bent more and more.
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When it reached its breaking point
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it burst into a thousand pieces.
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It wasn't violent
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but silent.
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Slow.
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The handrail went through me
like a sword through a bull.
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It's a lie that one realizes the crash.
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A lie that one cries.
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I had no tears.
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I didn't understand
the kind of wounds I had suffered.
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I thought I came out unscathed.
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I ended up under the trolley.
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As soon as I was able to get up
I looked for Frida.
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Horrified, I realized that
a piece of iron had pierced her body.
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A man said, "We need to take it out."
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He put his knee on Frida's body
and pulled it out.
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Frida screamed so loud
you couldn't hear the ambulance's siren.
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CRASH WRECKS BUS
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The doctors didn't think they could save her.
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It will take a long time
for the fracture in my pelvis to mend
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and for the wounds in my foot to heal.
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The doctor thinks
I will have to stay like this
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for three or four months.
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I now inhabit a world of pain
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transparent
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like ice.
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It no longer holds mystery.
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The crash destroyed me
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but at least Lady Death didn't take me.
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Everyone tells me not to despair
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but no one knows what it's like for me
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having been free in the streets all my life.
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I feel trapped by the walls in my room.
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I'm alone with my soul.
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My mother devised a wooden contraption
where I could attach my papers.
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She also hung a mirror over my bed
so I could use myself as a model.
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I started painting portraits of my friends.
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Dear Agustín
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I painted your portrait with love.
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Beautiful Alicia
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I'm sending you all my love.
Your pal, Friducha.
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Miguel, little brother
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don't ever forget about Cachucha number 9
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Frida Kahlo.
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Alex
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this is so you don't forget me.
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Don't stop writing to me.
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Here is my portrait, Alex.
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It'll be at your house in a few days.
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I beg you, hang it low
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so you can see it
as if you were looking straight at me.
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After a year in many casts
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I still felt very sore
and had little strength.
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But I want to be productive
with the health I have left.
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When the Revolution started
I was aware of what was happening.
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I was four when I witnessed Zapata's
peasant fight against the establishment.
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The peasants took up arms to seize
the bread that the rich denied them.
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Land and freedom.
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In Mexico, coraje means
becoming violent when you face injustice.
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I feel the pain of the oppressed.
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I feel the need to fight for them.
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That's why as soon as they allowed me
to walk after the accident
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I joined the Communist party.
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MEXICAN ART REFLECTS NEW VALUES
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ART AND REVOLUTION
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The spirit of the Revolution
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was the foundation for my determination.
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Diego Rivera was painting frescoes
at the Ministry of Education.
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Diego is a communist.
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His creative work is at the service of
the social revolution.
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He has great taste.
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He admires everything that emanates beauty
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whether it comes from a woman or a mountain.
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I had only seen him from far away
but I admired him greatly.
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One day I brought him four paintings
and just like that I said
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"Diego! Get down!"
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I looked down from my scaffold
and saw a girl of about eighteen.
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She had a pretty body and a delicate face.
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Look, I haven't come to flirt with you.
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Even though you're a womanizer
I've come to show you my paintings.
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If you're interested, let me know.
If not, that's fine.
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So I can find another way to help my parents.
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I was impressed.
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Her canvases revealed
an unusual expressive energy.
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"In my opinion, you must continue to paint,"
I said at once.
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He told me, "You have talent."
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That's when my courtship with Diego began.
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Diego is a big kid.
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His bulging eyes are never still
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as if they were made for a painter.
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His fleshy lips always show
a mischievous and tender smile.
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She got a kick out of hearing him talk.
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She'd tease him and rile him up.
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Toad Face
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Fatbelly
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Little Diego
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I used to dress like a boy.
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But when I started seeing Diego
I put on traditional Tehuana dresses.
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You will be called Auxochrome
the one who captures color.
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I, Chromophore, the one that gives color.
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DIEGO RIVERA IS MARRIED
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Everyone said it was like
marrying an elephant to a dove.
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I want to have a son
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because this is a man's world.
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I want him to look like Diego.
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If I were to have a girl
I would like her to look a bit like me
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but prettier.
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I would go to see Diego every day
while he painted.
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It pleased him to see me arrive
with food in a basket covered in flowers.
