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<i>In Herman Williams'
seminal work on the joys</i>

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<i>of being a model train
hobbyist, he writes,</i>

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<i>"Many an hour have I spent</i>

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<i>"blissfully lost in a world
of my own creation.</i>

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<i>"For the model train enthusiast,</i>

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<i>"there exists a secret world
of order and symmetry.</i>

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<i>"Nestled into the corners
of our basements and attics,</i>

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<i>"we lord over a world</i>

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<i>"where the hobbyist
plays omnipotent creator.</i>

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<i>"There, in 1:87 scale,</i>

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<i>"the neighbors
are always kind,</i>

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<i>"the lovers
always end up together,</i>

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<i>"and the trains always
take you to the far-off places</i>

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<i>"you always swore you'd go."</i>

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<i>In life, of course,</i>

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<i>nothing is nearly
as neat and tidy.</i>

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<i>♪ Well, if you close the door ♪</i>

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<i>♪ The night could
last forever ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And keep the sunshine out ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And say hello to never ♪</i>

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<i>♪ 'Cause all the people
are dancing ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And they're having such fun ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I wish it could
happen to me ♪</i>

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<i>- ♪ So baby close that door ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And never have to see
the day again ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Oh, yeah ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I'd never have to see
the day again ♪</i>

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<i>♪ That's right ♪</i>
Sing!

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<i>♪ I'd never have to see
the day again ♪</i>

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- Encore, Allie!

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- No!

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I am way too drunk

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to be singing
in front of people.

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Aw, but we love you! Come on!

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And I wanna keep it that way.

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Um, okay. That was
for my beautiful, sweet,

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darling fiance, Nathan.

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Who loves that song very much.

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Bubba, you wanna come up here?

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- No.

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Come on!
It's our engagement party.

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He's very shy!

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Nathan! Nathan! Nathan!

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Nathan! Nathan! Nathan! Nathan!

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Mm! Ah! Mm!

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- Did you like it?
- It was amazing.

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- Hey, y'all...

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Um, I'll just briefly say that
she played that song for me

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on our very first date

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on a beautiful,
old piano she found

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at the back of an empty bar.

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- Well, you better go, girl!
- Come on. Come on!

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- Always be closing.
Absolutely!

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Welcome to the family!

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- Allison...
- Yes...

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Every memory I cherish
in my life has you in it.

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Some of them
are just tiny seconds.

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The way you close one eye

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when you really wanna focus
on tasting something.

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- I do that. I do that.

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I go, like...

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I can't believe this is real.

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It's real, baby.

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- Thank God.
Mm.

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- I love you.
- I love you.

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Aw.

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- Okay.
- Hey...

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- Um... Drink, smoke, be merry.
Yeah.

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And if you choose
to sleep with Chip,

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make sure he wears,
like, 11 condoms.

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I'm, like, literally a virgin.

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- He's kidding. He's kidding.

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<i>- ♪ Time keeps on coming ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I've been all around ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I'll keep on loving... ♪</i>

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No! No, no, no.

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- No. Come on, baby. No phone.
- Oh.

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When we get married,
we have to make rules

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- about phones in the bed.

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Oh, shut up.

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You are on your phone,
like, ten times more than me,

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looking up rusty old trucks.

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Uh, a '67 cloth top Bronco

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is a work of art, baby.
It's not a truck.

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- I'm looking at art.
- Yeah. Oh.

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- Like this butt.

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I am so high
from that gummy you gave me.

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- What the fuck was that?

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I still can't feel my ankles.

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You don't need your ankles
right now.

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Yeah, but I would
still like to feel my ankles.

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Hey, come kiss me.

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- Hey, babe?
- Yeah?

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This creepy doctor
from my sales list

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is really trying to flirt
with me on Instagram.

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Maybe you
gave him the wrong impression.

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What?

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Come on! As if!

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I go in there, and I'm, like,

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waving
my engagement ring around.

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You always say, "Flirting
is a part of the job."

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Someone's bound to get
the wrong impression.

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It's very light flirting.

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- Ah, okay.
- It is!

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It's like... It's just...

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It's sushi with a smile,

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so that he can write
the fucking prescription,

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and I can get a fat bonus,

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and then

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you and I can maybe one day

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move to the city.

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If we don't go to hell first.

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Oh! Why would you say that?

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- Come on!
- I'm sorry.

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I'm only pushing HUMIRA, like,

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I won't go to hell for
moderate to severe psoriasis.

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Come on.
That would be so unfair.

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Yeah, yeah.

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Shut up.

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- Okay. Hey.
- Mmm.

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It's just a stepping
stone, baby.

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I know.

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Do you think it's too late
for astronaut school?

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- What?

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- What?
- Nothing.

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I could be
a professional dancer.

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- Oh, word?
- Yeah. Yeah.

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- You got them moves?
- Ooh.

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- Wait, let me stand up.

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I'm way better
when I stand up.

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- Okay.
- It's so much better

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when I stand up.

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- Are you ready?
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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- Whoa.
- What genre is this?

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I don't know,
but my body just goes...

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Go.

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Is this modern, right?

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- This is professional.
- Wow.

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So I would appreciate it

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if you took me seriously
right now.

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I'm taking you very seriously.

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And then, we'll finish
with something like this.

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But I'm not gonna
show you anymore,

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because it's
a work-in-progress.

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And the professional is tired,

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and I wanna cuddle.

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<i>♪ Came into this life
on my own ♪</i>

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<i>♪And I'll try
Yes I'll try ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Hope for love
turn out the light ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And I gave my own life
My own life, my own life ♪</i>

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Oh, calm the fuck down.

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I swear, this road has been
under construction

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my entire life.

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When will New Jersey be done?

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- She's a work-in-progress.
- Never.

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Oh, by the way,
how's Ryan doing?

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Oh, you mean
your future niece?

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Oh, my goodness.
She's so pretty!

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Yeah, the varsity coach said
she might start next year.

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- Oh, yeah?
Mmm-hmm.

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She scored 19 goals
last season!

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- Tell her. Tell her.
- Wow!

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Oh, my God.
You must be so proud of her.

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I can't believe
I haven't met her.

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I'm so sorry Nathan and I

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haven't made it
down there yet.

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Don't worry about it.
I mean, it's far.

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We're gonna try to come up
more often

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now that our dad's
getting older.

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Yeah.

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Well, I've only met
your dad a few times,

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but that we can't blame
on distance.

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This is fucking nuts.
I'm sorry.

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Wait, so tell us about

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these wedding dresses
we're seeing.

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Yes, please. I couldn't sleep
last night thinking about it.

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Shut up!
- You are such a good sport.

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No, he isn't. He just thinks
that after we see dresses,

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- we're going to go...
- Yeah?

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- ...on a pub crawl.
Mmm-hmm.

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But actually
we're going to see a play.

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- You are?
- No, we're not.

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You said that we'd have
to get tickets already.

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No. We just gotta see some
shit nobody else wants to see.

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- Oh, great. That's awesome.

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- Yeah, right?
- Great. Great.

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Hey, look,
it's finally opening up.

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All right, so I think
it might be a little tight

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getting you to a play,

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but, um, let me just check...

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- Okay, so now it's saying...

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Allie!

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Look out!

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Here we are.

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You got me here so early.

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Yeah, well, it's

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better to be a half-hour early

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than one minute late.

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Grandpa, have you ever played
any video games?

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- No.

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You've got that perfect
little brain up there

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and you're just melting it
away with that crap.

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Okay.

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<i>Nathan.
-</i>

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It's Uncle Nathan.
Answer it.

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Why would he be calling me?

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Pick it up.

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Thought we weren't
talking anymore.

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Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
Nathan. Nathan.

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I've... I've got
Ryan here in the car.

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I'm just dropping her off
at school.

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I'll call you right back.

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Yes, I heard what you said.
I'm headed right there.

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I just gotta
drop her off, okay?

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See, that wasn't so bad.

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Mom says she wishes you guys
could find a way to get along.

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I... I've...
I've got to leave, sweetie.

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But I look like a dork
being here this early.

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I'm sorry.

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I'll, uh...

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I'll be picking you up today.

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Why can't Mom?

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She said they'd be back
from the city today, right?

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Well...

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- she can't.
Okay.

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I'll text her.

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Okay.

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Okay. Bye.

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Tell me you love me.

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I love you, Grandpa.

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I love you too.

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- Bye.
- Bye.

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Mom,
my head hurts so much.

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I can't even explain
how much pain my head's in.

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Can you click
on the morphine again?

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I've been clicking on it.

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I'm clicking on it,
and nothing is happening.

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Oh, shoot, you're right.
It is empty.

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We gotta get more.

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We'll have to get the nurse
to get us more.

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Nathan, why are you
looking at me like that?

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Like what?

243
00:11:50,361 --> 00:11:52,320
Is it bad? Do I look that bad?

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00:11:52,320 --> 00:11:53,669
No, he's just upset, sweetheart.

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He's upset 'cause we've been

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- so worried all night long.
Okay. Okay.

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This backhoe thing
just reversed

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into the middle of the street.

249
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I know, I know.

250
00:12:01,721 --> 00:12:03,374
I didn't know
what to do.

251
00:12:03,374 --> 00:12:04,636
I know, but you don't have to
worry about that right now.

252
00:12:04,636 --> 00:12:06,160
- Right, Nathan?
- Yeah.

253
00:12:06,160 --> 00:12:07,683
No, you just need to focus
on getting better.

254
00:12:07,683 --> 00:12:08,771
That's all you need
to think about, okay?

255
00:12:08,771 --> 00:12:10,425
Okay.
- Right, Nathan?

256
00:12:10,425 --> 00:12:12,079
- Yeah.
Sorry to interrupt,

257
00:12:12,079 --> 00:12:13,733
but the police are here
to collect a blood sample.

258
00:12:13,733 --> 00:12:15,082
Oh, no. Absolutely not.

259
00:12:15,082 --> 00:12:16,736
Now is not a good time.
She is in a lot of pain.

260
00:12:16,736 --> 00:12:18,302
- You have to come back.
- No.

261
00:12:18,302 --> 00:12:20,087
She just woke up.
- Why are the police here?

262
00:12:20,087 --> 00:12:21,697
Unfortunately, I can't.

263
00:12:21,697 --> 00:12:24,047
Legally, the sample has to be
drawn as soon as possible.

264
00:12:24,047 --> 00:12:25,483
We waited for her
to stabilize,

265
00:12:25,483 --> 00:12:26,571
but with an accident
like this,

266
00:12:26,571 --> 00:12:27,964
it's imperative we test...

267
00:12:27,964 --> 00:12:29,705
What is he talking about?
It wasn't my fault.

268
00:12:29,705 --> 00:12:32,012
- Officer, she doesn't know.
- It wasn't her fault.

269
00:12:32,012 --> 00:12:33,317
With an accident
of this magnitude

270
00:12:33,317 --> 00:12:34,754
involving fatalities,
we're required...

271
00:12:34,754 --> 00:12:36,494
- She hasn't been told.
- Fatalities?

272
00:12:36,494 --> 00:12:37,800
She hasn't been told,

273
00:12:37,800 --> 00:12:39,193
- you fucking asshole!
Fuck.

274
00:12:39,193 --> 00:12:41,064
She didn't know.
- Mama, what's going on?

275
00:12:41,064 --> 00:12:42,326
- I'm so sorry, honey.
- What is he talking about?

276
00:12:42,326 --> 00:12:43,458
I'm so sorry.

277
00:12:43,458 --> 00:12:45,199
Nathan?

278
00:12:45,199 --> 00:12:46,809
Nathan, what's going on?

279
00:12:50,682 --> 00:12:51,945
They're gone.

280
00:12:54,121 --> 00:12:55,600
They're both gone.

281
00:12:56,123 --> 00:12:57,211
Who's gone?

282
00:12:57,211 --> 00:12:58,429
Honey...

283
00:13:14,054 --> 00:13:16,621
No, Mom.

284
00:13:18,885 --> 00:13:20,843
Why, Mom?

285
00:13:20,843 --> 00:13:22,932
I'm so sorry, honey.

286
00:13:51,787 --> 00:13:54,572
<i>♪ Wake up with
the sun in morning ♪</i>

287
00:13:54,572 --> 00:13:57,488
<i>♪ Go to sleep with
the moon at night... ♪</i>

288
00:13:57,488 --> 00:13:58,968
<i>Hey, guys! Bella here.</i>

289
00:13:58,968 --> 00:14:00,448
<i>Welcome to my bathroom!</i>

290
00:14:00,448 --> 00:14:03,407
<i>Today, we're gonna learn
to cut our own hair.</i>

291
00:14:03,407 --> 00:14:04,844
<i>So let's jump in.</i>

292
00:14:04,844 --> 00:14:08,195
<i>To get started,
we grab this first front layer</i>

293
00:14:08,935 --> 00:14:10,414
<i>just like this.</i>

294
00:14:10,414 --> 00:14:13,940
<i>And put your scissors
at, like, a slight angle.</i>

295
00:14:15,724 --> 00:14:18,727
<i>Okay, it's now or never.</i>

296
00:14:18,727 --> 00:14:20,076
<i>Go for it!</i>

297
00:14:20,076 --> 00:14:21,991
<i>♪ What their purpose
is on earth ♪</i>

298
00:14:21,991 --> 00:14:24,776
<i>♪ To love and be
loved in return... ♪</i>

299
00:14:24,776 --> 00:14:25,865
Fuck.

300
00:14:25,865 --> 00:14:27,257
<i>You nailed it!</i>

301
00:14:27,257 --> 00:14:29,738
<i>You're officially a stylist
just like me!</i>

302
00:14:29,738 --> 00:14:31,131
<i>Now, go ahead</i>

303
00:14:31,131 --> 00:14:33,829
<i>and grab the same layer
on the other side.</i>

304
00:14:33,829 --> 00:14:35,875
<i>And just go for it!</i>

305
00:14:35,875 --> 00:14:38,225
Okay.

306
00:14:38,225 --> 00:14:41,054
<i>♪ Happiness comes
from inside ♪</i>

307
00:14:41,054 --> 00:14:43,447
<i>♪ At the center
of your mind... ♪</i>

308
00:14:43,447 --> 00:14:44,535
Fuck.

309
00:14:44,535 --> 00:14:45,885
<i>Does it look even?</i>

310
00:14:46,276 --> 00:14:47,887
Uh...

311
00:14:47,887 --> 00:14:49,671
Not exactly. No.

312
00:14:49,671 --> 00:14:52,152
<i>Good job.
You look amazing!</i>

313
00:14:53,762 --> 00:14:55,155
Thank you.

314
00:14:55,155 --> 00:14:57,766
<i>♪ You can change
the darkest day ♪</i>

315
00:14:57,766 --> 00:15:00,682
<i>♪ Simply by
the things you say... ♪</i>

316
00:15:01,683 --> 00:15:03,293
Wow...

317
00:15:03,293 --> 00:15:06,340
<i>♪ Oooh oooh ooh ♪</i>

318
00:15:07,907 --> 00:15:09,604
I love it.

319
00:15:12,824 --> 00:15:16,263
Oh, my God. Allie,
what the hell is all this?

320
00:15:16,263 --> 00:15:20,006
You have got to stop buying
all this crap.

321
00:15:21,659 --> 00:15:25,185
Yeah, well, one of them
is an acrylic nail set

322
00:15:25,185 --> 00:15:27,578
that I know you'll appreciate
more than I will.

323
00:15:27,578 --> 00:15:28,971
And the others
are ankle weights.

324
00:15:28,971 --> 00:15:30,973
Remember? We said we were
gonna get in shape?

325
00:15:31,887 --> 00:15:33,454
Oh, my God.

326
00:15:33,454 --> 00:15:36,500
Allie, what the hell
did you do to your hair?

327
00:15:36,500 --> 00:15:37,980
What? It's makeover Monday.

328
00:15:37,980 --> 00:15:40,983
- It's Friday.
- Oh.

329
00:15:40,983 --> 00:15:43,029
- It's so dark in here.
- No, please, don't open that.

330
00:15:43,029 --> 00:15:44,421
Mama, that is so bright!

331
00:15:44,421 --> 00:15:46,467
Did you go
to physical therapy today?

332
00:15:46,467 --> 00:15:48,425
Um, well, I tried to,

333
00:15:48,425 --> 00:15:50,471
- but I overslept.
- Allie...

334
00:15:50,471 --> 00:15:52,864
What? I don't need PT.
I don't.

335
00:15:52,864 --> 00:15:54,257
Allie, your hair.

336
00:15:55,041 --> 00:15:56,607
You don't like it?

337
00:15:56,607 --> 00:15:58,740
I just don't understand why
you would cut your own hair.

338
00:15:58,740 --> 00:16:01,090
Well, the girl said
it was easy, and it was not.

339
00:16:01,090 --> 00:16:02,483
What girl?

340
00:16:02,483 --> 00:16:05,877
This girl on the Internet.
She's an influencer.

341
00:16:05,877 --> 00:16:07,705
She influenced me.

342
00:16:07,705 --> 00:16:12,058
Such a pigsty in here.
I am not happy about this.

343
00:16:12,058 --> 00:16:13,885
Hey, Mama, can you tell me
where my pills are?

344
00:16:13,885 --> 00:16:16,366
Which ones?

345
00:16:16,366 --> 00:16:20,022
We said we were going to
wean off of them. Remember?

346
00:16:20,022 --> 00:16:21,981
- Did we?
- Yes.

347
00:16:21,981 --> 00:16:24,722
Because "we" are in pain

348
00:16:24,722 --> 00:16:26,594
and "we" need more.

349
00:16:26,594 --> 00:16:27,943
They're not gonna
give you more, Allie.

350
00:16:27,943 --> 00:16:29,379
- They have to!
- No, they don't.

351
00:16:29,379 --> 00:16:30,902
I need them!

352
00:16:30,902 --> 00:16:32,513
Listen to me.

353
00:16:32,513 --> 00:16:34,645
You're not in physical pain anymore.

354
00:16:34,645 --> 00:16:36,778
Have you been doing
the tapping thing

355
00:16:36,778 --> 00:16:38,171
that that one shrink
taught you?

356
00:16:38,171 --> 00:16:40,390
Remember?
For anxiety and stress,

357
00:16:40,390 --> 00:16:42,218
and it calms you down
on the...

358
00:16:42,218 --> 00:16:43,915
- eyes, and then the lips.
- Mom!

359
00:16:43,915 --> 00:16:45,613
Or play your piano.
That always cheers you up.

360
00:16:45,613 --> 00:16:46,962
I don't wanna talk
about this, please.

361
00:16:46,962 --> 00:16:49,791
I have the worst headache!
Can you just stop?

362
00:16:49,791 --> 00:16:52,707
Can you call the doctors
and help me, please?

363
00:16:52,707 --> 00:16:54,491
Which one? Patel?
He said no more.

364
00:16:54,491 --> 00:16:56,841
Okay, well, fuck Patel.
Fuck Patel!

365
00:16:56,841 --> 00:16:58,626
How about Goldberg, or...

366
00:16:58,626 --> 00:17:00,497
or Fong?

367
00:17:00,497 --> 00:17:02,108
- Allie...
- Please, Mom.

368
00:17:02,108 --> 00:17:03,283
- Just call 'em. Just help me.
- You're being a little...

369
00:17:03,283 --> 00:17:04,675
- No.
- Just help me, please.

370
00:17:04,675 --> 00:17:06,286
Guess what?
They all said "no."

371
00:17:06,286 --> 00:17:08,331
Patel. Goldberg.
Fong. Rosenberg.

372
00:17:08,331 --> 00:17:10,246
Okay, well, I'll try Vromen.
He loves me.

373
00:17:10,246 --> 00:17:12,161
Vromen is an orthodontist.

374
00:17:12,161 --> 00:17:13,641
Yeah, but he used to
flirt with me

375
00:17:13,641 --> 00:17:15,730
when his fingers were really
deep inside my mouth,

376
00:17:15,730 --> 00:17:18,254
and it was very inappropriate,
and so, he really owes me one.

377
00:17:18,254 --> 00:17:20,126
Allie, I don't like
how you're acting.

378
00:17:20,126 --> 00:17:21,344
You know what?
Enough is enough.

379
00:17:21,344 --> 00:17:23,129
You gotta get out
of this living room,

380
00:17:23,129 --> 00:17:24,739
take off your pajamas,

381
00:17:24,739 --> 00:17:26,654
and get your ass,
and go get a job.

382
00:17:26,654 --> 00:17:27,785
I'm sick of this crap.

383
00:17:27,785 --> 00:17:30,092
As if you have any right

384
00:17:30,092 --> 00:17:32,181
lecturing me
on medicating myself.

385
00:17:32,181 --> 00:17:33,574
What is that supposed to mean?

386
00:17:33,574 --> 00:17:36,751
It means, Mom, you're such
a fucking hypocrite!

387
00:17:36,751 --> 00:17:39,580
You don't think that I clock
how many Xanax you take?

388
00:17:39,580 --> 00:17:41,756
Or how many glasses of wine
you drink?

389
00:17:41,756 --> 00:17:43,758
You think I'm just a zombie
that doesn't notice anything,

390
00:17:43,758 --> 00:17:46,456
but I notice
fucking everything! I see you.

391
00:17:46,456 --> 00:17:50,069
So, can I have my pills, please?

392
00:17:50,069 --> 00:17:52,288
You're not listening.
There's no more.

393
00:17:59,513 --> 00:18:01,428
You get
right back here,

394
00:18:01,428 --> 00:18:03,038
- you little brat!
- No!

395
00:18:03,038 --> 00:18:05,475
What in the hell do you think
you are doing?

396
00:18:05,475 --> 00:18:06,737
Get out of there!

397
00:18:06,737 --> 00:18:07,912
- Get out of there!
Get off me!

398
00:18:07,912 --> 00:18:09,392
- No! Get out of there!
- Let go!