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I was working as much as seven days a week
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and 18 hours a day on government commissions.
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When an art dealer offered me a one-man show
at the Museum of Modern Art in New York
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I got incredibly excited.
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For an artist this is the pinnacle
of professional success.
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Here it is
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the might
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the power
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the glory
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the youthfulness of our lands.
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New York is so massive
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I can't believe it was built by people.
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Our hotel is right in front of Central Park
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only a block away from 5th Avenue.
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Some neighborhoods in New York
are much more interesting than ours.
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We went to Harlem.
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It's a beautiful thing to see.
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There are immigrant communities
from every part of the world.
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The celebrations in Chinatown
feel like the ones in Mexico.
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Full of fireworks and colors.
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We received a magnificent welcome
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and we were feted at parties,
dinners, and receptions.
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Diego is the big shit here.
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High society people lead
the most stupid lives.
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They all spout nonsense
and brag about their millions.
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You also need to own tons of dresses.
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If you show up looking disheveled
they will eat you alive.
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But Mexico is in style now
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and all of my dresses catch their attention.
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Their jaws drop
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because they're a bunch of idiots
who get excited over the dumbest things.
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Diego is painting two blocks from our hotel.
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I am also painting all the time.
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I paint things that are
heavily influenced by Diego.
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I've adapted to his style.
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I try my best to make sure it's done well.
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Winter here is incredibly sad.
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Everything becomes white suddenly.
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But people don't stop going out.
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I don't leave this place.
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I can't walk much with my crooked spine.
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I'm always in pain.
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I'm weak and tired.
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I spend my days alone
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since Diego doesn't stop painting and painting
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and must tend to his affairs.
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Diego
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I'm alone.
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I was never a faithful husband.
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I indulged my desires and had affairs.
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I often found women too desirable to resist.
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I wanted the freedom to go after
anyone who caught my fancy.
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Frida didn't object to my infidelity.
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What offended her was when I chose women
unworthy of me or inferior to her.
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It all made me angry
and if I'm being honest, jealous.
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Why can't I get it through my head
that the affairs with all these women
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the English teachers
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the models
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and the disciples captivated by your art
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are just distractions.
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Even though we fight and curse each other
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it all makes me realize that
I love you more than my own skin.
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And even if you don't love me the same
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00:36:00,659 --> 00:36:03,871
you must love me a little bit, right?
265
00:36:22,306 --> 00:36:25,601
Diego's exhibition has been a success.
266
00:36:28,520 --> 00:36:32,691
Two to three thousand people go every day.
267
00:36:36,153 --> 00:36:39,031
Diego's been offered a lot of new work.
268
00:36:39,865 --> 00:36:42,367
So now, we're headed to Detroit.
269
00:36:51,001 --> 00:36:53,795
All I want is to go to Mexico
270
00:36:54,379 --> 00:36:59,343
but Diego has dreams of painting
the steel industry.
271
00:37:09,019 --> 00:37:13,440
Detroit's Art Commission, led by Edsel Ford
272
00:37:13,690 --> 00:37:17,569
invited me to paint murals
at the Detroit Institute of Arts.
273
00:37:19,488 --> 00:37:25,827
It was the largest sum
I had ever been offered to paint walls.
274
00:37:43,595 --> 00:37:45,973
He is in love with the factories
275
00:37:47,140 --> 00:37:49,142
and the machines.
276
00:37:50,686 --> 00:37:54,564
Like a child with a new toy.
277
00:38:05,492 --> 00:38:11,206
Unfortunately, Diego has to work
for these rich jerks.
278
00:38:14,251 --> 00:38:20,132
He tells me that there will be
about three or four months of work here
279
00:38:21,133 --> 00:38:24,344
and then we can return to Mexico.
280
00:38:39,860 --> 00:38:42,487
I'm two months pregnant.
281
00:38:44,072 --> 00:38:46,700
I don't know what to do.
282
00:38:53,498 --> 00:38:57,836
I don't think Diego wants to have a child.
283
00:38:59,087 --> 00:39:02,424
Diego only cares about painting.
284
00:39:02,966 --> 00:39:06,762
It's more important to him
than anything else in the world.
285
00:39:09,639 --> 00:39:12,309
Secondly, I'm not strong.
286
00:39:14,144 --> 00:39:17,981
The bus accident crushed my bones.
287
00:39:20,400 --> 00:39:23,987
I doubt the baby would be healthy.
288
00:39:29,409 --> 00:39:34,664
Since I still have time to make
the best decision for my health
289
00:39:36,083 --> 00:39:40,170
I think I should have an abortion.
290
00:39:44,966 --> 00:39:51,431
The doctor told me I should keep the baby
instead of aborting it.
291
00:39:55,060 --> 00:40:03,485
Despite my poor health, he thinks I could
have the baby with a cesarean section.
292
00:40:07,823 --> 00:40:13,328
I don't know why the doctor thinks
it would be better for me to have the child.
293
00:40:14,996 --> 00:40:21,878
Since abortion is illegal here
maybe he's afraid.
294
00:40:36,017 --> 00:40:38,645
It's been almost two months.
295
00:40:40,147 --> 00:40:44,192
Now that I think I can withstand the pregnancy
296
00:40:44,985 --> 00:40:48,238
I'm excited to have the child.
297
00:41:53,720 --> 00:41:56,806
I miscarried in the blink of an eye.
298
00:41:59,559 --> 00:42:04,397
The fetus didn't form. It was disintegrated.
299
00:42:06,942 --> 00:42:11,988
Who knows what the hell is wrong with my body?
300
00:42:16,451 --> 00:42:23,541
I had been so excited to have a little Diego
that I cried so much.
301
00:42:27,796 --> 00:42:30,423
They took me to Ford Hospital.
302
00:42:31,383 --> 00:42:34,511
The doctor didn't tell me what caused it.
303
00:42:34,928 --> 00:42:37,389
I don't know why I miscarried.
304
00:43:51,421 --> 00:43:55,550
I became obsessed with starting over.
305
00:43:57,093 --> 00:44:00,722
Painting things as I saw them
306
00:44:02,015 --> 00:44:04,351
through no one else's eyes
307
00:44:06,311 --> 00:44:07,937
but my own.
308
00:44:12,692 --> 00:44:15,153
My feelings
309
00:44:15,570 --> 00:44:17,947
my moods
310
00:44:18,365 --> 00:44:23,828
and my profound reactions to life.
311
00:44:54,901 --> 00:44:57,070
The only thing I know
312
00:44:58,613 --> 00:45:01,282
is that I paint because I need to.
313
00:45:09,791 --> 00:45:12,043
How I wish to leave this place.
314
00:45:12,836 --> 00:45:17,841
I want to run and run until I get to Mexico.
315
00:45:19,926 --> 00:45:22,053
Frida would rather be in Mexico
316
00:45:22,303 --> 00:45:25,515
but I like the United States.
317
00:45:26,266 --> 00:45:28,435
I'm happier here.
318
00:45:42,782 --> 00:45:49,080
Nelson Rockefeller wanted the best artists
to beautify his new RCA building.
319
00:45:58,756 --> 00:46:03,303
I am completely disappointed
with the famous United States.
320
00:46:06,639 --> 00:46:12,770
Everything here is about appearances
but deep down it's a pile of shit.
321
00:46:15,482 --> 00:46:19,527
I've seen thousands of people
in the most terrible conditions
322
00:46:20,653 --> 00:46:23,239
without anything to eat
and nowhere to sleep.
323
00:46:30,997 --> 00:46:35,502
Rockefeller was fully acquainted
with my communist ideas.
324
00:46:38,004 --> 00:46:42,008
DIEGO RIVERA WITH HIS WIFE AND ASSISTANTS
325
00:46:43,259 --> 00:46:46,137
I was painting a revolutionary mural
326
00:46:46,513 --> 00:46:49,265
with workers marching and singing
327
00:46:51,100 --> 00:46:53,144
and a figure of Lenin.
328
00:46:55,146 --> 00:46:58,608
I was quite aware that I was
going against public opinion.
329
00:47:04,697 --> 00:47:10,203
The private police at Radio City
gave me the order to stop work.
330
00:47:10,620 --> 00:47:14,082
My mural was smashed to pieces.
331
00:47:18,294 --> 00:47:20,046
Stuck-up gringos.