399
00:18:09,392 --> 00:18:11,655
What are you doing?
- No! Are they in here?

400
00:18:11,655 --> 00:18:14,441
Get back! Cut it out!
- You are hurting me!

401
00:18:14,441 --> 00:18:15,790
Stop it!

402
00:18:15,790 --> 00:18:17,574
- Stop it! Put that back!
Mom!

403
00:18:18,662 --> 00:18:19,707
No.

404
00:18:19,707 --> 00:18:21,143
- Open the door.
- No.

405
00:18:21,143 --> 00:18:22,753
- Open the fucking door!
- Stop it! Stop it.

406
00:18:22,753 --> 00:18:24,103
- Mom, let me out.
- No.

407
00:18:24,103 --> 00:18:26,279
Let me out. Let me out!

408
00:18:26,279 --> 00:18:27,541
Mama!

409
00:18:27,541 --> 00:18:29,325
- No! Stop it!
- Give me those... Ow.

410
00:18:29,325 --> 00:18:31,501
- Stop it!
Ow! Ow, ow, ow, ow.

411
00:18:31,501 --> 00:18:33,634
- You fucking crazy little brat.
No!

412
00:18:36,245 --> 00:18:38,204
Shit!

413
00:18:38,204 --> 00:18:40,510
No, no, no, no, no, no.

414
00:18:40,510 --> 00:18:42,512
Mama, no! Please. No!

415
00:18:44,688 --> 00:18:46,734
Why the fuck did you do that?

416
00:18:46,734 --> 00:18:47,909
I'm in pain!

417
00:18:47,909 --> 00:18:49,040
I don't give a shit!

418
00:18:49,040 --> 00:18:50,520
Your daughter
is in actual pain!

419
00:18:50,520 --> 00:18:51,956
I don't give a shit!

420
00:18:51,956 --> 00:18:55,525
I fucking hate you so much!

421
00:18:55,525 --> 00:18:57,179
You're bleeding!

422
00:19:01,357 --> 00:19:02,706
You get back here right now.

423
00:19:02,706 --> 00:19:04,143
Leave me alone.
- You come back here.

424
00:19:04,143 --> 00:19:05,231
Leave me alone.
- I'm gonna grab your...

425
00:19:06,536 --> 00:19:07,885
Leave me the fuck alone!

426
00:19:07,885 --> 00:19:09,060
I'm not gonna leave you
the fuck alone,

427
00:19:09,060 --> 00:19:10,236
- you little brat.
- Ugh!

428
00:19:15,937 --> 00:19:17,286
Allison!

429
00:19:17,286 --> 00:19:19,419
- Leave me alone!
Where are you going?

430
00:19:19,419 --> 00:19:21,290
Leave me alone!

431
00:19:32,519 --> 00:19:34,303
Let's go, Ryan!

432
00:19:35,609 --> 00:19:37,437
Attagirl! Attagirl!

433
00:19:44,095 --> 00:19:46,097
Fuck!

434
00:19:46,097 --> 00:19:47,838
So you're the Ryan
that's been talking to Damien?

435
00:19:47,838 --> 00:19:49,100
Get the fuck outta my face.

436
00:19:49,100 --> 00:19:50,319
See, you talk to people
like that, bitch,

437
00:19:50,319 --> 00:19:51,842
that's why you have
no fucking friends.

438
00:19:51,842 --> 00:19:53,017
Why are you
hitting on me, huh?

439
00:19:53,017 --> 00:19:54,497
Uh, I'm not the one
named "Ryan."

440
00:19:54,497 --> 00:19:56,238
It's a fucking dyke's name.
You a dyke?

441
00:19:56,238 --> 00:19:59,154
- Only when I fuck your mother.
- Oh, at least I have a mother.

442
00:20:02,592 --> 00:20:04,159
What the fuck
did you just say to me?

443
00:20:04,899 --> 00:20:06,161
Hey!

444
00:20:06,161 --> 00:20:09,425
Stay away from Damien,
you fucking whore.

445
00:20:10,383 --> 00:20:11,427
Hey!

446
00:20:11,427 --> 00:20:13,386
Break that up, Ref!

447
00:20:14,778 --> 00:20:15,866
Break it up.
Break it up!

448
00:20:16,171 --> 00:20:17,216
Hey!

449
00:20:19,827 --> 00:20:22,873
Hey! That's it!
You're both out. Red card.

450
00:20:22,873 --> 00:20:24,266
Ryan,
what the hell was that?

451
00:20:24,266 --> 00:20:25,746
I quit.

452
00:20:25,746 --> 00:20:28,052
I quit.
I hate this fucking game.

453
00:20:28,052 --> 00:20:30,098
Why? Because you got
in a fight?

454
00:20:30,098 --> 00:20:32,143
Come on, that's not you.

455
00:20:32,143 --> 00:20:34,276
You're tough.
You're not a quitter.

456
00:20:34,276 --> 00:20:37,323
- She made fun of Mom.
- What?

457
00:20:37,323 --> 00:20:39,499
She said,
"At least I have a mom."

458
00:20:42,284 --> 00:20:43,851
Well, fuck her.

459
00:20:47,550 --> 00:20:48,638
Well...

460
00:20:49,987 --> 00:20:52,425
And what kind of a punch
was that?

461
00:20:52,425 --> 00:20:54,688
You throw this hard right hook

462
00:20:54,688 --> 00:20:57,343
and then you leave yourself
wide open for the jab.

463
00:20:58,431 --> 00:21:00,128
We're gonna have to work
on that.

464
00:21:17,841 --> 00:21:19,016
Hi.

465
00:21:19,016 --> 00:21:21,584
I'm here to get
a prescription refilled.

466
00:21:21,584 --> 00:21:24,413
Last name, Johnson.
Birthday, August 24th.

467
00:21:24,413 --> 00:21:26,372
Okay. For which medication?

468
00:21:26,372 --> 00:21:29,505
Uh... The Oxy. OxyContin.

469
00:21:29,505 --> 00:21:31,681
It says here
you are out of refills.

470
00:21:31,681 --> 00:21:34,293
I see you've been on them
for over a year now.

471
00:21:34,293 --> 00:21:36,382
Your doctor's probably trying
to wean you off of them.

472
00:21:36,382 --> 00:21:38,775
As I'm sure you know,
they can be very addictive.

473
00:21:38,775 --> 00:21:40,647
Oh, really?
I hadn't fucking heard that.

474
00:21:42,518 --> 00:21:43,650
Sorry.

475
00:21:43,650 --> 00:21:45,391
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

476
00:21:46,130 --> 00:21:48,307
Listen...

477
00:21:48,307 --> 00:21:50,221
I was in a really bad
car accident,

478
00:21:50,221 --> 00:21:53,312
and I need them,
because I'm in a lot of pain.

479
00:21:53,312 --> 00:21:54,356
Just now?

480
00:21:55,575 --> 00:21:56,706
What? No.

481
00:21:56,706 --> 00:21:59,274
Your elbow is bleeding.

482
00:21:59,274 --> 00:22:01,058
Oh, shit.
Look, it's fine.

483
00:22:01,058 --> 00:22:02,582
Let me go get you a bandage.

484
00:22:02,582 --> 00:22:04,453
I don't need
a fucking bandage. It's fine.

485
00:22:08,718 --> 00:22:09,806
Then take this.

486
00:22:12,635 --> 00:22:14,811
Oh, my goodness.
Thank you so much. Thank you.

487
00:22:17,118 --> 00:22:19,773
I feel so much better now.
Thank you.

488
00:22:20,295 --> 00:22:21,644
Fucking bitch.

489
00:22:33,003 --> 00:22:34,875
<i>Burn,
but guess what that burn is?</i>

490
00:22:34,875 --> 00:22:37,965
<i>That burn is in your soul.
It is lifting you up.</i>

491
00:22:37,965 --> 00:22:39,401
<i>You are climbing that mountain</i>

492
00:22:39,401 --> 00:22:41,316
<i>and you are reaching
higher heights</i>

493
00:22:41,316 --> 00:22:42,970
<i>than you ever have before.</i>

494
00:22:42,970 --> 00:22:44,319
<i>Keep pedaling.</i>

495
00:24:20,197 --> 00:24:22,417
Hi.
- Hi!

496
00:24:22,417 --> 00:24:24,245
- Hey!
- Hi!

497
00:24:25,376 --> 00:24:26,508
Hi.

498
00:24:26,508 --> 00:24:29,119
Oh, my God. I love your hair!

499
00:24:29,119 --> 00:24:32,775
- It is so chic. Who did it?
- Ah, thank you! Um...

500
00:24:32,775 --> 00:24:35,386
I, uh, got a new gal.

501
00:24:35,386 --> 00:24:37,954
Well, I gotta get her number.

502
00:24:37,954 --> 00:24:39,390
Okay.

503
00:24:39,390 --> 00:24:42,350
Oh, I was so happy
that you reached out.

504
00:24:42,350 --> 00:24:45,309
Because you weren't responding
to any of my texts.

505
00:24:45,309 --> 00:24:47,181
Of course, I wanted
to give you your space,

506
00:24:47,181 --> 00:24:48,878
but I was worried.

507
00:24:48,878 --> 00:24:50,358
Hi, good morning.
- Hey!

508
00:24:50,358 --> 00:24:51,664
Can I get you anything?

509
00:24:51,664 --> 00:24:54,536
Uh, yeah. Can I please get
a Jack and Coke?

510
00:24:55,058 --> 00:24:57,060
Uh...

511
00:24:57,060 --> 00:24:59,498
Sorry, our bar doesn't
actually open until 11:00.

512
00:24:59,498 --> 00:25:00,847
Oh.

513
00:25:00,847 --> 00:25:04,328
Uh, okay. In that case,
I'll get a black coffee.

514
00:25:04,328 --> 00:25:06,113
- Oat milk latte.
- You got it.

515
00:25:09,420 --> 00:25:11,814
So, how's, how's work?

516
00:25:11,814 --> 00:25:12,989
You're still at Purdue, right?

517
00:25:12,989 --> 00:25:14,556
- Still repping Purdue.
- Yeah.

518
00:25:14,556 --> 00:25:15,949
You'd think it would've been
a shit show

519
00:25:15,949 --> 00:25:17,777
because of the bankruptcy
and all the lawsuits.

520
00:25:17,777 --> 00:25:19,648
- Mm.
- But, between you and me,

521
00:25:19,648 --> 00:25:21,520
my numbers
have actually increased.

522
00:25:21,520 --> 00:25:22,782
Wow.

523
00:25:22,782 --> 00:25:26,133
My bonus last quarter
was insane.

524
00:25:26,133 --> 00:25:28,309
- It sells itself.
- Yeah.

525
00:25:28,309 --> 00:25:29,528
Karl Marx was wrong.

526
00:25:29,528 --> 00:25:31,660
Turns out
the opiate of the masses

527
00:25:31,660 --> 00:25:32,748
is opium.

528
00:25:37,492 --> 00:25:38,667
Anyway.

529
00:25:38,667 --> 00:25:39,929
How are you doing?

530
00:25:39,929 --> 00:25:41,452
When are you going back
to work?

531
00:25:41,452 --> 00:25:42,802
Listen,
I'm just gonna cut right to it

532
00:25:42,802 --> 00:25:43,890
because you're my friend

533
00:25:43,890 --> 00:25:45,892
and I know
you're gonna understand.

534
00:25:45,892 --> 00:25:47,067
Um...

535
00:25:48,198 --> 00:25:50,810
I'm still in a lot of pain.

536
00:25:50,810 --> 00:25:52,333
Oh, Allie...

537
00:25:52,333 --> 00:25:56,467
I know, and my docs
are cutting my Oxy scripts

538
00:25:56,467 --> 00:25:58,731
because everyone's
really freaked out

539
00:25:58,731 --> 00:26:00,210
about addiction these days.

540
00:26:00,210 --> 00:26:02,038
Uh...

541
00:26:02,038 --> 00:26:04,737
So, I was wondering
if it would be possible...

542
00:26:04,737 --> 00:26:06,608
Allie, please tell me
you didn't invite me

543
00:26:06,608 --> 00:26:08,871
to breakfast
to hit me up for pills.

544
00:26:09,263 --> 00:26:10,394
No.

545
00:26:10,394 --> 00:26:12,396
- No, no, no, no, no.

546
00:26:12,396 --> 00:26:14,616
It's just until I can get in,
and see my docs.

547
00:26:14,616 --> 00:26:16,792
Um, because my fucking mother,

548
00:26:16,792 --> 00:26:19,578
she threw my last refill
into the toilet, so...

549
00:26:19,969 --> 00:26:21,623
No way.

550
00:26:21,623 --> 00:26:23,320
Are you fucking
with me right now?

551
00:26:23,320 --> 00:26:24,800
No.

552
00:26:24,800 --> 00:26:26,802
If you have a problem,
you need to get some help.

553
00:26:26,802 --> 00:26:29,239
I can help you
find the right rehab.

554
00:26:29,239 --> 00:26:31,285
Please don't hand me
a pamphlet.

555
00:26:31,285 --> 00:26:32,808
I already have one.

556
00:26:32,808 --> 00:26:35,115
Well, then find them
on the street if you have to.

557
00:26:35,115 --> 00:26:37,160
Every dive bar
in this town's got a guy

558
00:26:37,160 --> 00:26:39,336
with a pharmacy
in his front pocket.

559
00:26:39,336 --> 00:26:41,208
You know, Becka,

560
00:26:42,470 --> 00:26:44,559
I really didn't want
to do this.

561
00:26:46,343 --> 00:26:47,431
But...

562
00:26:49,390 --> 00:26:50,826
there's a handful of things

563
00:26:50,826 --> 00:26:54,090
that happened
at your bachelorette party

564
00:26:54,090 --> 00:26:57,659
that I'm pretty sure
you want to be kept private.

565
00:26:57,659 --> 00:27:01,315
Allison, are you trying
to blackmail me for OxyContin?

566
00:27:01,315 --> 00:27:03,143
I'm just asking you for help.

567
00:27:04,274 --> 00:27:06,494
Like, as a friend.

568
00:27:08,322 --> 00:27:10,498
But you did blow that dancer.

569
00:27:11,455 --> 00:27:12,718
It happened for a second.

570
00:27:12,718 --> 00:27:15,851
I know, I know.
But you did it, and I saw.

571
00:27:16,852 --> 00:27:17,940
It never went in my mouth.

572
00:27:17,940 --> 00:27:21,509
It was in your mouth.

573
00:27:21,509 --> 00:27:22,771
Past the tip.

574
00:27:23,729 --> 00:27:26,253
Past the fucking tip.

575
00:27:27,297 --> 00:27:28,647
Allie, you need help.

576
00:27:29,822 --> 00:27:31,475
Destroy my life
if you have to.

577
00:27:31,475 --> 00:27:35,088
But for the love of God,
get some fucking help!

578
00:27:35,088 --> 00:27:36,567
Okay, bye.
Fuck you.

579
00:27:36,567 --> 00:27:38,004
Fuck you!

580
00:27:43,923 --> 00:27:46,229
Uh... I don't...
Oh, fuck.

581
00:27:48,623 --> 00:27:50,320
I don't have any money.
I'm really sorry.

582
00:27:50,320 --> 00:27:51,670
I can't pay for those.

583
00:27:51,670 --> 00:27:54,150
That's okay. Take it.

584
00:27:54,150 --> 00:27:56,065
I mixed in a little tequila
for you.

585
00:28:04,683 --> 00:28:06,032
That's disgusting.

586
00:28:07,555 --> 00:28:08,556
Thank you.

587
00:28:11,646 --> 00:28:14,431
<i>Mr. Adams,
we really wanna do</i>

588
00:28:14,431 --> 00:28:16,607
<i>everything we can
to help Ryan.</i>

589
00:28:18,871 --> 00:28:20,481
But she needs to take
some responsibility

590
00:28:20,481 --> 00:28:22,483
for her behavior.

591
00:28:22,483 --> 00:28:25,573
That girl does not listen
to a thing I say.

592
00:28:27,227 --> 00:28:28,707
To be honest,

593
00:28:28,707 --> 00:28:30,447
I was hoping
you were calling me in here

594
00:28:30,447 --> 00:28:32,145
to give me some advice.

595
00:28:33,886 --> 00:28:35,714
I need help.

596
00:28:35,714 --> 00:28:37,716
It's just that
we're a public school.

597
00:28:37,716 --> 00:28:40,631
We have 2,000 kids
to look after.

598
00:28:40,631 --> 00:28:42,198
We don't have the bandwidth

599
00:28:42,198 --> 00:28:44,853
to micromanage her in ways
that she deserves and needs.

600
00:28:44,853 --> 00:28:46,594
So, what are you saying?

601
00:28:47,595 --> 00:28:49,292
I will give her
an extra strike

602
00:28:49,292 --> 00:28:51,730
because of the circumstances.

603
00:28:51,730 --> 00:28:53,383
But if she doesn't tone down
her language

604
00:28:53,383 --> 00:28:55,037
with her teachers

605
00:28:55,037 --> 00:28:56,909
and gets into one more fight,

606
00:28:57,866 --> 00:28:59,215
we'll have to expel her.

607
00:29:20,889 --> 00:29:23,762
Hi, can I get
a double tequila, please?

608
00:29:31,726 --> 00:29:32,727
Allison.

609
00:29:33,684 --> 00:29:35,774
Yo, I know you.

610
00:29:36,905 --> 00:29:37,906
It's Mark.

611
00:29:38,864 --> 00:29:40,039
Yeah, hey.

612
00:29:40,039 --> 00:29:41,910
Yeah.

613
00:29:41,910 --> 00:29:44,565
I haven't seen you
since high school.

614
00:29:44,565 --> 00:29:47,002
This is Diego.
You remember Diego?

615
00:29:47,002 --> 00:29:48,177
- Hey.
Hey.

616
00:29:49,222 --> 00:29:51,006
You just having
a little breakfast?

617
00:29:51,006 --> 00:29:53,792
Uh... Um... I just...

618
00:29:55,402 --> 00:29:57,317
I just needed
to get out of the house.

619
00:29:57,317 --> 00:29:59,406
Yeah, I feel that.

620
00:29:59,406 --> 00:30:01,843
I heard what happened to you.
The accident.

621
00:30:01,843 --> 00:30:03,018
Saw it in the <i>Star Ledger.</i> Sorry.

622
00:30:03,018 --> 00:30:04,454
What happened?

623
00:30:04,454 --> 00:30:05,673
She was in that
accident on the turnpike.

624
00:30:05,673 --> 00:30:07,240
Two people died.

625
00:30:07,240 --> 00:30:08,807
Holy shit.

626
00:30:09,851 --> 00:30:11,244
That was you.

627
00:30:12,201 --> 00:30:14,203
Oh, bro.

628
00:30:14,203 --> 00:30:16,162
That would've fucked me up.

629
00:30:16,162 --> 00:30:17,380
It wasn't my fault.

630
00:30:17,380 --> 00:30:19,992
Yeah, I'm sure.
But, like, still...

631
00:30:25,867 --> 00:30:26,825
Damn.

632
00:30:30,263 --> 00:30:33,266
Hey, can I
have another one, please?

633
00:30:34,571 --> 00:30:35,746
You having a tough day?

634
00:30:36,965 --> 00:30:38,314
Just a day.

635
00:30:39,750 --> 00:30:42,014
I just wanna get as far away
from here as possible.

636
00:30:42,014 --> 00:30:43,363
Yo, there's this app,

637
00:30:43,363 --> 00:30:44,755
it tells you
the exact opposite

638
00:30:44,755 --> 00:30:46,670
of where you are
on the globe is.

639
00:30:46,670 --> 00:30:48,759
That's where you should go.
I'll look it up for you.

640
00:30:48,759 --> 00:30:51,327
Yo, that's how I feel
every fuckin' day of my life.

641
00:30:51,327 --> 00:30:53,764
I can't seem to escape
this town.

642
00:30:53,764 --> 00:30:55,418
It's like there's
a force field around it

643
00:30:55,418 --> 00:30:57,072
or something.

644
00:30:57,072 --> 00:30:59,770
Like, some people know
how to get outta here.

645
00:30:59,770 --> 00:31:01,294
But the rest of us,

646
00:31:01,294 --> 00:31:03,035
we just keep banging our heads
up against the glass.

647
00:31:03,035 --> 00:31:05,211
It's Perth. That's the city

648
00:31:05,211 --> 00:31:07,082
on the other side of the globe
from here.

649
00:31:07,082 --> 00:31:08,954
You should go to Perth.

650
00:31:08,954 --> 00:31:11,521
I don't have enough money
to get to Perth,

651
00:31:11,521 --> 00:31:13,001
but thank you.

652
00:31:13,001 --> 00:31:14,960
Aren't you engaged
to Nathan Adams?

653
00:31:16,178 --> 00:31:18,137
I was, yeah.

654
00:31:18,137 --> 00:31:20,704
He was an amazing running back
in high school.

655
00:31:20,704 --> 00:31:21,880
He used to run
every fucking play.

656
00:31:21,880 --> 00:31:23,011
- You remember him, Mark?
Yeah.

657
00:31:23,011 --> 00:31:24,143
Every fucking play,

658
00:31:24,143 --> 00:31:25,753
they'd come
on the PA system like,

659
00:31:25,753 --> 00:31:29,365
"Nathan Adams,
the ball carrier."

660
00:31:29,365 --> 00:31:31,324
He was the whole fucking team.
You remember him, Mark?

661
00:31:31,324 --> 00:31:33,195
Yeah, I remember him.

662
00:31:33,195 --> 00:31:34,762
Isn't he deaf?

663
00:31:34,762 --> 00:31:38,157
Uh... In one ear. Since birth.

664
00:31:38,157 --> 00:31:39,462
Wow, that's impressive

665
00:31:39,462 --> 00:31:41,073
that he could be, like,
that good, you know?

666
00:31:41,073 --> 00:31:42,726
And half deaf.