332
00:47:20,213 --> 00:47:23,800
Motherfuckers. Sons of bitches.
333
00:47:26,052 --> 00:47:28,638
Because of the conflict with Rockefeller
334
00:47:28,721 --> 00:47:32,642
all my commissions in the United States
were canceled.
335
00:47:52,579 --> 00:47:57,166
Diego blames me for coming back
to godforsaken Mexico
336
00:47:58,876 --> 00:48:03,131
but I know it's not my fault.
337
00:48:07,468 --> 00:48:12,682
He has no desire to work
and gets angry a lot.
338
00:48:15,268 --> 00:48:21,733
It's painful that he thinks I'm to blame.
339
00:48:37,498 --> 00:48:42,462
I was instrumental in bringing
Trotsky to Mexico
340
00:48:42,962 --> 00:48:47,300
after every country in the world
had closed its doors.
341
00:48:48,801 --> 00:48:52,096
I was sick when Trotsky arrived
342
00:48:52,722 --> 00:48:56,684
so I asked Frida to welcome him
and his wife at the dock.
343
00:49:52,407 --> 00:50:00,665
I dedicate this painting to Leon Trotsky
with all my affection.
344
00:50:12,218 --> 00:50:15,054
I'm so tired of this old man.
345
00:51:03,269 --> 00:51:06,856
Make love, take a bath
346
00:51:07,732 --> 00:51:09,859
and make love again.
347
00:51:17,950 --> 00:51:24,373
For me to fall in love
the person has to be sensitive
348
00:51:25,208 --> 00:51:29,837
and above all, I must be
sexually attracted to them.
349
00:51:36,302 --> 00:51:41,015
An affair lasts as long as it gives pleasure.
350
00:51:41,974 --> 00:51:47,063
It's good to have sex
even if one is not in love.
351
00:51:53,194 --> 00:51:57,532
During sex, my breasts play an active role.
352
00:51:58,574 --> 00:52:01,118
I get excited when they are touched.
353
00:52:06,833 --> 00:52:13,506
Nachito, I would like to spend
more time with you all on our own.
354
00:52:18,761 --> 00:52:21,639
Jacqueline, I have not forgotten you.
355
00:52:21,931 --> 00:52:26,185
The nights are long and punishing.
356
00:52:27,436 --> 00:52:34,902
Bartolí, last night I felt as if wings
caressed my entire body.
357
00:52:34,986 --> 00:52:40,992
As if your fingertips were lips
that kissed my skin.
358
00:53:14,942 --> 00:53:19,405
Love is the foundation of all life.
359
00:54:47,702 --> 00:54:53,082
The more I loved a woman
the more I wanted to hurt her.
360
00:54:54,125 --> 00:54:59,463
Frida was the main victim
of this disgusting trait.
361
00:55:01,090 --> 00:55:03,884
I got involved with Frida's best friend
362
00:55:05,219 --> 00:55:08,139
her sister, Cristina.
363
00:55:18,399 --> 00:55:20,317
We were four sisters
364
00:55:20,401 --> 00:55:24,613
but Cristina was the sister
that I loved the most
365
00:55:25,197 --> 00:55:29,326
and who I tried to help whenever I could.
366
00:55:31,495 --> 00:55:34,874
Cristina is really pretty.
367
00:55:35,541 --> 00:55:38,169
As a child, I was very jealous of her.
368
00:55:38,377 --> 00:55:40,963
We would fight furiously.
369
00:55:42,089 --> 00:55:45,009
But she was my everything.
370
00:55:52,308 --> 00:55:57,521
I know that right now
Diego is more interested in my sister than me.
371
00:56:01,108 --> 00:56:02,902
It's all a load of crap.
372
00:56:03,569 --> 00:56:05,654
I can't forgive him.
373
00:56:06,947 --> 00:56:08,783
And that is all.
374
00:56:13,162 --> 00:56:14,747
Love
375
00:56:15,623 --> 00:56:17,083
Hate
376
00:56:18,209 --> 00:56:20,252
Madness
377
00:56:33,933 --> 00:56:37,728
I spend my days crying with rage.
378
00:56:38,687 --> 00:56:44,401
I'm just like any other girl
heartbroken by a man leaving her.
379
00:56:45,444 --> 00:56:47,947
I'm worthless.
380
00:56:48,823 --> 00:56:52,076
I can't do anything right.
381
00:56:53,369 --> 00:57:00,960
My situation is so idiotic
that I hate myself for it.
382
00:57:17,393 --> 00:57:21,564
Once Frida found out, she left me.
383
00:57:22,815 --> 00:57:24,692
It was too late.
384
00:57:24,900 --> 00:57:32,741
But if given another chance
I can't say I'd do anything differently.
385
00:57:35,578 --> 00:57:39,206
Every man is a product of his times
386
00:57:39,290 --> 00:57:42,334
and I am what I am.
387
00:57:44,128 --> 00:57:48,632
I wanted to go to New York
but I had no money.
388
00:57:49,300 --> 00:57:52,219
Now I live somewhere else.
389
00:57:53,220 --> 00:57:59,101
Diego drops by once in a while
but we have nothing to say.
390
00:57:59,351 --> 00:58:03,355
There is no connection between us anymore.
391
00:58:04,773 --> 00:58:12,323
He doesn't tell me about his life.
He's not interested in what I do or think.
392
00:58:14,325 --> 00:58:18,204
I loved her too much to make her suffer.
393
00:58:18,454 --> 00:58:25,085
So to prevent future heartaches
I pleaded with her to give me a divorce.
394
00:58:33,385 --> 00:58:36,680
Today I signed the divorce papers
395
00:58:37,848 --> 00:58:42,019
and I feel lousy because I truly love him.
396
00:58:45,981 --> 00:58:50,861
But I think this will finally give him
what he wants.
397
00:58:51,946 --> 00:58:59,286
I will no longer be a burden
keeping him from the freedom he demands.
398
00:59:19,390 --> 00:59:22,601
After a few months I forgave my sister
399
00:59:23,435 --> 00:59:29,400
and I'm trying my best
to forget what happened and live.
400
00:59:42,288 --> 00:59:44,915
I'm learning to be alone
401
00:59:45,916 --> 00:59:50,254
and that is a small triumph.
402
00:59:53,632 --> 00:59:58,470
I've wasted my best years
being dependent on a man
403
00:59:58,929 --> 01:00:01,473
without doing anything for myself.
404
01:00:06,937 --> 01:00:10,649
I need to paint so I can make a living.
405
01:00:11,692 --> 01:00:14,194
Then I will be free.
406
01:00:15,612 --> 01:00:18,991
I no longer accept
a damn cent from Diego.
407
01:00:19,575 --> 01:00:24,496
I will never accept money
from any man until I die.
408
01:00:30,669 --> 01:00:35,799
I paint myself
because I'm what I know best.
409
01:00:41,972 --> 01:00:48,270
My self-portraits are the true expression
of my emotions.
410
01:00:53,025 --> 01:00:58,781
I was told not to paint so many sad things
411
01:00:59,406 --> 01:01:05,037
but I will paint whatever I want
even if the paintings don't sell.
412
01:01:21,011 --> 01:01:27,768
For the first time in my life
I sold one of my pieces.
413
01:01:31,271 --> 01:01:36,068
I now have a commission to paint
a self-portrait with monkeys.
414
01:01:37,236 --> 01:01:40,906
It seems that everyone wants monkeys.
415
01:01:41,115 --> 01:01:43,367
I don't know why.
416
01:01:59,007 --> 01:02:03,971
The Surrealist poet André Breton
came to Mexico.
417
01:03:04,281 --> 01:03:06,825
I never knew I was a Surrealist
418
01:03:07,034 --> 01:03:11,872
until André Breton came to Mexico
and told me I was one.
419
01:03:13,832 --> 01:03:20,464
I must confess I didn't even know
that this art movement existed.
420
01:04:04,341 --> 01:04:08,095
I adore surprises and the unexpected.
421
01:04:09,137 --> 01:04:11,765
But I never painted my dreams.
422
01:04:12,224 --> 01:04:15,852
I painted my own reality.
423
01:04:30,367 --> 01:04:38,542
Breton was so impressed with my work
he urged me to exhibit in Paris and New York.
424
01:04:53,473 --> 01:05:02,274
A Surrealist gallery in New York
invited me to do a solo exhibition.