667
00:31:42,726 --> 00:31:44,032
So you're, like, single?

668
00:31:44,032 --> 00:31:47,079
Yo.
Shut the fuck up, Diego.

669
00:31:47,079 --> 00:31:49,516
What? You think
she's gonna date you?

670
00:31:49,516 --> 00:31:51,213
Where are you gonna take her?
You live with your mom.

671
00:31:51,213 --> 00:31:54,042
God damn.

672
00:31:54,042 --> 00:31:55,261
Allison, I'm sorry.

673
00:31:55,261 --> 00:31:58,351
My fucking friend
has no tact at all.

674
00:31:58,351 --> 00:32:01,093
We're not used to having

675
00:32:01,093 --> 00:32:03,747
pretty girls such as yourself
come in here.

676
00:32:03,747 --> 00:32:05,488
So, you gotta excuse his

677
00:32:05,488 --> 00:32:07,229
lack of decor.

678
00:32:09,492 --> 00:32:10,711
Decorum.

679
00:32:11,538 --> 00:32:12,626
What?

680
00:32:13,757 --> 00:32:16,021
"Decor" is

681
00:32:16,021 --> 00:32:20,112
the Bud Light lamp
above my head.

682
00:32:21,200 --> 00:32:23,854
"Decorum" is his behavior.

683
00:32:25,465 --> 00:32:27,771
Neither is currently ideal.

684
00:32:32,472 --> 00:32:34,300
Hey, can I ask you
something, like,

685
00:32:35,388 --> 00:32:37,085
between us old friends?

686
00:32:37,085 --> 00:32:39,348
You weren't our friend.
You were popular.

687
00:32:39,348 --> 00:32:41,524
- You were a bitch, actually.
- All right. Diego.

688
00:32:43,265 --> 00:32:46,051
That's old shit.
Right, Allison?

689
00:32:46,051 --> 00:32:48,531
We're past that.
We're grown-ups.

690
00:32:48,531 --> 00:32:51,447
Those of us stuck behind
this force field,

691
00:32:51,447 --> 00:32:54,407
- we gotta stick together.
Yeah.

692
00:32:54,407 --> 00:32:58,628
Um, do you know
where I could get some Oxy?

693
00:32:58,628 --> 00:33:00,152
God damn, girl.

694
00:33:00,152 --> 00:33:02,328
No foreplay. No nothing.

695
00:33:02,328 --> 00:33:05,548
No "How are you?
How's your family?"

696
00:33:05,548 --> 00:33:06,985
No, we don't fuck with pills.

697
00:33:07,768 --> 00:33:09,161
I remember in high school

698
00:33:09,161 --> 00:33:11,076
you were the guys
that could, like,

699
00:33:11,990 --> 00:33:13,208
get anything.

700
00:33:13,208 --> 00:33:15,167
And now you're just
buttering us up.

701
00:33:16,777 --> 00:33:18,866
I don't have any money.

702
00:33:18,866 --> 00:33:21,303
How are you gonna pay
for that tequila?

703
00:33:21,303 --> 00:33:24,002
I hadn't got that far yet.

704
00:33:24,002 --> 00:33:25,916
- Is that Rolex real?
- Wait a second.

705
00:33:26,613 --> 00:33:28,615
Wait. Allie Johnson.

706
00:33:28,615 --> 00:33:31,574
Miss lovely Allie Johnson.

707
00:33:32,706 --> 00:33:34,838
You just stroll in here.

708
00:33:34,838 --> 00:33:36,753
You got no money.

709
00:33:36,753 --> 00:33:39,234
And you expect us
to get you Oxy?

710
00:33:39,234 --> 00:33:41,932
For free, and then you want us
to pay for your drink.

711
00:33:43,456 --> 00:33:44,935
Why the fuck would we do that?

712
00:33:46,415 --> 00:33:47,851
Nostalgia?

713
00:33:48,896 --> 00:33:50,332
Old friends?

714
00:33:50,332 --> 00:33:51,942
You thought you were
such hot shit in high school.

715
00:33:51,942 --> 00:33:53,118
You're no
fucking different now.

716
00:33:53,118 --> 00:33:54,597
All right. Shut up.

717
00:33:54,989 --> 00:33:56,425
Sorry.

718
00:33:56,425 --> 00:33:59,776
This guy. No decorum.

719
00:33:59,776 --> 00:34:00,951
No, he's right.

720
00:34:02,344 --> 00:34:04,912
I didn't think I was better
than you. I knew it.

721
00:34:05,956 --> 00:34:07,610
I looked down
on guys like you.

722
00:34:09,090 --> 00:34:12,006
I thought
you were Jersey trash

723
00:34:12,006 --> 00:34:14,617
that would never be able
to make it out of town.

724
00:34:17,968 --> 00:34:19,492
Fucking bitch.

725
00:34:19,492 --> 00:34:21,320
But now you're sitting here

726
00:34:22,060 --> 00:34:23,713
right beside us

727
00:34:23,713 --> 00:34:26,368
and you're looking for a fix.

728
00:34:26,368 --> 00:34:27,935
A favor.

729
00:34:27,935 --> 00:34:30,155
The favor is a fix.

730
00:34:31,721 --> 00:34:33,984
- You're a fucking junkie now.
- No, I'm not.

731
00:34:33,984 --> 00:34:36,074
- You're a fucking junkie.
- No.

732
00:34:36,074 --> 00:34:37,162
Yeah, you are.
- Yeah, you are.

733
00:34:37,162 --> 00:34:38,554
Come on.
You're a fuckin' junkie.

734
00:34:38,554 --> 00:34:39,860
No. I'm not like you.

735
00:34:39,860 --> 00:34:41,296
Allie Johnson,

736
00:34:41,296 --> 00:34:43,690
you're so much more
like who you think we are

737
00:34:43,690 --> 00:34:45,213
than we actually are.

738
00:34:47,085 --> 00:34:49,478
Come on.
Say it, say it, say it.

739
00:34:49,478 --> 00:34:51,263
"I'm a fucking junkie."
You might like it.

740
00:34:51,263 --> 00:34:53,091
Fuck you. It's a pill.

741
00:34:53,091 --> 00:34:56,224
It's heroin
in a pretty little dress.

742
00:34:56,224 --> 00:34:57,921
I thought you were
the nice one.

743
00:34:59,271 --> 00:35:01,882
Why don't you say it?
Say... Say,

744
00:35:02,752 --> 00:35:05,146
"I'm a fucking junkie,"

745
00:35:05,146 --> 00:35:07,714
and then I'll get you whatever
you want. Anything.

746
00:35:09,237 --> 00:35:12,501
Say it. Just, like,
just come out with it.

747
00:35:12,501 --> 00:35:13,676
I'm currently reliant...

748
00:35:13,676 --> 00:35:17,202
No, that's not
what I fucking said.

749
00:35:17,202 --> 00:35:20,074
You sneaky little bitch.
That's not what I fucking said.

750
00:35:20,074 --> 00:35:21,336
- Is that what I said?
- No.

751
00:35:21,336 --> 00:35:23,164
That is not what I said.

752
00:35:25,035 --> 00:35:27,516
Say you're a fuckin' junkie.
Look at me.

753
00:35:27,516 --> 00:35:28,691
Look at me!

754
00:35:29,692 --> 00:35:32,521
Look me in the eyes, and say,

755
00:35:32,521 --> 00:35:35,742
"I'm a fucking junkie."

756
00:35:35,742 --> 00:35:37,135
Say it!

757
00:35:41,226 --> 00:35:42,923
I'm a fucking junkie.

758
00:35:47,101 --> 00:35:48,146
Good girl.

759
00:35:50,670 --> 00:35:52,106
Beth, I got these tequilas.

760
00:35:53,412 --> 00:35:55,718
I'm sorry
for raising my voice.

761
00:35:55,718 --> 00:35:56,893
We're just catching up.

762
00:35:57,503 --> 00:35:59,157
Allie, this is Beth.

763
00:35:59,157 --> 00:36:01,202
She's divine. She's the best.

764
00:36:08,601 --> 00:36:09,950
That's not Oxy.

765
00:36:10,690 --> 00:36:11,908
Same shit.

766
00:36:51,165 --> 00:36:52,340
Thank you.
Ooh, she just walked in.

767
00:36:53,646 --> 00:36:55,125
Oh, my God.
I was so worried about you.

768
00:36:55,125 --> 00:36:56,214
Where were you?

769
00:36:56,214 --> 00:36:59,217
- I'm so sorry.
- Oh, babe, oh.

770
00:36:59,217 --> 00:37:01,131
- I'm sorry.
- Uh-huh. No...

771
00:37:01,131 --> 00:37:02,829
I need help.

772
00:37:02,829 --> 00:37:04,178
I know. I never should have

773
00:37:04,178 --> 00:37:05,658
flushed those pills
down the toilet.

774
00:37:05,658 --> 00:37:08,182
I had no right. I'm so sorry.
I was just so worried.

775
00:37:08,182 --> 00:37:09,401
Can you help me, please, Mama?

776
00:37:09,401 --> 00:37:11,185
Yes, yes, I already did.

777
00:37:11,185 --> 00:37:13,231
Here, I got these from Linda.

778
00:37:13,231 --> 00:37:14,841
She's the woman
who works next to me

779
00:37:14,841 --> 00:37:16,495
in the toy kiosk at the mall.

780
00:37:16,495 --> 00:37:17,974
Her doctor gave them to her

781
00:37:17,974 --> 00:37:19,759
after she got punched
in the face by a shoplifter,

782
00:37:19,759 --> 00:37:20,977
but she said
she didn't need them.

783
00:37:20,977 --> 00:37:22,283
She swore by the neck brace.

784
00:37:22,283 --> 00:37:24,067
But you need 'em, honey.
So here.

785
00:37:24,067 --> 00:37:26,722
That right there is a gift
from Linda, okay?

786
00:37:26,722 --> 00:37:28,289
And we can worry
about kicking it later.

787
00:37:28,289 --> 00:37:29,725
Let's not rush things.

788
00:37:29,725 --> 00:37:31,945
What matters the most
is that you're home safe.

789
00:37:31,945 --> 00:37:35,122
Oh, babe.
Oh, my baby.

790
00:37:39,735 --> 00:37:41,259
Hey, Ry?

791
00:37:42,869 --> 00:37:44,784
Got Chinese food!

792
00:37:45,698 --> 00:37:48,222
I got sweet and sour chicken,

793
00:37:48,222 --> 00:37:51,007
beef with broccoli,
steamed rice.

794
00:37:51,747 --> 00:37:52,705
Where are ya?

795
00:37:53,358 --> 00:37:54,663
Hey, Ry?

796
00:37:55,925 --> 00:37:57,057
Ryan!

797
00:37:58,711 --> 00:38:01,148
What the...
Daniel, get out!

798
00:38:01,148 --> 00:38:02,454
- Hey. Hey!

799
00:38:02,454 --> 00:38:04,151
Okay. Whoa, whoa! Okay.

800
00:38:04,151 --> 00:38:06,240
Whoa, whoa, whoa. Calm down!
It's not what you think.

801
00:38:06,240 --> 00:38:08,503
I'm pretty sure it is
what I think. How old are you?

802
00:38:08,503 --> 00:38:09,678
Daniel! Get off of him.

803
00:38:09,678 --> 00:38:11,027
Shut up!

804
00:38:11,027 --> 00:38:12,638
I asked you a question, boy.
How old are you?

805
00:38:12,638 --> 00:38:14,988
- I'm 20.
- She's 16, and I'm an ex-cop.

806
00:38:14,988 --> 00:38:16,555
Looks like you picked
the wrong girl.

807
00:38:16,555 --> 00:38:17,773
You're choking him!

808
00:38:17,773 --> 00:38:19,601
She said she was 18 online.

809
00:38:19,601 --> 00:38:22,300
If I ever catch you
near my granddaughter again,

810
00:38:22,300 --> 00:38:23,953
I'm gonna rip
your fucking dick off

811
00:38:23,953 --> 00:38:25,564
and shove it down your throat.
You feel me?

812
00:38:25,564 --> 00:38:27,217
Yes, sir. Yes.

813
00:38:27,217 --> 00:38:29,002
Get the fuck out of here.

814
00:38:29,002 --> 00:38:31,439
Yes, sir.
Uh, I need my clothes.

815
00:38:31,439 --> 00:38:34,137
They're in my house.
They're my clothes now.

816
00:38:34,137 --> 00:38:35,313
Run away!

817
00:38:37,706 --> 00:38:38,838
Daniel!

818
00:38:38,838 --> 00:38:40,883
Get out of my fucking room!

819
00:38:40,883 --> 00:38:42,232
What the fuck?

820
00:38:42,232 --> 00:38:44,234
Hey, look, everybody!

821
00:38:44,234 --> 00:38:46,715
Statutory rapist
from Williamsburg!

822
00:38:46,715 --> 00:38:47,934
I need my keys!

823
00:38:47,934 --> 00:38:51,285
Oh, his keys! His keys!
Look at him!

824
00:38:51,285 --> 00:38:54,636
He's scrambling to his car!
Statutory rapist!

825
00:38:54,636 --> 00:38:55,855
Hey, Belinda,

826
00:38:55,855 --> 00:38:58,379
I found this fool in bed
with my Ryan.

827
00:38:58,379 --> 00:39:00,250
She said...
She said she was 18 online.

828
00:39:00,250 --> 00:39:01,687
You're a fuckboy.

829
00:39:01,687 --> 00:39:03,950
He's a fuckboy! That's what
the kids call them!

830
00:39:03,950 --> 00:39:06,518
Get out of
our neighborhood, fuckboy!

831
00:39:06,518 --> 00:39:08,084
Okay. Okay!

832
00:39:08,084 --> 00:39:09,172
Get out of here, fuckboy!

833
00:39:09,172 --> 00:39:10,260
All right! All right!

834
00:39:10,260 --> 00:39:11,523
Right fucking now!

835
00:39:11,523 --> 00:39:13,612
- Wet, flaccid fuckboy!
Okay, okay!

836
00:39:13,612 --> 00:39:14,700
Okay!

837
00:39:17,920 --> 00:39:19,966
I cannot believe
you just did that!

838
00:39:19,966 --> 00:39:21,054
Give me your phone.

839
00:39:22,403 --> 00:39:24,144
Give me the fucking phone
right now!

840
00:39:29,192 --> 00:39:30,672
You're grounded.

841
00:39:30,672 --> 00:39:33,936
You hear me?
You're grounded until...

842
00:39:33,936 --> 00:39:37,070
Shit, I can't think of
when you won't be grounded.

843
00:39:37,070 --> 00:39:38,898
You can't just lock me up, Daniel.

844
00:39:38,898 --> 00:39:41,857
For the last
fucking time, Ryan,

845
00:39:41,857 --> 00:39:43,903
you call me "Grandpa."

846
00:39:46,645 --> 00:39:50,431
I hate you!
I fucking hate you!

847
00:41:06,115 --> 00:41:09,945
<i>♪ Oh, I'm headed
to the mountains ♪</i>

848
00:41:12,208 --> 00:41:15,690
<i>♪ I'll be back
in a week or two ♪</i>

849
00:41:17,518 --> 00:41:19,781
<i>♪ Don't you try to reach me ♪</i>

850
00:41:19,781 --> 00:41:22,523
<i>♪ 'Cause I won't
pick up for you ♪</i>

851
00:41:25,787 --> 00:41:28,442
<i>♪ I've got some things
I neeed to do ♪</i>

852
00:41:43,718 --> 00:41:47,940
<i>♪ Oh, I'm headed
to the mountains ♪</i>

853
00:41:49,942 --> 00:41:52,901
<i>♪ The only place
I feel at peace ♪</i>

854
00:41:55,513 --> 00:41:57,993
<i>♪ And I knew
you'd come after me ♪</i>

855
00:41:57,993 --> 00:41:59,168
<i>♪ So I threw away
your keys... ♪</i>

856
00:42:02,432 --> 00:42:08,917
<i>♪ But I know you'd never go
when I say leave ♪</i>

857
00:42:08,917 --> 00:42:14,053
<i>♪ I'm headed to the mountains
don't wait up for me ♪</i>

858
00:42:23,845 --> 00:42:25,543
Allison, don't go.

859
00:42:27,283 --> 00:42:30,591
- This was a mistake.
- No. No, it isn't.

860
00:42:30,591 --> 00:42:34,595
Trust me, I know
how hard it is to get here.

861
00:42:34,595 --> 00:42:37,555
It's damn near impossible,
and you did it.

862
00:42:37,555 --> 00:42:39,687
Don't run away now
because of me.

863
00:42:39,687 --> 00:42:40,949
There are thousands
of meetings.

864
00:42:40,949 --> 00:42:42,560
- I'll find another one.
- Well, yeah,

865
00:42:42,560 --> 00:42:44,300
but this one
has the best snacks.

866
00:42:44,300 --> 00:42:45,954
- I wanna go.
- No.

867
00:42:45,954 --> 00:42:48,478
No, no. You've made it
this far, and I wouldn't.

868
00:42:48,478 --> 00:42:50,655
I don't wanna be here.

869
00:42:50,655 --> 00:42:52,221
Nobody does in the beginning.

870
00:42:52,221 --> 00:42:54,659
I don't wanna be anywhere.

871
00:42:54,659 --> 00:42:57,313
Then you are definitely
in the right spot.

872
00:42:58,401 --> 00:42:59,751
I thought you were sober.

873
00:43:00,534 --> 00:43:01,927
Ten years.

874
00:43:01,927 --> 00:43:05,670
I kinda slacked off
coming to regular meetings,

875
00:43:05,670 --> 00:43:07,410
and then lately, I...

876
00:43:08,455 --> 00:43:10,457
I realized I need the support.

877
00:43:11,458 --> 00:43:12,677
Because of what happened?

878
00:43:12,677 --> 00:43:15,810
No, no, no! No, it's...

879
00:43:15,810 --> 00:43:17,377
Is the accident the reason
why you came back?

880
00:43:17,377 --> 00:43:18,813
No, I just feel that...

881
00:43:18,813 --> 00:43:20,554
Daniel, am I the reason
why you're back here?

882
00:43:20,554 --> 00:43:21,686
Yes!

883
00:43:25,646 --> 00:43:26,995
Yes, of course.

884
00:43:29,041 --> 00:43:30,564
What the hell
do you want me to say?

885
00:43:31,434 --> 00:43:33,349
- I'm sorry.
- No.

886
00:43:33,349 --> 00:43:35,264
Look.

887
00:43:35,264 --> 00:43:39,704
I got ten years,
and lately, I've been feeling

888
00:43:39,704 --> 00:43:43,229
like I really,
really want a drink.

889
00:43:45,057 --> 00:43:46,406
This works.

890
00:43:48,669 --> 00:43:49,757
Thank you.

891
00:43:49,757 --> 00:43:52,804
Um, I'm gonna find
somewhere else.

892
00:43:52,804 --> 00:43:54,588
There are thousands
of these meetings.

893
00:43:54,588 --> 00:43:57,852
Yeah, but somehow you found
your way to this one.

894
00:43:59,462 --> 00:44:00,855
Now isn't that something?

895
00:44:03,771 --> 00:44:05,381
All right, come on.

896
00:44:09,995 --> 00:44:11,126
Come on.

897
00:44:13,215 --> 00:44:14,260
Okay.

898
00:44:15,827 --> 00:44:17,829
<i>Everybody, welcome.</i>

899
00:44:17,829 --> 00:44:19,352
This is the regular meeting

900
00:44:19,352 --> 00:44:22,050
of the Live and Let Live group
of Alcoholics Anonymous.

901
00:44:22,050 --> 00:44:23,356
My name is Simone,

902
00:44:23,356 --> 00:44:26,141
and I'm an alcoholic,
and your secretary.

903
00:44:26,141 --> 00:44:29,057
Let us open the meeting
with the Serenity Prayer.

904
00:44:31,233 --> 00:44:32,365
God...

905
00:44:32,365 --> 00:44:33,540
...grant me the serenity

906
00:44:33,540 --> 00:44:36,064
to accept the things
I cannot change,

907
00:44:36,064 --> 00:44:38,719
the courage
to change the things I can,

908
00:44:38,719 --> 00:44:41,766
and the wisdom
to know the difference.

909
00:44:47,554 --> 00:44:51,210
Hey, you got up awfully early
this morning.

910
00:44:51,210 --> 00:44:53,212
I went to an NA meeting.

911
00:44:53,212 --> 00:44:55,954
What? You did?
- Mmm-hmm. Mmm-hmm.

912
00:44:55,954 --> 00:44:59,697
Oh, Allie.
I'm so happy to hear that.

913
00:44:59,697 --> 00:45:02,047
Well, I'm not saying
I'm gonna go again.

914
00:45:02,047 --> 00:45:04,353
Well, you gotta start somewhere,

915
00:45:04,353 --> 00:45:05,920
and sounds like you did.

916
00:45:05,920 --> 00:45:07,487
- Mm-hmm.
- So that's good.

917
00:45:07,487 --> 00:45:12,100
I don't know if I'll be able
to just quit, though, Mom.

918
00:45:12,100 --> 00:45:14,189
I think I need real help,

919
00:45:14,189 --> 00:45:16,801
like an in-patient program
or something.

920
00:45:16,801 --> 00:45:18,672
Well, honey,
neither of us has insurance,

921
00:45:18,672 --> 00:45:21,370
so how the hell are we
supposed to pay for that?

922
00:45:21,370 --> 00:45:22,937
I mean, you gotta get a job.

923
00:45:22,937 --> 00:45:25,723
Mom, who's gonna hire me
like this?

924
00:45:25,723 --> 00:45:27,812
- Come on.
- Like, no...

925
00:45:27,812 --> 00:45:28,987
What do you mean?

926
00:45:28,987 --> 00:45:30,684
You're a beautiful
26-year-old woman.