425
01:05:03,942 --> 01:05:07,070
I've never had an exhibition before.
426
01:05:23,754 --> 01:05:26,632
Everything went wonderfully.
427
01:05:27,132 --> 01:05:31,094
I displayed 25 pieces and sold 12.
428
01:05:35,849 --> 01:05:40,687
From there I went to Paris
for an exhibition organized by André Breton.
429
01:05:55,535 --> 01:06:00,248
Ever since I arrived, it's been a shit show.
430
01:06:01,291 --> 01:06:04,252
My exhibition wasn't even set up.
431
01:06:04,503 --> 01:06:09,007
My paintings were waiting patiently for me
in customs.
432
01:06:09,299 --> 01:06:14,888
The son-of-a-bitch Breton
hadn't even gone to pick them up.
433
01:06:16,723 --> 01:06:20,519
Now Breton wants to exhibit my paintings
434
01:06:20,852 --> 01:06:24,523
along with common objects
he bought in Mexican markets.
435
01:06:27,567 --> 01:06:29,194
Ordinary crap.
436
01:06:29,736 --> 01:06:31,405
It's all junk.
437
01:06:36,952 --> 01:06:41,498
The exhibition will finally open
at the Pierre Colle gallery.
438
01:06:41,581 --> 01:06:44,918
They say it's one of the best ones here.
439
01:06:48,422 --> 01:06:52,634
There was quite a crowd at the opening.
440
01:06:54,094 --> 01:06:57,097
Huge congratulations from Joan Miró.
441
01:06:57,639 --> 01:07:00,892
Great praise from Kandinsky.
442
01:07:01,393 --> 01:07:06,773
And congratulations from Picasso
and other big cacas of Surrealism.
443
01:07:08,608 --> 01:07:14,448
But these rich bitches
don't want to buy anything.
444
01:07:16,783 --> 01:07:22,539
I don't have the honor of being
in the elite circle of famous artists.
445
01:07:23,331 --> 01:07:25,459
Men are kings.
446
01:07:25,876 --> 01:07:28,754
They rule the world.
447
01:07:37,053 --> 01:07:41,183
These people make me want to vomit.
448
01:07:42,350 --> 01:07:48,356
They sit in the cafés for hours
warming their precious asses.
449
01:07:48,523 --> 01:07:53,737
They talk endlessly about "culture"
"art" and "revolution."
450
01:07:54,404 --> 01:08:00,368
They poison the air
with theories that never come true.
451
01:08:03,580 --> 01:08:05,832
I hate Surrealism.
452
01:08:07,042 --> 01:08:11,755
It's a decadent manifestation
of bourgeois art.
453
01:08:18,261 --> 01:08:24,810
I am so sick of the whole affair.
To hell with everything.
454
01:08:25,685 --> 01:08:31,316
Fuck everything concerning Breton
and this lousy place.
455
01:08:31,858 --> 01:08:34,236
Let them eat shit.
456
01:08:34,402 --> 01:08:37,781
I am going home.
457
01:08:51,670 --> 01:08:54,256
I feel like hell.
458
01:08:55,465 --> 01:09:00,220
Exhausted by the constant pain in my back
that gets worse every day.
459
01:09:11,356 --> 01:09:16,152
I am fucked because of the accident.
460
01:09:19,823 --> 01:09:22,659
My foot always hurts.
461
01:09:23,952 --> 01:09:30,876
The nerves are damaged
and my foot will never be the same.
462
01:09:32,460 --> 01:09:34,671
It's hopeless.
463
01:09:42,470 --> 01:09:48,476
All the doctors want me to have an operation.
464
01:09:50,562 --> 01:09:52,856
I'm scared.
465
01:10:02,365 --> 01:10:06,328
In the end, they proceeded to break bones.
466
01:10:07,621 --> 01:10:13,418
They tore off a piece of my pelvis
and fused it to my spine.
467
01:10:24,971 --> 01:10:30,143
The bone will take a long time
to grow and readjust.
468
01:10:31,353 --> 01:10:34,898
I'll have to stay in this hospital
for quite a while.
469
01:10:38,276 --> 01:10:42,030
It is hard to imagine my future.