927
00:45:30,684 --> 00:45:33,382
- You're smart, you're funny...
- No, I'm not. No, I'm not.

928
00:45:33,382 --> 00:45:35,123
- Yes, you are.
- No, I'm not.

929
00:45:35,123 --> 00:45:36,864
That's the old me
you're describing.

930
00:45:36,864 --> 00:45:37,952
You're still you.

931
00:45:37,952 --> 00:45:40,912
No, I'm not! I'm...

932
00:45:40,912 --> 00:45:43,218
I'm something else.

933
00:45:45,003 --> 00:45:46,178
I'm something...

934
00:45:47,222 --> 00:45:48,746
Ugh. Um...

935
00:45:54,186 --> 00:45:56,231
I was thinking, um...

936
00:45:59,800 --> 00:46:03,456
You know how Dad was probably
gonna get me a wedding gift,

937
00:46:03,456 --> 00:46:05,763
or, well, at least
he was gonna come, right?

938
00:46:05,763 --> 00:46:07,634
Maybe instead
of whatever it was

939
00:46:07,634 --> 00:46:09,462
that he was gonna give me,

940
00:46:10,985 --> 00:46:15,337
maybe he could help pay
for me to get help.

941
00:46:15,337 --> 00:46:17,775
And so, I was wondering if you

942
00:46:18,471 --> 00:46:20,081
would call him for me.

943
00:46:20,081 --> 00:46:23,389
Allie, I will never speak
to that man as long as I live.

944
00:46:23,389 --> 00:46:24,869
Do you know what he did?

945
00:46:24,869 --> 00:46:27,523
He packed his car up,
and he left us with nothing.

946
00:46:27,523 --> 00:46:29,525
But it is what it is, okay?

947
00:46:29,525 --> 00:46:32,964
So, you gotta pull yourself up
by your bootstraps, now.

948
00:46:34,574 --> 00:46:35,793
Thanks, Mom.

949
00:46:35,793 --> 00:46:37,577
Yeah, I'm sorry
I can't get over this

950
00:46:37,577 --> 00:46:39,405
as fast as you want me to.

951
00:46:39,405 --> 00:46:41,015
- Allie...
- Nah.

952
00:46:52,157 --> 00:46:53,811
Well, look who it is.

953
00:46:54,550 --> 00:46:56,857
Hi, Dad.

954
00:46:56,857 --> 00:47:00,034
What brings you to the less
glamorous side of the river?

955
00:47:00,034 --> 00:47:02,428
Ryan asked me to come see her.

956
00:47:02,428 --> 00:47:05,083
Turns out, she really
wanted me to talk to you.

957
00:47:05,083 --> 00:47:07,433
- Oh?
- She's worried about you.

958
00:47:07,433 --> 00:47:09,130
She's worried about me?

959
00:47:10,131 --> 00:47:12,003
That girl's crazy.

960
00:47:12,003 --> 00:47:14,919
She says she thinks
you need a friend.

961
00:47:14,919 --> 00:47:16,703
Hell, I don't need a friend.

962
00:47:16,703 --> 00:47:18,879
I need a dog crate
the size of a teenager.

963
00:47:22,317 --> 00:47:24,450
Look, Nathan,
I understand your need

964
00:47:24,450 --> 00:47:26,408
to move on
after the breakup...

965
00:47:28,846 --> 00:47:29,890
but, hell, I never imagined

966
00:47:29,890 --> 00:47:32,806
I'd be doing this
all by myself.

967
00:47:32,806 --> 00:47:34,460
You raised two kids.

968
00:47:34,460 --> 00:47:35,722
I had your mother.

969
00:47:37,550 --> 00:47:40,161
And you and your sister were
much better behaved than Ry.

970
00:47:42,903 --> 00:47:45,340
What? Come on.
Speak your mind, son.

971
00:47:45,340 --> 00:47:48,256
We were good because
we were terrified of you.

972
00:47:49,954 --> 00:47:51,738
So, I'm not surprised

973
00:47:51,738 --> 00:47:53,174
you don't have any tools
in your arsenal

974
00:47:53,174 --> 00:47:55,394
since you lost
the only one that you had.

975
00:47:55,394 --> 00:47:56,874
Fear.

976
00:47:59,877 --> 00:48:05,447
I have apologized 100 times
to you for the way I was.

977
00:48:07,972 --> 00:48:11,497
Your sister found a way
to give me another chance.

978
00:48:11,497 --> 00:48:13,151
How come you can't?

979
00:48:13,151 --> 00:48:16,632
'Cause Molly never really got
the brunt of it, did she?

980
00:48:16,632 --> 00:48:19,679
I guarantee you that if
she was standing here now,

981
00:48:19,679 --> 00:48:22,290
she would be begging you
to drop this shit,

982
00:48:22,290 --> 00:48:23,857
and help me raise her child.

983
00:48:23,857 --> 00:48:25,380
Well, she isn't.

984
00:48:27,295 --> 00:48:28,775
No, she's not.

985
00:48:32,822 --> 00:48:34,563
I have to catch the train.

986
00:48:35,738 --> 00:48:37,175
I saw Allison.

987
00:48:41,657 --> 00:48:42,789
Where?

988
00:48:42,789 --> 00:48:44,878
Not supposed to say.

989
00:48:45,966 --> 00:48:47,533
AA?

990
00:48:47,533 --> 00:48:48,751
Not supposed to say.

991
00:48:48,751 --> 00:48:50,101
What the hell
does she need AA for?

992
00:48:50,101 --> 00:48:51,885
- I'm not supposed to...
- To say.

993
00:48:54,366 --> 00:48:55,367
I got it.

994
00:48:57,108 --> 00:48:59,458
Of all the meetings,
she ends up at yours?

995
00:48:59,458 --> 00:49:01,982
She saw me,
she tried to run away,

996
00:49:01,982 --> 00:49:04,202
but I pulled her back.

997
00:49:04,202 --> 00:49:05,420
Why?

998
00:49:06,595 --> 00:49:07,814
She's suffering, Nathan.

999
00:49:09,381 --> 00:49:10,425
Broken.

1000
00:49:11,296 --> 00:49:12,384
Lost.

1001
00:49:12,384 --> 00:49:14,777
You're the one who blamed her!

1002
00:49:15,909 --> 00:49:17,302
I stood by her!

1003
00:49:17,302 --> 00:49:20,566
Yeah, until she left your ass.

1004
00:49:20,566 --> 00:49:24,048
Sorry. Sorry, that came out
harsher than I meant.

1005
00:49:24,048 --> 00:49:26,093
I have to catch the train.

1006
00:49:26,093 --> 00:49:27,442
Please, Nathan.

1007
00:49:28,269 --> 00:49:30,445
I need help.

1008
00:49:30,445 --> 00:49:33,231
Ryan asked me to come by
and say "hi" to you.

1009
00:49:34,275 --> 00:49:35,537
And I did.

1010
00:49:36,886 --> 00:49:37,887
Okay.

1011
00:49:40,586 --> 00:49:41,674
Hi.

1012
00:50:00,823 --> 00:50:03,435
<i>- Best first date ever.
- I heard that.</i>

1013
00:50:17,449 --> 00:50:20,321
<i>I used to drink
whiskey until I blacked out.</i>

1014
00:50:21,757 --> 00:50:23,846
Wake up the next morning
to find out

1015
00:50:25,022 --> 00:50:27,285
what I had done,
who I had been.

1016
00:50:33,204 --> 00:50:34,988
My father was a drunk.

1017
00:50:37,904 --> 00:50:42,039
He beat me
right up to the day he died.

1018
00:50:44,563 --> 00:50:48,045
And I vowed I would never
lay a hand on my children.

1019
00:50:50,351 --> 00:50:51,700
And I didn't...

1020
00:50:53,746 --> 00:50:55,269
while I was sober.

1021
00:50:58,185 --> 00:50:59,795
But in the blackness...

1022
00:51:03,582 --> 00:51:07,325
I always denied because
I really couldn't remember.

1023
00:51:09,066 --> 00:51:10,893
Sometimes there'd be a bruise.

1024
00:51:12,982 --> 00:51:16,377
"Oh, you must have
fallen down.

1025
00:51:16,377 --> 00:51:18,466
"I'm your daddy.
I would never hurt you."

1026
00:51:20,033 --> 00:51:22,557
August 11th, '99...

1027
00:51:25,865 --> 00:51:30,304
I woke up on my front porch to
the sound of church bells...

1028
00:51:33,220 --> 00:51:34,917
and an ice cream truck.

1029
00:51:35,962 --> 00:51:38,051
So, I knew it was Sunday.

1030
00:51:38,051 --> 00:51:42,229
First thing
I saw was my captain

1031
00:51:43,491 --> 00:51:46,015
standing over me,

1032
00:51:46,015 --> 00:51:48,627
poking me in the ribs
with his nightstick.

1033
00:51:51,934 --> 00:51:53,284
An ambulance.

1034
00:51:55,112 --> 00:51:58,854
My son, Nathan,
sitting in the back,

1035
00:52:00,247 --> 00:52:01,683
bleeding from the head.

1036
00:52:03,120 --> 00:52:05,731
Medics had bought him
a popsicle.

1037
00:52:08,037 --> 00:52:09,909
Turns out that...

1038
00:52:11,911 --> 00:52:13,739
in the blackness...

1039
00:52:17,308 --> 00:52:20,441
I had beat him so bad

1040
00:52:20,441 --> 00:52:23,662
that he lost the hearing
in his right ear.

1041
00:52:23,662 --> 00:52:24,750
Forever.

1042
00:52:26,186 --> 00:52:29,494
And to this day,
every time I see him,

1043
00:52:29,494 --> 00:52:33,019
I beg for his forgiveness.

1044
00:52:34,455 --> 00:52:36,501
It's just a little dance
we do.

1045
00:52:37,806 --> 00:52:39,417
A mere formality.

1046
00:52:41,419 --> 00:52:43,029
Because we both know...

1047
00:52:45,858 --> 00:52:48,382
that there are some things
that are just

1048
00:52:50,036 --> 00:52:51,994
impossible to forgive.

1049
00:52:56,216 --> 00:53:01,221
I do believe
even God knows that.

1050
00:53:08,576 --> 00:53:11,013
When I was a cop,
I used to eat here every day.

1051
00:53:11,971 --> 00:53:13,668
Free coffee refills.

1052
00:53:16,497 --> 00:53:17,498
You hungry?

1053
00:53:19,196 --> 00:53:20,197
No.

1054
00:53:20,936 --> 00:53:21,937
Hmm.

1055
00:53:24,418 --> 00:53:26,638
Funny, the things
we stop caring about.

1056
00:53:28,727 --> 00:53:30,424
I used to want to travel.

1057
00:53:32,078 --> 00:53:34,298
I would leaf through
<i>National Geographic</i>

1058
00:53:34,298 --> 00:53:36,300
and dog-ear
all of the exotic places

1059
00:53:36,300 --> 00:53:38,606
I would visit once I retired.

1060
00:53:41,392 --> 00:53:43,394
Never do that now.

1061
00:53:43,394 --> 00:53:46,135
- You still could.
- No, no. I couldn't.

1062
00:53:51,228 --> 00:53:56,885
I wasn't drunk,
or on anything, by the way.

1063
00:53:57,669 --> 00:53:58,670
What?

1064
00:53:59,932 --> 00:54:02,369
When I saw you the other day
at the meeting,

1065
00:54:04,066 --> 00:54:08,201
I instantly got worried
that you may have thought

1066
00:54:08,201 --> 00:54:11,378
that I was drinking
or on drugs

1067
00:54:11,378 --> 00:54:13,075
on the day of the accident,
and I wasn't.

1068
00:54:13,075 --> 00:54:15,513
I was sober.
It wasn't my fault.

1069
00:54:17,254 --> 00:54:19,517
I have every report
ever written

1070
00:54:19,517 --> 00:54:21,301
committed to memory.

1071
00:54:21,954 --> 00:54:23,042
Right.

1072
00:54:25,349 --> 00:54:26,611
So, you know that it was

1073
00:54:26,611 --> 00:54:28,352
the backhoe guy's fault, Alvarez.

1074
00:54:28,352 --> 00:54:30,049
I don't wanna get
into that all right now.

1075
00:54:30,049 --> 00:54:31,572
Okay, yeah, you're right.

1076
00:54:36,534 --> 00:54:39,232
Nathan said that he was deaf
since birth.

1077
00:54:40,581 --> 00:54:41,930
He never told you?

1078
00:54:43,323 --> 00:54:45,499
Maybe he wanted me
to like you.

1079
00:54:47,066 --> 00:54:48,720
I doubt that.

1080
00:54:52,376 --> 00:54:56,467
I thought that raising Ryan
would offer me the chance

1081
00:54:56,467 --> 00:54:59,121
to be a better father
than I ever was.

1082
00:54:59,992 --> 00:55:01,733
Shit.

1083
00:55:01,733 --> 00:55:04,692
I'm in way over my head.

1084
00:55:04,692 --> 00:55:07,956
I got one of those audiobooks
from the library.

1085
00:55:07,956 --> 00:55:09,218
<i>How to Talk to a Teen.</i>

1086
00:55:09,218 --> 00:55:11,177
Oh, yeah?

1087
00:55:11,177 --> 00:55:12,831
How's that working out?

1088
00:55:12,831 --> 00:55:15,442
- Well, it's from the '80s...

1089
00:55:15,442 --> 00:55:16,791
It's on a cassette.

1090
00:55:16,791 --> 00:55:17,879
Right.

1091
00:55:17,879 --> 00:55:19,490
Its advice is,

1092
00:55:20,839 --> 00:55:22,319
"Chaperone a dance."

1093
00:55:26,061 --> 00:55:28,325
"Chaperone a dance."

1094
00:55:28,325 --> 00:55:30,239
I just caught her having sex

1095
00:55:30,239 --> 00:55:32,503
with a boy
who looked like a man.

1096
00:55:34,896 --> 00:55:36,768
A dance would be delightful.

1097
00:55:38,160 --> 00:55:40,119
Can I give you some advice

1098
00:55:41,120 --> 00:55:43,122
from a former teenage girl?

1099
00:55:44,906 --> 00:55:46,386
She's gonna have sex.

1100
00:55:47,822 --> 00:55:50,782
And nothing you say
is gonna change that.

1101
00:55:53,262 --> 00:55:55,439
Just make sure
she's on birth control.

1102
00:55:55,439 --> 00:55:56,657
- Birth control?
- Yeah.

1103
00:55:56,657 --> 00:55:59,094
She's 16!

1104
00:55:59,094 --> 00:56:01,314
No, we'll be going
the abstinence route.

1105
00:56:02,402 --> 00:56:03,708
No offense, Daniel,

1106
00:56:03,708 --> 00:56:06,493
but, uh, there's a knot
in your logic.

1107
00:56:07,973 --> 00:56:09,366
You're trying to solve
a problem

1108
00:56:09,366 --> 00:56:11,193
by looking
in the other direction.

1109
00:56:14,632 --> 00:56:16,590
I could talk to her
if you want me to.

1110
00:56:16,590 --> 00:56:18,549
Oh, well, no thanks.

1111
00:56:18,549 --> 00:56:20,159
- It's okay. Of course.
- That's not appropriate.

1112
00:56:20,159 --> 00:56:21,595
I don't even know
why I just said that.

1113
00:56:21,595 --> 00:56:22,857
- I'm sorry.
- No, it's okay.

1114
00:56:22,857 --> 00:56:24,381
It's just that
I don't think that it's...

1115
00:56:24,381 --> 00:56:25,947
I just felt the need,

1116
00:56:27,427 --> 00:56:30,387
um, the instinct
to help in some way.

1117
00:56:31,344 --> 00:56:32,867
It's the least I could do.

1118
00:56:40,440 --> 00:56:42,355
I don't know how to do this.

1119
00:56:43,356 --> 00:56:44,313
What?

1120
00:56:44,836 --> 00:56:46,359
Start all over.

1121
00:56:48,143 --> 00:56:49,493
How do you do it?

1122
00:56:50,755 --> 00:56:52,147
Takes work.

1123
00:56:55,150 --> 00:56:58,110
- Can I tell you a secret?
- Sure.

1124
00:57:03,115 --> 00:57:05,334
I'm not sure I have the will.

1125
00:57:27,487 --> 00:57:30,011
What does <i>"amor fati"</i> mean?

1126
00:57:33,928 --> 00:57:35,539
Certain things are private.

1127
00:57:36,714 --> 00:57:38,542
Do you think I'm fucked up?

1128
00:57:39,978 --> 00:57:42,023
Are you high right now?

1129
00:57:43,329 --> 00:57:44,461
No.

1130
00:57:45,853 --> 00:57:47,855
I was a cop for 40 years.

1131
00:57:47,855 --> 00:57:49,553
I was an addict for 50.

1132
00:57:51,076 --> 00:57:53,165
So, I'm gonna ask you again.

1133
00:57:54,383 --> 00:57:55,907
Are you high right now?

1134
00:57:56,908 --> 00:57:58,126
Well, I...

1135
00:57:59,954 --> 00:58:01,608
I broke a pill in half.

1136
00:58:01,608 --> 00:58:03,044
So, half.

1137
00:58:04,872 --> 00:58:07,309
Yes, I think
you're fucked up, Allison.

1138
00:58:10,225 --> 00:58:11,531
Not half.

1139
00:58:12,401 --> 00:58:14,273
All fucked up.

1140
00:58:14,273 --> 00:58:16,188
Do you think
I'll ever pull out of this?

1141
00:58:18,016 --> 00:58:23,325
I mean, like, maybe one day
I might be the kind of person

1142
00:58:24,762 --> 00:58:26,241
that people want
their granddaughter

1143
00:58:26,241 --> 00:58:28,287
to hang out with?

1144
00:58:28,287 --> 00:58:29,984
I have no idea.

1145
00:58:31,769 --> 00:58:33,031
Me neither.

1146
00:58:48,350 --> 00:58:51,353
Can I have
my phone back, please?

1147
00:58:51,353 --> 00:58:54,182
I'm running out of ideas
on how to handle you, Ryan.

1148
00:58:55,270 --> 00:58:56,837
Grandpa,
everybody at my age has sex.

1149
00:58:56,837 --> 00:58:58,709
It's, like, not a big deal.

1150
00:58:58,709 --> 00:59:00,101
I know it was different
when you were younger,

1151
00:59:00,101 --> 00:59:02,930
but that's just, like,
not how it is anymore.

1152
00:59:06,891 --> 00:59:09,241
Well,
let me ask you something.

1153
00:59:15,464 --> 00:59:16,509
Are you...

1154
00:59:19,033 --> 00:59:21,079
Are you using

1155
00:59:21,906 --> 00:59:24,212
any protection?

1156
00:59:24,212 --> 00:59:25,823
Oh, my God!

1157
00:59:25,823 --> 00:59:28,521
I am so not gonna talk about
this with my grandfather.

1158
00:59:28,521 --> 00:59:30,523
How the hell
do you think I feel?

1159
00:59:34,571 --> 00:59:37,095
- I know you're upset.
- I'm not upset.

1160
00:59:37,095 --> 00:59:38,357
Maybe you should go back

1161
00:59:39,227 --> 00:59:40,751
and see that therapist again.

1162
00:59:40,751 --> 00:59:42,056
No. I just

1163
00:59:43,188 --> 00:59:45,843
want my phone back.

1164
00:59:45,843 --> 00:59:49,063
I don't have any friends
at Columbia

1165
00:59:49,063 --> 00:59:51,370
and I want to

1166
00:59:51,370 --> 00:59:54,025
hang onto the few I still have
on Long Beach Island.

1167
00:59:55,374 --> 00:59:57,071
How come
you can't make friends?

1168
00:59:57,071 --> 00:59:58,725
I've been through a lot
this year.

1169
00:59:59,247 --> 01:00:00,509
Hmm.

1170
01:00:01,467 --> 01:00:03,948
And nobody really understands.

1171
01:00:05,166 --> 01:00:07,604
They try. Some, but...

1172
01:00:08,561 --> 01:00:10,171
I mean, it's fake.

1173
01:00:10,171 --> 01:00:11,999
Don't you think
most people are so fake?

1174
01:00:13,435 --> 01:00:16,047
I would probably say
"duplicitous."

1175
01:00:17,048 --> 01:00:18,136
What does that mean?

1176
01:00:18,963 --> 01:00:20,486
Fake.

1177
01:00:23,576 --> 01:00:24,925
I'm on your side.

1178
01:00:26,884 --> 01:00:27,928
I know.

1179
01:00:28,581 --> 01:00:30,235
Tell you what.

1180
01:00:30,235 --> 01:00:33,107
You can have your phone back

1181
01:00:33,107 --> 01:00:36,981
if you promise to start taking
birth control pills.

1182
01:00:36,981 --> 01:00:38,983
Ugh! Oh, my God! Daniel!

1183
01:00:38,983 --> 01:00:40,114
Grandpa!

1184
01:00:42,943 --> 01:00:44,031
Grandpa.

1185
01:00:45,467 --> 01:00:48,340
Is it a deal?
I'll make the appointment.

1186
01:00:49,994 --> 01:00:52,257
Fine. Fine.

1187
01:00:52,257 --> 01:00:53,737
I just

1188
01:00:53,737 --> 01:00:56,783
never want to talk to you
about sex ever again.

1189
01:00:58,002 --> 01:01:00,134
Oh, really?

1190
01:01:01,005 --> 01:01:02,789
'Cause I just love this shit.

1191
01:01:09,709 --> 01:01:11,537
Have you ever been
on campus before?

1192
01:01:11,537 --> 01:01:13,234
Not since I was a kid.

1193
01:01:13,234 --> 01:01:14,888
I used to do swim meets here.

1194
01:01:14,888 --> 01:01:16,194
- Oh, yeah?
- Yeah.

1195
01:01:16,194 --> 01:01:18,196
- You were a swimmer?
Uh, yeah.