470
01:10:42,572 --> 01:10:46,660
I can't think about it until I get well.
471
01:10:49,496 --> 01:10:54,709
Tree of hope, stay strong.
472
01:11:16,356 --> 01:11:20,235
Frida, I haven't known how to say this.
473
01:11:20,735 --> 01:11:26,324
I've never been able to admit
how much I love you
474
01:11:26,950 --> 01:11:29,953
but now I'm sure of it.
475
01:11:31,621 --> 01:11:36,042
Little girl, I'm terribly worried
about your illness.
476
01:11:44,050 --> 01:11:50,306
He tells me I am the woman
he loves above everyone else
477
01:11:50,724 --> 01:11:55,311
and he wants me to marry him again.
478
01:11:58,189 --> 01:12:03,695
I loved her and I begged her to marry me again
479
01:12:04,070 --> 01:12:06,364
but without success.
480
01:12:06,823 --> 01:12:11,786
When she finally accepted
she did so with conditions.
481
01:12:13,621 --> 01:12:18,752
That she would support herself
with the earnings of her own work.
482
01:12:19,669 --> 01:12:24,340
That I would only pay for half
of our home expenses.
483
01:12:25,133 --> 01:12:27,969
And that we wouldn't have sex with each other.
484
01:12:29,304 --> 01:12:33,641
When explaining this last condition, she said
485
01:12:34,434 --> 01:12:41,733
When I imagine you with all your other women
I can't make love to you.
486
01:12:42,275 --> 01:12:49,449
As soon as you start seducing me
I face a psychological barrier.
487
01:12:52,702 --> 01:12:57,582
I felt so happy to have her back
that I accepted all of her conditions.
488
01:12:57,999 --> 01:13:02,295
Frida and I got married for a second time.
489
01:13:28,279 --> 01:13:30,448
Our second marriage is going well.
490
01:13:32,242 --> 01:13:38,540
There is more mutual understanding.
No more jealousy or violent arguments.
491
01:13:41,751 --> 01:13:46,714
Each spouse does their part
to maintain the home.
492
01:13:49,467 --> 01:13:52,512
We'll be together forever.
493
01:13:54,139 --> 01:13:57,183
Nothing but love between us.
494
01:14:12,407 --> 01:14:14,075
My little boy
495
01:14:14,492 --> 01:14:20,456
I will build you a home with all of my love.
496
01:14:31,551 --> 01:14:35,221
I'm now teaching at an art school.
497
01:14:42,395 --> 01:14:46,441
And in the afternoons I dedicate myself
to the beauty of painting.
498
01:14:48,610 --> 01:14:55,783
As soon as I finish one I have to sell it
to earn enough money for the monthly expenses.
499
01:14:58,286 --> 01:15:00,663
If it weren't for my health
500
01:15:01,789 --> 01:15:04,626
you could even say that I'm happy.
501
01:15:23,478 --> 01:15:29,025
Up until 1950, I was doing well enough.
502
01:15:30,401 --> 01:15:33,571
But now my health is at its worst.
503
01:15:38,493 --> 01:15:42,413
Frida became a professional patient.
504
01:15:43,373 --> 01:15:46,709
She had many surgical interventions
505
01:15:47,085 --> 01:15:50,755
a parade of doctors and orthopedic braces.
506
01:15:51,506 --> 01:15:55,093
They would hang her to straighten her spine.
507
01:16:02,016 --> 01:16:04,060
This is my reality.
508
01:16:04,560 --> 01:16:06,562
There is no remedy.
509
01:16:07,480 --> 01:16:11,317
Despite it all
nothing is better than laughter.
510
01:16:11,943 --> 01:16:16,114
Laughing hard gives you strength.
511
01:16:18,157 --> 01:16:22,495
At the hospital, Frida made light of her pain
512
01:16:23,204 --> 01:16:26,124
and swore all the time.
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01:16:26,791 --> 01:16:29,294
Fucking life.
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01:16:33,214 --> 01:16:37,051
If she saw me with a pretty woman, she'd say
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01:16:37,260 --> 01:16:41,306
Pass her to me. I'll take a puff.
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01:16:46,602 --> 01:16:48,980
I'm always in a cast
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01:16:49,439 --> 01:16:51,482
but I'm not discouraged.
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01:16:53,484 --> 01:16:56,654
I have an enormous will to live.
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01:17:01,617 --> 01:17:04,454
Long live life!
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01:17:28,644 --> 01:17:32,440
I'm sure they will amputate my right leg.
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01:17:34,192 --> 01:17:39,197
I don't know the details
but my doctors are concerned.
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01:17:59,675 --> 01:18:01,344
I'm an invalid.
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01:18:04,472 --> 01:18:12,730
Now I am trapped
in this fucking house of oblivion.
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01:18:17,819 --> 01:18:19,695
Yellow
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01:18:21,030 --> 01:18:22,824
sickness
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01:18:23,199 --> 01:18:24,951
fear
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01:18:26,119 --> 01:18:30,790
All the ghosts wear this color.
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01:18:33,543 --> 01:18:35,795
Red
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01:18:37,755 --> 01:18:39,757
blood
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01:18:46,514 --> 01:18:48,891
Black
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01:18:51,269 --> 01:18:53,187
Nothing is black
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01:18:55,231 --> 01:18:57,316
truly nothing.
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01:19:07,160 --> 01:19:09,036
I want to die.
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01:19:14,959 --> 01:19:18,796
After the operation to amputate her leg
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01:19:19,255 --> 01:19:21,424
everything was silent.
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01:19:22,633 --> 01:19:27,597
Not even Diego's presence helped
and she didn't want to paint at all.
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01:19:28,264 --> 01:19:31,058
The doctor said
not to force her to do anything
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01:19:31,142 --> 01:19:33,519
because she didn't want to live anymore.
539
01:19:37,607 --> 01:19:41,152
But one morning, she looked up at me and said
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01:19:41,903 --> 01:19:43,863
I think I'm going to paint.
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01:19:45,406 --> 01:19:49,494
I had to bind her to her wheelchair
so she could sit up straight.
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01:20:02,548 --> 01:20:05,259
In my life I've painted little
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01:20:06,969 --> 01:20:11,015
without the slightest desire
for glory or ambition
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01:20:13,351 --> 01:20:18,147
with the sole conviction
to give myself pleasure
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01:20:20,483 --> 01:20:24,737
and the power to make a living with my trade.
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01:20:27,657 --> 01:20:32,912
I've lost so many things I wanted for my life.
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01:20:34,497 --> 01:20:38,376
But painting completed my life.
548
01:21:05,486 --> 01:21:12,827
I told Diego it was an outrage that we had
never held an exhibition for Frida in Mexico
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01:21:13,536 --> 01:21:18,165
and what would he say about
holding one in my gallery.
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01:21:19,709 --> 01:21:25,631
EXHIBITION OF FRIDA KAHLO'S
BODY OF WORK
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She arrived in an ambulance
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01:21:36,809 --> 01:21:38,894
like a heroine.
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01:21:41,897 --> 01:21:44,150
Frida sat in the middle of the room.
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01:21:45,526 --> 01:21:51,532
She was pleased to see so many people
honoring her warmly.
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01:21:56,078 --> 01:21:58,914
She said almost nothing.
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01:22:00,583 --> 01:22:06,464
She must have realized
she was bidding life goodbye.
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01:22:10,217 --> 01:22:12,678
I am not afraid of death.
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01:22:14,221 --> 01:22:18,100
Even so, I must face the bitter fact
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01:22:18,601 --> 01:22:22,938
that having many lives
would still not be enough
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01:22:23,606 --> 01:22:27,777
for me to paint everything I want.
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01:22:48,381 --> 01:22:50,508
What is joy?
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01:22:52,093 --> 01:22:55,096
The creation born of discovery.
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01:23:05,147 --> 01:23:09,944
The lonely deer wandered
very sad and very hurt
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01:23:11,153 --> 01:23:14,532
until it found warmth and a home.
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01:23:18,202 --> 01:23:23,124
When the deer returns strong, happy and healed
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01:23:24,041 --> 01:23:29,422
the wounds he now bears
will all have been erased.
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01:23:37,513 --> 01:23:40,099
Thank you for giving me solace.
568
01:23:41,726 --> 01:23:47,148
In the deer's forest, the sky is now clear.