1196
01:01:18,196 --> 01:01:20,720
Well, I was 12, but yeah,
I was pretty good.

1197
01:01:20,720 --> 01:01:22,853
I still have all the trophies
and the ribbons.

1198
01:01:22,853 --> 01:01:24,811
- That's cool.
- Mmm.

1199
01:01:24,811 --> 01:01:27,684
- What stroke?
- Mostly freestyle.

1200
01:01:29,076 --> 01:01:30,338
Why'd you stop?

1201
01:01:31,209 --> 01:01:34,429
Um, my dad left.

1202
01:01:34,429 --> 01:01:37,258
Yeah, it was kinda the thing
that we used to do together.

1203
01:01:37,258 --> 01:01:39,696
He would cheer so loud
I could hear him underwater.

1204
01:01:41,045 --> 01:01:43,047
Seemed kind of pointless
to do it without him.

1205
01:01:44,396 --> 01:01:46,790
- Where'd he go?
- Ohio.

1206
01:01:48,139 --> 01:01:49,706
Started a whole new family
in Ohio.

1207
01:01:49,706 --> 01:01:51,272
Wow.

1208
01:01:51,272 --> 01:01:54,014
He has 10-year-old twins. Yeah.

1209
01:01:54,014 --> 01:01:56,103
I don't know
if they swim or not, though.

1210
01:01:56,103 --> 01:01:58,671
Oh, man. I am always
just amazed at people

1211
01:01:58,671 --> 01:02:01,239
who can, like, up and leave
their kids like that.

1212
01:02:01,239 --> 01:02:02,370
Mmm.

1213
01:02:02,370 --> 01:02:03,720
I just don't know
how you could,

1214
01:02:03,720 --> 01:02:06,810
like, fucking sleep at night.

1215
01:02:06,810 --> 01:02:10,901
For so long, I thought
that I'd done something wrong.

1216
01:02:10,901 --> 01:02:14,339
Like, it was my fault,
or I'd let him down.

1217
01:02:15,514 --> 01:02:18,386
And then I just realized,

1218
01:02:18,386 --> 01:02:21,694
I don't know, maybe
some people just aren't good.

1219
01:02:21,694 --> 01:02:22,826
Hmm.

1220
01:02:24,349 --> 01:02:26,655
It's kinda like he, like,
restarted a level

1221
01:02:26,655 --> 01:02:29,093
in a video game
with a fresh life.

1222
01:02:29,093 --> 01:02:31,617
- That's exactly what he did!

1223
01:02:31,617 --> 01:02:35,621
He packed up the car,
and left his Rolex

1224
01:02:35,621 --> 01:02:38,276
in the attic of my dollhouse,

1225
01:02:38,276 --> 01:02:39,843
and he drove away.

1226
01:02:43,672 --> 01:02:44,717
Hey, let's sit
for a second, okay?

1227
01:02:44,717 --> 01:02:46,501
- Yeah, yeah.

1228
01:02:48,155 --> 01:02:51,768
Uh... So, I'll sponsor you.

1229
01:02:51,768 --> 01:02:54,901
- Okay.
- But, um,

1230
01:02:54,901 --> 01:02:56,816
you gotta start
taking this shit seriously.

1231
01:02:58,296 --> 01:03:00,733
You can't keep coming
to meetings high.

1232
01:03:00,733 --> 01:03:02,169
What?

1233
01:03:04,998 --> 01:03:06,739
How did you know?

1234
01:03:08,088 --> 01:03:10,874
Uh, because I was you.

1235
01:03:10,874 --> 01:03:13,790
And I've helped
dozens of women who were you.

1236
01:03:15,226 --> 01:03:19,012
And some beat it,
and some are dead.

1237
01:03:21,841 --> 01:03:23,103
But, you know,

1238
01:03:24,278 --> 01:03:26,715
if you want my time,
you gotta commit.

1239
01:03:26,715 --> 01:03:28,021
Because I have a toddler
so I just

1240
01:03:28,021 --> 01:03:29,327
- don't have time for bullshit.
- Yeah.

1241
01:03:29,327 --> 01:03:33,070
No, I do. I... I...
I really wanna beat it.

1242
01:03:33,070 --> 01:03:35,855
Then I want you to do
90 meetings in 90 days.

1243
01:03:35,855 --> 01:03:37,422
- Wow.
- Yeah.

1244
01:03:37,422 --> 01:03:40,251
And, um, we're gonna
get you started on step one.

1245
01:03:41,339 --> 01:03:42,296
Okay.

1246
01:03:43,558 --> 01:03:44,690
Okay.

1247
01:03:44,690 --> 01:03:48,476
Also, enough hiding out, man.

1248
01:03:48,476 --> 01:03:49,738
It's time you shared
with the group.

1249
01:03:51,828 --> 01:03:53,830
- All right.
- Uh...

1250
01:03:56,441 --> 01:04:02,490
Hi, I'm Allison,
and I'm addicted to, uh,

1251
01:04:03,883 --> 01:04:05,406
pills.

1252
01:04:05,406 --> 01:04:07,582
Hi, Allison.

1253
01:04:07,582 --> 01:04:08,714
Uh...

1254
01:04:10,194 --> 01:04:12,370
Sorry. Can I start again?

1255
01:04:12,370 --> 01:04:14,589
I've never done this before,
and I'm nervous.

1256
01:04:14,589 --> 01:04:15,721
You got it.

1257
01:04:20,378 --> 01:04:25,426
Hi, I'm Allison,
and I'm an addict.

1258
01:04:25,426 --> 01:04:27,298
Hi, Allison.

1259
01:04:30,475 --> 01:04:31,650
I...

1260
01:04:33,913 --> 01:04:34,871
Um...

1261
01:04:38,048 --> 01:04:39,658
I was the driver

1262
01:04:41,094 --> 01:04:43,096
of a car

1263
01:04:43,096 --> 01:04:44,924
that was in
a really bad accident.

1264
01:04:48,188 --> 01:04:49,581
Two people died.

1265
01:04:53,193 --> 01:04:54,499
The woman was...

1266
01:04:58,242 --> 01:05:01,680
The woman was about to be
my sister-in-law.

1267
01:05:05,640 --> 01:05:08,252
We were on our way to try on
my wedding dresses.

1268
01:05:12,604 --> 01:05:13,735
And then we weren't.

1269
01:05:15,215 --> 01:05:16,477
It wasn't my fault.

1270
01:05:18,131 --> 01:05:21,613
I wasn't on drugs or booze,
or drunk, or anything.

1271
01:05:23,702 --> 01:05:24,877
But, uh...

1272
01:05:35,279 --> 01:05:39,022
Surviving that day was, is...

1273
01:05:42,373 --> 01:05:44,288
the most painful thing

1274
01:05:44,288 --> 01:05:46,159
I will ever
have to live through.

1275
01:05:48,727 --> 01:05:51,034
I got hurt, too.

1276
01:05:52,035 --> 01:05:53,775
They put a hole in my head.

1277
01:05:54,820 --> 01:05:56,865
And, um,

1278
01:05:56,865 --> 01:05:58,519
that helped because
at least I had something

1279
01:05:58,519 --> 01:05:59,912
I could blame the pain on.

1280
01:06:02,654 --> 01:06:03,916
But then that healed...

1281
01:06:06,788 --> 01:06:08,225
and I was still hurting.

1282
01:06:10,183 --> 01:06:11,445
And I guess that's why
I didn't realize

1283
01:06:11,445 --> 01:06:13,491
how bad it was because to me...

1284
01:06:15,841 --> 01:06:17,538
I was still in so much pain.

1285
01:06:27,592 --> 01:06:30,856
I was, um, prescribed them
for physical pain,

1286
01:06:30,856 --> 01:06:32,989
and they really helped
with that. They really did.

1287
01:06:37,384 --> 01:06:39,908
But they made me numb.
Blissfully numb.

1288
01:06:45,479 --> 01:06:47,090
Without them I want to die.

1289
01:06:48,743 --> 01:06:50,354
Every day.

1290
01:06:54,097 --> 01:06:56,882
I've never said that
out loud before.

1291
01:07:00,059 --> 01:07:01,017
Um...

1292
01:07:03,019 --> 01:07:05,804
I've never really faced
reality without them.

1293
01:07:08,154 --> 01:07:10,374
And I don't know if I'll be
able to handle what I see,

1294
01:07:10,374 --> 01:07:13,725
but I'm here to try.

1295
01:07:18,512 --> 01:07:19,905
Okay. That's it.

1296
01:07:21,385 --> 01:07:23,691
That's it.

1297
01:07:27,434 --> 01:07:28,609
What happens now?

1298
01:07:44,930 --> 01:07:46,105
You made all of this?

1299
01:07:47,628 --> 01:07:51,328
Uh, I assembled it
and designed it.

1300
01:07:51,328 --> 01:07:53,069
Yeah.

1301
01:07:53,069 --> 01:07:56,985
You see,
the houses come as a kit.

1302
01:07:56,985 --> 01:07:59,945
You just assemble them
and paint them...

1303
01:07:59,945 --> 01:08:02,382
Schoolhouse,
I built from scratch.

1304
01:08:06,821 --> 01:08:10,216
Hey, there are two kids
making out back here.

1305
01:08:10,216 --> 01:08:11,826
- That's me.

1306
01:08:12,958 --> 01:08:14,829
- You were handsome.

1307
01:08:15,265 --> 01:08:16,309
And tiny.

1308
01:08:17,832 --> 01:08:21,488
Yeah, my very first kiss
behind the schoolhouse.

1309
01:08:23,142 --> 01:08:24,622
Olivia Williams.

1310
01:08:26,493 --> 01:08:28,930
It was fall.
Tip of her nose was cold.

1311
01:08:30,193 --> 01:08:32,151
Little runny.

1312
01:08:32,151 --> 01:08:35,415
She stood on tiptoe.
Tasted like bubble gum.

1313
01:08:36,634 --> 01:08:37,591
Is that
who you married?

1314
01:08:37,591 --> 01:08:39,593
No! No, no.

1315
01:08:39,593 --> 01:08:43,423
No, she dumped me the next day
for Charlie Cook.

1316
01:08:43,423 --> 01:08:46,731
- Oh.
- He smoked Camels.

1317
01:08:46,731 --> 01:08:50,343
And drove
a Buick Riviera Roadmaster.

1318
01:08:50,343 --> 01:08:52,519
So, is this all inspired
by your life?

1319
01:08:53,303 --> 01:08:54,304
Kinda.

1320
01:08:55,522 --> 01:08:57,133
Supposed to be South Orange.

1321
01:08:58,482 --> 01:08:59,526
I grew up here.

1322
01:09:01,006 --> 01:09:02,616
I was a cop in Newark.

1323
01:09:03,661 --> 01:09:05,010
I've always lived here.

1324
01:09:07,186 --> 01:09:08,187
Who's the soldier?

1325
01:09:09,014 --> 01:09:10,407
That's me.

1326
01:09:10,407 --> 01:09:12,757
Day I got home from Vietnam.

1327
01:09:14,106 --> 01:09:16,587
That other little figure there
is my father.

1328
01:09:16,587 --> 01:09:19,981
He came down to the station
to pick me up.

1329
01:09:19,981 --> 01:09:21,940
- This is incredible.
- Mm.

1330
01:09:23,507 --> 01:09:25,248
How long did it take you?

1331
01:09:25,248 --> 01:09:27,250
Years.

1332
01:09:27,250 --> 01:09:29,426
I started
with a single figure-eight

1333
01:09:30,209 --> 01:09:32,080
and a two-car train.

1334
01:09:32,907 --> 01:09:34,518
I work on it when I can.

1335
01:09:35,562 --> 01:09:37,608
Got more time
now that I've retired.

1336
01:09:38,565 --> 01:09:40,437
My wife passed.

1337
01:09:40,437 --> 01:09:42,743
Ryan used to hang out with me
down here.

1338
01:09:44,049 --> 01:09:46,965
She liked the whistle
and the microphone.

1339
01:09:46,965 --> 01:09:48,314
There's a microphone?

1340
01:09:48,314 --> 01:09:49,750
Right over there.

1341
01:09:49,750 --> 01:09:51,361
How else you gonna tell
your passengers

1342
01:09:51,361 --> 01:09:53,058
- that the train's coming?

1343
01:10:09,205 --> 01:10:12,643
<i>♪ Take the last train
to Clarksville ♪</i>

1344
01:10:12,643 --> 01:10:15,689
<i>♪ And I'll meet you
at the station ♪</i>

1345
01:10:15,689 --> 01:10:18,562
<i>♪ You can be there by 4:30 ♪</i>

1346
01:10:18,562 --> 01:10:20,651
<i>♪ 'Cause I booked
your reservation ♪</i>

1347
01:10:20,651 --> 01:10:22,479
<i>♪ Don't be slow ♪</i>

1348
01:10:22,479 --> 01:10:24,611
<i>♪ Oh no no no ♪</i>

1349
01:10:24,611 --> 01:10:27,005
<i>♪ Oh no no no ♪</i>

1350
01:10:27,005 --> 01:10:29,312
<i>♪ And I don't know
if I'm ever ♪</i>

1351
01:10:29,312 --> 01:10:31,009
<i>♪ Coming home ♪</i>

1352
01:10:32,402 --> 01:10:34,795
That was just a little
serenade for your people

1353
01:10:34,795 --> 01:10:36,362
from the heavens above.

1354
01:10:36,362 --> 01:10:39,583
Think that's one of the
reasons I enjoy it so much.

1355
01:10:39,583 --> 01:10:42,281
Why?
'Cause you get to play God?

1356
01:10:42,281 --> 01:10:45,893
Well, so much of my life
has been outta control.

1357
01:10:48,069 --> 01:10:50,246
Down here,

1358
01:10:50,246 --> 01:10:53,161
I get to decide
if Olivia chooses me.

1359
01:10:55,076 --> 01:10:57,122
I get to decide
if my father comes

1360
01:10:57,122 --> 01:10:59,429
to pick me up at the station
when I get home.

1361
01:11:00,560 --> 01:11:01,866
Did he?

1362
01:11:01,866 --> 01:11:02,954
No.

1363
01:11:05,217 --> 01:11:08,089
He was passed out drunk
in our backyard.

1364
01:11:10,788 --> 01:11:13,399
He'd lain face down so long,

1365
01:11:14,748 --> 01:11:17,316
an inch of snow had gathered
on his back.

1366
01:11:21,407 --> 01:11:23,975
Next morning at breakfast,
he offered me a beer,

1367
01:11:25,629 --> 01:11:26,673
so...

1368
01:11:28,371 --> 01:11:30,590
I had a beer with him
at breakfast,

1369
01:11:32,940 --> 01:11:34,290
and I never stopped.

1370
01:11:39,730 --> 01:11:41,558
When did you last talk
to Nathan?

1371
01:11:46,258 --> 01:11:48,216
Daniel, this is God.

1372
01:11:48,216 --> 01:11:51,437
Allison would like you to
change the conversation now.

1373
01:11:52,917 --> 01:11:54,875
- I'll bet she would.

1374
01:11:54,875 --> 01:11:57,313
All right.
Let's get outta here.

1375
01:12:08,889 --> 01:12:10,151
Ryan?

1376
01:12:10,151 --> 01:12:12,502
It's only one o'clock.
Why are you home?

1377
01:12:12,502 --> 01:12:14,982
We had a half-day
for the active shooter drill.

1378
01:12:14,982 --> 01:12:17,158
- I told you this morning.

1379
01:12:17,158 --> 01:12:20,248
Well, this is a friend of mine
from the program.

1380
01:12:20,248 --> 01:12:21,162
Hi.

1381
01:12:22,425 --> 01:12:24,035
Hi.

1382
01:12:24,035 --> 01:12:25,950
- You should probably get going.
- Yeah. Yeah.

1383
01:12:25,950 --> 01:12:27,821
I'm gonna go.

1384
01:12:27,821 --> 01:12:30,215
Wait, I know you
from somewhere.

1385
01:12:30,215 --> 01:12:31,303
No, you don't.

1386
01:12:31,738 --> 01:12:32,696
You do?

1387
01:12:32,696 --> 01:12:33,653
How do I know you?

1388
01:12:34,306 --> 01:12:36,352
Uh... My... I'm...

1389
01:12:36,352 --> 01:12:37,788
I'm Allison.

1390
01:12:37,788 --> 01:12:39,442
Yeah, I've seen you before.

1391
01:12:39,442 --> 01:12:41,748
I thought you said the active
shooter drill ended at 2:00.

1392
01:12:41,748 --> 01:12:43,968
Yeah, that's when the pretend
shooter fights back.

1393
01:12:43,968 --> 01:12:45,970
Today, he shot himself,
so we got out early.

1394
01:12:47,580 --> 01:12:48,755
Why do I know you?

1395
01:12:48,755 --> 01:12:50,496
I'm not sure
what I'm supposed to say.

1396
01:12:50,496 --> 01:12:52,629
- You were Nathan's fiancee.
- No.

1397
01:12:52,629 --> 01:12:54,282
- You were in the car.
- No.

1398
01:12:54,282 --> 01:12:56,546
- I was, yeah.
- Weren't you driving?

1399
01:12:56,546 --> 01:12:57,547
Wasn't she driving?

1400
01:12:57,547 --> 01:12:59,026
We're in the program together.

1401
01:12:59,026 --> 01:13:01,159
- But I thought you said
it was her fault.
- What?

1402
01:13:01,159 --> 01:13:03,422
How could you bring her
into our house?

1403
01:13:03,422 --> 01:13:04,989
Get out of our fucking house!

1404
01:13:04,989 --> 01:13:06,904
- Okay. It's okay.
I'm sorry. I...

1405
01:13:06,904 --> 01:13:09,602
I'm so sorry.
I thought you were in school.

1406
01:13:09,602 --> 01:13:11,038
You ruined my fucking life!

1407
01:13:11,038 --> 01:13:14,302
I know, I know, I know.
I'm... I'm really sorry.

1408
01:13:14,302 --> 01:13:17,610
You shouldn't
be here! This is our house!

1409
01:13:17,610 --> 01:13:18,872
My mom grew up in here!

1410
01:13:18,872 --> 01:13:21,092
I sleep in her bedroom.
I use her sheets!

1411
01:13:21,092 --> 01:13:23,137
All right. All right.
She's leaving.

1412
01:13:23,137 --> 01:13:25,357
Uh, just in case
this is the last time

1413
01:13:25,357 --> 01:13:27,446
I ever get to talk to you,
please know,

1414
01:13:29,187 --> 01:13:31,668
I also wish it was me.

1415
01:13:32,495 --> 01:13:33,757
Okay? I do.

1416
01:13:35,019 --> 01:13:36,324
I'm gonna go.

1417
01:13:36,324 --> 01:13:38,196
I never got to say goodbye.

1418
01:13:39,415 --> 01:13:42,113
I know.

1419
01:13:45,421 --> 01:13:48,685
They were going to see a play.

1420
01:13:54,342 --> 01:13:55,474
I know.

1421
01:13:57,128 --> 01:13:58,651
She wanted to see a musical,

1422
01:13:58,651 --> 01:14:00,914
because she loved
all the fancy costumes.

1423
01:14:06,050 --> 01:14:07,530
I didn't know that.

1424
01:14:07,530 --> 01:14:10,489
She said you made Nate
really happy.

1425
01:14:10,489 --> 01:14:12,448
That you were the best thing
that ever happened to him.

1426
01:14:13,797 --> 01:14:15,320
He made me happy, too.

1427
01:14:20,151 --> 01:14:22,240
Okay, I'm gonna go.

1428
01:14:23,197 --> 01:14:24,416
- Allison.

1429
01:14:27,158 --> 01:14:28,159
Yeah.

1430
01:14:29,595 --> 01:14:31,031
Would you like to stay
for dinner?

1431
01:14:31,902 --> 01:14:33,164
What?

1432
01:14:34,905 --> 01:14:35,732
Uh...

1433
01:14:45,785 --> 01:14:49,136
So, you're an alcoholic, too?

1434
01:14:49,136 --> 01:14:50,486
Ryan.

1435
01:14:50,486 --> 01:14:51,574
Uh, no.

1436
01:14:53,010 --> 01:14:55,752
Alcohol's not exactly
my problem.

1437
01:14:55,752 --> 01:14:57,623
- What is? Meth?

1438
01:14:57,623 --> 01:14:58,929
Ryan.

1439
01:14:58,929 --> 01:15:02,106
No. Not meth. Um...

1440
01:15:05,196 --> 01:15:07,285
Prescription painkillers.

1441
01:15:08,025 --> 01:15:09,200
Oxy.

1442
01:15:09,200 --> 01:15:10,854
How do you know about Oxy?

1443
01:15:10,854 --> 01:15:12,551
Kids at my school snort it.

1444
01:15:12,551 --> 01:15:13,683
It's heroin!

1445
01:15:13,683 --> 01:15:15,032
No, it's not.

1446
01:15:15,032 --> 01:15:16,424
I could get it easier
than I could get a beer.

1447
01:15:16,424 --> 01:15:17,730
They sell it at Rite Aid.

1448
01:15:19,515 --> 01:15:21,342
- So why'd you dump Uncle Nate?
- Ryan.

1449
01:15:21,342 --> 01:15:22,735
He said you ghosted him.

1450
01:15:22,735 --> 01:15:24,041
It's not your business.

1451
01:15:24,041 --> 01:15:26,913
I just don't understand how

1452
01:15:26,913 --> 01:15:28,698
if he was gonna stay with you,

1453
01:15:28,698 --> 01:15:30,787
even after
everything that happened,

1454
01:15:30,787 --> 01:15:31,788
why'd you dump him?

1455
01:15:33,137 --> 01:15:34,355
I was upset.

1456
01:15:38,403 --> 01:15:40,144
And so I ran.

1457
01:15:40,144 --> 01:15:41,841
- Like you, quitting soccer.
Shut up!

1458
01:15:41,841 --> 01:15:43,669
You don't say
"shut up" to me!

1459
01:15:43,669 --> 01:15:44,975
Ever again!

1460
01:15:47,891 --> 01:15:49,632
Why'd you quit soccer?

1461
01:15:49,632 --> 01:15:51,155
- She got into a fight.
- 'Cause I hate every girl
on the team.

1462
01:15:51,155 --> 01:15:52,199
Oh.

1463
01:15:53,897 --> 01:15:55,942
Your parents were telling me
how amazing you were.

1464
01:15:57,509 --> 01:15:59,293
- They were?
Mm-hmm.

1465
01:15:59,293 --> 01:16:01,252
Your dad actually was saying

1466
01:16:01,252 --> 01:16:03,123
how you were definitely
gonna get a scholarship.

1467
01:16:04,995 --> 01:16:06,562
I wanna go to Stanford.

1468
01:16:08,912 --> 01:16:10,435
Why are you laughing?

1469
01:16:12,524 --> 01:16:16,223
You quit the team,
you're mouthing off in school,

1470
01:16:16,223 --> 01:16:17,573
and you're not doing
your homework.

1471
01:16:17,573 --> 01:16:19,357
You're gonna get into Stanford?

1472
01:16:19,357 --> 01:16:21,011
I didn't say
I quit the team permanently.

1473
01:16:21,011 --> 01:16:22,969
I said I wanted
to take a break.

1474
01:16:22,969 --> 01:16:24,362
And I had a 4.0 down the shore.

1475
01:16:24,362 --> 01:16:26,494
I could get it back
in a second if I cared.

1476
01:16:26,494 --> 01:16:27,757
Why don't you care?

1477
01:16:27,757 --> 01:16:28,627
Why, do you think?

1478
01:16:30,455 --> 01:16:31,674
Shit.
Okay.

1479
01:16:31,674 --> 01:16:32,936
Why don't we just
call it a night, okay?

1480
01:16:32,936 --> 01:16:34,241
Yeah,
I'm gonna go home.

1481
01:16:39,203 --> 01:16:40,596
Hey, um...

1482
01:16:44,034 --> 01:16:47,080
Um, just in case you,
I don't know,

1483
01:16:49,039 --> 01:16:50,475
wanna talk, need to talk...

1484
01:16:51,911 --> 01:16:52,999
This is me.

1485
01:16:52,999 --> 01:16:55,045
And it's up to you,
but I'm here.

1486
01:16:56,350 --> 01:16:57,482
Okay.

1487
01:17:01,878 --> 01:17:03,619
I'm sorry
about all that.

1488
01:17:03,619 --> 01:17:04,837
Uh, it's fine.

1489
01:17:06,665 --> 01:17:08,536
You see what I'm dealing with.

1490
01:17:08,536 --> 01:17:10,060
Honestly, it's okay.

1491
01:17:11,191 --> 01:17:12,410
Look.

1492
01:17:13,541 --> 01:17:15,456
She's a very fragile kid.

1493
01:17:16,762 --> 01:17:20,984
So, I'd appreciate it
if you didn't contact her.

1494
01:17:22,899 --> 01:17:23,943
Oh.

1495
01:17:24,596 --> 01:17:25,597
Okay.

1496
01:17:27,120 --> 01:17:29,470
Yeah, I just...

1497
01:17:29,470 --> 01:17:32,691
I just wanted her
to know that I was available

1498
01:17:32,691 --> 01:17:35,172
if she wanted to talk
or anything.

1499
01:17:35,172 --> 01:17:37,304
I'm just asking if you will

1500
01:17:38,262 --> 01:17:39,742
please just let her be.

1501
01:17:40,612 --> 01:17:41,831
Scout's honor.

1502
01:17:41,831 --> 01:17:44,703
No, that's Spock's
"Live long and prosper."

1503
01:17:44,703 --> 01:17:46,357
We Boy Scouts do this.

1504
01:17:46,357 --> 01:17:48,489
Oh. I prefer Spock.

1505
01:17:49,403 --> 01:17:51,405
Live long and prosper, Daniel.

1506
01:17:51,405 --> 01:17:52,493
Good night.
- Thank you.

1507
01:18:08,422 --> 01:18:09,423
Mmm.

1508
01:19:45,868 --> 01:19:47,913
Go, baby! Go, go, go!

1509
01:19:47,913 --> 01:19:49,306
Come on,
come on, come on.

1510
01:19:49,306 --> 01:19:50,698
Come on!
Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes!

1511
01:19:50,698 --> 01:19:52,526
- Yeah!

1512
01:19:52,526 --> 01:19:53,701
Attagirl!

1513
01:19:54,702 --> 01:19:56,182
Attagirl!

1514
01:20:00,665 --> 01:20:01,797
Thank you.

1515
01:20:43,926 --> 01:20:45,318
<i>Why do you ride
your bike everywhere?</i>

1516
01:20:45,928 --> 01:20:46,972
Um...

1517
01:20:48,452 --> 01:20:50,497
I haven't been in a car
since the accident.

1518
01:20:51,281 --> 01:20:52,848
'Cause you feel guilty?

1519
01:20:55,328 --> 01:20:56,460
Uh, no.

1520
01:20:57,156 --> 01:21:00,725
Because I feel... scared.

1521
01:21:00,725 --> 01:21:02,248
Daniel says
you were using your phone.

1522
01:21:04,555 --> 01:21:06,470
Uh, I was using Maps.

1523
01:21:07,775 --> 01:21:08,864
Everyone uses Maps.

1524
01:21:08,864 --> 01:21:10,735
Yeah, well,
he has all the reports.

1525
01:21:10,735 --> 01:21:11,954
He's memorized them.

1526
01:21:13,172 --> 01:21:15,305
He stares at them at night.
It's weird.

1527
01:21:15,305 --> 01:21:18,308
Okay, well, I was there.

1528
01:21:18,308 --> 01:21:23,095
And the person who wrote
those reports wasn't, so...

1529
01:21:23,095 --> 01:21:25,532
Tell me
why you ended it with Nate.

1530
01:21:25,532 --> 01:21:27,404
My mom would want you guys
to be together still.

1531
01:21:28,622 --> 01:21:30,711
Ryan, I don't even know
what to say to that.

1532
01:21:31,712 --> 01:21:33,627
My mom used to really, um...

1533
01:21:35,891 --> 01:21:38,806
just, like, look out for him
and stuff, you know? Um...

1534
01:21:39,764 --> 01:21:40,808
And...

1535
01:21:42,201 --> 01:21:44,900
I've been thinking
maybe now I'm supposed to.

1536
01:21:45,770 --> 01:21:46,902
Because she can't.

1537
01:21:48,468 --> 01:21:50,949
I bet that would make her
really proud.

1538
01:21:50,949 --> 01:21:52,211
I could tell you
about what's happening

1539
01:21:52,211 --> 01:21:53,256
- with him if you want.
- No, that's okay.

1540
01:21:53,256 --> 01:21:54,605
Thank you, though.

1541
01:21:54,605 --> 01:21:55,998
I've tried really hard
to avoid all of that...

1542
01:21:55,998 --> 01:21:57,216
He moved to Tribeca.

1543
01:21:57,216 --> 01:21:58,217
Wow.

1544
01:21:59,305 --> 01:22:01,264
Yeah. He has a dog.

1545
01:22:01,264 --> 01:22:02,918
- A dog?
- Mm-hmm.

1546
01:22:02,918 --> 01:22:05,659
A French Bulldog named Jasper.

1547
01:22:05,659 --> 01:22:07,487
He never really struck me
as a Frenchie type,

1548
01:22:07,487 --> 01:22:09,315
but okay.

1549
01:22:09,315 --> 01:22:10,577
It's his girlfriend's.

1550
01:22:15,191 --> 01:22:16,192
Oh.

1551
01:22:17,323 --> 01:22:18,411
Yeah.

1552
01:22:19,891 --> 01:22:21,980
I... I don't need to hear this.

1553
01:22:23,199 --> 01:22:24,852
- Are you okay?
- Mm-hmm.

1554
01:22:26,811 --> 01:22:28,987
How long have they been
going out?

1555
01:22:28,987 --> 01:22:31,859
I don't know.
Like, four months, I think.

1556
01:22:32,643 --> 01:22:33,557
Wow.

1557
01:22:33,557 --> 01:22:36,908
Yeah. She's a paralegal.

1558
01:22:37,953 --> 01:22:39,128
I don't even know what that is.

1559
01:22:39,128 --> 01:22:40,868
Is that, like, a good thing?

1560
01:22:42,131 --> 01:22:44,046
Yeah. Wow.

1561
01:22:44,046 --> 01:22:46,178
- You just keep saying, "Wow."
- Yeah.

1562
01:22:46,178 --> 01:22:47,614
It's just a lot to take in.

1563
01:22:49,399 --> 01:22:50,878
Um...

1564
01:22:50,878 --> 01:22:53,446
I'm really happy for him. I am.

1565
01:22:53,446 --> 01:22:55,057
He really deserves to be happy.

1566
01:22:55,927 --> 01:22:57,450
I...

1567
01:22:57,450 --> 01:22:59,496
- I shouldn't have told you.
- No, no, no. It's fine.

1568
01:22:59,496 --> 01:23:01,585
But you're upset.

1569
01:23:01,585 --> 01:23:03,630
We went through
so much together.

1570
01:23:05,806 --> 01:23:08,940
I really want good things
to happen to him.

1571
01:23:09,810 --> 01:23:11,160
I'm really sorry

1572
01:23:11,160 --> 01:23:12,422
- I made you upset.
It's okay.

1573
01:23:12,422 --> 01:23:13,597
- I'm gonna go to the bathroom.
- I really

1574
01:23:13,597 --> 01:23:14,990
meant for this to be friendly.

1575
01:23:14,990 --> 01:23:16,992
Yeah. I'll see you in a second.

1576
01:24:08,173 --> 01:24:09,653
Hey.

1577
01:24:09,653 --> 01:24:11,133
Is something wrong?

1578
01:24:11,133 --> 01:24:13,483
I, um... I forgot
I have a job interview.

1579
01:24:13,483 --> 01:24:16,181
So, I'm gonna go.

1580
01:24:16,181 --> 01:24:17,487
- You sick?

1581
01:24:18,096 --> 01:24:19,097
Yeah.

1582
01:24:19,097 --> 01:24:21,447
- Withdrawal?
- I'm trying.

1583
01:24:21,447 --> 01:24:23,319
All right. Look, don't stop.

1584
01:24:24,233 --> 01:24:25,234
- Okay?
- Okay.

1585
01:24:26,844 --> 01:24:27,801
Don't use.

1586
01:24:29,542 --> 01:24:30,717
Okay.

1587
01:24:30,717 --> 01:24:32,110
Don't stay home tonight.
Do something.

1588
01:24:32,110 --> 01:24:34,069
- Okay. Okay.
- All right? Okay.

1589
01:24:35,287 --> 01:24:36,158
You need a hug?

1590
01:24:38,073 --> 01:24:39,074
Um, if I hug you,

1591
01:24:39,074 --> 01:24:40,858
I'm gonna sob, so no.

1592
01:24:40,858 --> 01:24:42,381
Well, I can handle that.

1593
01:24:42,381 --> 01:24:44,427
No, I shouldn't. Not in front
of Ryan.

1594
01:24:44,427 --> 01:24:45,950
Okay.

1595
01:24:45,950 --> 01:24:47,821
Well, I'm hugging you
with my eyes.

1596
01:24:48,257 --> 01:24:49,214
Thank you.

1597
01:24:50,476 --> 01:24:51,869
- Be careful.
- Okay.

1598
01:24:56,047 --> 01:24:58,789
I have to go.
So, I'll see you another time.

1599
01:24:59,137 --> 01:24:59,964
Bye.

1600
01:25:02,445 --> 01:25:03,576
Fuck me.

1601
01:25:04,011 --> 01:25:04,969
Hey.

1602
01:25:05,361 --> 01:25:06,449
Let's go.

1603
01:25:06,449 --> 01:25:07,972
This asshole
charged me six buck

1604
01:25:07,972 --> 01:25:09,016
for a cup of coffee. Come on.

1605
01:25:11,236 --> 01:25:13,978
Okay.

1606
01:25:13,978 --> 01:25:17,155
<i>♪ It starts so early now ♪</i>

1607
01:25:17,155 --> 01:25:20,898
<i>♪ The sun has gone
to Birkenau ♪</i>

1608
01:25:20,898 --> 01:25:24,510
<i>♪ As shadows creep
across your brow ♪</i>

1609
01:25:24,510 --> 01:25:26,773
<i>♪ I love you just the same ♪</i>

1610
01:25:28,297 --> 01:25:29,559
Fuck!

1611
01:25:29,559 --> 01:25:31,648
<i>♪ These freakish holidays ♪</i>

1612
01:25:31,648 --> 01:25:35,565
<i>♪ That make us act
like renegades ♪</i>

1613
01:25:35,565 --> 01:25:39,177
<i>♪ A blood bath
at the Ice Capades ♪</i>

1614
01:25:39,177 --> 01:25:41,440
<i>♪ Just makes me love you ♪</i>

1615
01:25:41,440 --> 01:25:47,272
<i>♪ More than I should ever
have been allowed ♪</i>

1616
01:25:47,272 --> 01:25:50,493
<i>♪ In a world of candy guns ♪</i>

1617
01:25:50,493 --> 01:25:56,020
<i>♪ Sweet as demons
in the candy apple sun ♪</i>

1618
01:25:56,020 --> 01:26:02,113
<i>♪ Think it quiet but then
don't sing it loud ♪</i>

1619
01:26:02,113 --> 01:26:05,247
<i>♪ Through a world
of number ones ♪</i>

1620
01:26:05,247 --> 01:26:08,032
<i>♪ Pointed skyward at the... ♪</i>

1621
01:26:08,032 --> 01:26:09,164
Look at me!

1622
01:26:13,037 --> 01:26:15,518
<i>♪ ...here like Buffalo ♪</i>

1623
01:26:15,518 --> 01:26:18,912
<i>♪ Now it feels like Bamako ♪</i>

1624
01:26:18,912 --> 01:26:22,089
<i>♪ I love you seven ways ♪</i>

1625
01:26:23,569 --> 01:26:26,224
<i>♪ You wear those baby tees ♪</i>

1626
01:26:28,270 --> 01:26:29,967
<i>Allie!</i>

1627
01:26:29,967 --> 01:26:32,491
<i>Allie!</i>

1628
01:26:34,014 --> 01:26:35,059
Allie?

1629
01:26:35,059 --> 01:26:36,843
Did you job hunt today?

1630
01:26:40,978 --> 01:26:42,371
Please leave me alone.

1631
01:26:43,110 --> 01:26:45,461
I was looking on Etsy.

1632
01:26:45,461 --> 01:26:47,550
And I was thinking
it would be so cute

1633
01:26:47,550 --> 01:26:49,378
if we found, like,
a craft that we like.

1634
01:26:49,378 --> 01:26:51,597
And maybe we could
make a little money.
What do you think?

1635
01:27:08,310 --> 01:27:09,702
I was thinking
it'd be so cute

1636
01:27:09,702 --> 01:27:11,574
if it was like something fun
that we could sell.

1637
01:27:11,574 --> 01:27:15,491
Like little bibs for babies
that catch their food,

1638
01:27:15,491 --> 01:27:18,102
or salad dressing.

1639
01:27:18,102 --> 01:27:20,409
Or you know, just...

1640
01:27:22,062 --> 01:27:23,325
And you know what?

1641
01:27:23,325 --> 01:27:25,196
We could be on <i>Shark Tank!</i>

1642
01:27:25,196 --> 01:27:27,067
Can you imagine, Allie?

1643
01:27:27,067 --> 01:27:28,286
And I know you're like,

1644
01:27:28,286 --> 01:27:30,593
"Oh, shut up, Mom!
You're drunk again."

1645
01:27:30,593 --> 01:27:31,724
But listen...

1646
01:27:42,431 --> 01:27:44,433
Ooh, I just thought
of the best idea!

1647
01:27:44,433 --> 01:27:47,436
We could do, um, papier-mache!

1648
01:27:48,263 --> 01:27:49,829
Papier-mache!

1649
01:27:49,829 --> 01:27:51,527
So it would be like,

1650
01:27:51,527 --> 01:27:53,311
do a little dance,
a little song.

1651
01:27:53,311 --> 01:27:55,444
"Hey, Sharks! You know how
everybody likes papier-mache."

1652
01:27:55,444 --> 01:27:58,882
I would be like,
"Hey, Sharks! Hey, Sharks!"

1653
01:27:58,882 --> 01:28:01,363
Hey, Sharks! Oh... Sharks!"

1654
01:28:01,363 --> 01:28:03,800
Wait, that's too hard.
We'll be like,

1655
01:28:03,800 --> 01:28:07,586
"I'm Diane.
This is my associate, Allison.

1656
01:28:07,586 --> 01:28:12,722
"And this is our... whatever!"
You know...

1657
01:28:13,897 --> 01:28:15,725
You weak piece
of fucking shit.

1658
01:28:15,725 --> 01:28:17,770
You couldn't make it go
two days.

1659
01:28:19,032 --> 01:28:20,512
I fucking hate you.

1660
01:28:21,339 --> 01:28:24,777
I hate you so much.

1661
01:28:24,777 --> 01:28:27,563
Allie, do you remember
when you were in fourth grade,

1662
01:28:27,563 --> 01:28:30,043
you made
that giant mitochondria?

1663
01:28:30,043 --> 01:28:35,005
That's something that
would sell, I promise you.

1664
01:28:35,005 --> 01:28:37,616
We could be like,
"Hey, Sharks!"

1665
01:28:37,616 --> 01:28:40,140
We got them for you!
Papier-mache!"

1666
01:28:40,140 --> 01:28:43,796
You know, like all the...

1667
01:28:51,195 --> 01:28:53,937
I knew you would like
that idea! I knew it!

1668
01:30:21,416 --> 01:30:22,417
Yes!

1669
01:30:24,419 --> 01:30:25,942
You're on the wrong side.

1670
01:30:26,725 --> 01:30:28,597
What? No, I'm not.

1671
01:30:31,730 --> 01:30:33,297
Oh.

1672
01:30:33,297 --> 01:30:34,820
Well, good thing you came!

1673
01:30:34,820 --> 01:30:35,995
Oh, my God!

1674
01:30:36,518 --> 01:30:37,867
Get over here.

1675
01:30:37,867 --> 01:30:39,434
Whoo! Party!

1676
01:30:58,191 --> 01:30:59,932
- Hello, Diane!
- Oh, hey!

1677
01:30:59,932 --> 01:31:01,978
I don't know

1678
01:31:01,978 --> 01:31:04,284
how much Allison has told you.

1679
01:31:05,547 --> 01:31:07,505
But we've been going
to the same program.

1680
01:31:07,505 --> 01:31:09,594
Oh, yeah, she said.
She told me, yeah.

1681
01:31:10,508 --> 01:31:11,770
My granddaughter, Ryan,

1682
01:31:11,770 --> 01:31:14,773
has taken an interest
in Allison and,

1683
01:31:14,773 --> 01:31:16,471
well, now I can't find her.

1684
01:31:16,471 --> 01:31:19,386
So I just thought I'd drop by
and see if she might be here.

1685
01:31:20,649 --> 01:31:22,128
I tried texting them,

1686
01:31:22,128 --> 01:31:25,480
but, you know,
they all go green.

1687
01:31:25,480 --> 01:31:26,481
Do you know what that means?

1688
01:31:26,481 --> 01:31:27,743
I have no idea.

1689
01:31:27,743 --> 01:31:29,962
I hate when that happens,
when they go...

1690
01:31:29,962 --> 01:31:31,398
It's all green

1691
01:31:31,398 --> 01:31:32,965
and you don't know
if it's sent. It's so weird.

1692
01:31:32,965 --> 01:31:34,750
Right. Right. Right.
- Drives me crazy.

1693
01:31:34,750 --> 01:31:36,491
You'll have to let me know
if you figure that out.

1694
01:31:38,493 --> 01:31:40,146
I'm not tech-y.

1695
01:31:40,146 --> 01:31:43,585
But I actually tonight was
trying to find Allison myself.

1696
01:31:43,585 --> 01:31:45,674
But do you really think
they're together tonight?

1697
01:31:47,502 --> 01:31:49,373
Both missing
at the same time. It...

1698
01:31:50,592 --> 01:31:52,202
seems a little curious.

1699
01:31:52,202 --> 01:31:54,509
Seems like
no matter how old they get,

1700
01:31:54,509 --> 01:31:56,815
- you never stop worrying.
- Yeah.

1701
01:31:56,815 --> 01:31:58,251
But they always seem
to turn up.

1702
01:31:59,731 --> 01:32:00,950
Not always.

1703
01:32:02,821 --> 01:32:04,301
Yeah.

1704
01:32:04,301 --> 01:32:07,086
Well, can you let me know
if you find them?

1705
01:32:07,086 --> 01:32:08,610
- I will.
- Great.

1706
01:32:10,612 --> 01:32:11,526
Thank you.

1707
01:32:12,396 --> 01:32:13,832
What's that?

1708
01:32:13,832 --> 01:32:15,007
Oh, I was just... I...

1709
01:32:15,007 --> 01:32:17,183
I was just saying
thank you so much

1710
01:32:17,183 --> 01:32:19,490
for being so kind to Allison.

1711
01:32:19,490 --> 01:32:22,798
She said you've always been
so warm to her and you know,

1712
01:32:22,798 --> 01:32:26,149
I... just wanted to say thanks,
'cause, you know,

1713
01:32:26,149 --> 01:32:29,848
like, some people
wouldn't be like that, so...

1714
01:32:29,848 --> 01:32:33,591
Well, we're all just trying
to move on, I suppose.

1715
01:32:33,591 --> 01:32:34,897
Yeah.

1716
01:32:34,897 --> 01:32:36,028
I don't think
Allie and I are doing

1717
01:32:36,028 --> 01:32:37,813
a very good job of that, Daniel.

1718
01:32:39,205 --> 01:32:40,555
You know what they say.

1719
01:32:40,555 --> 01:32:42,339
What?

1720
01:32:42,339 --> 01:32:45,081
"Comparison
is the thief of joy."

1721
01:32:45,081 --> 01:32:47,431
Oh. I didn't know
they said that.

1722
01:32:48,867 --> 01:32:49,912
Well...

1723
01:32:51,087 --> 01:32:52,392
somebody did.

1724
01:32:52,392 --> 01:32:54,351
Yeah.

1725
01:32:55,831 --> 01:32:57,441
Well, I best be going then.

1726
01:32:57,441 --> 01:32:58,877
Oh, yeah, of course.

1727
01:32:58,877 --> 01:33:00,270
Night.
- Good night.

1728
01:33:14,458 --> 01:33:16,852
<i>♪ Stare into space ♪</i>

1729
01:33:18,375 --> 01:33:20,116
<i>♪ Out in the blue ♪</i>

1730
01:33:20,116 --> 01:33:21,552
Oh, my God, there he is!

1731
01:33:21,552 --> 01:33:23,293
Look at him! Isn't he so hot?

1732
01:33:25,034 --> 01:33:26,862
Is that a face tattoo?

1733
01:33:26,862 --> 01:33:28,994
- Yeah!
- Oh, my God!

1734
01:33:29,952 --> 01:33:32,215
I love this song!

1735
01:33:32,215 --> 01:33:33,651
Quinn sent it to me
in a playlist.

1736
01:33:33,651 --> 01:33:36,088
He, like, knows so much
about music.

1737
01:33:38,134 --> 01:33:39,222
Thank you.

1738
01:33:40,353 --> 01:33:41,616
For getting me to come.

1739
01:33:42,486 --> 01:33:43,574
Yeah.

1740
01:33:44,749 --> 01:33:48,057
<i>♪ You're the only thing ♪</i>

1741
01:33:48,057 --> 01:33:49,580
That's the guitarist, Thomas.

1742
01:33:49,580 --> 01:33:52,496
He's staring right at you!

1743
01:33:52,496 --> 01:33:54,846
Oh, stop.
No, I'm okay. I'm fine.

1744
01:33:54,846 --> 01:33:56,152
I know, you can do
so much better.

1745
01:33:56,152 --> 01:33:57,849
What? No.
- But he is fucking hot.

1746
01:33:59,808 --> 01:34:03,899
Uh... Okay, I, um...
I gotta go get someone in.

1747
01:34:03,899 --> 01:34:04,856
But I'll be right back.

1748
01:34:04,856 --> 01:34:06,205
- Should I come with you?
- No.

1749
01:34:06,205 --> 01:34:07,903
- Are you sure?
- No, I'll be right back. Yeah.

1750
01:34:07,903 --> 01:34:10,035
<i>♪ Take a photo ♪</i>

1751
01:34:11,558 --> 01:34:13,648
<i>♪ Make it real ♪</i>

1752
01:34:15,693 --> 01:34:17,652
<i>♪ You're the stardust ♪</i>

1753
01:34:23,658 --> 01:34:27,009
<i>♪ Stardust ♪</i>

1754
01:34:27,009 --> 01:34:30,142
<i>♪ Lighting the fields ♪</i>

1755
01:34:31,883 --> 01:34:34,277
<i>♪ Caught in a state ♪</i>

1756
01:34:35,757 --> 01:34:38,324
<i>♪ Watching it fall ♪</i>

1757
01:34:39,456 --> 01:34:42,024
<i>♪ Aquarius bloom ♪</i>

1758
01:34:43,460 --> 01:34:45,941
<i>♪ Just bought a car ♪</i>

1759
01:34:51,947 --> 01:34:53,470
Surprise!

1760
01:34:55,341 --> 01:34:56,691
Nathan?

1761
01:34:57,822 --> 01:34:59,302
- Hi!
Hi!

1762
01:35:00,520 --> 01:35:01,826
Ryan?

1763
01:35:01,826 --> 01:35:03,567
- What?
- Hi!

1764
01:35:04,742 --> 01:35:06,744
Uh, sorry.

1765
01:35:06,744 --> 01:35:09,921
Allie, uh,
this is my girlfriend, Joelle.

1766
01:35:11,009 --> 01:35:13,098
Hi. I'm sorry. Um...

1767
01:35:13,838 --> 01:35:14,926
Nice to meet you.

1768
01:35:14,926 --> 01:35:16,493
I've heard so much about you.

1769
01:35:17,363 --> 01:35:18,408
Oh.

1770
01:35:19,670 --> 01:35:20,671
Okay.

1771
01:35:20,671 --> 01:35:22,107
I think we're the victims

1772
01:35:22,107 --> 01:35:24,588
of a teenage girl's
good intentions.

1773
01:35:24,588 --> 01:35:26,329
What?
- I said...

1774
01:35:26,329 --> 01:35:28,853
I said I think
she meant well. Ryan.

1775
01:35:31,464 --> 01:35:33,292
I'm gonna go. I'm gonna go.

1776
01:35:33,292 --> 01:35:34,424
Are you good?
- I'm fine.

1777
01:35:34,424 --> 01:35:35,730
I'm fine. I'm gonna go.

1778
01:35:35,730 --> 01:35:36,861
Allie!

1779
01:35:40,473 --> 01:35:41,997
Ryan.

1780
01:35:41,997 --> 01:35:43,912
What the fuck
did you just do that for?

1781
01:35:45,130 --> 01:35:47,219
No offense, but you weren't
supposed to come.

1782
01:35:47,219 --> 01:35:49,352
I know being a paralegal
is a good job,

1783
01:35:49,352 --> 01:35:50,919
but he's supposed
to be with Allie.

1784
01:35:50,919 --> 01:35:53,356
- I'm sorry.
Ryan?

1785
01:35:53,356 --> 01:35:54,966
What the fuck did you just do?

1786
01:35:55,880 --> 01:35:57,403
I'm fixing it.

1787
01:35:57,403 --> 01:35:59,057
For Mom.

1788
01:35:59,057 --> 01:36:01,451
Go find her
and then I'm taking you home.

1789
01:36:05,063 --> 01:36:06,456
I am so sorry.

1790
01:36:07,109 --> 01:36:08,937
Serious... This...

1791
01:36:08,937 --> 01:36:10,329
- It's fine. It's okay.
- Yeah?

1792
01:36:10,329 --> 01:36:11,591
- Yeah. Yeah.
- You good?

1793
01:36:11,591 --> 01:36:12,941
I'm fine. I need a drink.

1794
01:36:12,941 --> 01:36:14,116
- But I'm fine.
- Yes.

1795
01:36:14,116 --> 01:36:15,378
Oh, fuck!

1796
01:36:20,209 --> 01:36:21,471
You guys
have been great,

1797
01:36:21,471 --> 01:36:22,646
- thank you so much!

1798
01:36:22,646 --> 01:36:24,039
Allie!

1799
01:36:24,039 --> 01:36:26,432
Why the fuck
did you just do that?

1800
01:36:26,432 --> 01:36:28,478
I thought it was gonna
make you happy.

1801
01:36:28,478 --> 01:36:31,524
You thought
that would make me happy?

1802
01:36:31,524 --> 01:36:33,265
Yeah!
- Are you insane?

1803
01:36:33,265 --> 01:36:35,441
Hi! Can I please get, um...
Hey, I'm sorry.

1804
01:36:35,441 --> 01:36:38,140
Could I just get a glass
of tequila, please?

1805
01:36:38,140 --> 01:36:39,445
Fuck, I can't breathe.

1806
01:36:39,445 --> 01:36:40,751
- Ryan, I can't fucking breathe!
- Calm down.

1807
01:36:40,751 --> 01:36:42,579
Calm down, okay? I'm sorry.

1808
01:36:42,579 --> 01:36:44,711
You fucking did that
on purpose!

1809
01:36:44,711 --> 01:36:46,017
You did that to hurt me, right?

1810
01:36:46,017 --> 01:36:47,845
Is that what you did?
Yeah, you did.

1811
01:36:47,845 --> 01:36:49,325
- Just admit it. Yes, you did!
- No, I didn't!

1812
01:36:49,325 --> 01:36:50,892
- You did that
on fucking purpose!
- No, I didn't!

1813
01:36:50,892 --> 01:36:53,851
You killed, baby! You killed!

1814
01:36:53,851 --> 01:36:56,288
- That was incredible, man!
Hi! Hi!

1815
01:36:56,288 --> 01:36:58,551
I'm Quinn's friend, Ryan.

1816
01:36:58,551 --> 01:37:00,423
You guys sounded so good!

1817
01:37:00,423 --> 01:37:02,251
You're gonna be so famous!

1818
01:37:02,251 --> 01:37:04,949
I know. I really have to savor
my anonymity.

1819
01:37:04,949 --> 01:37:08,692
Hey, we're gonna go to this
party over in Williamsburg.

1820
01:37:08,692 --> 01:37:10,215
You guys wanna come?

1821
01:37:11,826 --> 01:37:13,610
Fuck, yeah, whatever.
Let's go!

1822
01:37:13,610 --> 01:37:14,785
I need to get outta here.

1823
01:37:21,052 --> 01:37:22,837
Do you have the time?

1824
01:37:22,837 --> 01:37:24,708
- Yeah.

1825
01:37:28,320 --> 01:37:30,453
Hey, Danny. Everything okay?

1826
01:37:30,453 --> 01:37:34,196
I can't find Ryan.
I've tried everything.

1827
01:37:34,196 --> 01:37:38,156
Anyway, my mind
can't help but wonder if...

1828
01:37:38,156 --> 01:37:40,419
Well, if you've seen Allison
or not.

1829
01:37:40,419 --> 01:37:43,683
Uh, no, I haven't, but I can
text her if you want.

1830
01:37:43,683 --> 01:37:45,076
Well, I've tried texting
both of them,

1831
01:37:45,076 --> 01:37:46,469
but neither one is answering.

1832
01:37:46,469 --> 01:37:47,687
What's wrong?

1833
01:37:47,687 --> 01:37:49,124
Daniel can't find
his granddaughter.

1834
01:37:49,124 --> 01:37:51,517
Um, well, if he pays for
the phone, he can just log

1835
01:37:51,517 --> 01:37:53,128
into the account,
and use Find My Phone.

1836
01:37:53,128 --> 01:37:55,565
Yeah. Daniel, do you know
what Find My Phone is?

1837
01:37:55,565 --> 01:37:57,045
No, what the hell is that?

1838
01:37:58,873 --> 01:38:01,136
This is amazing!

1839
01:38:01,919 --> 01:38:05,705
Whoa!

1840
01:38:28,119 --> 01:38:29,120
Fuck!

1841
01:38:30,600 --> 01:38:34,125
Allie, this is Jarvis. He has
the stuff you asked for.

1842
01:38:34,125 --> 01:38:35,387
Hey!

1843
01:38:35,387 --> 01:38:37,128
I don't have any thirties,
just dope.

1844
01:38:37,128 --> 01:38:40,131
Uh, yeah, okay.
Yeah, whatever you have.

1845
01:38:41,959 --> 01:38:43,656
Can you spot me?

1846
01:38:43,656 --> 01:38:45,745
- I'll pay you back, I promise.
- Uh, okay, all right.

1847
01:38:52,578 --> 01:38:53,579
Thanks.

1848
01:39:01,674 --> 01:39:03,241
It's coming. Look like!

1849
01:39:06,592 --> 01:39:07,550
Yeah, here it is.

1850
01:39:07,550 --> 01:39:08,725
Okay, what does it say?

1851
01:39:16,689 --> 01:39:19,388
- The whole room is spinning.

1852
01:39:21,346 --> 01:39:22,869
Oh, that's my phone.

1853
01:39:24,132 --> 01:39:25,394
Don't worry about it.

1854
01:39:27,265 --> 01:39:29,964
Can we just stop for a second?

1855
01:39:29,964 --> 01:39:31,356
Where is my phone?

1856
01:39:33,445 --> 01:39:35,056
I think I'm gonna throw up.

1857
01:39:38,015 --> 01:39:39,277
What the fuck!

1858
01:39:40,626 --> 01:39:42,889
She's in the fucking city!

1859
01:39:42,889 --> 01:39:45,109
She's in fucking Williamsburg!

1860
01:39:45,109 --> 01:39:47,198
Okay, Daniel, wait.
I'm gonna come pick you up.

1861
01:39:47,198 --> 01:39:49,157
I don't want you to do
something you're gonna regret.

1862
01:39:49,157 --> 01:39:50,854
I'm gonna kill
that motherfucker.

1863
01:39:50,854 --> 01:39:52,682
Yeah, that's exactly what I'm
worried about. I'm on my way.

1864
01:40:06,391 --> 01:40:08,959
- Okay. Easy does it.

1865
01:40:08,959 --> 01:40:10,961
- You're wasted.
- No, I'm not.

1866
01:40:13,398 --> 01:40:14,486
Ryan?

1867
01:40:39,163 --> 01:40:40,382
Ryan?

1868
01:40:44,603 --> 01:40:46,344
- Ryan, are you in there?

1869
01:40:46,344 --> 01:40:48,694
She's fine.
Go the fuck away!

1870
01:40:48,694 --> 01:40:49,869
Ryan?

1871
01:40:58,269 --> 01:40:59,357
Ryan?

1872
01:41:00,837 --> 01:41:03,057
Can you just
open the door, please?

1873
01:41:05,363 --> 01:41:06,364
Ryan.

1874
01:41:06,364 --> 01:41:07,583
Go away!

1875
01:41:07,583 --> 01:41:09,802
Allison? Where's Ryan?

1876
01:41:09,802 --> 01:41:11,282
What're you doing here?

1877
01:41:11,282 --> 01:41:13,545
Where the fuck is Ryan?

1878
01:41:13,545 --> 01:41:15,852
She's in here. I'm trying to...
She won't answer.

1879
01:41:15,852 --> 01:41:16,940
- Ryan!

1880
01:41:17,897 --> 01:41:18,942
Ryan?

1881
01:41:20,378 --> 01:41:22,076
It's your grandpa,
open the door.

1882
01:41:23,294 --> 01:41:24,774
Open the door, baby.

1883
01:41:24,774 --> 01:41:26,080
Fuck off!

1884
01:41:28,212 --> 01:41:30,258
- What the fuck!
Ryan!

1885
01:41:30,258 --> 01:41:32,912
You again!
Get the fuck up!

1886
01:41:32,912 --> 01:41:34,088
- Danny, no, no, no.
- Oh, my God!

1887
01:41:34,088 --> 01:41:35,654
- Don't do that!
- Nothing happened.

1888
01:41:35,654 --> 01:41:38,222
Tell me why I shouldn't
kill you, motherfucker?

1889
01:41:38,222 --> 01:41:39,658
We were just making out.

1890
01:41:39,658 --> 01:41:40,877
You hurt my baby.

1891
01:41:43,532 --> 01:41:45,229
- Now, I'm gonna hurt you.

1892
01:41:45,229 --> 01:41:46,665
- No, no, no, no, no.
Danny!

1893
01:41:47,623 --> 01:41:48,537
Dad!

1894
01:41:49,059 --> 01:41:50,930
No!

1895
01:41:50,930 --> 01:41:53,455
The hell you're doing here?
This is family business.

1896
01:41:53,455 --> 01:41:55,109
Don't do this.

1897
01:41:55,109 --> 01:41:57,111
Go on back
to your new life, Nate.

1898
01:41:57,111 --> 01:41:58,764
Put the gun down, please.

1899
01:41:58,764 --> 01:42:00,114
Please, please!

1900
01:42:00,114 --> 01:42:01,506
He's not worth it.

1901
01:42:01,506 --> 01:42:03,769
I got nothing left to lose.

1902
01:42:03,769 --> 01:42:05,075
You got me!

1903
01:42:06,424 --> 01:42:07,512
You got Ryan!

1904
01:42:08,296 --> 01:42:09,688
We need you!

1905
01:42:09,688 --> 01:42:11,951
You do this, it's over!

1906
01:42:14,345 --> 01:42:15,955
We get no more time.

1907
01:42:15,955 --> 01:42:18,088
Danny,
put the gun down.

1908
01:42:20,264 --> 01:42:21,265
Please.

1909
01:42:28,577 --> 01:42:29,578
Oh, my...

1910
01:42:31,188 --> 01:42:32,233
That's my niece.

1911
01:42:32,929 --> 01:42:34,365
She's 16 years old.

1912
01:42:36,324 --> 01:42:37,716
Oh, my God! All right,
we gotta get out of here.

1913
01:42:37,716 --> 01:42:38,848
Hey, Ryan, baby?

1914
01:42:38,848 --> 01:42:40,415
- Please get up.
- My fucking nose!

1915
01:42:40,415 --> 01:42:43,418
Get over here!
My fucking nose!

1916
01:42:56,648 --> 01:42:58,172
The fuck is the matter
with you?

1917
01:42:58,172 --> 01:42:59,608
I was trying to protect her!

1918
01:42:59,608 --> 01:43:01,000
Protect her?
- Yeah!

1919
01:43:01,000 --> 01:43:03,264
I told you to stay away
from her!

1920
01:43:03,264 --> 01:43:04,526
Who the fuck are you

1921
01:43:04,526 --> 01:43:06,049
to be talking
about protecting somebody?

1922
01:43:06,049 --> 01:43:07,659
- You're a mess.
- Dad!

1923
01:43:07,659 --> 01:43:10,096
I was... I was trying to help.

1924
01:43:10,096 --> 01:43:11,620
I was... I was trying to...

1925
01:43:12,447 --> 01:43:13,883
I was trying to make it right.

1926
01:43:13,883 --> 01:43:15,276
Let me tell you something.

1927
01:43:15,972 --> 01:43:17,626
You will never ever

1928
01:43:17,626 --> 01:43:19,758
be able to fix the things
you've done to me.

1929
01:43:20,933 --> 01:43:22,021
You hear me?

1930
01:43:22,805 --> 01:43:24,459
I want my life back.

1931
01:43:24,459 --> 01:43:25,721
I want my child back.

1932
01:43:26,852 --> 01:43:29,464
My baby, my... Molly.

1933
01:43:30,813 --> 01:43:32,336
You took my baby away from me!

1934
01:43:32,336 --> 01:43:33,685
Dad! Enough.

1935
01:43:33,685 --> 01:43:34,991
Nah, it's okay.

1936
01:43:36,732 --> 01:43:37,733
Say it.

1937
01:43:39,169 --> 01:43:40,605
Shit, I wanted to hate you.

1938
01:43:41,998 --> 01:43:43,217
But I stopped myself.

1939
01:43:45,871 --> 01:43:49,135
And when you walked into
that meeting, I thought...

1940
01:43:50,136 --> 01:43:52,443
This is God testing me.

1941
01:43:52,443 --> 01:43:56,839
This is proof of a higher power

1942
01:43:56,839 --> 01:43:59,058
testing me in this church.

1943
01:44:00,756 --> 01:44:02,148
Trying to see
if he could break me.

1944
01:44:03,237 --> 01:44:04,368
But I'll show him.

1945
01:44:07,066 --> 01:44:08,242
I'm unbreakable.

1946
01:44:09,765 --> 01:44:11,593
I will offer my hand

1947
01:44:12,289 --> 01:44:13,899
to this sorry

1948
01:44:14,726 --> 01:44:18,643
little fucking pill-junkie.

1949
01:44:18,643 --> 01:44:21,820
All I asked you to do
was stay away from this child.

1950
01:44:23,300 --> 01:44:24,345
Now look at her.

1951
01:44:25,694 --> 01:44:26,956
She got no mother.

1952
01:44:29,132 --> 01:44:30,133
No father.

1953
01:44:32,222 --> 01:44:34,180
And how many years
can I have left?

1954
01:44:36,531 --> 01:44:38,881
What a fucking waste you are.

1955
01:44:39,229 --> 01:44:40,143
Dad!

1956
01:44:40,143 --> 01:44:43,189
What a fucking waste of a soul.

1957
01:44:45,279 --> 01:44:46,541
Of a chance.

1958
01:44:46,541 --> 01:44:48,891
Danny, enough.
You've said your piece.

1959
01:44:48,891 --> 01:44:50,806
This isn't
how it was supposed to be.

1960
01:44:52,851 --> 01:44:54,026
I'm a good person.

1961
01:44:55,985 --> 01:44:58,161
I never said
God has to be fair.

1962
01:44:58,944 --> 01:45:00,076
I just never thought

1963
01:45:01,686 --> 01:45:02,992
he could be this cruel.

1964
01:45:06,604 --> 01:45:07,910
Taxi!

1965
01:45:07,910 --> 01:45:09,346
Hold on, Danny,
let me take you home.

1966
01:45:09,346 --> 01:45:10,434
No.

1967
01:45:10,434 --> 01:45:13,437
I'll go with him.
Hey! Hey, Ryan!

1968
01:45:13,437 --> 01:45:15,874
Come on, wake up.
We're taking you home.

1969
01:45:29,192 --> 01:45:31,281
You drank!

1970
01:45:31,281 --> 01:45:35,329
You turned your map app
back on at 17:36:22.

1971
01:45:36,634 --> 01:45:39,724
Impact was at 17:36:24.

1972
01:45:41,247 --> 01:45:45,208
Skid marks show you lost
30 feet before you swerved.

1973
01:45:46,383 --> 01:45:49,212
You didn't have time to stop

1974
01:45:49,212 --> 01:45:52,041
because you were looking at
your fucking phone, Allison.

1975
01:45:53,564 --> 01:45:55,087
Stop blaming Alvarez.

1976
01:45:56,524 --> 01:45:58,482
They're dead because of you.

1977
01:46:17,893 --> 01:46:19,895
All right. All right.
It's all right.

1978
01:46:19,895 --> 01:46:21,200
Come here. Come here.

1979
01:46:22,898 --> 01:46:25,074
It's all right. Okay.

1980
01:46:28,207 --> 01:46:29,644
<i>No, that can't go
over there.</i>

1981
01:46:29,644 --> 01:46:31,210
That can't...

1982
01:46:32,211 --> 01:46:34,300
That can't... That can't go...

1983
01:47:30,313 --> 01:47:31,575
Good morning.

1984
01:47:32,315 --> 01:47:33,490
Good morning.

1985
01:47:34,839 --> 01:47:36,406
I made a house.

1986
01:47:38,669 --> 01:47:40,018
Do you have a headache?

1987
01:47:42,543 --> 01:47:43,544
Yeah.

1988
01:47:49,506 --> 01:47:50,986
Hey.

1989
01:47:50,986 --> 01:47:53,031
Can I, uh, sell this, please?

1990
01:48:02,476 --> 01:48:03,564
I'll give you $12,500.

1991
01:48:05,000 --> 01:48:06,392
Yeah. Yeah, okay. Thank you.

1992
01:48:07,132 --> 01:48:08,351
It is a beauty.

1993
01:48:12,137 --> 01:48:15,576
<i>♪ I woke up today ♪</i>

1994
01:48:17,316 --> 01:48:20,319
<i>♪ At least that much is true ♪</i>

1995
01:48:24,149 --> 01:48:27,283
<i>♪ I saw what people see ♪</i>

1996
01:48:29,285 --> 01:48:33,245
<i>♪ What a year this made of me ♪</i>

1997
01:48:40,426 --> 01:48:44,605
<i>♪ I tried a hundred times ♪</i>

1998
01:48:44,605 --> 01:48:49,087
<i>♪ But each time
I thought of you ♪</i>

1999
01:48:50,741 --> 01:48:52,569
Thank you.

2000
01:48:52,569 --> 01:48:57,792
<i>♪ I hate myself ♪</i>

2001
01:48:57,792 --> 01:49:01,622
<i>♪ I fuckin' hate myself ♪</i>

2002
01:49:08,585 --> 01:49:13,198
<i>♪ And I ♪</i>

2003
01:49:15,070 --> 01:49:18,900
<i>♪ I want days of pain ♪</i>

2004
01:49:21,598 --> 01:49:24,819
<i>♪ Oh, to feel ♪</i>

2005
01:49:24,819 --> 01:49:28,997
<i>♪ The things I need ♪</i>

2006
01:49:33,654 --> 01:49:36,134
<i>♪ To pay off this shame ♪</i>

2007
01:49:36,134 --> 01:49:40,051
<i>♪ And I know
that makes me broken ♪</i>

2008
01:49:40,051 --> 01:49:44,099
<i>♪ I know that makes me weak ♪</i>

2009
01:49:46,449 --> 01:49:50,671
<i>♪ I guess I'll put
my armor back on now ♪</i>

2010
01:49:52,237 --> 01:49:55,197
<i>♪ I found a way ♪</i>

2011
01:49:55,197 --> 01:49:58,026
<i>♪ But I turned around ♪</i>

2012
01:50:00,506 --> 01:50:03,205
<i>♪ One step to start ♪</i>

2013
01:50:03,205 --> 01:50:07,992
<i>♪ But I'd rather fall down ♪</i>

2014
01:50:10,908 --> 01:50:13,868
<i>♪ Too much of a coward ♪</i>

2015
01:50:13,868 --> 01:50:17,045
<i>♪ To just say I'm wrong ♪</i>

2016
01:50:17,045 --> 01:50:19,177
Grandpa, you are not
gonna believe this.

2017
01:50:19,177 --> 01:50:20,352
One of the girls on the team

2018
01:50:20,352 --> 01:50:21,832
invited me to a party
this weekend.

2019
01:50:22,180 --> 01:50:23,486
You?

2020
01:50:23,486 --> 01:50:24,879
- Yes, me!

2021
01:50:28,926 --> 01:50:32,582
<i>♪ Help me, please ♪</i>

2022
01:50:34,192 --> 01:50:38,022
<i>♪ Try to fix yourself ♪</i>

2023
01:50:38,022 --> 01:50:40,808
<i>♪ That's all they said to me ♪</i>

2024
01:50:49,730 --> 01:50:52,776
<i>♪ Try to fix myself ♪</i>

2025
01:50:53,995 --> 01:50:57,346
<i>♪ To know how hard
that would be ♪</i>

2026
01:51:07,573 --> 01:51:08,487
Hi.

2027
01:51:10,707 --> 01:51:11,708
Hi.

2028
01:51:15,973 --> 01:51:17,496
Thank you so much for coming.

2029
01:51:18,628 --> 01:51:19,542
Sure.

2030
01:51:24,068 --> 01:51:25,679
- You look great.

2031
01:51:26,592 --> 01:51:27,855
I nearly put makeup on,

2032
01:51:27,855 --> 01:51:29,987
and then I just laughed
at myself.

2033
01:51:32,337 --> 01:51:33,382
Do you like my clips?

2034
01:51:34,122 --> 01:51:35,645
Wow, yeah.

2035
01:51:35,645 --> 01:51:37,081
I stole them from a pharmacy.

2036
01:51:37,821 --> 01:51:38,909
- Not recently.

2037
01:51:38,909 --> 01:51:41,085
- Like, a while back.

2038
01:51:45,481 --> 01:51:46,743
I don't know where to start.

2039
01:51:46,743 --> 01:51:47,744
That's okay.

2040
01:51:48,310 --> 01:51:49,920
Um, I'll start.

2041
01:51:57,536 --> 01:51:59,234
Nate, I didn't have...

2042
01:52:01,410 --> 01:52:02,890
the faintest idea

2043
01:52:04,413 --> 01:52:06,371
how to handle my own grief.

2044
01:52:09,810 --> 01:52:12,377
I didn't even know
if I was allowed to grieve.

2045
01:52:12,377 --> 01:52:14,728
We were all flailing.

2046
01:52:14,728 --> 01:52:16,904
Yeah, but I abandoned you,

2047
01:52:18,035 --> 01:52:19,689
and that was so selfish.

2048
01:52:22,126 --> 01:52:24,433
I ran as fast as I could
away from you.

2049
01:52:25,608 --> 01:52:27,610
I still wanted you
to be my wife.

2050
01:52:29,090 --> 01:52:30,134
I know.

2051
01:52:35,052 --> 01:52:37,185
But the truth is, Nate, I...

2052
01:52:39,274 --> 01:52:40,884
I was so sure

2053
01:52:42,364 --> 01:52:43,234
I was gonna...

2054
01:52:47,499 --> 01:52:49,632
- try...
- I know.

2055
01:52:51,765 --> 01:52:53,114
And you know I tried.

2056
01:52:55,594 --> 01:52:57,379
I tried, but I couldn't.

2057
01:52:59,903 --> 01:53:01,775
'Cause I didn't wanna
hurt you again.

2058
01:53:01,775 --> 01:53:03,559
It wasn't your fault.

2059
01:53:03,559 --> 01:53:04,734
It was.

2060
01:53:06,475 --> 01:53:07,868
Your dad was right.

2061
01:53:09,478 --> 01:53:10,827
If I hadn't been looking
at my phone,

2062
01:53:10,827 --> 01:53:12,350
I could have stopped in time.

2063
01:53:16,659 --> 01:53:19,705
You deserve an apology that
never came, and I'm so sorry.

2064
01:53:24,362 --> 01:53:25,494
I'm really sorry.

2065
01:53:32,327 --> 01:53:34,242
I've been spending some time
with him lately.

2066
01:53:34,242 --> 01:53:35,286
Yeah.

2067
01:53:36,592 --> 01:53:39,116
- Oh, it's a work-in-progress.

2068
01:53:40,335 --> 01:53:41,336
Good.

2069
01:53:44,730 --> 01:53:46,297
He kept me alive, you know.

2070
01:53:50,345 --> 01:53:51,607
I know about your ear.

2071
01:53:57,569 --> 01:54:02,096
Hey... I need you
to be clear on one thing.

2072
01:54:04,881 --> 01:54:06,448
I loved you so much.

2073
01:54:10,191 --> 01:54:11,845
And along
with everything else,

2074
01:54:13,324 --> 01:54:14,804
I will forever grieve

2075
01:54:14,804 --> 01:54:17,067
for the life that we might
have had.

2076
01:54:19,940 --> 01:54:21,028
Me too.

2077
01:54:24,596 --> 01:54:26,816
- We were a good team.

2078
01:54:28,209 --> 01:54:30,080
It would be nice

2079
01:54:30,080 --> 01:54:31,995
if we could one day
find some way

2080
01:54:31,995 --> 01:54:33,867
to be in each other's lives.

2081
01:54:34,824 --> 01:54:36,391
Maybe that's unrealistic,

2082
01:54:36,391 --> 01:54:37,609
- but...
- Maybe.

2083
01:54:38,741 --> 01:54:39,698
Yeah.

2084
01:54:41,352 --> 01:54:42,527
Maybe.

2085
01:54:53,712 --> 01:54:55,453
I think
we can all thank Elaine.

2086
01:54:55,453 --> 01:54:57,064
Thank you so much.

2087
01:54:57,064 --> 01:54:59,327
I really appreciated
getting to know you,

2088
01:54:59,327 --> 01:55:01,416
and talking to you.

2089
01:55:01,416 --> 01:55:04,114
Everybody, our deeply
inappropriate stories

2090
01:55:04,114 --> 01:55:05,507
- from yesterday...

2091
01:55:05,507 --> 01:55:08,684
...have been well in my head.
King's laughing.

2092
01:55:08,684 --> 01:55:11,078
Your stories are foul.

2093
01:55:12,383 --> 01:55:13,994
Mama,

2094
01:55:13,994 --> 01:55:15,299
I'm so grateful for you.

2095
01:55:15,299 --> 01:55:17,432
Thank you for everything
you've done for me.

2096
01:55:17,432 --> 01:55:18,912
And I love you.

2097
01:55:28,922 --> 01:55:31,925
The food was terrible.
Thank you.

2098
01:55:31,925 --> 01:55:33,883
<i>♪ I can't shake you off, dear ♪</i>

2099
01:55:33,883 --> 01:55:37,321
<i>♪ It's something
I have tried to do ♪</i>

2100
01:55:37,321 --> 01:55:41,499
<i>♪ But I can't
shake you off, dear ♪</i>

2101
01:55:41,499 --> 01:55:44,676
<i>♪ Sit on trains
and think of you ♪</i>

2102
01:55:44,676 --> 01:55:46,374
<i>♪ But I...♪</i>

2103
01:55:46,374 --> 01:55:50,944
<i>♪ Oh, I can't tell ♪</i>

2104
01:55:52,032 --> 01:55:58,212
<i>♪ If it hurts or it helps ♪</i>

2105
01:56:00,431 --> 01:56:06,263
<i>♪ So breathe me in ♪</i>

2106
01:56:07,308 --> 01:56:11,747
<i>♪ One last time ♪</i>

2107
01:56:15,055 --> 01:56:17,883
<i>♪ And we play ♪</i>

2108
01:56:17,883 --> 01:56:23,106
<i>♪ Our rehearsed ♪</i>

2109
01:56:23,106 --> 01:56:27,197
<i>♪ Goodbyes ♪</i>

2110
01:56:30,853 --> 01:56:34,683
<i>♪ I can't shake you off, dear ♪</i>

2111
01:56:34,683 --> 01:56:38,948
<i>♪ It's something
I have tried to do ♪</i>

2112
01:56:38,948 --> 01:56:43,561
<i>♪ But I can't
shake you off, dear ♪</i>

2113
01:56:43,561 --> 01:56:47,391
<i>♪ I sit on trains
and think of you ♪</i>

2114
01:56:48,436 --> 01:56:54,833
<i>♪ But you are the best part ♪</i>

2115
01:56:56,531 --> 01:57:01,797
<i>♪ You ♪</i>

2116
01:57:04,626 --> 01:57:05,888
Thank you.

2117
01:57:09,413 --> 01:57:12,938
Um, I recently recorded
my first EP,

2118
01:57:12,938 --> 01:57:14,375
and it's at the coat check

2119
01:57:14,375 --> 01:57:16,855
because I'm also
the coat check girl.

2120
01:57:16,855 --> 01:57:19,032
Uh, so come buy a CD,

2121
01:57:19,032 --> 01:57:20,555
or I won't give you
your coats back.

2122
01:57:31,870 --> 01:57:33,655
Hi.

2123
01:57:33,655 --> 01:57:35,657
I know you're calling
about my one-year clean,

2124
01:57:35,657 --> 01:57:37,833
but I need to tell you
what I just did.

2125
01:57:40,575 --> 01:57:42,098
Yeah. No, I can talk.

2126
01:57:43,882 --> 01:57:44,796
Okay.

2127
01:57:57,983 --> 01:57:59,246
Hey, Dwayne.

2128
01:57:59,246 --> 01:58:00,769
Could you take these
to the kitchen for me?

2129
01:58:00,769 --> 01:58:02,423
Thank you so much.

2130
01:58:05,165 --> 01:58:06,862
She'll give it back.
Right, Ryan?

2131
01:58:06,862 --> 01:58:08,342
- That's nice.
Thank you.

2132
01:58:08,342 --> 01:58:11,649
Hey. How's it going?
Ooh, wait, I have cupcakes.

2133
01:58:11,649 --> 01:58:13,999
- Need any help?
- No, no, no. I'm all good.
Thank you.

2134
01:58:13,999 --> 01:58:14,957
Actually, we broke up

2135
01:58:14,957 --> 01:58:16,176
- a few months ago.
- Yeah...

2136
01:58:16,176 --> 01:58:17,481
Hey, Mama.
- Yes?

2137
01:58:17,481 --> 01:58:20,180
Could you go pass these around
over there?

2138
01:58:20,180 --> 01:58:21,311
I think they would like some.

2139
01:58:21,311 --> 01:58:22,573
- Sure.
- Thank you.

2140
01:58:22,573 --> 01:58:24,749
- Ooh, they smell so good.
- They are good.

2141
01:59:38,736 --> 01:59:40,434
<i>Dear Allison.</i>

2142
01:59:40,434 --> 01:59:43,959
<i>Down here in 1:87 scale,</i>

2143
01:59:43,959 --> 01:59:45,526
<i>the lovers always kiss,</i>

2144
01:59:46,396 --> 01:59:49,094
<i>the neighbors are always kind,</i>

2145
01:59:49,094 --> 01:59:52,141
<i>and the trains always
take you to the far-off places</i>

2146
01:59:52,141 --> 01:59:54,404
<i>you always swore you'd go.</i>

2147
01:59:56,101 --> 01:59:58,234
<i>In life, of course,</i>

2148
01:59:58,234 --> 02:00:00,497
<i>nothing is nearly
as neat and tidy.</i>

2149
02:00:02,238 --> 02:00:05,372
<i>Everything I own has been left
to Nathan and Ryan.</i>

2150
02:00:06,373 --> 02:00:08,201
<i>Nathan has agreed to move home</i>

2151
02:00:08,201 --> 02:00:10,986
<i>and be her guardian
until she's off to college.</i>

2152
02:00:12,117 --> 02:00:13,249
<i>He'll need help.</i>

2153
02:00:14,250 --> 02:00:16,905
<i>Please help him, Allie.</i>

2154
02:00:16,905 --> 02:00:20,343
<i>Molly always said Nathan was
the best version of himself</i>

2155
02:00:20,343 --> 02:00:21,518
<i>when he was with you.</i>

2156
02:00:22,737 --> 02:00:24,391
<i>Who knows,</i>

2157
02:00:24,391 --> 02:00:28,960
<i>maybe you can even get her
into Stanford.</i>

2158
02:00:28,960 --> 02:00:30,919
<i>When we first met
in that diner,</i>

2159
02:00:31,789 --> 02:00:34,575
<i>you asked what my tattoo meant.</i>

2160
02:00:34,575 --> 02:00:37,534
- Amor fati <i>is Latin.</i>

2161
02:00:37,534 --> 02:00:39,710
<i>It means "to love one's fate."</i>

2162
02:00:40,929 --> 02:00:44,193
<i>Neither of us
chose this fate, Allie.</i>

2163
02:00:44,193 --> 02:00:47,849
<i>But perhaps we can find a way
to love it.</i>

2164
02:00:47,849 --> 02:00:51,940
<i>Fate has given me
one final year with my son.</i>

2165
02:00:51,940 --> 02:00:55,073
<i>He looks at me differently
these days.</i>

2166
02:00:55,073 --> 02:00:58,163
<i>Once in a while I even
catch him smiling at me</i>

2167
02:00:58,163 --> 02:01:01,515
<i>with a look that might
just even be love.</i>

2168
02:01:02,864 --> 02:01:04,909
Amor fati, <i>Allison.</i>

2169
02:01:06,084 --> 02:01:07,434
<i>Until we meet again,</i>

2170
02:01:08,826 --> 02:01:09,827
<i>Daniel.</i>

2171
02:01:13,353 --> 02:01:14,354
Allie?

2172
02:01:14,963 --> 02:01:16,269
Yeah?

2173
02:01:16,269 --> 02:01:17,357
What are you doing?

2174
02:01:18,793 --> 02:01:19,881
Come on upstairs.

2175
02:01:19,881 --> 02:01:20,838
Yeah, okay.

2176
02:01:46,473 --> 02:01:51,478
<i>♪ Down in the valley
the first of May ♪</i>

2177
02:01:55,046 --> 02:02:00,661
<i>♪ Gatherin' flowers
both fresh and gay ♪</i>

2178
02:02:03,751 --> 02:02:10,714
<i>♪ Gatherin' flowers
both red and blue ♪</i>

2179
02:02:10,714 --> 02:02:12,847
<i>♪ How little thought
of what... ♪</i>

2180
02:02:15,676 --> 02:02:18,026
<i>♪ ...what love could you do ♪</i>

2181
02:02:19,462 --> 02:02:23,727
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2182
02:02:27,340 --> 02:02:31,518
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2183
02:02:36,827 --> 02:02:40,353
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2184
02:02:44,661 --> 02:02:48,317
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2185
02:02:55,716 --> 02:03:01,199
<i>♪ I put my hand in
into the bush ♪</i>

2186
02:03:04,681 --> 02:03:08,685
<i>♪ Finding the sweetest
sweetest rose ♪</i>

2187
02:03:13,037 --> 02:03:18,956
<i>♪ I pricked my finger
deep to the line ♪</i>

2188
02:03:20,088 --> 02:03:24,353
<i>♪ And left the sweetest rose ♪</i>

2189
02:03:24,353 --> 02:03:28,662
<i>♪ Sweetest rose behind ♪</i>

2190
02:03:28,662 --> 02:03:32,187
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2191
02:03:36,539 --> 02:03:40,282
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2192
02:03:45,853 --> 02:03:49,770
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2193
02:03:53,687 --> 02:03:58,082
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2194
02:04:37,382 --> 02:04:41,996
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2195
02:04:45,086 --> 02:04:49,003
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2196
02:04:54,530 --> 02:04:59,448
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2197
02:05:02,582 --> 02:05:06,542
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2198
02:05:13,288 --> 02:05:18,815
<i>♪ Thousands and thousands
all on this Earth ♪</i>

2199
02:05:32,089 --> 02:05:35,615
<i>♪ Honey you've been
on my mind ♪</i>

2200
02:05:35,615 --> 02:05:39,096
<i>♪ Like Christmas and birthdays
when I was five ♪</i>

2201
02:05:39,096 --> 02:05:41,272
<i>♪ Like the ticking clock
for racers ♪</i>

2202
02:05:41,272 --> 02:05:43,405
<i>♪ And those
in the prison line ♪</i>

2203
02:05:43,405 --> 02:05:47,104
<i>♪ Like Everest for Mallory and
how drinkers know their wine ♪</i>

2204
02:05:47,104 --> 02:05:50,804
<i>♪ And the birds and the bees
when you hit nine ♪</i>

2205
02:05:50,804 --> 02:05:54,938
♪ And pearls for those girls

2206
02:05:54,938 --> 02:05:58,594
<i>♪ Who always have their hair
in pretty curls ♪</i>

2207
02:05:58,594 --> 02:06:07,821
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2208
02:06:07,821 --> 02:06:11,346
<i>♪ Honey you've been
in my head ♪</i>

2209
02:06:11,346 --> 02:06:15,306
<i>♪ Like homework on Sunday when
I've been laughing instead ♪</i>

2210
02:06:15,306 --> 02:06:19,180
<i>♪ Like cigarettes for the cool
kids behind the garden shed ♪</i>

2211
02:06:19,180 --> 02:06:23,837
<i>♪ And love for the lovers
and the elephant by my bed ♪</i>

2212
02:06:23,837 --> 02:06:27,884
<i>♪ And pearls for those girls ♪</i>

2213
02:06:27,884 --> 02:06:31,845
<i>♪ Who always have their hair
in pretty curls ♪</i>

2214
02:06:31,845 --> 02:06:35,936
<i>♪ And football
for English boys ♪</i>

2215
02:06:35,936 --> 02:06:39,679
<i>♪ Who always have
the newest toys ♪</i>

2216
02:06:39,679 --> 02:06:50,037
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2217
02:06:56,739 --> 02:07:03,485
<i>♪ So don't you
go away too long ♪</i>

2218
02:07:04,921 --> 02:07:18,456
<i>♪ Oh don't you
go away too long ♪</i>

2219
02:07:19,283 --> 02:07:23,461
<i>♪ Oh don't you go ♪</i>

2220
02:07:23,461 --> 02:07:27,422
<i>♪ Away too long ♪</i>

2221
02:07:27,422 --> 02:07:31,644
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2222
02:07:32,557 --> 02:07:37,562
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>